Yesterday was rather special. It's the 1st time i received a t-shirt from a girl not on any occasion. She gave me a blue long sleeve shirt that was rather expensive. Two parts make this especially touching. 1st, i didn't really expect her to buy a shirt for me. Was really touched and the 2nd part os that she actually bought this shirt for me and had little money left for her to spend. Was really happy..Thanks Dear..

Finally, she got her passport. I can't wait to go on holiday. She left work early to make her passport. After which she went for her shopping. Work was rather slacking. Nothing much. I keep on looking on the time tickling away from my mobile phone, i can't wait for 7pm. Her friend help us buy the tickets for a movie 'X-Men 3'. A few of the temp staff went to watch the movie together. It's the 1st time we went to watch movie together.

The movie was disappointing to me. I expected it to be quite nice, to be the nicest among the 3 parts. But it turned out to be a disappointment for me. Instead, she find it quite alright when she expected it to bore her to sleep. She was coughing and coughing. Seeing her cough until like that makes me feel that ache in my heart. Blame myself for allowing to stay close to me when i'm sick, passing my loving germs to her as a result. Situation was further worsened when i failed to take care of her, failed to control her diet, failed to make her listen to me..in another words, i'm useless. Not at all actually, she's much better now. If she's not ok by tml, i'm going to bring her to consult a DOCTOR.

Sent her home and it's only until just before we parted that she passed me the shirt she bought. The way she passed it to me was quite cute too. Tears was almost coming out of my eyes but i forced it back.

In between these two days, something happened. Her mobile phone rang at 4:30am. The caller was me. The receiver was 'drunk'. Caller tried to talk, receiver gave drunken replies. Caller -.-!!. Receiver ZzZzZ..Then caller also zzZz..Wahaha..

We were supposed to have rice dumpling for breakfast this morning but we had glutinuous rice and red bean bao instead. Not bad for a breakfast, it's the most sumptuous breakfast i've ever eaten for weeks. Wahaha..I'm still feeling tired from the boring work that i'm facing. Lunch comes in. Glad she has made a decision on where she wants her future to be. Advices from her lao gong made her do the decision i guess. Somehow, i felt useless upon hearing that. I was the 1st one to say i would give her my support, i would lend her a hand yet i'm not the one who led her to that decisive decision. Still, i'm glad she made it. I shall assist her from now. didn't something terrible today. Made her upset. Anyway, problem solved. I promise not to jump to conclusions but allow me to fulfill that promise by letting me know how u are feeling.

Work sux today!! I was made to stand, aching my leg. Towards the end of work, headache came. Her magic pill saves the day. We went around after work before sending her home. She had her sister birthday celebration where good food was waiting for her. I had mine too. On my way home on a bus, i found a precious seat. I needed that seat to ensure my trip home would be comfortable. Yet, the guy sitting beside is taking his own seat and almost half of mine, forcing my left leg to go out of the seat. I was feeling super uncomfortable with passengers passing by me and give my leg a knock each time one goes pass me. Damn..It's nt as if the guy beside me is a damn fat pig. I feel like shouting at hime. But actions speaks louder than words, i push my right leg in, hinting to that 'fat pig' that i needed a comfortable seat and not sticking to his fleshy thigh. He gave way only to have his 'meaty' left thigh to cover my seat again. Well, i give up and sleep through the trip home.

Came home, hungry for the rice dumpling. My mummy greeted me with a disappointed. Rice dumplings was not successful. Asked me to cook instant noodles instead. Argh..i was sad. I want to eat rice dumplings. Hearing what she said earlier on, on what she's going to eat (cake, potato chips, soft drink) makes me feel so pathetic. I cooked the instant noodles with no mood and the noodles turns out to be just like me - tasteless and yucky. Eww, i forced to down my throat as i was super hungry. Back ground noise was the quarelling of my parents. I'm sick and tired of their nonsense. Went back to my room and door closed. A world of my own now. I'm bored now. Shall listen to her voice before sleeping. ZzZz

Finally i'm back home..Well, was back home quite some time ago. I don't really wanted t come back home just now. The thought of coming back home and facing the four walls makes me has this negative feeling. I was physically tired, but emotionally unstable. But now, not anymore. She's ok, after a chat with a colleague of ours. She decided what she wanted to do, all she has to do now is consult her daddy. No matter what, i'm with her.

Stayed at home for most of the afternoon yesterday. Played my game. It's been quite some time since i get to laze around at home. The mood is just there and so right. I visited Don in the evening. Bought tonic before heading his house. Applied for NTUC link card too (yea, finally). When i reached Don's house, i rang the bell. He took quite some time to get to the door. Poor him, he has to walk around the house with clutches. Really hoe he could get well soon, get back the freedom that he had been longing for.

Received another sms from Dear. A bad one. My 'actually looking forward' mood was ruined. I know she's going to be sad again. I'm late again, damn! Met up with her, i can see from her expression that she's not ok. But she claims otherwise. Her actions and expression betrayed her. No hiding from me remember? I don't feel good when she's feeling bad or sad. It simply just make me feel terrible. She managed to borrow a tent from her friend.

We went to East Coast Park. As hungry we are, we search for MacDonald. We walked quite a long distance before reaching the fastfood restaurant. Yummy, dinner was tasty. After dinner, we search for a peaceful place to set up our tent. Haha, now imagine two dummies wh know nuts about tents trying to set up a tent in East coast Park with people around. We were simply lost. Called her friend to get her explain the steps to us, obviously, we were not on the same wavelength with her friend. We decided to ask for help. Thankfully, a great kind soul (A Lady, Her boyfriend is lazy and sleeping) helped us. It took not long before our tent started to take shape and we dwelled in soon. Spent our time well. We slept only in the wee hours, around 4am. Intended to wake up around 5am actually but we were both too sleepy. In the end, we woke up at 8am instead. She's still deciding whether to go work or not.

Suddenly, there's silence. I knew something's not right. Finally she cried. I'm relieved that she did. She has been bottling up since yesterday. It really hurts to see her like that. I feel her pain, her sorrow but i couldn't tell her, she's already upset enough. After a long cry, she's certainly feeling better. She went for her work whereas i went home. Thanks to Grace, she's feeling ok now. Phew..i really hope to see that happy her again. I really miss that happy her, i shall try my best to help her. I promise..

She's better i think..But she's sick..i want and have to take care of her..Tml afternoon will be so bored..very bored..but i'll be looking forward to tml evening. Gonna watch movie..

Time to sleep...ZzZzz..

Don's going for follow up tml..all the best dude..

Yesterday was a bad bad day. She cried. I'm feeling lousy. I skipped dinner. I drank to myself sleep easily. Headache hits me this morning, so i continued sleeping.

Work yesterday was rather slacking. Nothing much. Yesterday we had the theme 'blue and white'. I only know about that when i reached the office early morning. Candy told me. Haha, i was dresssed in black t-shirt and blue jeans instead. She was sick..quite sick..must be because of me, spreading the germs to her. I shall take care of her. After lunch, she suddenly said she wanted to go home. I was feeling rather down, i think i made her angry. Her hair was tied and when i'm asked to see it, i smile. She looks cute with it, but she don't like it. She don't want to take photos, but i really wanted it. At the same time, i don't want to force her. Still, we managed to take a few photos, with her feeling kind of unwillingly. I felt bad after that.

Her headache's gone and sorethroat starting acting up. We worked Ot. I left 1st because my day was ruined by one idiot who only gives empty promises. Dammit..a fake person..so fake that this idiot shall be cursed by me day and night. Shit this idiot!

We went to eat at Marina Square. Don't know why, i quite like this place. As we pass by those shops, i had the sudden urge of buying lotsa things, but i have no money. No worries, pay's coming in a few days time. I'm going to buy something she like for her, treat my friend and family to a meal, at the same time, dote on myself - buying some things i like. We were in high spirits after dinner. We walked along the esplanade, we bought candy floss, kacang puteh and ice cream. It's been quite a long time since i last ate all that. Maybe it just taste especially nice when i'm eating with her. 1st time i sing to her. Don't sound nice but like what she said, it's the thought tha counts. I irk at the thought of my voice. Eww...

I sent her home and on my way home, i received a devastating call from her. I know she's feeling very very sad. I was worried. I didn't sleep on the bus this time round. I was too worried. I tried consoling her but i think it didn't work well. I understand how she's feeling, somehow. By the time i reach time, she called me. This time round, we didn't talk. She just cried..cried and cried..I'm loss for words, i wanted to lend her my shoulders, but i can't. I wanted to go over, she don't want. I just said how i feel, i wanted to help her. Lucky, she's better after crying her heart out.

Now this is for u, if u are reading:
You'll never be alone. There are plenty of paths. Only time can heal. U have people understanding you and supports u. Don't give them up, and most importantly, don't give yourself up. If there's a will, there's a way. If there's isn't any, i'll make one for u. Your family will guide you. U'll never go through any hardship alone. Don't bottle up ur feelings. Don't let ur mood decide what u want to do. No matter what, u have my support.

I drank a little. I know it's not strong, but however, it has some effect on me. I feel tired, shaky. Slept right away after hanging up the phone. I had mild headache. Woke up early in the morning feeling my head more heavy. My headache is more serious. I have to sleep, the pain hurts. So, i continued sleeping.

Had a chat with her just now, knew she's better. I'm glad and relieved. i'm going to visit don now. His leg still hurts..poor him. Get well soon don.

Today was a wonderful day - because the whole day was spend with Dear. She was already outside when she gave me a 1st call today. Gosh, i'm still on the bed sleeping. Actualy had intended to make a little surprise for her but time don't allow me. Sorry Dear. Met her at Cck mrt station before we went to Lot 1 and bought some stuff. Bought food that we wanted to cook for lunch. She bought some pastries for my parents. She bought a Pooh Bear for me. Rented 2 Vcds and headed for my house.

Reached home. No one at home. World of our own. We were starving when we reached home. I was having serious flu even before i went out. I was there frustrated with my blocked and runny nose whereas she's kinda disturbed by the sound i make. Haa..i can't help it..simply used to it. So, we cooked and ate. Watched 'My boyfriend is type-B' - starring her 'hubby'. So throughout the whole movie, she was praising her 'hubby'.haa..it was quite a cute and funny movie. Quite a loving story at the end too..loved it. After that, we had nothing much to do. Basically just cuddle around and rushed off to catch a movie - Over The Hedge. We managed to rush to The Cathay on time only to find out that it's the wrong theater that we went. Gosh...so that's goes my long awaited movie, mainly due to my dumb mistake.

Settled our dinner at Plaza Singapura. Grastric started attacking me. Making me feel rather uncomfortable. We was browsing through the mobile phones when we were at PS. Today she helped me called and got the vouchers for me. Thanks Dear. I should be buying a new mobile phone soon. I'm still stuck as to which phone should i buy..hm...stress...Sent her home afterwards and it's still quite early, as in compared to the recent days that i send her home. Relunctantly parted with her and off i go.

Our relationship has grown closer and i'm happy. The line is there and i shall not step over it. I'm not good at words sometimes and i shall constantly remind myself so as not to create unnecessary misundertandings or negative feelings. But i'm sure anything that comes from the bottom of my heart or with good intentions will not go wasted but appreciated. I love her even much more now.

Don's back at home - discharged from hospital. Guess he's still in pain and tired. Hope he can get well really soon. Sis has got a fall today, hope she'll be alright and all the best for her GP tml. Goodluck..

Yesterday i have to say i'm quite happy and relieved..Don's operation was a success..Jon's back to Singapore..Dear's fine..Supposed to stay for OT but i didn't. I received a call from Don's mum telling me about the operation. Actualy i didn't wanted to go, but after much thought, i decided to go. Don's ain't just anyone else. I have to go. I met Jon up and headed for the Hospital. When we reached the hospital, we went to look for Don's ward. Finally we founded him. He was tired and abit weak when we saw him. His pain was there but not vay pain because he was on drip. However, he said that the drip made him feel like vomiting. Poor him..Seeing him like that, i feel like heart ache. But i know he's strong..hope he'll get weel soon. I still want to play soccer with him. It's been years since we played. Get well soon Don.

Jon came back from Taiwan not long ago. He was there on training. He bought me a cap from Taiwan. I love it. We chatted a while before reaching the hospital and after the visit. Talk about lotsa things, but it seems that there are things we still haven't catch up. He's happy for me for finding my love. I'm glad.all my friends are happy for me. They wished me, making me feel very fortunate. I'm contented and glad. It's Jon's 1st day today at his new camp. Wish and hope he will enjoy himself and everything will go his way. All the best Jon.

I was worried sick for her - dear. She don't sound ok from the sms-es i received when i was on my way to visit Don. That had my heart pounding hard enough. As much as she didn't wanted to eat, i still went ahead and make decision myself, buying dinner for her. When i met her, she told me she had fever earlier on, gosh..i was like 'how come?? i didn't even notice that my gf's sick..gosh.' She said she's ok. I'm happy she tried finishing the dinner that i bought for her. She finished the dinner in fact. We had our walk before i send her to the lift. I didn't smelt nice yesterday. Wahaha..due to much running around. Sweat had taken over me. Today i must sprayed alot of cologne. Wahaha..

Today, we are going to have the whole day to ourselves. I'm so happy..i'll treasure this time..maybe i'll visit Don later..

Monday

Met up with her early today. Spent some time together before going to work..The thought of being able to meet her in the morning is just great. It's like something that can make me myself last the whole day. Wonderful it is. Work was normal and i finished early today. Day was kinda ruined by something. I can't remember what is it about, but it starts to pick up. Both of us don't know where to go after work. We managed to see Yilin's bf. Gosh, he's tall, really tall. Then she was there saying how tall he is..blah blah blah..haa..We went to Marina Square. She ate her wanton noodles where i ate my roasted duck rice. When i'm with her, i ate lotsa veggie, which i really don't like. I ate for the sake of her and the sake of me needing the vitamins fom those veggie. I can be healthy thanks to her. Haha..i played a part too of cause. Sent her home. Gosh, once she start sleeping, she'll never stop. I was so afraid that she would just sleep halfway on the way home, so, i sent her home. Her '5 mins' never seems to end. She could stand and sleep. Sleepyhead!! Wahaha..

Sis isn't in her best of mood recently. Hope sis'll be fine. U can confine to me if u want. I've a pair of good listening ears. Hope u'll feel better someday and stay happy always!

Tuesday

Today we met early again. Hehe..Wanted to buy the delicious looking 'bao' from crystal jade cakery but then they only opened at 9am! Gosh, so no choice, we can only go look for other bakery. And yes, she ate breakfast. Sooo happy. Today my workload was super huge. The most since the day i started working in this bank. Actually didn;t intend to stay OT today, so went to chiong the heavy work. After lunch, she said she wanted to do Ot as there's alot of work to be done. We then postpone the movie to thursday. I was a little disappointed, but i go along with her. Luckily, Boss came back and let me learn verifying of apps. So happy. My 'off' on thursday was also granted. Hooray! I can't wait for thursday. Just when i was finishing, she told be there are some things that need to be done which ShiPei never told me. Argh!! Frustrated. She said i look fierce with that frustrating look. Oops..i don't mean it anyway. She's super fast at verifying. Lucky and thanks to her, i am able to go off early. We went to had dinner and yet again, her stomach's pain. I feel so in pain when i sees her like that. I wanted to tell her how much i want to share the pain with her, lessen her pain, but words won't make her understand how i feel. Found a spot to sit down and luckily, she's alright after a while. Sent her home. I did something before i left. I feel so sad to part with her. That was my 1st..and realised that it's also hers. Was memorable to me. Hope it's the same for her. I did it out of a sudden when i got thet aching feeling in my heart, as though i can't bear to part. I must be crazy as many would thought. I do things following my heart.

Finally saw her erhem today. Today, i had this weird feeling of jealousy. On and off today. But i know it's just nothing. I won't affected by it. My bed's calling me again..yawn...hope tml will be better...

I miss her blog...

Saturday

Went to have lunch at Singapore General Hospital. Haha, we weren't there to visit anyone, just there to eat the food at the foodcourt. After which, as always, we will be clueless to what we are going to do and where are we going next. We will go through the stations on the mrt information map. This time round, we decided to go Jurong East mrt station. We wanted to have a world of our own at the Jurong Regional Library. We had a hard time finding a comfortable seats for ourselves, in the end, we did managed to get a comfortable seat. She managed to complete reading 100 pages of a storybook before i've decided to bring her to eat her fish n chips. Something that she has been wanting to eat after reading the book. Had a little meal at Long john Silver before we rotted back on the mrt again. We spend a while around Serangoon. We rested ourselves at a bench near a playground and started chatting away. We really just had each other, we know each other better, we pour our hearts out. I realised how i'm really feeling towards her. I didn't make the wrong choice. I won't break my promise. I'll make things better..

Afterwhich, she went back home and i'm on my way to meet my long-time buddies. We catched a movie - Da Vinci Code. The start of the movie was interesting, maybe because i've read the beginning of the storybook and understood what the start of the movie is about. As the movie plays along, i get more and more confused. I keep on asking Don questions whereas that Gavian as usual, would fall asleep. Gavian was basically sleeping throughout the movie. We watched the movie at the new Cathay. The movie was shown on the Grand Cathay and oh gosh, it's the biggest movie theater i've ever been. Spacious and really grand indeed. Nice and good 1st time experience. Shall bring my sis and her there one day. After movie, we played pool but didn't play long because it closes early. Back to home and chatted with her a while before going back to the arms of my beb..zzzz

Sunday

Today woke up lazily. She went for work. I went Gym with Don today. Well, we didn't stay long enough at Gym this time round because i've got to fetch her from work. Luckily, Don's was ok with it. He wasn't feeling well either. It's been quite some time since i last work out at gym. Sad news is i've lost weight. Darn! Damn! Argh! No way, this time round, i want to eat alot. I'm going to make myself gorge food like a beast. Eating at least 5 meals per day. Purposely went to Bishan Junction 8 to get her her favourite Shilin Chicken. Knew she would love it. Her expressions tells it all. Then we went to Marina South, intending to have steamboat there. This time round, i almost managed to get her to play pool with me but ARGH, the pool center closed down. Sad..She was giggling away..We went arcade instead. I won't want to go arcade with her again. I think i'll only make her bored. We had great fun eating steamboat. When we were taking our food, she was there pointing and pointing, then i'll just take and take. In the end, she didn't eat much of what we took. Haa..expected i guess. I ended up eating quite alot and she made me eat veggie. Haha..the finale which is the prawns was the best. We smelled like charcoal by the time we finished eating. She don't like to smell me anymore, luckily, my cologne's with me. Wahaha..i sprayed bit on my shirt and on hers. Back to smelling..haa..i like the smell on her hair. It's nice..really nice..

We went to Clarke Quay after dinner to have another time of our own again. Again, we chatted and it's just a world of our own. We ended up debating over something. Haa..next time, i'll insist of sending her home. Never will i leave her alone. Unless situations disallow.

I can say this relationship is kinda on the track. I'll just have to make it better. We were closer as days passed. I'm glad...really glad..

I didn't really mentioned much of what happen exactly on that day. But i shan't go into details for this is something i'll keep it as a secret for myself. I've found a girl i really like. There's plenty of '1st time' in this relationship for me. I won't say what is it because it's only for me and her to know. I don't intend to hide my past from her also. I'll tell her everything about me, i think in this way it's fairer to her. She can trust me and at the same time, allow me to trust her. She never fails to brighten up my day. She makes me feel so loved. She gives me something which i've been longing for and something so special which i've never felt before. I know this ain't a crush. Crush won't give me all that has been mentioned. She's one whom i'm willing to go miles just to make her happy as i have mentioned to her, her mood affects me. I'm glad to know her, have her, be with her. Time will make us more loving. But this relationship at the same time, shall not strain my other relationships with my buddies, families and friends. I placed my piriorities well. I know who's the dearest to me. I won't neglect anyone. I'm just soaked in a pool of love now, thanks to her. I'm speechless..simply contented.

Finally i managed to extend my passport. I'm all ready to go on a vacation. Wahaha..hopefully her passport will be ready soon too. I was suffering yesterday. My stomach's giving me hell. I was really in pain and lucky she's there with me. We went to Man Utd shop too. The Man Utd shop in Singapore is really pathetic as compared to the one in KL. This time round when i go to KL, i'm going to buy lotsa apparels. After that, we really don't know where to go and what to do. So, we decided to go Changi Airport. We had a world of our own there. Go from terminal to terminal and resting over at the viewing mall. Time really flies and we headed home. This time round, i failed to send her home. She always don't want me to send her home but i always insist, but this time round, i didn't, cos i was really in pain. I feel that it's only right if i send her home, ensuring that she's safe til she's home. We had a little chat before we slept, she really called me in the middle of the night to chat with me. That kind of feeling is good.

Today we met up before going work. Work was normal..as usual until Lunchtime. Lady boss treated the staffs to KFC and Pizza. Wow, i really saw the beast in Melissa. She can eat and eat and eat non stop. She was gobbling down food instead of eating. Gosh..amazing girl she is..cute too as what she would said. After lunchtime, work was starting to get harsh. I get very irritated by someone. Let's not mention much about it. Walls have ears..

She gave tuition a miss and so, her night is mine. We went to causeway point this time. I think our favourite place is transport. The time where we could really enjoy the moment with each other is either when we are in the bus or train. I feel so good at those point of time. Again, i insist of sending her home. My day always ends sadly. Home is a place i dread most recently. Naggings, sayings, scoldings has made home a lousier place for me. Now she's chatting with her friends..i feel like sleeping..zZzzZzZ..but i shall wait for her..haa..

Yawn. It's already the middle of the night. I'm disappointed on how the match went. It's still on, but i feel so uninterested to carry on watching. Barca's 1-0 down. I must say they are just plain unlucky.

My muscles are aching all over. Maybe due to the lack of sleep and from the work yesterday. Now i feel restless, but i don't feel like sleeping yet. I want to watch the whole match, to see if Barca is able to break through the 'Zero' and turn the tables around.

17/5/06 - A day i'll remember. Morning was quite bored. All the way til the end of work. Adin had his last day of work today. We had lunch..he's quite a cool guy i must say. Too bad he's leaving for States tml. How cool can that be, holidaying in US for 1 month. Jenny treated us to Swesens today too. I didn't know eating ice-cream can be such a torture. My stomach almost couldn't take it.

Today wasn't really happy during work. I'm frustrated at how i'm being told to do things unreasonably. There i am, piled up with my work, yet, i have work added on by someone who's just too blind to see what i'm busy with. Always asking me if i can help to do some of the work, i mean, do i have a choice? If no, please don't ask me and just put that pile of work on the table and give instructions PROPERLY. I do my work according to instructions. Don't come blaming me if your instructions isn't clear enough, resulting in the work being done wrongly. That's exactly what happen to me. After work was just exactly what i'm looking forward to.

I rushed to get something. I PURPOSELY leave early so that i'll have enough time to get that something. We went Swensens 1st. The secret that i've been hanging on my mouth of the past few days is nothing but excuse for myself to be 'hum'. Now that the 'secret' has been revealed, i shall not go into much details. I'm happy at the way it's being accepted, but i feel i didn't do it good enough. Nevertheless, it's good enough to have that something accepted by someone. I felt as if i have a big load off my shoulder. We went to watch movie after dinner. Watched Voice. Was looking forward to it because Wishing Stairs was such a nice horror movie (at least it is to me). As the sayings goes, the higher the expectation, the higher the disappointment. We were disappointed with the movie. It's a movie not horror at all. We didnt understand what was going on in the movie either. The movie only casted doubts on our mind. I feel extra close with her today. Many at times, i wanted to hold her hands. But didn't. Don't know why..Haiz, tml she's working, i'm rotting at home. I shall look forward to a sumptuous lunch and a nice day outside. I'm taking off. Hehe..

Back to the match already..Pray Barca will win..

Yay!! I'm so happy. I managed to fix that stupid, dumb and stubborn problem myself. The externall hdd i bought from my friend's uncle refused to cooperate with my computer and after days of worrying and hours of fixing, i'm finally able to use it. But not fully fixed actually, sometimes, the problem returns but at least i know how to solved it..well, sort of..

I'm regretted. I should have washed the jackets after finished chatting. But i chose to wash it 1st..now she's asleep i guess. I'm so bored. Lucky don's online to accompany me.

Back to today's work. I woke up early to make breakfast. Haha..1st time i woke up so early just to make breakfast. Brought it to work to let Yun foong try it 1st, but it turned out not to be very nice. Although it turns out to be abit tasteless, all those who tried still managed to finish it. I'm so happy and glad. I was super tired today. I kept dozing off in the morning. Yay, we will still be going to Genting. I'm so glad she didn't cancelled it just because we couldn't find anyone to go with us. I'm looking forward to it..hmm..

When it's mid afternoon, my headache starts to come. I popped panadol into my mouth. I couldn't concentrate on my work. The pain is bad. Someone called me kelvin today. Wahaha..i'm so happy. I shall hear it from that someone soon. I'll be even happier. Worked OT today. Finally..How many more OTs will i be working...hmm...i also don't know..right now, i'm just too happy to sleep..I MANAGED TO FIX THE HDD PROBLEM!!!!

Wanted to share this piece of good news to those who know abt the problem i had. Only Don's here to share woith me. She's asleep already. I can't get to sleep..i shall rot a while 1st..

As usual, i'll always be back home, welcomed by the same old person. Always never fail to ruin my day. No one can actually understand how exactly i feel. I seriously dread coming home. My friends would say, you all are one family, why go to the extent of feeling that way. I know, but i just don't feel treated that way - i don't feel as if i'm in a family.. That so called brother of mine, as usual, would gives me names. Dumbo he is! I couldn't care more. He's become more and more petty, never fail to admit his wrongdoings and failure. Instead, he would point his pathetic fingers at me.

I'm actually starving on my way home. My grastric's acting up. I'm really feeling empty inside my stomach. The acid is making my stomach pain, i just can' stand straight just now. When i started eating dinner, my dad came back. I was dining at the same table as him (he was drinking). He's always eyeing on my food, he needs to eat whenever he drinks. Poor me, i have to give part of my dinner to him. All i'm eating is plenty of white rice and little of dishes. But at least i've filled my stomach with something. My grastric's better. I shall go wash the jackets and bathe. I stinks!

Woke up by an early greeting from someone. Haha..was kind of touched by that MMS. Don't send too much le ok? MMS quite expensive. So, today supposed to do gym with Don. But just when i was ready to go for gym after coming out for the toilet, my mum say she wants her Mother's Day treat to be in the afternoon and insteadof evening. Gosh, i've already missed lotsa sessions of gym and yet again, today i have to missed it. But the reason is valid, simply because it Mother's Day. Wished my mum Happy Mother's Day right after i woke up. Since the treat is in the afternoon, i slept a while before leaving for Bukit Panjang Plaza. Mummy wants to dine at the restaurant. So we went ahead.

The food was disappointing. Only the scallop was nice. Others only so-so. I can see my mum was rather disappointed with the food there. I promised to bring her to Fish & Co to eat some day in near future. Bought the official world cup sticker book and the official information book. The sticker book has near 600 blanks for us to fill in. I wonder how many packets of stickers i and my brother need to buy to fill up the whole book.

We went back home after that. I feel so lazy to meet my friend and cousin. I went home and online a while before taking a 2nd nap again. We see who would wake up 1st and she did. She won, but luckily, no prizes claimed by her. Phew..wahaha..Woke up feeling very sian. Totally nothing to do. I wonder if tml would be boring. I seriously hope not.

Sometimes, we just have to admit that mouths can be 'poisoning'. I understand how she feels and i understand the fact that one will surely get affected no matter what. Seriously hope she won't get too affected by it. Like i said, when she's sad, i am..When she's happy, i am. I want to share her sadness and happiness with her and i hope she's willing.

I just ate two donut. Not full but at least it fills my stomach. I'm going to make some sandwiches tml. Let's hope it won't turn out too bad. I'm still improving on my culinary skills u see. Don, when's our next cooking session?

Finally, i changed my blogskin. I've decided to make something more colourful, so here it is. My latest 'Masterpiece'. Comment on it on the tagboard on the right navigation box.

I've finally watch MI3. It's a very nice movie i would say and it hasn't disappoint me. Thanks to her, i'm able to watch. The only sad thing is that, she has to bear with the cold. I wanted to help, but i'm abit dumb. The least i could do as i thought to myself, was to share the 'coldness' with her. I folded up my long sleeve. Indeed, it was cold inside. But i could see she's even colder than me.

Before the movie, she brought me to eat 'La Mian' at Crystal Jade Restaurant. It's the 1st time i eat the 'La Mian' at Crystal Jade. It's rather disappointing. Mine turns out to be abit bland whereas hers turns out to be quite salty. We couldn't finish that bowl of harmful noodles. But oh gosh, the dumpling there was superb. I would like to try again if i can.

After the movie, we headed home. Things started to turn abit weird at this point of time. Both of us became quieter. I know something's not right, but i don't know what is it. So, i went back home. Designed her blog. Supposed to go Eski Bar with Don which i was expecting and looking forward to it, but postponed instead. Instead, i went to meet her for dinner. Oh gosh, i'm super useless. I'm late again..WHY!!! I also keep her waiting..i hate myself..i shall be early and be the one waiting. I feel bad to be the one coming late, turning up late, making her wait. We ate Macdonald. I wasn't in the good appetite actually, but the burger was quite nice. Fries sux..tasteless..I gave her a surprise. I didn't mean anything else..Just want her to stay happy, forget everything else. Everything was settled. I'm glad, relieved and happy.

Things is still the same. Time will tell. I'm expecting it to be better. Tml's Mother's Day. I'm going to bring my mummy around. She deserve a good treat from me. She deserve more than just a treat actually, but a treat is the most i can give her, other than that, i can only say 'i love you mummy'.

It's friday today. Yet, it's like so different. I keep on thinking that it's a Saturday. Today she came my house. Before that, we went to rent the vcds we wanted to watch and also buy some food. I have actually wanted to cook something sumptuous for her, but couldn't think of any food and everything seems to be so rush. I promise i'll make one if there's ever a chance again.

And so, she reached my house. The only person at home is my bro. Once we settled down, we started to watch the 1st show - Wishing Stairs. I watched it before but she hasn't yet. Cos i was saying how pretty one of the actress are, and there's a new horror movie too, from the director of 'Wishing Stair', so i asked her to try watching this show. As much as she's afraid to watch it, she still went ahead. Luckily, she didn't find the show too fightening. She's sleeping now, how scary can this movie be to her right? Wahaha..

In between the show, we cooked and ate. She also slept a while, claiming that my bed is super comfortable. Haa..While i was busy playing my game. I can see she's cute and funny in her own way. We didn't managed to watch the other vcd which is called 'My Boyfriend is Type B'. I shall burn it and watched it with her some time in near future i suppose.

We went town. Both of us asked each other lotsa question. That's when i know more abt her. And thankfully, her stomach didn't had any problem today. I'm glad. We took a walk along raffles place and then to esplanade, then back to mrt. Chatted along the way. I hope i can really get to go overseas for some fun before i get enlisted. I shall look forward to it.

Was on my way home just now, when i smsed sis. She replied saying that there's this unknown psycho who called her and asked her some disgusting questions. I suppose this guy must be damn pathetic and desperate. Sis said that he seems to be masterbating while talking to my sis and mention some disgusting stuff. She must have had her shock of her life. Sis, whatever happens, i'm here..cheer up..Anything bad happens, just gimme a ring..inform your parents if things starts to get out of hands. How childish and desperate can people be. Going around doing pervertic stuff.

Her horoscope reading wasn't really good today. So i thought i can do something to make her happy instead. I can't think of any. I'll try to cheer her up as much as possible if she happens to be down or upset. Luckily, she's not, at least i can't feel any from her. I'm wondering how will tml be..too tired to ponder/wonder..

Oh ya, i got a new phone. Actually it's my bro previous phone. He gave it to me without dad's notice. Anyway, i'm going to keep it as my own. I like this new phone. She also helped me with the phone, i'm kinda dumb when it comes to such thing. My eyes keep on closing now..i'm tired..what's awaiting tml? I don't know..i'm so tired..yet so bored..can't get to sleep..yawn...

Woke up today, feeling so dead. I dragged myself out of the bed. Took my own sweet time. Still troubling over my pathetic hair. When i reached, i tried to hide my hair as much as possible..as much as i could. Candy was the 1st one to question my hair..i didn't replied. My expression did the answer. Today's ZiQin's last day. Sadly, the feeling of having one of us to leave the group wasn't really good. Though i wasn't close with her and i barely know her, i still feel not right.

We had a mini photo taking session back in the office. It was fun..very fun..each of us with our mobile phones out. Haha..Took several photos and it's back to work. I really feel like sleeping in the office. I doze off several times..Counting the applications makes it worse. My head is dropping lower and lower. Luckily, the radio saves the day. I was checking out the horoscope readings. My day turns out to be not bad tml, as broadcasted. I'll have to wear light blue tml..Goah, i forgot what's the other reading already.

After work, supposedly going to walk a while before leaving for home. But someone went home 1st yet again, leaving me and her alone. As always. So we went to check out the tour agency. I want to go vacation before i enter army. I'm sad at the thought of being trapped in Singapore for 2 years, doing the same thing everyday. I must really enjoy myself, let myself out, do whatever i want to do within this short period of time. But for now, time seems to flies, how i wished it would stopped or move slower, i want to realise the importance of time, so that i can actually treasure it and make full use of it.

For the 1st time, i enter PastaMania. ea, u guys didn't see it wrongly. It's PASTAMANIA. But i didn't eat the pasta/pizza there. She ate the pasta there. The smell of pastamania is so strong..i could barely take it. But she's hungry. After a while, the smell didn't really bothered me. We went to check out the pokemon vcds too. I want to rent. But didn't managed to find any..anyone know where can i find pokemon vcds? Please let me know..

As we were walking home, her stomach gets worse. She's already feeling the pain not long after her dinner. I wanted to talk to her, ask her where's the pain, ask her how she is, but her expression really worrys me. I can't understand her pain..i dare not talk to her, cos i scared it will only make her more pain. She'a just assuring me by putting a smile on her face, bearing with that pain. Anyway, she's better now. When i told that 'gong kia' (like how she would call her), she's abit worried too. I can see how close friends they are actually. It's actually hard to find friends that really care. Though both of them always argue jokingly, i can see they are on very good terms. That's something rare and touching.

I'm too glad i have friends like her. It's always good to have friends around with you, best friend even. At least you know they will always be there for you. I love all my friends...that includes my sis too..

Yay..finally i'm allowed to go to HongKong. I kinda excited..but worried too. The expenses might come up to a big sum. Big sum so much so that i have to actually cut down on my spending. I still have lotsa thing up on my mind. Wondering how and what should i do.

I was very frustrated just now. My hair looks damn pathetic now. I hate it. Tml, everyone's gonna laugh at me. I don't feel like working. Nowadays, lotsa words seems to be coming against me..even though it might not be true, even though it's charged at me with no bad intention, even though it's was plainly meant to be a joke, i just don't really fancy it. It don't make me unhappy..but repeatedly, i also don't know what to do or say. I'll just keep quiet, for i know saying anything won't help. I'm a person who can take jokes..but such thing can't be joked..We went J8. Ate Ajisen. It's as salty as ever. Then we went walking around. There's lotsa thing i want to buy, but then, i'm really tight on my pocket now. I've been spending so much. I should control now. After that, sent her to bus interchange. We managed to play that slide for thrice whereas i'm somehow bring forced to play too. It's seems so different now..not as fun as i used to play when i was young, but somehow, the feeling was different too.

Whenever i hear that song, i don't feel good. It just makes me be reminded. I keep on wondering. I don't like this feeling. But what can i do, i can't control it. Finally, i've completed ZiQin farewell card but i haven't wrap her present. She asked me not to wrap, but i feel that i should. Now my feeling is kinda lost. I don't know what to do with it. I wanted to tell someone..confine to someone. But everyone seems to be busy with their own stuff. Sis and Don's sleeping..there goes my listening ears. I'm wondering if she can be my listening just for now, but i'm afraid to tell her too. I scared i might give her the impression that i'm talkiing nonsense. I need to pour out..but for now, i shall just keep to myself. I hating bottling up all these things but no choice. I don't feel like going to work, for i somehow feel that work's going to be super boring tml. I can't wait to leave. I can't imagine that when ziqin starts to leave, one by one, off they go. By then, i wondered who will still be staying there. No one? I'm back to my own self.

The hdd is not working. I don't know what to do. 100 bucks of stuff just wasted like that. Sucks..i hate it..Dumb...i shall go sleep and not worry abt anything..

Will tml be boring? I'm feeling so tired now..i'm dozing off in front of the computer...zzz..i better go sleep..ZzZzZ

I'm so happy today. At least my day has ended happily. All because of a movie, not only that but because someone who's willing to watch with me. I wouldn't have watch that movie if she's not going. There's another one who supposed to some along with us but she chose games over us. Sob..

The day kicked of with me waking up feel restless and exhausted. I slept very late the night before, after chatting on the phone. It's always good to have a listener who's willing to listens to you, talks with you..at least i know someone out there is still awake, just like me. Back to today, i reached 1st this time round, for the 1st time. hehe..in the past, i'm always late, now i'm glad at least i made it before her. If not, i'll be feeling bad. I'm supposed to eat breakfast but had a weird tummy upset..nevertheless, i still ordered hotcakes while she ordered big breakfast. We rushed through out breakfast and then to work. Work was alright, we had cup noodles for lunch..

After lunch, my heart starts to set heavily. I started to get frustrated over things. I hate to stick stickers. I'll always stick it wrongly. I hate opening and closing the drawer to take the stickers in and out. The number of folders inside that drawer ain't helping me any better. Worse still, the applications wasn't sorted out accordingly. I'm just frustrated..soon, she said something has upset her. I should have guessed as much given her expression. I tried making her smile, but i failed i guess. Her mood turns better once we are out of work. That's how sucky our job are. Yet, the other girl chose to go home and not go town with us! Argh..Games was the only thing on her mind..bad her! Wahaha..

We had dinner at this place - Ayam Penyet at Lucky Plaza. As always, i'll mislead the way then ended up walking up and down or walking one big round. Each time i do that, she'll have some comments, those comments didn't make me mad, instead, it make me laugh because it came out from her mouth. She's getting more and more humourous. The dinner was funny, told her the chilli was super hot. She ate without thinking twice and learnt her lesson. Hope she does enjoy the dinner cos i did...how i wished i could eat more but my stomach don't allow me to. After dinner, we were supposed to go for pool (because she lost another game of scissors, paper, stone against me). But she said she's changing it to the next time and she promise she will play with me next time. I'll be waiting..finally i bought my cologne. We went to cineleisure to buy our movie tickets. We had a dilemna, we didn't know which movie to watch - Daisy or You are my Sunshine. Again, we played Scissor, paper, stone. And YES again, i won. But still we watched You are my Sunshine. I don't mind watch any, so i let her decide. It's a nice movie. It's funny and touching. It has a meaningful phrase - Smile can bring you happiness (i think it's like that). It's a movie that i would recommend. I feel so happy after watching it. Luckily, she enjoyed the movie too.

After that, we rushed home. She's going to get scolded by her parents. I'm afraid she will feel scared going up alone, i offered to send her up but she refused. I don't want to force her too..she so cute..the way she sms me. Haa..firstly, she said she's going to sleep with my jacket on, sudden;y she said she has to bath...then sudden'y again, she say my jacket's spoil. Then she say she wanted to buy my jacket. gosh..i was thinking to myself, her sleep would be more important than my jacket. Luckily, i managed to persuaded her to sleep..she must be in her lala land now. I'm feeling so tired too..but i don't want to sleep yet..I want to watch more movies..korean movie!!

Anyone know where can i rent Love at Harvard? Hopefully i'm able to rent it and watched it on friday. I want to watch Daisy too..

Argh!! Childish Childish Childish!! Unreasonable Unreasonable Unreasonable. At that ripe age, he should have been matured enough to know what's logical. Always has got nothing better to do. Thinking that the house will collapse without his darn voice. Always quarrel with my mum over pathetic, stupid and small little things. That's all unnecessary..totally unnecessary. He shoud have know all this, know what's right and wrong. Learn to live and let go, show more concern for his family members. We are human beings, his dearest by right, not live idiots that has gradually become his everyday target. As much as i should pay respect to that 'whoever', i refuse. I respect those who DESERVE to be respected, not respect those whom i SHOULD respect. No such things, if a teacher teaches u well, naturally, he/she deserve ur respect. If a teacher scolds u for no reason, hit you, molest you, do u still respect him/her? Answer is obvious. It's all about who deserve ur respect and not who u should respect. Good to you only when something is needed, bad to you when he's in foul mood. When he's not in good mood, everyone has to become a timid mouse, awaiting orders. I had enough. Cmon, turning 21 this year. Sometimes, i just wished i move to elsewhere with my mum. Just me and my mum. If i do something wrong, i don't mind being scolded, i will admit to my mistakes. I'm not one who shrink responsibilities. I'm not one who won't admit to mistakes. Who doesn' make mistakes anyway.

Since young, i'm not his favourite. I'm always a comparison to his other favourite. As time goes by, comparison gets more and more. I'm used to it. Whenever his favourite do wrong, i'm to be blame. I didn't ask for myself to come out to this world earlier. Who wants to be a bastard. No one, i didn't choose to. I'm just mad now, totally mad. Just because i'm not good at studies, u choose not to give me the opportunity to go Uni. U assume i will quit halfway. U mentioned it when i wanted to go poly, u asked me to go ITE. I passed this course, not with good results, but at least, i got the cert. U didn't praise me..u didn't say anything. If i were to fail, u will bomb me with all ur saliva. Stupid!

I hate my look. I always give people the impression that i'm fierce. The impression that makes people 'repel' from me. It's just me to be like that. I'm not being unfriendly. I dare to say in my whole life, i've never scold a single girl before, other than a few years back when there's this dumb bitch who bullied my bro. Serve her right. I don't scold people easily, unless he/she provokes me or go beyond the line. I don't show my unhappiness out too obviously, but when i'm too quiet, that means something is very wrong with me. Today someones asked me a question, i hate that question. I don't want to answer. If i answer, it's going to be stupid.

Let's start to talk about today. A kind hearted pretty agree to go to the bank with me. So kind of her right? Yes, i'm the bad one cos i actually made her wait 30 mins. I did an act today. Can't really mention it out here cos it's too open to mention it here. Got my pay totally..yay! i'm so happy. I've just spend quite alot, now i'm left that that amount only. Got to use it sparingly already.

Went to office late! cos of the stupid queue inside the bank. Everyone saw my 'injury', then started asking why. Just said it's the masterpiece of my 1st time rollerbalding. Wahaha..rollerblading is fun!! I like it..how i wished i could blade again, but heard that they are going to ice-skate. If can, i really want to join, cos it shall be my 1st time too. Work was good..boss wasn't around ma..of cos it's good. Today i'm supposed to make a card, but they forgot about the content, and so....i can't start. Finally chose something for that someone, but i still find that it wasn't enough, maybe will get summore tml. And yes!!! I managed to get the other her to get the Fila world cup t-shirt. So, there will be korean, argentinian and brazillian. Wahah..world cup fever!!

Today i OTed. Went home feeling exhausted. The external harddisk that i bought from Yilin's uncle can't be used. Somehow, my computer can't detect. i'm sad and disappointed. As if the day isn't ending badly enough until something worse happen. It's all mentioned in the beginning of this post. Sux!!

Today she said she thought of something funny about me. I wondered if it's the 'i would take my wife's place and give birth for her' or not. Or is it something else, she hasn't told me..maybe she will..or maybe she won't..Went home with her today. She's mad!! She wanted to watch superband. She don't want to go watch Daisy tml. I must try and persuade her!!!

Ever since i'm online, everyone is feeling lousy including me. Now i shall smile and influence everyone. Please stay happy!! Cheer up!! SMILE!!! =)

Pain pain!! Ahh...i keep on forgetting there's an injury on my left palm..i keep on pressing/resting my palm accidentaly until the pain warns me off..

I'm going to get a nice photo frame and put the photo that i took with sis the day before. Today i brought camera but didn't use it..hmm...i'm so tired..zzz

Today was fun fun! 1st time i put on the rollerblade shoes and try rollerblading. I was guided by a good teacher (good because i finally walk with that shoes on SLOWLY). It was quite a nice experience. She teach me all she can remember and not all that she knows cos the last time she rollerblade was almost a year ago. Had a few fall with one especially painful. I fell with my palm landing on the hot and hard ground with full impact because i don't want my white 3/4 pants to get dirtied. This time, it's really dumb of me to wear white pants. After rollerblading, it's cycling time! Haha...it's her main purpose of going Pasir Ris Park. We rented a double bicycle and started riding. The feeling was good as the wind that blew of us cool us after we sweated all out during the rollerblading.

We were exhausted after half an hour and decided to return the bike and leave for Tampines Mall for dinner. By then, i'm already feeling restless, super hungry until i feel like vomiting. My left palm is somehow having a burning feeling. Pain and swollen. Now, it has turned abit blue black.

Dinner was at Seoul Garden. I can't eat much today cos i was too hungry, too hungry until i don't feel like eating. She taught me how to eat more during buffet. Take breaks in between and then eat. We had fun eating and chatting away..She was smiling throughout the whole dinner. Gosh..

I was called 'you very girl leh' today plenty of times. Haa, maybe that's my new name. I'm alright with people calling me names as long as they don't really think so, anyway, it's just a joke..i can take jokes..haa..It's just me not to smile sometimes, if i smile, it's either i'm nuts or happy. If not, it's just me. So please don't think i'm unhappy or angry.

Walked the whole bus interchange only to take mrt home instead. On the mrt, she was sleeping, as sweet as a child. Until i woke her up, haa..can see she's very tired. I didn't sleep, but for no reason, my eyes suddenly turned very red. It's super teary and itchy. I insist of sending her to her stop, it's just me to send someone at least to somewhere which i feel is ok. I do that to all my friends. On the way there, something interesting happen. An indian man was standing in front of us, and she noticed a small roach on the man's shirt. She wanted to tell her but i stopped her. Am i bad? Wahaha..anyway, the roach ain't going to eat him up. She keep on looking at the indian man, until the man actually notice she's looking at him. And so, i ask her not to look there. I distracted by asking her to play scissors, paper, stone. I won and yet she's so tempted to that roach on that guy shirt, i think she's afraid the roach might go into that guy shirt. Both of us were laughing ang laughing and yet, that guy keep on looking at her. Gosh, luckily that guy didn't alight at the same stop, if not, i will send her home.

Went home and when i stepped into the kitchen, i was reminded that i still have chicken chop and pork chop to eat. Gosh..i really don't feel like eating, but if i don't Dad's going to scold me. I forced myself to eat, eating them in big mouthful. Gosh, it's a torture to eat sometimes. Now my palm hurt, it wasn't that pain just now..but it's super pain now, i can't press my plam on anything, the pain is unbearable. It's so swollen and hard. Hope she remember to bring that 'sticker' tml.

As promised, the photos taken earlier on (Enjoy!!):

Our Sumptuous Dinner...Yummy

Sis at the Sky Tower

Me inside the Sky Tower

Me and my sis inside the Carlsberg Sky Tower

Sis with her Iced Latte!!

Sis with her prezzies!!

3D Great White Shark!!

Drinking my 'Deep Sea' in Fish and co.

Queueing for the 4D Magix Show

Me and my sis Celebrating her 18th Birthday!

One day to describe today - marvelous..Just the past few days, i was still feeling kinda down and out..but today, i was kinda revived. Woke up feeling lazy and restless..Dragged myself to finish some incomplete errands. I went to Toa Payoh to get it done. I was later than expected. Pushed the time later abit and met up with sis abit later. The consideration of the weather didn't really affect our plans to change our original plans of going to Sentosa. We went to Sentosa in high spirits. As the bus has such a queue, i and sis took cab in. We were kinda lost and didn't actually know where to go and what to do. It's my indecisiveness i suppose. In the end, we went to Underwater World as i suggested. It's been a long time since i last came here. I had no impression of when was the last time i came to Underwater World. Went in, was browsing around, saw quite a number of weird sea creatures but other than that, nothing else interests or amaze me. We barely stayed inside for half an hour. I somehow sense some 'boredness' in sis..even i myself is feeling kinda bored. I was disappointed with the Underwater World. After that, we went out. Just so happen, there's a caretaker feeding turtles inside this pond and Man!!, the TURTLES WERE HUGE!! Gosh, they were eating the cabbages the caretaker gave. Gosh, there are so many of them. Amazing as i thought to myself. Sis was telling me how she spend her night over inside the underwater world. It was so cool, i wished i could but i don't think there's a chance.

Afterwhich, we proceed to the Sentosa 4D Magix. When we reached there, it seems quite empty. I was quite relieved cos i thought we would have to wait. Who knows when i asked the counter staff about the show, she say we have to wait for ard 40 mins to 1 hour. Gosh!! The queue is actually inside. I and my sis hesitated for a while. Since it's her day, i should let her choose. Sis said she don't mind waiting and here we go. There's a show every 20 mins and we waited. Time flies while we were inside. We were chatting and chatting away, time passed faster this way. We took a few shots while queueing too. And yay!! Finally it's our turn. We didn't wait for 40 mins, we waited less than that. By the time we reach the entrance, there's only 3 glasses left (u need the glasses to watch the show). Phew, and so i and my sis collected out glasses and phoo, in we go! Sis suggested taking the photo with our big big glasses on and i thought it was a good idea. But we could only do it after the show as the lights were on as soon as we found a seats for ourselves. The whole show was quite nice, a new experience for me. We had bats, bee flying around us. We even had water sprayed on us! Cool..after the show, i quickly took out the camera and took a shot. Yay!!

Next, we went to the Carlsberg Sky Tower. We sitted down while waiting for the tower to be elevated. Took a few shots and the tower starts to move shortly. Soon, we were high up in the air. Cool, had the most shots there. The scenery was the alright. We came out of the sky tower and we bought a photograph that we took before we enter the sky tower. It was taken by the photographer there and it cost 10 bucks per photo. After the sky tower, sis went to get herself a pure chocolate ice blended at Coffeebean. By then, my wallet is totally empty. ATM in Sentosa were rare. Only 3 atms in Sentosa, gosh..kinda pathetic. Luckily, i'm able to use my NETS.

We left for town after that, wanting to catch the movie. I browse through my GPRS and check out the timings of the movie. All timing sux. Don't have the timing we wanted. Boo.! Cos we wanted to have dinner 1st. But in the end, we decided to skip dinner and watched movie. When we reached cathay. There was already a long queue. Oh dumb, The theater was so big and yet only two counter was opened to serve the queue. Super pathetic. So, i and my sis went for dinner instead..

We went to eat Fish and Co. I suggested it and sis said she never been there before and so i brought her there. She ordered Black Pepper Stingray whereas i ordered Sambal Fish. As for drinks, i asked sis to ordered alcoholic drink but she said her face will turn red if she drink it. So she ordered ice latte whereas i order deep sea (an alcoholic drink that has gin, lime and some other juices mixed in it). When the drinks came, i made sis tried mine and after she took her sip of my drink, she immediately drink her ice latte. Haa..she said is tastes awful. Can understand..haa..i find the drink not bad though. We took several photos and even had one photo of sis posing with her presents i gave her (i made her posed..hee).

After that dinner, we took a train back and we were yawning all the way. Most probably because of the alcoholic drink earlier on. After she went back, she smsed me. She was saying how much i've spend and i must have spend a bomb. Actually i did spend quite alot but i don't mind. Birthday is once a year and i thought, next 2 years i might not be able to celebrate sis. I don't mind spending all that money as long as sis is happy. Seeing her enjoying herself beats anything else. It;s her day, that should be the purpose. Her smile is the best confirmation on all the money spend worthwhile. Luckily she liked the presents i gave her..Someone else played a part in choosing too. I made a card for sis too, hopefully she'll like it too.

She asked me to make a blogskin for her. I have no idea of how am i going to make it. Make it a surprise for her she said. Maybe i'll do what i can best. She'll see it..haa..Tml i'm going to cycle/rollerblade with her. I'm still consider which one to do cos she said she don't want to rollerblade. Hmm..but i want to learn, maybe i'll just try both? Wahaha..she also said she wanted to feast..i'm happy to be able to eat and feast again, i want to become fat! But i'm scared she will have stomachache again. It's terrible to see her like that and i don't know what to do. Tml we shall eat earlier. I must bring water bottle, plaster(in case) and er..what else ah..i have to jot it down here, my brain's not working well, it's kinda dumb now..wrong state recently.

Election results is out today. My area as expected, PAP won. i'm glad, my family's glad. The mayor here has done alot for the people living her. We are glad he won. But i still believed we need to have a few opposition too, hope it's not a one sided war again.

I will post up the photos that i took with sis today soon..check it out..

I hate my bro..i wished i don't have him as my bro. I'm fuming, i'm angry, i'm on fire..yet i can't go anything to him. Father's on his side. Biased as always. He's always right, just because he's cleverer. He can take my stuff, he can touched my things, yet i can never touch anything of his. He's acting as if he's the master of the house. Ever heard of a younger bro calling the older bro by names which are deemed as vulgarities or words that are just not right? It's been a long time since he called me 'kor'. My recent names are idiot, fucker, OI..nice names he gave me but shit him. I won't care abt him..he don't deserve my attention. Shit him..darn him..Let me find out he touched my guitar, i make sure he's going to pay for it. I can't stand the way he treat my parents, especially my mum..i can't stand the way he treat his gf. I don't care the way he treats me, if he's not going to treat me like his bro, then i don't mind not having him as my bro. Who cares...

I don't know how to put it, but today i got this weird feeling..i just don't feel like going to work. I got this feeling that i've never felt before. I supposed this feeling is because of what happen yesterday. But i told myself, i shouldn't get too affected by it or rather NOT to get affected by it. And so, the feeling eventually went off. I think of happier things, that automatically make my day kinda alright at the start. Luckily, nothing's happening.

Today was very sucky, my 'still alright' day was RUINED by that kuku again. He simply just spoils my whole day, my mood at work. Early morning he heard my sms ringtone and started to observe me, i hate it! Sadly, ZiQin's leaving. Though she's a quiet girl, and i seldom talked to her, but the impression she gave me was a good one. She's steady and quite a nice girl. I suppose after she leaves, Yilin will be leaving soon, and soon, Melissa and then Shirley. By then, i'll be alone..as in, it's never the same. So much so that being with the 4 of them just make the days different. When i heard they mentioning the dates they want to leave, my heart kinda sank. I felt heavy but i can't say and don't know what to say. Still, i'm glad to have known the 4 of them.

After lunch, the worst part same. I made another huge mistake. A damn stupid one. I really don't know what am i doing or thinking, how could i stick the wrong sticker on the whole stack on applications AGAIN!!! Gosh..i panicked, and then starts to make amends. The stickers pasted was remove and i covered it with another big piece of paper to ensure no one sees it and luckily, no one did. After that, i discussed with Shirley and Melissa as to where will we be going. Supposedly, we wanted to watch movie called 'Daisy'. But since Melissa's not interested, i also don't want to go even though Melissa say it's ok. I don't want Melissa to waste her money on movie she's not interested in, it'll be wasting her money. So i suggested going shopping. I wanted to buy a jacket, Don and i has always been wanting to get one, but we til now still hasn't get any yet. I asked Melissa and Shirley, Shirley asked me to ask Melissa...Melissa asked me to ask Shirley. At one point i don't feeling like going out again..I felt cold and hot time and time again. This feeling is not good. In the end, we decided on Suntec.

Went Suntec and started walking around. This is the 1st time i went out with the presence of Melissa. She's quite out-going and cool. Friendly a girl and quite nice to talk to. She certainly can click very well with Shirley. Both of them makes great friends. There's plenty of places we wanted to go, actually not plenty, only 2. We went Nike Shop, then Adidas shop and then World of sport. I'm searching for my jacket. In the end, i bought the NIKE jacket for 99 bucks. I like it very much, it was the nicest jacket i've seen so far for GUYS. Actually, i wanted to let Shirley buy it if she wants buy i think she finds the size not right. And so, i bought it. Some may say it's 99 bucks, so ex. It may be a little ex but i rather put in that lil bit more of money and buy something that i really like. I'm sorry that i bought the jacket without u Don. I think u'll only buy it after ur operation right? After that, we went to eat. While eating, we were discussing to watch the movie or not but Stubborn Melissa don't want. Gosh, she's as firm as an ox, hard to persuade or convince her. I asked my cousin to buy 2 tix for us only to find out we won't be able to make it on time. I tried calling him back but he didn't pick up. While walking to towards the bus stop, i started to feel nauseous. As i already got that headache, it smiply just make it worse. I can't talk for i know if i talked, i'll vomit for sure. I stand there like an idiot waiting for myself to feel better while waiting for the bus. Shirley's also not feeling well on her stomach. If i knew that was going to happen, i would not have suggested eating. Dumb me, i should have known better. While on the bus, Melissa told me Shirley's feeling nauseous too. I supposed it must be the chicken. I feel damn terrible with that chicken. I hope i didn't affected them when i was there, being quiet, trying to make myself better, for i know if i talked, i'll vomit..

Tml i'm going out with sis, hope my lousy mood won't affect her and i shall enjoy myself to the fullest. Meanwhile, take care u two girls (Mel and Shirley)

As much as i don't feel like blogging. I do see the need to blog now..Mainly because it's my sis birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!! MAY ALL YOUR BIRTHDAY WISHES COME TRUE..

I actually wanetd to curse one person today, but now, let's make it 2. 1st thing 1st, there's this kuku person in my office who's making me fed up. He seems to start picking on me. Asking me questions when this person don't even know what's going on. Gosh..Secondly was my 'beloved' bro. He has done some 'art' to my guitar i supposed and now, my wife is abit out of tune. If it's really going to spoil, i'll surely make him pay. This guitar of mine (wife) is certainly precious to me. I really don't know what to do if it's really spoil and i'll be totally devastated. Haiz..i know cursing them ain't going to help me, so let's just forget it. I'm not in the mood to do such things..live and let go? well..maybe..

I mention today's bad earlier on. as usual, only 2 person will know..one is my sis, one is Don. Both has great listening ears but sadly, i don't wish to divulge anything. This blog is too open to the public, which sets a certain level of restriction for me. I've decided not to let anyone know this blog anymore. Had the intention of having it changed (as in the address), but i have no reasons to do it, moreover, i've have friends who still reads my blog..People always said Actions speaks louder than words. Today i witnessed the opposite.

After reading someone's blog, i'm deeply touched. I regretted. I don't know what to do or say. We are still friends. No one decides our friendship, it's only between u and me. U actually blogged out my thoughts, u can see through me, i say i'm not affected, u saw through me. Now i understand what u truely mean and i shall move on. Pointless to get affected, let's imagine i don't know anything, this wouldn't be happening, isn't it? But I don't see the need to do any changes to anything at this point of time. Things are not worse, or rather not even bad at all. I'm fine..Thanks sis and Don. Thank you too. I don't want to lose a friend like you, not in this manner, it's unfair to both of us..we did nothing wrong..we don't deserve what we are going through now..

I don't like today...Today's bad...

Sorry sis..kor shall cya on Saturday..take care~~~

Ahh...Smokers! I hate smokers..i hate them...i curse them...i want to crush them!!! By saying that, i'm only refering to INCONSIDERATE smokers - smokers who smoke without considering the public and ignore the response the public might give..I was going home today and there's still old uncle who came out of the lift. On his old, wrinkled and yellowed left hand held a stick of pathetic, ugly looking and super smelly cigarette. Something which can caused DEATH. He just came out of a small compartment call lift where there's a sign displaying "NO SMOKING....FINE $500". Obviously such people look more at their cigarette to see whether how more puffs they can go with that stick they are holding rather that the pathetic, useless and tiny sign which won't even get their attention.I went in and choked on the smoke which is invading and polluting the whole of the compartment. I felt like dying inside. That few seconds from the 1st storey to the 11th storey felt like donkey years when i was inside. I can't wait to break open that stupid door and get some i called 'FRESH AIR'. Such inconsiderate people should get a taste of what is it like to get choked on something. As an asthmatic peron, i've always hated such people. For their few puffs can makle my life and LUNGS difficult. Last years attack made me suffered for near 1 year. I don't wish to die as a passive smoker. Darn..Cursing them seems to be the only thing i can do..so..i so bad right? U think so? Then u must be one of them..hymp!

Let's starts today from lunchtime. Lunch was supposed to be the cup noodles that the few of us bought yesterday. But it turns out that we bought outside food instead on savouring on the cup noodles. We bought Nasi Lemak and bring back to dine. Sitting on the floor and eating at the same time make us look like some labourers making their short lunch break over small chit chat. But seeing our other colleagues lunch make our own lunch taste super bland. I had a hard time finishing it and before i could really finish it, we went to buy what they were eating - Mee Goreng. Yummy..It turns out to be super delicious..too bad Shirley can't take food that's too spicy..and so, Yilin and i finished up the whole packet only to find our own stomach feeling abit weird. Nevertheless, it was a sastifying lunch.

Work today was super sian. I really really feel like sleeping. I almost doze off time and tme again. I just feel super sleepy when i'm facing those applications. Suddenly, something woke me up - Mel has decided not to go watch movie..ARGH!!! *Bish* *piak* *box* Actually i think Shirley also didn't wanted to go, but lucky she agreed to go, which make me feels abit bad because she did mention that Either Mel or both of them were tired. I rushed my work before leaving the office.

Reached Plaza Singapura..Walked to the theater only to find no nice movie..I'm being named indecisive..wahaha..which actually i'm not..or maybe i am..haha..Shirley's shld be the one..not me!! Wahaha..woman are weird creatures who can't make up their mind..not all's like that..Oops Shirley, i didn't say u were wor (If you are reading this). Wahaha..Then we rushed to Cineleisure, trying to catch 'Daisy". Just as we thought we were late for that show and was waiting for the lift, someone approached Shirley..Of cos is approached her lah, can't be me cos i'm NOT a gay like what the girls claim. They asked if we wanted the free movie tix from them and after much thought we decided to take it. The show is called 'when the stranger calls'. Never heard before of the movie, we hesitated a while before deciding to give it a shot.

As it's free seating, we found ourselves seats at the back. A nice view from where we are sited. As the show starts, Shirley has some questions in mind i bet, she keep on saying it's a horror show and i only found out after the movie that to her horror show means any shows that is not korean romance/love/comedy is a horrow show. Haa..now back to the movie, it was not bad. Not a horror movie but more of thriller/suspense. This movie is boring at the start but it gets u abit out of ur seat as it gets to the climax. After the movie, i was freezing and i needed a toilet to release. This movie theater is one that i've never visited before. Everything seems new at that place cos i always went to Plaza Singapura for my movies.

After movie, i was dinner cum supper. We ate at a open coffeeshop (well, so called). Ordered carrot cake and char kway tiao. Then i also ordered StingRay for Shirley. Wahh, in the end, she seem to eat only abit of everything, actually not everything, she ate alot of the carrot cake. Haa..gosh, i had to eat up the rest, anyway, her stomach's not feeling good. Takke good care, no more food for u after 8pm next time. I'll take note..Wahaha..u shall watch me eat after 8pm in future..

Eyes feeling pain..my lungs are still suffering from the smoke just now..hope i won't suffocate later..

The more i listen to the Canon Rock, i just love it more and more. I'm more than determined to learn it, i must master it..Hone up my guitar skills, train up my lazy last finger and play that song out...

I suddenly got so many things to say..things that i wanted to say out..but don't want anyone to know..maybe a few. I had this mixed feelings right now..i want to confine..i want to pour out..but who really understand? Maybe a few, yet again..I have friends who's willing to listen, who's good at consoling, who knows me well, who concern and cares for me..yet, some things just can't go beyond that line, cos it gets too personal and will show the weak side of me that i never wanted to show, for i can get weird response. Not many can know the inside of my heart, for i seldom spell it out. Sometimes, i find friends a better listening ears than my mum. I don't know what's wrong. Everything in my life seems to be in place and almost perfect now. But as time goes by, such life will be intruded with incidents, events that came unexpectedly. I like the way it came in, but i dislike the way it spoils the process of my life..it ruined what i deem as the perfect plan for me just before i get enlisted HAPPILY, and i mean HAPPILY.

Found out a recent blog, created by a loving couple (both male) and yes, Colin and Kero (Fake names i supposed). I had lotsa view on it, but i don't really want to spam it down here for it might not be nice. Their braveness is something i admire and hate at the same time. I can't imagine how one can become like that and i shall not dwell for it doesn't really concerns me. I've lotsa things to care and crack my brain on rather than that.

Had a new temp staff sitting just behind me. Poor Yilin have to sit at somewhere else, just as i thought she would be entertained by Candy and me with our nonsense, she has to sit at the other place. Get used to it, girl..This new temp staff seems to know everyone in the office, very friendly and sociable, or maybe a little too sociable..Had lunch with Yilin, Shirley and Ziqin. Melissa is clever enough to skip today for the sake of some activities i guess..Wahaha..Shirley is still limping, aww...so sad..Get well soon girl..

Another frustrating thing - My pay's not here yet!! AHH!!! My mum helped me checked, it's not accounted in yet..same goes for Yilin..i wondered when will it be in..I'm left stranded with basically jeans with empty pockets. I want to fill my pockets with money..lotsa and lotsa money, i love the scent of money, especially the blue one. Sniff sniff...

We planned to watch MI3 tml, sadly Ziqin and Yilin can't make it..That left with me, shirley and the Doubtful Melissa? Wahaha..i wonder if i still need to do OT tml or not. It better be a nice show cos i'm already digging for money in my cupboard.

Work was alright today. Applications forever piling up. I had spend a long time sorting them and checking the app and the checklist to make sure the indenfication number does tally. I hate having to move my head left and right, causing great ache to my neck, i'm going to be a giraffe soon. Ahh...ache ache ache..everyone was leaving work early today, sound so quiet at office..i left office with a heavy mood..don't know what is it, but i can still feel it's something negative.

I rushed to Yew Tee to meet my sister, and get the book 'Da vinci Code' from her. Her bf lend it to me. So happy, i can finally read the book. Who cares even if my bro wouldn't want to lend me, i don't die fromnot reading books from HIM! No big deal, i hate petty, stingy and sissy guy, my bro's almost one of them, or rather, just make him one of them. He sux big time. Always act as if he owns the house, my room and simply everything.

Exercise!!! The 1st thing i do when i reached home. That has to be an everday thing from now onwards every weekdays. I have to keep fit, maintain a fit body so that i won't die so early..wahaha..of cos not! Excercise really makes one feel refreshed, charged up. A person who's not exercising will generally feel tired easily and weaker. I must build up everything in my body, muscles, immunity, and er..brain? I'm kinda forgetful nowadays.

I feel so tired now..yawn..oops..did i just say exercise makes one feel charged up? maybe it don't..haa..but still, EXERCISE!

Friday

Work was rather different from other day. I don't mean the job given to me were different..it's just that, my mood and i just don't feel the same as usual. Weird huh..I lended my mp3 player (well, wasn't mine actually..it's thanks to a kind soul that this mp3 player became 'mine') to Candy. She listens to some of the songs that i handpicked for her..as she listens, she laughs..and to think that the 3 songs i ask her to listen were slow soft rock music that's actually relaxing. I had lotsa feelings and emotions evoked out while listening to all this 3 songs. If u guys want the song, get from me personally. And back to Candy, she was laughing and laughing..non stop..!! Gosh..her laughter just make u laugh with her..haa!

Worked OT and rushed home afterwards..That night i was too tired...fall alseep right after watching the tv..zzz..i always failed to stay up late on friday night..maybe because it's the day working day of the week and i just want to sleep...like a pig..

Saturday

Today i practically rotted at home..Stomach wasn't really feeling good. This has been happening for weeks..i don't know what caused it..it has its ups and downs..i'm kinda hard-up so i can only self medicate myself..Faced the computer for the whole day..trying to do up the album cover...i'm running out of ideas already..argh..help..if u guyd have any ideas, do let me know..i'm starting to find photoshop a wonderful programs because it can actually create wonders..to a certain extent and yes, i'm still consider noob when it comes to exploring and discovering some of the most important features..i really need a crash course on this one..

Later that day, went to had dinner with Don before heading to Jon's house for soccer match. Gosh, it was a disappointing soccer match. By the time we reached Jon's house, Man Utd were already 1-0 down..luckily, my colleague went online and i starting chatting instead of watching the disappointing match. My friends who continued watching the match were further disappointed by the way Man Utd played..In the end, our fav team lost 3-0, handing the title to the worst rivals. Oh gosh, insulting!! Humilation!! To think that they took the title in front of Man Utd players and fans..Gosh..Sad say for all Man Utd supporters..same goes to me too..

After the match, the few of us chatted. It's been a long time since we have been together like that. Times like that will always be remembered, cherished and we long for more of such moments. Jon's leaving for Taiwan soon, life's without him is certainly different, well, even though not that much. He's going there for training for 3 weeks, let's hope life will be quite ok for him over there and hope to see him soon..

Sunday

Woke up receiving news that the gathering with some of my ex classmates has been postpone. Most of them are busy. Well, each has their own work to do, some serving NS, it's really hard to get all or rather most of us together now. Nevertheless, i still managed to meet Mildred and we went to walk around Suntec cos i was looking for something. When it comes to buying apparels, i got this thinking that girls will always have a better taste and opinions, not because they tend to be more fussy (or maybe yes..haa), but because they look into more details it comes to such things as compared to a guy who will just say 'it's nice, buy lah buy lah'..Moreover, the stuff i'm buying is for someone who's quite like Mildred..So i feel that it's best if i bring her along. We went around Suntec, went to several shops and combed around, in the end i shortlisted two. Hmm...i'm still thinking hard..i need days to think..think think think..

Afterwhich we went to Plaza Singapura. Down there, we had Ajisen for dinner. As always i would ordered the Volcano Ramen..that will be the only reman i'll eat..i want to burn my stomach, spit out fire..blah blah blah..haa..k, i'm starting to go out of point. The ramen taste very salty as usual, i'm wondering why does it always taste so salty, or is it just me who's finding the ramen salty..Luckily, Mildred thinks that it's salty too, well, nothing's wrong with my taste buds and tongue. Jusr before we went left for home, we went to this Fila Shop to browse for some apparels, i was browsing at some jackets and just as i turn back, suddenly appeared in front of me..oh gosh, i had a shock of my life. I actually saw my colleague..i was stunned for no reason for quite some time before we started talking a while before we left..oh gosh, don't know why, i can feel that shock..as if i saw a ghost, but obviously she's not..haa..she's a nice colleague..

Mildred gave me a guitar model what she bought from Sabah..Nice of her i would say and i appreciated it..Thanks alot Mildred if you are reading this..Thanks!

I'm now playing maple like mad, trying to rush for the 3rd job..gogogogo....