Painful Knee

My knee started hurting. I wanted to had it cure long ago, but i thought it was nothing. I was proven wrong, the pain was persistant even it's on and off every now and then. I asked to go for a checkup tml, i was rejected. To a certain extent, there's this distrust between me and him. I feel like telling him off. I wanted to sound out, but think again, who am i, a bloody Corporal? Oh crap, it's ok. I shall stick to my own mindset of serving the remaining one year of National Service and off i'll go, away from those idiots whom i dread facing everyday.

Finally it's here. Told you not to worry. It's nothing. Unnecessary worries will only bring you down. You should not have listen to others. I've always been the one who has been with you, you shouldn't even worried any bit. Thankfully, all well's end well.

Watched a TV show just now. It's a show shown over at channel 8 on every tuesday @ 8pm. It's a show whereby one guest chef will be invited in the show to cook their speciality for people whom they wanted to cook for, those whom they wanted to show gratitude to. I was watching the episode earlier on. This chef cooked for his wife. Both mentioned how they have gone through so much, through thick and thin. I was wondering to myself, will it ever happen to me? I envy and look forward to having a family myself but it's still far away.

I was telling my Dear that i wanted to continue my studies in tourism after my diploma. I wanted to pursue a degree. But money seems to be a problem. Dear suggested a few solutions. I really hope i'll be able to pursue those studies in future. May my wish come true..

Invisible Target

Hmm, i finally decided to start using labels provided by blogger. I'm not sure of its real 'function' but i'll use it to somehow describe my day.

Today was fantastic, all because of a movie - "Invisible Target". I'm not sure why this title after the movie. An action-packed movie with typical story plot. A typical Hong Kong action movie. But what makes the movie as nice is the actions, the fighting scenes and several scene which almost touched my heart. Jaycee in this movie gave me a good impression of him, unlike when he's acting in "Twins Mission". Finally, i see some similar appearance and face features of him and his father - just don't look at the nose.

The rise of Ronin Gang, a band of notorious robbers changed the lives of three policemen drastically. Each of the three policemen: Fong (starring Shawn Yue), King-ho (starring Jaycee Chan) and Chan (starring Nicholas Tse) have their own stories but are motivated to achieve a common goal: to bring Tien (starring Wu Jing), the leader of the Ronin Gang to justice.

Time is running out as Tien's influence grew and the gang's ruthless acts are getting out hand. With Fong's wit, Jing King-ho's courage and Chen's dexterity, the three vowed to capture Jiang. The rise of Ronin Gang, a band of notorious robbers changed the lives of three policemen drastically.

Each of the three policemen: Fong (starring Shawn Yue), King-ho (starring Jaycee Chan) and Chan (starring Nicholas Tse) have their own stories but are motivated to achieve a common goal: to bring Tien (starring Wu Jing), the leader of the Ronin Gang to justice.

Time is running out as Tien's influence grew and the gang's ruthless acts are getting out hand. With Fong's wit, Jing King-ho's courage and Chen's dexterity, the three vowed to capture Jiang. However, it was also during the intense period of tracking the Ronin Gang that the three learnt about the presence of a prominent figure in the police force who is in cahoots with Tien With all these against them, they are even more determined to rid the evil doings of Tien and his accomplice

'Alone'

I felt that i've not been of my usual self like erm, a year plus ago. I've become a tyrant, a bully, a emotionless stone, an ugly duckling and most importantly, an unfeeling person. It's never too late to turn back. I've finally found the secret as well, change everything that's has been mentioned above. Care, love, understanding and patience. These four characteristics can make a person's day start well and end well.

I tried it out today. In fact it's not so much of today. I tried my very best to change. I managed to do it, with still that few small flaws around. Nevertheless, i managed to make her day. I'm glad, and happy.

Friday was a terrible day. Had serious flu towards the evening. The sore eye in the morning didn't do anything to make my day and there comes that flu to rub some salt into my wound. I was practically sneezing and settling my running nose the whole lesson. I was so afraid that i've caused disturbance to my classmate. I must say, lessons has been going on well so far. I am determined to do well in my studies and hopefully, i would be able to study degree but it seems quite impossible now. Nevertheless, i'll still work towards it, for my future, i believe and i can.

Watched 'Alone' with Dear on Saturday. A nice movie from the director of 'Shutter'. Its horror scenes are more or less expected but what i like about this movie is the twist. Dear was the funny one, 3/4 of her face was behind my arm with her hands grabbing my arms each time a horror scene is expected. It just makes her look so cute. Below is a summary of what the movie is roughly about. Of course the twist was not included. The twist wasn't expected anyway. This movie had some hidden message i believe. A bond between twins could never be replaced. I wondered how this movie would have an impact on the twins conjured together.

Pim buries her past in Thailand and starts her new life with a caring and lovable husband, Vee, in Korea. Their marriage life seems to be all too normal with a decent and stable job, great friends, etc. All seems well - That is before Pim receives a telephone call from Thailand.

She is informed that her mother has fallen very ill due to a yet un-diagnosable disease. Pim and Vee travel back to her hometown to be by her mother's side. From the first moment she arrives in Thailand Pim experiences extremely vivid flashbacks of painful memories that she has tried so hard to forget. But there is something different about these flashbacks. The flashes conjure up a sense of innate warmth that is similar to the feeling of "someone" close to her. Pim finds herself constantly haunted by these lingering feelings of attachment that compels her to confront her deep dark emotions that eventually lead her to remember that she has a twin sister.

Now as her memories slowly comes back and the pieces of the puzzle begin to start to fall into place Pim eventually recognizes just what that innate sense of warmth is... It is the feeling of being attached to another person by an organ that bonds two lives in such a way that she could never be free. What had to be done was finished; ended along time ago. Unless...? Pim is not alone! And this is just the beginning of a horrifying realization that Pim will never be allowed to ever forget...what does not want to be forgotten!

Our First Couple T-Shirt

Bought our very first couple t-shirts. Wasn't excited as first but when i actualy wore it today, i had a different feeling. It feels good. I like that shirt as well.

I long for food...i'm hungry..........

Time to Keep Fit

I swam today...Finally. The feeling of being in the water, swimming laps after laps, though tiring, but it's good. I feel physically tired but mentally refreshed. It actually feels good to exercise. The thought of being able to keep fit isn't that bad anyway.

I asked my friend how they keep fit usually. They ran, swam, and do all sorts of exercise, far more than i do. To think that Dear can actually said i'm addicted to exericse. I strongly believe it's just my determination to get rid of my tummy that keeps me going. Other than that, it's the intention to keep fit. I asked my friend is there such thing as addicted to exericse, they said no.

Keeping fit is naturally an important part of our life. Just because you don't like to exercise, you shouldn't stop me. Someday, you'll have to accept the fact and i'm free of tummy while you're not. Someday, you realised how important it is to exercise. Never mind if you like tto jog or exercise, i've long given up hope in helping you. Yes, i envy couples who exericse and help each other through, but like i said in my previous post, even if you don't like to, i won'tlet anyone stand in my way in my determination to achieve my fit body.

Xiaxue Vs Steven Lim

Watching the XiaXue VS Steven Lim war, it makes me laugh till my stomach hurts. The war between this two is quite unexpected. I don't see how they can come to a war when one is a infamous stripper in tv shows whereas the other a not so demure blogger who goes F-U-C-K in her blog. Wow!

But seriously, not being a good blogger herself, i certainly feel XiaXue (well, she don't deserve to be named XiaXue, well, let's just call her Wendy instead), she yet has the right to quote other bloggers. But she's thankfully, clever enough to include herself in as well. Some sort of redeeming done to her isn't it. And so, that's sparked off a verbal war between the two.

It's funny how Steven Lim reacts to it. The video he film and posted, simply just makes me laugh. A man his age acted as though he's filming some cartoon. Haa...

Here's the link to the video by the way :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=riBS5cURFRI

One Year of NS

Running 4.8km wasn't an easy task. But it's a feat i somehow managed to complete. I never expected myself to complete it without having to even stop for a short walk. I just ran and ran, with my wondering, when is the finishing line. Turns after turns, all i see is turns and not much signs of people around.

I was glad when i finally saw the straight path, i run faster than my usual pace. I'm starting to overcome my slight phobia against running. I'm able to catch my breath easily than before, much thanks to myself for training privately by myself in recent weeks. My plan to achieve the 6 pacs is there on and i'm gradually slowly moving towards it. Time wait for no one, and naturally, i wouldn't want to waste it. I want to time myself and hopefully improve in each and every run.

I would dare to say, if this continues, i'll be able to complete the 12km AHM in an hour which is my target. That's 5 mins per km ran.

Today i asked my friend who has a girlfriend this question. 'Do you miss every now and then now that you have already been with her for 5 years plus'. His answer to me is that sometimes yes, sometimes no. Not seeing my own girlfriend does makes me miss her at times. I can't imagine myself in 5 years time with my dear. I would still want to miss her like how i did when i'm in Tekong for BMT one year ago.

I've finally served one year of National Service on 20th July 2007. Approximately one more year to go and i'll be free. I thought to myself, for the past one year, i have only one person to thanks - my mother who has been there for me when i needed her. She helped me washed my clothes when i'm in Tekong and cooked my favourite dishes knowing that SFI food actually sucks to the core and i hate them. The other person is none other than my Mrs Dear. I can still rememer how she helped my pass my time in Tekong, how she helped my overcome my depressed moments and accompany during my free times. Now that i've passed one year, the other one year shouldn't be too much of a problem.

I've been hooked onto movie recently. I'm into movies like how i used to be with my friends. So many nice movies coming up and if i really can, i would love to catch them all. But money is a big factor as to why i can't. That day i was watching a short part of 'My Bean'sHoliday'. Out of the sudden, i remember how interesting and funny that show is that set me looking for it online...i'm just waiting for it to be complete.....faster pls..

Free Movie Tickets Won

Well, so many things at home recently. Nothing good happened lately. Everything is not running as smooth as before. Each time i came back home, all i see are troubled faces expressed out of my parents. It out of the sudden made me realised how old they are, how they have aged, how much they have gone through from bringing two monkeys (me and my bro) up. Without them, there's absolutely no us. It's saddening that despite all their troubles, there's nothing i could do. Consoling them seems to be the best thing i could do, another was to pray. I hope everything will turn out just fine.

A Pair Of Free Movie Tickets Won

I received a newsletter from the movie club of SAFRA. I clicked on it and it brought me to a webpage. There's several questionaire where they asked about each of every show. Answer can be found as it's provided. Greedy me took part in all of them. Lucky enough, i won myself a pair of tickets to the movie 'Invisible Target'.

Cleared my final guard duty yesterday. It was a strange day. I loved the guard duty yesterday. It seems like more of a relaxing day for me. Doing nothing but sleep, eat and watch tv. I even studied in camp. Do everything at my house pace, without anyone disturbing. Sleep as and when i like, eat as and when i like as usual. I seriously look forward to my next weekend guard duty.

When's my next neoprint? Where's my couple shirt?

Random

Monday watched 'Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix' with Mrs Dear. Although i've never read any of their book before. I've heard the review of this movie, they mentioned that you've to read the storybook so that you can fully understand the movie. But that's so not true. As much as i'm not a big fan Harry Potter, i find it quite a nice movie given their fighting scenes and story plot.

I've finally bought the Zen Stone Plus. Sadly, the armband and the silicon case was out of stock. It's ok, i'll be patient. Meanwhile, i shall slowly transfer all my songs in and start indulging in it.

Recently had quite a few heart matters..will talk about it when i'm in a much better mood. That cushion was there as a surprise to you. Hope you love it

I've finally started school. Two lessons i've attended so far. Knowing more and more friends. It's always great making friends. The lecturer is fun and makes the whole lecture really interesting. I've really learn alot of things through this very lesson. Hopefully, my first lesson on tml module will be good, it's an indian lecturer you know...Pray

Creative Zen Stone

I had a bad dream, or should i say, it's a nightmare. It makes my mind go wild. I knew i cried, but i'm not sure whether it's in the dream or when i woke up. I find myself waking up so early and couldn't get to sleep. It's one nightmare that i would never want to find myself in again.

Creative Zen Stone

I'm thinking getting this cool mp3 player by Creative - Zen Stone. It's as small as a pebble. Portable anywhere i go and even when i'm out jogging. Finally, i found a companion, my jogging companion.

Exercise Plan

I've got a new exercise plan. I mentioned awhile ago that i'm going to start exercising to get rid of my tummy. It's working. So far, i'm able to exercise as and when i like. My dear has been understanding.

I don't have any exercising buddy, so it would mean my jogging and workout would all have to be alone. I realised that gym's not the only place where you can work. A dumbbell set at home and you could keep it going. My main priority is to get rid of my tummy. My dear dislikes to exercise as well. That makes me all alone. It's often easy to get disheartened if i'm doing it all by myself but thankfully, i have a motivation at home - my brother. His 6 pacs is there and he exercises almost everyday.

Given my schedule and commitment, it would be close to impossible that i exercise everyday. But i've come up with a plan. With the main priority in getting rid of my tummy, i'll jog at least 3-5 times a week, alongside with crunches and sit-ups, at least 100 everyday! I started this programme 2 weeks ago, the effects is mild, but it's there. I strongly believe if i keep it going, it will eventually goes my way.

Rants

It's been an issue ever since months ago..i suppose it's still an issue and it will still continue to be an issue..I can't do it in the past, now i'm slowly learning and letting go. However, there's still certain things i totally won't allow. Like many said in Army, if you want to commit wrong things, go ahead, just don't be caught by anyone. To me, this applies to our lives as well. You want to do things which i don't allow, go ahead without me knowing. If not, it's the end.

I feel i remained the right to think. Every slightest adnormal act or words will set me thinking. No one is perfect. So, at times, it evokes my sensitivity.

There has been changes. Like what my lecturer for my very first lesson mentioned, in today's world, everything is changing - economy, human beings, politics, nature, technology etc etc..
I have to admit i've change quite abit. Only due to the fact that i've gotton used to certain things. However, such changes will only be realised when warned. I've tried never to take things for granted. I've tried to keep my promises. All of it, i did..Sometimes, things tend to go out of hand and i'll not be myself. Sorry if it has ever affected you. I'm still the same as before, i will still be the same in the future.

PS: I'm not a Barbaric And Stupid Toad Accepting Rude Denunciation

NA

Finally i got another weekday well spent. I've applied leave along with dear who got her off.

We made plans on that very day and it's what i've been looking forward to and finally, we had to chance to do it - A visit to the Singapore Zoo. The last time i went zoo was very long ago. I've totally no impression of this place anymore.

It's quite fresh a feeling. All the animals, one by one, went sinking in my mind. It's amazing seeing live animals around you, performing shows and interacting. But basically, we'll only get the chance to see all that when the zoo-keepers were feeding. The animals there were basically eating and sleeping, lest those performing.

Took quite a few photos..Enjoy...

Random

Mood swings..out of the sudden, slightest things that happen will set me fuming with fustration and irritation. No matter who and what. One moment i'm all smiles, the other moment, i'm irritated. I don't know why. Is this natural? Why am i feeling this way? But still no worries...i'll be fine in a little while. Some music before i sleep will do the job..no one to disturb me...and i mean NO ONE!

I still want to keep myself fit. I realise how important it is to maintain a healthy body. Exercise and diet control. I don't want to end up like a person falling sick all the time. I don't want to go out of shape. So before anything i mentioned earlier happen, i feel i ought to do something about it. I used to be too focused on playing, eating, hanging out with friends, with family, with my dear. I neglected my health, on impluse most of the time. I should not let myself down. I want support from people, not doubts. I'll influence people around me to help me and themselves. If not, i can do it on my own.

I still hasn't adapt to certain attitudes. I never will. Only time can tell, but i'm always fed up at the thought of that topic. It hasn't affect me much but i'm sure when time passes, it will set me on blazing fire. Even as i'm typing, i feel frustrated. Stupid CPU letting of some stupid sound, i know it's old but i'm not able to fixed it. It's showing signs it's spoilt.

How many times do you feel guilty and you feel so regretful for doing it? How many times do you feel guilty and you blame yourself and at the same time, not getting any understanding? How many times do you feel guilty and there's no chance for you to redeem it? I had enough. I'm going to wash my hands of things i shouldn't have bothered in the first place. I disliked alot of things. Out of the sudden, i've become pessimistic. Life has gone to the dark side. I'm not liking it. My job, my room, myself.

Watched transformers. A very nice movie. I was still feeling happy when i watched this movie. A very nice movie, the actions, the characters and transformation...all so cool...Rushed to watch Goal 2. Nice movie...but still have to wait till Goal 3 is out, the ending sux...it shouldn't be that way, but still, i'm looking forward to that very last part of this movie series. That sms didn't helped. I'm feeling lousy. I'm just going to close my eyes and rest my mind. Not going to get bothered by anything, anyone.

Hot Weather / Free Movies!

Hot hot hot!! The weather recently is so hot that i started to perspire right away i showered. Can you just imagine, even with my air-con in my room on, i still feel the heat. What is going on, i hate this feeling of being sticky. Especially at work, wearing that thick uniform and work, the feelings simply irks me. I hate this weather....i know there's more of such sucky days to come...haiz...

I'm going to get a pair of free movie tickets (Harry Potter and the Order of Pheonix) no matter what. I missed the previous giveaways and this time round, i'm not going to miss it. I'm glad that i joined the movie club. At first when i joined, i thought i've wasted money. However that thinking changed right after i start receiving mails about the their free giveaways of movie tickets. Hee...from now on, i'll have lots of free movie tickets....yay yay yay!!

SAF Day

How i wish there's more of such days like today. I merely reported to work for like less than 2 full hours today. Anyway, it's SAF days, where pledge were taken, speech were delivered under that hot sun.

Pool session was great with Fishball and Su. I'm having fun in pool, with a greater enjoyment. I'm starting to get people to love pool. I'm going to continue influencing people around me to love this hobby. People whom i feel that deserve to me..

I used to compare myself with my friends, how they got along so well with their army mates whereas i don't really. Nevertheless, i'm glad i found two. I had stucked up idiots in my office, to be exact, there are lots of them. Mostly childish ones which i can't be bothered with their lame jokes and stupid actions. How i wish September come fast...how i wish more that January was tml. Then they will all be gone, gone from my lives forever. Cool.....

I found myself a cheap cool deal. One whole round (near 20cm) chocolate cake costing only a mere $4.50. Where to find it? Ang Mo Kio Hub. Just go to the bakery section where the bread and eggs are, you'll be able to find it. AMK Hub has been my favourite hangout recently. The durian shop was such a hit that there's queue always. Long queue somemore. The number of shops there, not to mentioned, can't easily compete with those at Cineleisure / Plaza Singapura.

I'm glad Great Singapore Sale still has some days to go. It'll last till 22nd of July. I'll still be able t catch some great deals around. I've this bad feeling that even though i wanted to, time won't allow me. School's starting soon for me but Dear as well. I reckon we will be too busy for such things. Nevertheless, i'm always making plans so that i'm always looking forward towards something...Next up, this coming Sat...Come fast!!

Friendship

I'm photoshop crazy now. Crazier than ever. I have this strong temptation to give all my photos a new touch - putting special effects, giving them a special touch etc. It's not only fun, but make a photo look more than just a photo, but a piece of nice work for me. There's alot more i have to learn and at the same time, i've learnt alot.

I must say i'm a lucky guy, for i have friends who's always willing to stood by me. Hhow friendship is usually maintained and how i maintained them. When one can be your friend, it's already fate. Maintaining them takes two hands to clap. Friendship is two-sided. There's no one giving and one receiving. It's all about giving and taking at the same time from each other.

I'm glad till now, my friends's still with me. I pitied those who just left their friends behind, those whom they were once so close. For my dear, i would say, if they deserved to be, they will be. No amount of effort would paid off it just doesn't meant to work out, but in the first place,you must also do your part.

I'm officially free. No more mapling like crazy. Chatting, watching Pokemon and music accompany me through my nights now. Anyone who has any nice games, please lend me. All of you have...

School's starting soon. I'm excited. I wonder how is it going to be like. Will i be the oldest there? Hmm, no matter what, i can feel being like a student again. I'll only look forward. Next time for me to look forward to - chalet. I can't wait to spend a chalet with my dear again. When will it be? Can it be soon....?

Transformers and Goal 2, here i come..