Luck

When a person gets really unlucky, he or she can really be on the down side of his life. Luck is a myterious thing. Sometimes, defined as superstitious as well. I do not really believe in pure luck, but i believe luck does play a part in our everyday lives, sometimes, a major role even.

I count myself lucky on the whole. Lucky for the fact that i have such wonderful parents, lucky to have a brother as my growing up companion, lucky to fall in love once and learnt a huge lesson from it, lucky to been through minor hardship and overcoming them, lucky to have friends who i can share my life with, lucky to even have live this long and far.

Luck is a silent companion, sometimes bringing new surprises, sometimes bringing you a chance to meet your new interest in life or even a small windfall. Most of the time, you probably never pay any attention to luck. In fact, chances are, you only think of luck when you are betting on some lottery or soccer match or participating in some contest.

But luck is so much more than just that. Being lucky is a blessing. I always relate luck to superstition. But when bad luck befalls on me, i most of the time, choose to blame on luck. Simple question will always be asked 'Why me?' And most of the time, i am never able to get any answer out of it.

I had a fairly good example. I've never won any mahjong game since start of this year, until June. It's only recently that i started winning. Lady luck wasn't with me, be it what colour of underwear i wore. I always asked myself why did i lose so much, but never had an answer. Sometimes, then you had bad luck falling on you, it's a streak and there's no escaping. I was just sick yesterday, beginning with a flu, subsequently, i felt restless. The fact that my computer went haywire and a stupid simple mistake caused me to lose all my data in my external hard disk - my photos, my movies, my music....all gone. Brinigng a headache and an itchy nose to work didn't help to start the week positively. A cut on my thumb just make everything else worse and i ponder, why the hell am i so unlucky. Naturally, things's turn better, and relief comes after.

I always feel it works that way. You need to experience the hard and difficult before you can taste the sweetness. I can just simply conclude that i rather been contented with what i have, rather than harping on what i've lost. Because in the end, there's nothing really to lose.

Pissed...

I'm super pissed at the fact that especially when i'm running my game, my computer would shuts down on its own. It's still a fairly new computer, and a rather good one even. The fact that it fails me at certain point each time my computer is on disappoints me more than it actually pissed me.

I invested so much in this computer system, only hoping for this particular system to run as smoothly as possible. So what now, i'm faced with a near useless laptop and a 'going to spoil' computer, which means, i probably have to pound in more money just to ensure i get the hope of getting either a new notebook or having my desktop to run smoothly again.

It's either the power supply or the ram or the graphics card or everything altogether. Dammit...a hole in my pocket, yet again. Not excluding the trouble of fixing it or rather, getting my friend to fix it for me...

Army Half Marathon

This year Army Half Marathon was a killer. After missing out last year's Marathon, i told myself, i musn't miss out this year. As usual, i went into the marathon, unprepared.

Some asked why pay to torture yourself. I always thought if i'm prepared going into the marathon, i will do better. But each time i did a long distance run, i always aimed to complete it. It's not something i can give up halfway because it's a 'once you start, there's no turning back' race. Each time i did a long distance run, it's a race. A race against myself. Endurance, determination, self-discipline all comes in.

Completing a marathon is no easy feat and has always been an achievement for me. Probably, it works the same on life as well...we are all racing everyday, against time, against ourselves etc...

Happy Happy Mildred

Happy Birthday Mildred..May All Your Birthday Wishes Come True....
Hope you like the present....

Random

It's like tons of work piled up. The fact that NATAS Fair is coming ain't helping. Calls comes in one after another, endless. I like the fact that i'm busy at work, because it simply makes time pass faster, at the same time, u get a little stressed, but that is what spurs me on.

But in terms of academics, i think i'm starting to fail and lose myself. No longer i find myself able to study the way i loved to. No longer i find myself having the enthusiasm to drill the textbook into my head. Exam's next week, i'm still nowhere to be seen at the halfway line. I need to buck up...and motivation...anyone?

Celebrated two birthdays over the weekend. Photos soon!

生日快乐!

Happy Birthday To My Dearest Mother.

HeartAches, HeartBreak....

What's the most hurtful thing that can happen? Usually, the most hurtful thing isn't physical, but emotional or mentally. I realised that not too long ago. Relationship bring one of the worst pain to one.

I never thought it would be my turn, and when it's my turn, it turned hell for me. But since i endured that period of down, i decided that nothing tougher can hit me. But i was wrong. Come to think of it....
Who was there for me when i was young?
Who was there for me when i needed someone?
Who was there for me when i endured what i thought is the toughest part of my life?
Who was there for me when i had happy things to share?
There's only one person i can think of, my mother. Sometimes, we shared our heart, divide our love so much that we neglect those who constantly showered us with love. But come to think of it, those who really loves you, are the ones who share your pain with you, and not the only who bring you pain.

I often thought, what would happen if my mother ever leaves me, the moment i wanted to think of it, i immediately distract myself, because, i couldn't hold myself to ponder any further for i know, i will be very affected.

Relationships are complicated. True feelings develop into kinship. Even husband and wife, boyfriend and girlfriend, the most stable relationship to me, will eventually develop into a special kinship, which, should be able to withstand almost every obstacles for if not, it won't last.

No point harping to someone who won't share that with you. I learnt my lesson. Hatred made me move on faster than expected. It's a painful process. But one very important lesson i learnt is...
Loving someone is easy
Maintain a relationship is difficult
Letting go of it is even more difficult

By letting go, it really make you see the whole picture which only people who truly let go understands and it might even be one of the wisest decision you've ever made....i'll just hope those who meant to be together to last, and those, who don't...letting do is probably the best solution of all......

Litlle Relief

I finally clicked 'ignore', after 8 long months........

Life's Full of Regrets

I remembered i once had a post, similarly, it's about regrets. I flashback that post, browse it through. I realised that in life, regrets are inevitable. Sometimes, we try to mend the hole, but no matter how hard we tried, the hole will never be patched back.

I had my fair share of regrets as well anyway. Most, i would just acknowledged it and smile it off, looking at the bright side of life. But for some, it remained a regret, probably will remain that way in time to come as well.

Events come and go in your life. Same goes for people. Some become your friends, some gradually became better friends, some's just aquaintances and some, they just disappear out of your life. I never know the real meaning of friends, until i reach my late teens. To me, then, friends became something from just a mere playmate to someone who's my soulmate, or probably more.

MiuMiu was the best pet i've ever owned. Till now, his death was sad. No matter how natural he died. He made me realised the word 'cute'. Then, when i first bought him, he was tiny, white and could barely opened in eyes. Barely half a year, he's struck with sickness. And slightly after a year, he parted. I suppose it's the end of his suffering, but i regretted not spending enough time with him. I wished i could play with him more, but no longer could i did.

Wonderful friend i once had. Till today, still just as wonderful. We were close before. Subsequently, i couldn't remember how things eventually gone fading...That was the friendship i truly cherished. I wouldn't blame anyone but myself for how things has changed. Yes, things changed. Humans changed. But i believe what can happened before, can happen again. Be it positively, or negatively. I hope i can find back the bond i once had with friends i cherish.