Moody Day

Mood swings seldom happened to me. It rarely happened to me. I just don't know what gotton onto me today. I'm having lots of mood swings today. Blowing hot and cold to people as and when i like. I don't feel comfortable. I don't feel happy. I don't feel normal. I feel a sense of moodiness. I hate this feeling. This feeling just spoils the whole day. I don't know what's going on as well.

Seeing my friend in such state does remind and warn me of certain thing. Sometimes, we just cannot afford to make mistakes. There's no turning for certain mistakes you made. It's only human to err, but sometimes, we humans should have known better that this fact doesn't apply to any situation all the time. Seeing him in this state, i'm speechless. I tried putting myself in his shoes, i cannot imagine. What he's going through in his relationship is exactly what i've gone through in the past, the only difference is that, his is worse, much much worse as compared to mine. It's make us wonder sometimes what love can really do. It can make your heart glow, it can burn your heart down as well.

I want to buy new comp. This laptop is really driving me crazy. I'm scouting around for good bargains around Singapore, but it seems i can't get a good deal. Yes, i'm picky but only because of my bad experience in the past. Anyone who has good lobang, please let me know!!!

Dear's dad bought a new mobile phone just now. It was so cool. With its functions - 3G mobile, mp3 player, radio, bluetooth, 2-mp camera and stuff, it really tempted me to get one. I'll just have to wait till next year when my contracts ends before i can get my hands on a new mobile phone. Dear's going to get the same mobile phone as well. She prefers Nokia whereas i prefer Sony Ericsson. But the phone we are going to get would be Nokia (I let her win, Wahaa). It's still so long away. I still have to be stuck with my 'going to spoil' Sony Ericsson w550i meanwhile...ohh...that sucks

'I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry'

I realised i hasn't been good recently, as in good to my dear. Does such things always happen? When a relationship moves on, longer and longer, must there always be either one taking the other half for granted? I asked myself, i couldn't find the answer. I warned myself at times as well, but i fell into this 'trap' unknowingly sometimes. I know i'm bad at times, but i can't control myself when such things happen. It's not some excuses i cooked up. I also know when a person gets angry, any words can come out, be it words that's going to hurt or 'kill' you.

I thank my dear for 'slapping' me sometimes, waking me up in that wrong state of mind. Everyone matures from relationship and therefore changes are bound to happen. It's just all about ensuring the love is still full of passion and stuff and no way am i going to make it stale.

Watched 'I Now Pronounce You Chuck And Larry'. A very funny movie indeed. Worth the weekend price. It's really brings some facts about certain aspects of homosexuality. Still, most would still find it disgusting that gays actually exist.

Counting down to my birthday...!!

Last Exam Paper

Last paper to go. It's seem that there's little to prepare but it also seems that i hadn't prepare enough. Formulas and formats all seems to filled up my brain but on the other hand, i wonder will it all be effectively poured out when i'm in the exam hall. Uncertainty is so overwhelming that even i'm being put in a weird state of mind.

Stomach wasn't at its best these two days. Within two days, i've run in and out of toilet several times. This uncomfortable stomach has made me lose more concentrate in my studies. I'm just going to try my best and like what Dear said, it's my last paper. I can just go in there can give my best shot! Bang!

Will there be a judgement daY?

Wishes

First paper over. The feeling was great. It wasn't easy studying for this paper, especially after i have not see the word 'examination' for such a long time. The tons of memorising work made me confused. However, i'm glad that it's over. All those who wishes me goodluck for my paper did has their wishes paid off i supposed. I'm confident to score well for this paper. I remembered almost everything and could really answered almost all the questions. Let's pray i'll be able to pass this paper with flying colours.

One down, one more to go. Accounting paper's on Saturday. It's the killer one. With all the fomulas and question format to memorise, i'm sure to squeeze out every ooze of my brain juices. I just hope that i won't suffer from some weird state which make me forget everything when i see the question paper. I have one more day to study for this paper but meanwhile, i shall give myself this late night off and have a good rest.

Today i enjoyed that short moments with Dearie. Suddenly, that blur image of the nightmare that i had last night was eliminated the moment i see her. I also don't know why i sent her that sms, maybe because of the fear the nightmare gave me.

Suddenly, i wished for so many things.
I wish for Dear to perm her hair.
I wish to drive her around for a day in Oct.
I wish for her to be with me for the whole of my birthday.
I wish she could wear those cute little t-shirt and shorts that make her look so casual that i can't help hugging her.
I wish for a short getaway with her.
I wish for a black pants.
I wish for her birthday to come fast so that she would be so surprised and happy for all the surprises i gave her.

Which of the wishes will actualy come true, i don't know. But if all were to come true, then it would be great.

Exam's Coming

First time having such a nice chat with them. It's been a long time since i've chatted with like around 7 people in a conversation window. Certainly feel that mild bond with them. Even more happier than Dear is able to click with who she wants. Now, she wants more outing with them. And yea, one is coming, on the way. Be patient. Thank god that my guard duty didn't fall on that day.

Birthday's coming in exactly a month time. I wished for lots of present (who doesn't wish for that on their birthday? Duh!). I wonder what kind if surprise will i have this year. Last year's birthday was a great one because it's my 21st. Now it's the first year into the so called adulthood. Nothing much has changed except for the fact that i'm growing older. I look forward to the surprises that Dear's going to give me and hopefully, an outing with my friends, along with a little present from my family. Ohh....please let me grow one year older fast!

Tml's my exams. Hasn't been mugging hard enough, but i managed to studied a few chapters very well. So much so that i could answer all the questions posed by Dear when she tested me just now. Let's pray the paper which come out tomorrow will be the one i studied. Wish me goodluck whoever is reading this.

I Want Mooncakes

Watched Rogue Assasin on Saturday. A truly nice movie. I'll give it a 4/5 rating. Don't know why, whenever i watched Jet Li in an English movie, it's always terrific, as compared to all his chinese movies which was mainly Huang Fei Hong. Lots of action in this movie, with twists towards the end of the movie. I would think it's worth the weekend money and would recommend it.

Finally had Dear's long awaited burger kind meal. Of course we were 'clever' enough to get hold of those tempting coupons so that we could actually eat our worth. Chicken burger, Fish burger, Chicken Tenders, Onions Rings, Fries and two drinks was our lunch. Went into the fast food outlet feeling like a starved beggar and went out of it feeling like a fat buddha.

Exams's coming in a few days time. The last time i took an exam was years ago, to be exact, 5 years ago. Exams?!?! What was that, it seems to stranger to me now. I had serious problem memorising those words, sentence, paragraphs etc etc. All i could sense is the frustration of not being to get them into my head. Help anyone?

One can't agree more that wherever you work, there bound be to all sorts of people. I've been mentioning this particular person for several entries since months ago. Today, he got himself mentioned in this post again. Congrats. Cunning as he is. Given his rank, by right he shouldn't be able to do anything to me, not even to direct order me. Well, but it's because of his position in the office. I got a huge arrow from him for no reason, not that i'm not willing to do, but because he's threatening me. I'm certainly not going to take this lying down. Someday, i'll give him a good lesson.

Mooncakes are everywhere now. Yet, i haven't got a taste of it even till now. And i suppose it will be only until Wednesday before i could have my very first bite of mooncake. I've been trying to find Snowskin Chocolate Flavoured mooncake but my search was to no avail. I'm disappointed. Just when my craving for mooncake this year was especially strong, i couldn't have my wish. Sad....

Having a bad headache. A few more late nights and i'll be relieved......i can't wish more for the time to pass faster...I miss dearie online as well....

Don's Birthday Outing

Got my pair of free movie tickets. Wanted to catch a romance movie, but that pair of free movie tickets doesn't qualify for that movie. Sadly, i had to change to Even Almighty. I missed Bruce Almighty which was screened in Cinema years ago, and i thought it might be a good comedy to watch. But the choice was a wrong move. Sad to say...

It's a stupid comedy. The funny scenes were to little to qualify this movie as a comedy. Lousy and uninteresting story plot which was kind of boring. Plus i was watched in a poor ambience long with a crazy fat lady who kept laughing like a Hyena. Totally a bad show and i seriously asked you guys that if only you guys had no movie to watch, if not, don't choose this movie.

My rating for this movie was: 1/5.

Finally, Dear's internet connection is back to full working order. I can finally look forward to those late night chats with her, like how i used to do it when we were still not together a year plus ago. I miss the online her. Come back to me Dearie!!!

Celebrated Don's birthday yesterday. Well, not really celebrating but it's more of an outing. This time round there's 10 people. 4 couples and one 'extra' couple. Certainly a rare kind of outing whereby i supposed everybody enjoyed themselves. After the outing, my and Dearie went to chill. First time chilling out with Dearie for so long. I enjoyed myself very much yesterday.

I realised that i actually don't mind the bathing late, i don't mind the mattress, i don't mind the living room...As long as when i open my eyes, you are within my sight. Cam we have more of that, Dearie?

PS: Mary said she loves John.

Happy Birthday Little Brother

Once again, a year older. But still, his temper is the same. He turned stronger. He turned fitter. He appeared more mature, along with a few strands of white hair. For the past 19 years, i've see how much changes in him. From a cute little baby boy, to a fearful and clever little boy, to a smart and bad tempered teenager to lastly what he is today - a fearless boy whom throws his temper around rudely but still, as smart and clever as ever. This day has arrived where it's my duty to wish him. Happy Birthday Little Brother and May All Your Wishes Come True. Meanwhile, change that foul smelly temper of yours and i'm sure your birthday would be much better. Hope you like the present me and Shirley gave you.

Back to the Office

I'm finally back to the office after 2 weeks of slacking. The course is something i certainly miss. Miss sleeping in class,miss watching the documantaries on youtube and talking cock with my coursemates.

The feeling seem different. Got a huge arrow today. Tasked to do so many thing. Out of the sudden, i can't seem to wait for time to pass faster. There's some really huge shuffling of manpower in office in months to come, probably December. I just can't wait. My current boss is said to be posting out where i'll be under a new boss. No matter what, i'm crossing my fingers and pray real hard that my new boss is going to be a nice person.

There's plenty reasons to hate a person. But there's this person in my office that extremely irritating and he's simply a hypocrite. Just because of his position, he pushes people around. I can't stand the way he works and i feel like slapping him. Some day, i'm going to teach him a huge lesson. Slowly and slowly, i'm going to make him pay. Yes, make him remember! Wahaa! I'm turning evil.

Don's taking his driving test tml, wish him all the best and hopefully he can passed and i'll be able to work on the proposal. Alright don?

I'm crazy over the mooncakes. Right now, i just can't wait for next week to come and then i'll be able to get my salivery mouth on thos mouth-savouring mooncakes. Snowskin mooncakes and ice cream mooncakes!! Yum yum...those who dislike mooncakes or have more than extra mooncakes, kindly donote it to me please! Make me fat!!

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Happy 16th Month Anniversary to Dear Dear! Well, i actually forgot this very day until Dear wishes me first. When the clock even struck 12am, we didn't even get the chance to wish each other, because a few friends has visited us at our chalet! It's my dear's colleague and my ex colleague, along with her boyfriend and their friends. Just so happen it appeared that is was one of their friend's birthday and they bought lots of food and a big birthday cake! We had fun chatting with them. Entertaining their friend was with his lame jokes. Haa..

Chalet was fun and i would certainly want to go back there again. I enjoyed it myself but it seems not so for Dear even she claimed she does. I'm proud to say the 2-pax bbq was a success, thanks to some last minute buying and preparing. A big lesson learnt though, never go into a chalet without full preparation.

Both of us went in there and basically nothing but clothes. We ended up thinking we might just get bored to death. Without much food and tools, we went to the supermarket and grab whatever we can find and needed. The dvd player weren't used as well and we thought the next time if we're going to go back there again, we are sure to blast the player off..

A huge pity that my digital camera failed me this time round. A real disappointment the moment i on my camera and it displayed 'no battery'. I'll make sure i get it charged fully before i bring it out with me the next time.

Recently, Dear said i've been too impatient and fierce to her. Here's to you, sorry that i hasn't been a good boy to you Mrs dear. But do know that my intentions are good, though i've put it in a very wrong way. No matter what, if i've u sad or hurt, sorry Mrs Dear and Love you always. Muacks!

Stoning Away to Guard Duty

I woke up early this morning to find myself stoning away. I'm still waiting for the time to set off for my guard duty, while i'm still suffering from the drowsy effects from the flu medicine i took late last night in an attempt to cure the days of flu. I'm seriously tired. I seriously hope i would ample amount of sleep because tomorrow when i'm back at home from guard duty, it will be another rush off to some last minute preparation for the chalet.

Time are just ticking off slowly while i continue to stone. Stone Stone Stone...ZzzZ

Ups and Downs

Finally got the rest of the exams topics from the lecturer on Wednesday and today. I would prefer business management module very much rather than accounting. They say guys are much better when it comes to numbers and maths, but to me, i would prefer sinking my head into those words and sqeeuze every drip of my brain juice trying to memorize every word that appear in the testbook and notes.

Exam's only in 2 weeks time. Dear managed to wake me up, i did studied for the past few days but it's really very little. I'm going to a good whole time of tomorrow in camp and study, making up for the lost time.

Dear's computer isn't working well, or rather, it's her internet connection that's giving the problems. I still didn't managed to relive the old times whereby i would chat with her till real late. Just purely chatting in our own world, with super fast replies, as though we were chatting on the phone. Anything under the sun were out from our mouth. When is it going to happen again?

I finally completed my course today! I'm unofficially a 3rd Sgt now! Promotion was the main point, the main feast is the pay increment. It's a whopping $140 increase. Woo...maybe i'm a little too over reactive but c'mon. $140 really meant alot of NSF. We're a pathetic bunch of poor beggars ok!!

I'm just hoping for my guard duty to finish off soon tomorrow. Afterwhich i'll be spending our little world in our chalet. Just the two of us, and a quite pathetic bbq. 2-person bbq might be new and boring to some, but i believe that we can enjoy the most out of it, right dear? Can't wait...Here i come!!

The Man Who Carried His Wife Till The End Of Time

Someone sent this to me and i find it quite touching. Something that i find certain details quite useful in terms of relationships.

The story is as follows:

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school. Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs.

Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said,Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.?I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body.This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes. Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry.. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart.

The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning. I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded.The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old. I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious. She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said.

I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

Weekend Fun

Outing for the 2nd time with Gav and Don and of course along with our own beloved girlfriends. But this time round, there's an addition - Jonathan, the Birthday Boy and JJ and his girlfriend. Well, it was a dinner intended to celebrate Jon's birthday. Chose a under-expectation venue to settle our dinner- Adam Road Food Centre. A very disappointing place. The variety of food was way too limited and the food there doesn't taste that nice. I'll never go back there again!

After that, it was Mr Bean's cafe @ opposite Paradiz centre. A nice but expensive place to chill in. Well, by then, all our girlfriends were already fanscinated by Vicki, JJ's girlfriend. She was funny, talkative and entertaining. Well, i could imagine the boredom with her around. She really knows how to break the ice between people. Anyway, gave Jon a Cologne as a birthday gift and of course, a surprise Birthday cake planned by me and Don, shared by everyone else as well.

Jon with his Birthday Cake.

Happy Birthday Jonnie Girl. Glad you made it another year and not forgetting us. May all your wishes come true (wahaa! i know what's ur birthday wishes)

Oops, out of the sudden, i remember my bro's birthday coming soon as well. Well, i really ought to buy something for him real soon. But all i can think of is some NDS accessories, but when the hell is he going to get the NDS that he has been talking about so often recently. Seems like i must starting dropping hints to go get that game console before i have to crack my head again for new ideas on his birthday present.

It's always a headache after a few years getting present for the same person. It's limited to what we can get given the amount of money we can and are able to spend. That goes the same for my Dearie. Her birthday's coming and i'm too, already cracking my brain over it. I'm just afraid she would be able to enjoy it as much as she did last year.

Dear overnight at my house on Sat night. We had plans and actually wanted to do it before we sleep, but each time, we never failed to doze off. We fell asleep after watcjing 'The Break Up". Sadly, our jigsaw puzzle still's not completed and also, our plans for our chalet next week wasn't planned as well.

We slept till super late the next day. We ever hardly sleep till that late ever since our commitments started piling up since last year. School, work, family, friends, love etc etc. Well, at least the day was well spent. We completed the movie, 'The Break Up' by Jennifer Anniston. It's good to watch such romance movie at times to constantly allow some recall of some good memories between me and Dear. Sometimes, such movies also taught us important lessons in terms of handling relationships.

I can say i've grown more mature in relationship because i've learnt more as well, not only from experiences of others but also from my Dear. All those scoldings and naggings certainly did help. I always treat a quarrel as an important lesson to allow both of us to understand each other more and to solve things through. It sure helps to strengthen our bonds although at times, it doesn't really helps. I've seriously matured slowly and i seriously hope i can be one whom my dear can reply on totally (Even though she claims she can and has already relied on my fully).

Treated my Dearie to Seoul Garden buffet that evening as a reward on her results. Dear had always asked me to remind her to study and encourage her as well. At times, i failed to understand her situation but she didn't complained. This time round, she didn't prepared well for her exams yet her results was better than expected, for this, i should really reward her and give her a good kiss. Muacks Muacks Mrs Dear! Back to that buffet, Dear mentioned Seoul Garden buffet's being abit overpriced. Well, i have to agree with that. Just that 10% service charge and 7% GST adds up to near 10 bucks. Total bill for two is already 47 bucks. Gosh! Seeing that just made my feel motivated to eat to my fullest.

Our sumptous spread of food

I kept eating meat and prawns and some other stuff but Dear ate more of those veggies. She came to buffet to eat veggies. Well, to me, i think it's not that valuable to eat veggies given the amount you pay (even though she doesn't need to pay cos i'm treating her as a reward to her) whereas she feels that she should eat what she loves. Haa, well, i seriously shouldn't controlled that. Two rounds of food and we're almost done. We wrapped up a day with a mini contest between the both of us. We each made and created our own desserts. I'm intending to put it up for voting. Kindly vote through the tagboard, stating whether you vote for A or B. Wahaa, Deearie, i'm going to win you!!!!

Recently, i'm been hooking myself on movies, and not only that but also documentaries as well. Documentaries on stuff like prehistoric monsters, beasts and dinosaurs that i've been so interested since young. I missed some of the documentaries when it was screened on Central few years back. Well, i finally managed to catch them all in Youtube. A few more episodes to go and i shall complete all of the series. I'm going to dig out more documentaries on geography and animals. It's amazing at times to see how such stuff evolves and lives.

Muddy Disposal

Boo! Finally, i'm able to blog again..! Firstly, congrats to my dear. I'm sure it's the kind of results we didn't expect that's for sure. Never dwell on it. Now that results is out, move on. It's not that bad afterall. Like what i mentioned in that postcard, it's just a step closer to success. Thankfully. Jia You and you'll be able to make it, with my support and help of course. ;)

I felt sad i wasn't able to be there for you yesterday afternoon when you really need me. But still, i feel that whatever decision you made, it would be the right one because only you know what is best for you. I'll help you whenever can so fret not. =)

Disposal was shagged yesterday. I'm chosen to dispose the mortar bomb by electric method, which of course is kind of dangerous. I even had to remove my own static electricity by earthing myself because any static electric in touch with the electric detonator will ignite it, causing explosion.

I was gladful i'm one of the few luckier ones to be able to view the explosion. Though from afar, but it's good enough. Not many can view such a picture and i'm thankful my day of all those carrying, moving up and down those muddy ground didn't go to waste. At least, my eyes were able to feast itself with that few mere seconds of a wonderful moment.

Skipped school for the first time. What a bad boy i am. I've no choice, my whole army uniform was smeared with mud, especially with the spotlight on my super muddy boots, everyone was looking at my boots, thinking what the hell am i doing.

I'm glad i finished my assignment by MYSELF on time. I'm proud of myself. I'm really determined to do well. One more week and i'll be digging my whole head into the books. Getting prepared for the exams!

Bad me also didn't accompanied my dear at night yesterday. I was too shagged plus sick. Thankfully, i have her being so understanding towards me. And even better, she's staying over tonight! Bonus to me! Wahaa! Gonna meet Xero 4 tonight. Wonder what kind of outing will it be this time round, hopefully a good one.

Lastly, Happy Birthday to Jonnie Girl. Piak!

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Has been worrying for my assignment. Now that one module's assignment has been settled, it's now left with the more difficult one – Accounting Assignment.

I've tried the questions so hard and so many times that i just couldn't get it. But can't blame me as well, some of the items given in the questions weren't even taught at all. Thankfully, I've got my friend to thank for hinting me the answers. Well, sometimes, you need to get the answer and find out why that answer before you can really understanding. Studying is weird. Sometimes, you won't even know what the teacher in teaching until you realize yourself.

Another sad thing, i faced quite a few difficulties in Accounting. Although there has been a lot of friends and even Dearie taking Accounting, none of them able to help .Whatever was taught to me seems so different to what was taught to them, although supposedly, it meant the same thing. For my exams which is coming end of this month, i supposed I'll have to really worked hard on myself. Well, I've made big plans in studying with Dear, so Bebe, let's work hard shall we?

Saturday, went to Guan Yin Temple on my own to pray for my mother and Dearie. Let's just hope everything is going to be just fine. I always believe in making sacrifice towards my own belief in my religion so that i can be blessed with what i wished for. Not necessary a must but i feel more secured. I really hope this time round, my Dearie would pulled through.

Today's the day and i've intended to be there for her. By the sound of what she's saying, things doesn't really look good. Thankfully, she has agreed to come to my house so if whatever bad happens, i'm there. My shoulders is there. It's exactly how i wanted to make her feel. I want to let her know that i'm here for her, just like how i'm there for her one year plus ago.

To: Mrs Dear
(Come what may, accept it with a ready and calm heart. Cry if you must, for i'm here to lend you my shoulder. Time will heal so worry not for treating it as a lesson learnt will pave a better path for you in the future.)
From: Mr Dear

Saturday night, i ate the best porridge i've ever eaten. Chinatown, not sure its exact location. But i told myself to bring my Dearie and mother there some day. If i have the chance, i'll surely bring my friends there as well.

Talking about my friends, i've officially made quite a few friends on that day. They were the ones who brought me to the porridge stall. I've known them through forum and every working day, they were the ones accompanying me throughout my boring day. Finally, i got to see them that day. Thanks Shanel for the birthday treat and Happy birthday to her. They were sweet enough to gave my my advanced present – A Nokia mobile phone, Model 6030. Well, it came as a surprise and i loved it. Thanks people.

Back to that porridge stall, it's a hawker style porridge. They specialise in porridge and sells all types of porridge, ranging from frog-leg porridge to prawn porridge to century egg porridge. I had my share of prawn porridge and guess what, the porridge was super tasty, with addition of the big fat prawn. Even better, it's only $4.20. Super worth it that i kept telling Dearie. Well, i'm definietely going to go back there some day.

This Don has been MIA for quite a few days. Nowadays, MSN's only between me and Gavian and that's all. Well, it's just the honeymoon period for both of them but the way they spent it is just so different. Haa, Donna, better come chat with me on MSN before i start piaking people!

Man Utd's finally picking up their pace and start winning games. Introduction of Saha is defnitely the key to victory. I'm seeing more and more of Man Utd. Hopefully, when Rooney recover, it will be a full strength team with the likes of Giggs, Hargreves, Scholes and some other regulars. Disappointment filled my heart upon the news of the retirement of an important player – Ole Gunnar Solskjaer. But still, his heart lies with Man Utd and he'll continue to serve Man Utd with his experience in years to come.

Yesterday was relaxed. It as though i'm having a getaway with Dearie, the only difference is that it's at my house. Mum and Dad whipped up a sumptous dinner for both of us. Before that, i finally get to play my first badminton game with Dearie. Well, i was practically the one doing most of the running whereas she spent most of the time standing down there. Well, good improvement at least. I look forward to more sports games with her. Shall we, Dearie?

Today's first day of my 3rd Sgt course i would say. It's super bored as you can see, i'm blogging away now. It feels totally like when i'm here nearly a year ago for the Ammunition Technical Training course. Handphone were to be kept, connections to outside world were therefore cut off. Well, it totally feels like before. Lonely and sad. Somehow, i felt better than a year ago but still, the yearn for Dearie is there. Can't wait to see her in 2 hours plus time. Here i come...

R.I.P Antonio Puerta

Within the span of 2 weeks, 3 footballers from all over the world sent a common bad news - all 3 footballers died. Reason of death all has to do with cardiac arrest. One of the more well known one was Antonio Puerta, who collapsed during a match while playing for Sevilla. To add on to the sadness, he was even about to become a father in one and a half month time. Devastating i must say. The other two got their fate sealed up while training with one of them being Chaswe Nsofwa and the other one being Anton Reid. All this highlights the hectic life of a soccer player. Over the years, this has been an issue. Right now, it seems more common. Some clubs has donated money for research in the field of cardio science. Maybe they really should reflect on their hectic schedule and do something about it. If not, it's just pushing the players too hard.

(http://soccernet.espn.go.com/news/story?id=458235&cc=4716) --> Zambian soccer player dies during practice session

(http://soccernet.espn.go.com/news/story?id=457784&cc=4716) --> Sevilla's Puerta, 22, dies after on-field collapse

(http://soccernet.espn.go.com/news/story?id=455131&cc=5739) --> Walsall apprentice Reid dies in training