Life is known only by those who have found a way to be comfortable with change and the unknown. Given the nature of life,there may be no security, but only adventure.
- Rachel Naomi Remen
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Monday, April 26, 2010
Sleeping Late? Think Again
It has been quite a hectic period - it's like both of us were down with some illness at different point of time recently, so much so that it's making us feel stressed out, and feeling more sian much more easily. Everything feels so tensed up lately. And it doesn't help when things are piling up. We decided to attribute it to lack of sleep. Made a few pacts on my own to gain back my 'lost' weight after the shocking chanced discovery over at the clinic last Thursday. It hit me back to that 'phobic era', thankfully, plans has been made to get me back on track, starting with main culprit (assumingly) - sleep. Therefore, i did myself a favour and find out more on what seems to be an underlying consequences many of us are facing.
When you sleep late, body will release tons of destructive hormones, known as cortisol (stress hormone) into our bloodstream, which affects our call health. Staying up late forces body to release them and that is exactly what our body DO NOT need because it increases blood pressure, weakens immune system, slows down growth and cell renewal and interferes with sleep by reducing serotonin levels. Serotonin is useful for regulating of intestinal movements as well as various other functions including regulation of mood, appetite, sleep, muscle contraction and memory and learning. That is also the reason why human beings appear restlees and failed to function properly if they experience inadequate sleep. One could also lose their ability to concentrate and remember things.
If experiencing inadequate sleep, one might have the chance to display irritation, moodiness as well as disinhibition. It's just as worse as provoking a women who's having PMS. I personally feel that there is a vicious cycle between Stress and Sleep. Sleep is the number one cause of sleeping difficulties, and in turn, lakc of sleep also triggers stress. Immune system could also suffer, making one more vulnerable to illness like colds, cough, and other infections or disease.
Apparantly, it's not only how long you sleep that matters but when do you sleep that matters. Best optimal time to sleep is between 11pm to 1am as researched, because it is said that this is the period of time when the body is producing the highest level of growth and regenerative hormones beneficial to our body, which could also means better sleep quality.
Some people will experience no desires to eat, even after few hours after waking up, me included. Found out that it's mainly because our own body entered into a state of survial mode protection and not because we are not hungry. Probably the appetite is not there and few hours later, you start feeling hungry and you can hear your tummy growling. Each time that happens, it spell danger. Think again, a body without food for probably more than 12 hours (assuming you didn't eat supper), how healthy and 'logical' can that be.
When you sleep late, body will release tons of destructive hormones, known as cortisol (stress hormone) into our bloodstream, which affects our call health. Staying up late forces body to release them and that is exactly what our body DO NOT need because it increases blood pressure, weakens immune system, slows down growth and cell renewal and interferes with sleep by reducing serotonin levels. Serotonin is useful for regulating of intestinal movements as well as various other functions including regulation of mood, appetite, sleep, muscle contraction and memory and learning. That is also the reason why human beings appear restlees and failed to function properly if they experience inadequate sleep. One could also lose their ability to concentrate and remember things.
If experiencing inadequate sleep, one might have the chance to display irritation, moodiness as well as disinhibition. It's just as worse as provoking a women who's having PMS. I personally feel that there is a vicious cycle between Stress and Sleep. Sleep is the number one cause of sleeping difficulties, and in turn, lakc of sleep also triggers stress. Immune system could also suffer, making one more vulnerable to illness like colds, cough, and other infections or disease.
Apparantly, it's not only how long you sleep that matters but when do you sleep that matters. Best optimal time to sleep is between 11pm to 1am as researched, because it is said that this is the period of time when the body is producing the highest level of growth and regenerative hormones beneficial to our body, which could also means better sleep quality.
Some people will experience no desires to eat, even after few hours after waking up, me included. Found out that it's mainly because our own body entered into a state of survial mode protection and not because we are not hungry. Probably the appetite is not there and few hours later, you start feeling hungry and you can hear your tummy growling. Each time that happens, it spell danger. Think again, a body without food for probably more than 12 hours (assuming you didn't eat supper), how healthy and 'logical' can that be.
Firstly, everyone's individual sleep needs vary. Some are able to function with as little as 4 hours of sleep, whereas some, after 10 hours of sleep, still feels they are not at their peak of their normal self. Nobody can tells you exactly how many hours you should sleep, afterall, only you know your own body best and well.
To overcome the lack of sleep, as a first step to avoid the caffeine intake i suppose. Exercise also helps you to improve the quality of sleep. And that excludes exercising right before bed. Speaking of which, just when you thought supper (yums) is a nice day to make you feel sleepy, guess what, instead, it could easily increase risk of heartburn which could keep you awake through the night.
Keeping a regular sleep/wake schedule is the most important among all. Bad habits can be developed for example watching TV in bed, taking long naps during the dat to compensate for inadequate sleep at night. A definitely wrong way of compensation i realised. Sleeping in the day and sleep at night is two entirely different thing.
Something as simple as sleeping, can have such a huge impact in our lives. One thing leads to another, same for sleep, whether we have enough sleep or not, reflect on how our day will pass by, somehow, directly or indirectly. So, avoid sleeping late.....
To overcome the lack of sleep, as a first step to avoid the caffeine intake i suppose. Exercise also helps you to improve the quality of sleep. And that excludes exercising right before bed. Speaking of which, just when you thought supper (yums) is a nice day to make you feel sleepy, guess what, instead, it could easily increase risk of heartburn which could keep you awake through the night.
Keeping a regular sleep/wake schedule is the most important among all. Bad habits can be developed for example watching TV in bed, taking long naps during the dat to compensate for inadequate sleep at night. A definitely wrong way of compensation i realised. Sleeping in the day and sleep at night is two entirely different thing.
Something as simple as sleeping, can have such a huge impact in our lives. One thing leads to another, same for sleep, whether we have enough sleep or not, reflect on how our day will pass by, somehow, directly or indirectly. So, avoid sleeping late.....
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Post Exam
Exams had finally ended dramatically I would say. I felt that I used lesser time, more effort to study more than what is expected of myself. Ultimately, the exam papers eventually caught everyone off guard, me included. I realized how as age catches up with me, my memory is really not as good as it used to be. You know jolly well of it when you looked at the exam question paper and feels glad you studied but do not know what to write, all because your memory fails you, at the time, you needs it the most. Nevertheless, I have already tried my best, so yea, I’ll just wait and see.
It’s freedom now, but it seems like I can’t feel anything. It’s going to be a 2 weeks of short break before the pathetic second NATAS fair hit Suntec City, when the girl will finish her exams (finally!!!) and fly to the city of colors (at least some thought so), where eating and shopping seems to be the only thing to do there. I dread the start of May seriously, just because NATAS has to come and spoils everything, well, as always.
After that, probably it’s the start to all the fun things I can think of – just like last year December – the travelling, cooking, eating, playing…BUT before that, let’s talk about the second concert I’ve been to – MayDay concert!
After I missed out on last year concert because of NATAS Fair (holy crap), I told myself the next time they hit Singapore, I’ll definitely be there. And thank god, it’s not even a year wait before my little wish came true and another reason to be even happier, it’s their first outdoor concert in Singapore. The relocation from The Padang to Singapore National Stadium initially was a worry but eventually, it wasn’t much of a concern.
Such nice timing with the concert, circle lines open its door at last. Nothing special about the circle line station, except the train is shorter, very much the same like the ones with purple line. But the architecture of the station was nice. We reached the stadium way early and yet, it’s already packed with crazy fanatics. Queue was long and we had to sweat and bear with boredom for around an hour plus before we were let into the stadium. Nearly ¾ of the stadium was used and the stage is set, huge stage with walkways extending out to the audiences.
Yet, it was another long wait before the concert officially starts. Lights off, curtains down and it was rock and roll all the way. Oceans of blue (light sticks) flooded the stadium as MayDay made their awesome entrance to the stage with cool costumes and dark glasses on!
The whole concept of the concert was nice, with the integration of the computer graphics, the lightings and of course, not forgetting the fireworks. Oh wait, and the super huge robot. A pity, I’m not familiar with much of what they sang but each and every single song they sang, I truly enjoyed it, with the company of wonderful friends. It’s like a contrast of excitement between my sides, one side super high, screaming till both my ears and the girl’s ears couldn’t take it, the other sid, silently indulging in the song. Funny how both me and Zhi Qin laughed at how we were almost halfway through the concert and barely heard of any familiar songs we knew of MayDay.
3/4 through the concert, we are already jumping on the floor to jumping on the chair and it was climatic. Their playing of guitar impressed me and really got everything started for me.
Eventually, the night ended with one song – a song that I’ve always wanted to hear it live. A little wish came true and I indulged the song with the girl before the concert officially ends. Awesome concert and there’s no wonder why I had my regrets last year.
It’s freedom now, but it seems like I can’t feel anything. It’s going to be a 2 weeks of short break before the pathetic second NATAS fair hit Suntec City, when the girl will finish her exams (finally!!!) and fly to the city of colors (at least some thought so), where eating and shopping seems to be the only thing to do there. I dread the start of May seriously, just because NATAS has to come and spoils everything, well, as always.
After that, probably it’s the start to all the fun things I can think of – just like last year December – the travelling, cooking, eating, playing…BUT before that, let’s talk about the second concert I’ve been to – MayDay concert!
After I missed out on last year concert because of NATAS Fair (holy crap), I told myself the next time they hit Singapore, I’ll definitely be there. And thank god, it’s not even a year wait before my little wish came true and another reason to be even happier, it’s their first outdoor concert in Singapore. The relocation from The Padang to Singapore National Stadium initially was a worry but eventually, it wasn’t much of a concern.
Such nice timing with the concert, circle lines open its door at last. Nothing special about the circle line station, except the train is shorter, very much the same like the ones with purple line. But the architecture of the station was nice. We reached the stadium way early and yet, it’s already packed with crazy fanatics. Queue was long and we had to sweat and bear with boredom for around an hour plus before we were let into the stadium. Nearly ¾ of the stadium was used and the stage is set, huge stage with walkways extending out to the audiences.
Yet, it was another long wait before the concert officially starts. Lights off, curtains down and it was rock and roll all the way. Oceans of blue (light sticks) flooded the stadium as MayDay made their awesome entrance to the stage with cool costumes and dark glasses on!
The whole concept of the concert was nice, with the integration of the computer graphics, the lightings and of course, not forgetting the fireworks. Oh wait, and the super huge robot. A pity, I’m not familiar with much of what they sang but each and every single song they sang, I truly enjoyed it, with the company of wonderful friends. It’s like a contrast of excitement between my sides, one side super high, screaming till both my ears and the girl’s ears couldn’t take it, the other sid, silently indulging in the song. Funny how both me and Zhi Qin laughed at how we were almost halfway through the concert and barely heard of any familiar songs we knew of MayDay.
3/4 through the concert, we are already jumping on the floor to jumping on the chair and it was climatic. Their playing of guitar impressed me and really got everything started for me.
Eventually, the night ended with one song – a song that I’ve always wanted to hear it live. A little wish came true and I indulged the song with the girl before the concert officially ends. Awesome concert and there’s no wonder why I had my regrets last year.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Gift With Ribbon...Open or not?
Decided to blog. It's times like these i realised how precious weekday nights can be. Ever since i started work one year plus ago, i always cherish the weekday nights i have whenever i DO NOT NEED to work the following day.
Life of a full time student is different from a working life. Entirely different. I can still remember vividly what i told myself when i had this two weeks of break - the transition from a National Servicemen to Working Adult, i told myself that i got and ought to enjoy those previous 2 weeks and spent them like never before. Ultimately, in the end, thanks to the girl, i gave it to bloody Tila Tequila. I spent my day and night catching two seasons of that and just like that, in one blink, it's over. I've been slogging heads out since then and i doubt it will never be ending until the day i retire, which i reckon i'll probably not want that to come even. That was the time when i thought that, time really flies and it wait for no one.
How precious is time? I never had the answer to this question before, but i am starting to realise the importance of this question as years passed on. Do i have to wait till next time or tomorrow or the day after to do something i wanted or intended to do today? Or i just have to do what i wanted or intended to do today right away because no one knows what tomorrow or even the next few seconds hold? We, human beings, live in dilemma all the time. In fact, things are very simple, all the time. BUT, we complicate it. It's just a drink, why spend minutes wondering what to drink? It's just a meal, why spend time wasting and wondering what should fits into our tummy and what's fattening and what's not? It's just a phonecall, why fret over whether he or she will answer or not? If you need to poo, just poo. If you need to see a doctor, just go ahead. If you need/want to tell someone you love him or her, just do it. Like i mentioned, time waits for no one.
Everything happens for a reason. There must be a reason why some spend hours waiting for someone who turned out late on meetings. There must be a reason why some spend half their lifetime just to realise their right other half is just someone whom they didn't expect. If not, it simply feels pain not knowing why you feel sick all the time. It feels sucky not knowing why someone is mad at you. Bad things happen all the time, so do good things. We go through both to know their difference. We taste sweetness only after we gone through bitterness. It's not by luck or chance, never. A captain who control a ship which met tough and huge waves will feel a stronger sense of achievement upon reaching its destination. It definitely pays to be positive, nobody died from it or suffer from it anyway. Everyday comes a gift with a ribbon, it's only when do you intend to open it, and for some, do you even open it in the first place...
Life of a full time student is different from a working life. Entirely different. I can still remember vividly what i told myself when i had this two weeks of break - the transition from a National Servicemen to Working Adult, i told myself that i got and ought to enjoy those previous 2 weeks and spent them like never before. Ultimately, in the end, thanks to the girl, i gave it to bloody Tila Tequila. I spent my day and night catching two seasons of that and just like that, in one blink, it's over. I've been slogging heads out since then and i doubt it will never be ending until the day i retire, which i reckon i'll probably not want that to come even. That was the time when i thought that, time really flies and it wait for no one.
How precious is time? I never had the answer to this question before, but i am starting to realise the importance of this question as years passed on. Do i have to wait till next time or tomorrow or the day after to do something i wanted or intended to do today? Or i just have to do what i wanted or intended to do today right away because no one knows what tomorrow or even the next few seconds hold? We, human beings, live in dilemma all the time. In fact, things are very simple, all the time. BUT, we complicate it. It's just a drink, why spend minutes wondering what to drink? It's just a meal, why spend time wasting and wondering what should fits into our tummy and what's fattening and what's not? It's just a phonecall, why fret over whether he or she will answer or not? If you need to poo, just poo. If you need to see a doctor, just go ahead. If you need/want to tell someone you love him or her, just do it. Like i mentioned, time waits for no one.
Everything happens for a reason. There must be a reason why some spend hours waiting for someone who turned out late on meetings. There must be a reason why some spend half their lifetime just to realise their right other half is just someone whom they didn't expect. If not, it simply feels pain not knowing why you feel sick all the time. It feels sucky not knowing why someone is mad at you. Bad things happen all the time, so do good things. We go through both to know their difference. We taste sweetness only after we gone through bitterness. It's not by luck or chance, never. A captain who control a ship which met tough and huge waves will feel a stronger sense of achievement upon reaching its destination. It definitely pays to be positive, nobody died from it or suffer from it anyway. Everyday comes a gift with a ribbon, it's only when do you intend to open it, and for some, do you even open it in the first place...
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
爱在吗？
I watched two shows over the two days, two reality/info comm show - 从心开始 & 星期二特写. Both topic somehow has a link, the former talks about how love failed and results in disastrous consequences whereas the latter talks about how love endured, the 'meant to bes' after obstacles both went through.
The former show (从心开始), totally brings out the anger and hatred in me. The lady cried from start of the show, until the end of the show. I totally feel for her. Expectedly, all the callers who starts ringing in were all the innocent women alike and makes me really wonder, bastards are all around us, but then again, without bitches, how will bastards even exist. Shame on those guys who cheated on their girlfriends/wives. I feel disgusted (but not as disgusted as yesterday)
The way she potrayed her ex on national television, I'm totally turned off. To think that the bitch who snatched people's other half away can happily boost of what she's capable of. Shame and disgrace are the words i can think of seriously. It made me ponder real hard, is man really that easily tempted? I tried putting myself in their shoes, i can't figured out why. I always believed in my own analogy - about standing within your circle. More often than that, moments of impluse neglect the consequential events that could be occuring. It's only human to err, and for some mistake, once you err, you're done for, simply no turning back.
If some men are bastards, then some would be perverts too. Look around the street, men who ogle at pretty ladies with great figure. I've personally encounter those real pervertic desperados, literally stick their eyes on that lady body and go gooo gooo gahhh gahhh. Are men really visual animals? Men believe their eyes more than anything else? It makes me thinks, what is really left of men..
Reflecting on that show, trust is everything that is being depended on. Once this very trust is broken, how can it be mended back? Even if there is a way, will it even be the same? Will the crack still exist..? It made me feel that if a relstionship failed, probably it could be this very main reason because there is hardly any other major issues that cannot be resolved, all we need is time. There's probably no answers to those questions and that just reminds me how cruel life can be at times...and sometimes, in such critical and tough period, you just need that little push to make yourself stand up on your feet again and as from the show, they are the 'angels'. They are the ones that put a purpose back to your life again. They are the ones that make you feel all is not over. They are the ones that wake you up and help you tide it over when you needed one the most.
The second show (星期二特写), which was the total opposite of the former, talks about love in a entirely different light. From strangers to newly-weds, this couple talks about how amazing love it and how they overcome obstacles to step into what some would termed as 'the graveyard of love' - marriage.
From strangers, they were just two normal human beings, of different race, different character and different age. Female being chinese, 2 years older as compared to the male is more outspoken, whereas the male, a malay muslim is more reserved and conservative.
They speak on how they finally got together after months of that guy wooing her, his persistance eventually display his sincereness plus his positiveness finally touched the heart of the lady. It made love look so amazing, as to how it can bond two total strangers to one couple who share just about everything under the sun and grow together.
I admired how they overcome religion barriers to be together. The refraining of certain food, the learning of each other religion and culture. All the sacrifices they made almost got me teary. It's like how when you love a person, you look beyond his or her imperfections and you make that little sacrifices just to make that special someone happy and keep the love going. They showed how love isn't one sided but it takes two hands to clap. What one is doing, he or she has got to consider his or her other half and no longer is just about himself or herself alone.
Watching them convincing their parents shows how much they both wanted to be together. Thankfully, they had wonderful parents which make me feel, all parents in this world had the same mindset, afterall, it's their children happiness. The way they object with the style of wedding their parents want and instead, went ahead with their own eventually getting the full support of their parents, made me feel, love is not just about each other.
Naturally, sacrifices are there in every relationship. It's already difficult falling in love, and it's even more difficult to love and be loved. Coming to maintaining the relationsip, it is even much tougher part. It's always those little things that creates the greatest impact and keeps everything going, plus all the necessary aspects - understanding, accomodating, caring etc. All these makes love a even more amazing and wonderful thing. And eventually, from courtship to marriage which is like a part and parcel of every love life where two hold so dearly and it makes total sense of what this lovebirds said - Being together/courtship is just a two persons affair but marriage involved not just two persons but each other families and therefore, this love holds a greater commitment and its returns is much more than anything else in the world.
They ended the show with a quote which infer that one should be really contented with what you have and treasure them. Love with no reservations and remained committed. Not taking things for granted and embrace imperfections.
The former show (从心开始), totally brings out the anger and hatred in me. The lady cried from start of the show, until the end of the show. I totally feel for her. Expectedly, all the callers who starts ringing in were all the innocent women alike and makes me really wonder, bastards are all around us, but then again, without bitches, how will bastards even exist. Shame on those guys who cheated on their girlfriends/wives. I feel disgusted (but not as disgusted as yesterday)
The way she potrayed her ex on national television, I'm totally turned off. To think that the bitch who snatched people's other half away can happily boost of what she's capable of. Shame and disgrace are the words i can think of seriously. It made me ponder real hard, is man really that easily tempted? I tried putting myself in their shoes, i can't figured out why. I always believed in my own analogy - about standing within your circle. More often than that, moments of impluse neglect the consequential events that could be occuring. It's only human to err, and for some mistake, once you err, you're done for, simply no turning back.
If some men are bastards, then some would be perverts too. Look around the street, men who ogle at pretty ladies with great figure. I've personally encounter those real pervertic desperados, literally stick their eyes on that lady body and go gooo gooo gahhh gahhh. Are men really visual animals? Men believe their eyes more than anything else? It makes me thinks, what is really left of men..
Reflecting on that show, trust is everything that is being depended on. Once this very trust is broken, how can it be mended back? Even if there is a way, will it even be the same? Will the crack still exist..? It made me feel that if a relstionship failed, probably it could be this very main reason because there is hardly any other major issues that cannot be resolved, all we need is time. There's probably no answers to those questions and that just reminds me how cruel life can be at times...and sometimes, in such critical and tough period, you just need that little push to make yourself stand up on your feet again and as from the show, they are the 'angels'. They are the ones that put a purpose back to your life again. They are the ones that make you feel all is not over. They are the ones that wake you up and help you tide it over when you needed one the most.
The second show (星期二特写), which was the total opposite of the former, talks about love in a entirely different light. From strangers to newly-weds, this couple talks about how amazing love it and how they overcome obstacles to step into what some would termed as 'the graveyard of love' - marriage.
From strangers, they were just two normal human beings, of different race, different character and different age. Female being chinese, 2 years older as compared to the male is more outspoken, whereas the male, a malay muslim is more reserved and conservative.
They speak on how they finally got together after months of that guy wooing her, his persistance eventually display his sincereness plus his positiveness finally touched the heart of the lady. It made love look so amazing, as to how it can bond two total strangers to one couple who share just about everything under the sun and grow together.
I admired how they overcome religion barriers to be together. The refraining of certain food, the learning of each other religion and culture. All the sacrifices they made almost got me teary. It's like how when you love a person, you look beyond his or her imperfections and you make that little sacrifices just to make that special someone happy and keep the love going. They showed how love isn't one sided but it takes two hands to clap. What one is doing, he or she has got to consider his or her other half and no longer is just about himself or herself alone.
Watching them convincing their parents shows how much they both wanted to be together. Thankfully, they had wonderful parents which make me feel, all parents in this world had the same mindset, afterall, it's their children happiness. The way they object with the style of wedding their parents want and instead, went ahead with their own eventually getting the full support of their parents, made me feel, love is not just about each other.
Naturally, sacrifices are there in every relationship. It's already difficult falling in love, and it's even more difficult to love and be loved. Coming to maintaining the relationsip, it is even much tougher part. It's always those little things that creates the greatest impact and keeps everything going, plus all the necessary aspects - understanding, accomodating, caring etc. All these makes love a even more amazing and wonderful thing. And eventually, from courtship to marriage which is like a part and parcel of every love life where two hold so dearly and it makes total sense of what this lovebirds said - Being together/courtship is just a two persons affair but marriage involved not just two persons but each other families and therefore, this love holds a greater commitment and its returns is much more than anything else in the world.
They ended the show with a quote which infer that one should be really contented with what you have and treasure them. Love with no reservations and remained committed. Not taking things for granted and embrace imperfections.
Monday, April 12, 2010
A Weirdo
I had to blog this down, simply because i'm purely disgusted. It's really amazing how a person can become. This so called saga has been happening on and off for months since last year.
From a colleague, to a friend, he was a nice person to talk to. A nice person to share things with, just the same like any other friend or colleague. But i never did realise it's like a wierdo in disguise. One who turns desperately for attention. I had to be wary. I never knew his desperation for attention was from everyone, or specifically me. It didn't bothered me much, much so because the interaction was on a mutual level initially.
Things took a turn. Weird, amazingly enough, i didn't even realise it until today. All the events that has been happening, piece by piece unfolds the sequential events that rhyme so perfectly. I feel purely DISGUSTED, and still do now. To think that umpteen times, he can mentioned the girl time and time again, as if he even know her very well. I never forget how he pestered wanting to come for Zoukout last year. That encounter, he took it as acknowledgement, that's probably the start to everything else.
Childish enough i preferbly assumed, he remembered every single favour he did for me and mentioned it each time i chose to react NORMALLY. Spams of messaging through emails, work emails, facebook messages, SMSes followed suit. The day i decided this is too much, i naturally did what i presume was wise. I clearly know who is my friend, who is not. I know how much a friend should care and whether he has cross the line already or not. For all of the abovementioned, he belongs to the latter.
The thought of him being my most feared type of person is really becoming real. He sprouted words then i never thought would come out from a normal friend. Even my very close male friend didn't said all those to me. I puke at this thought at this moment of writing. From nothing, he can make a super big mountain and simply kick a fuss out of practically everything. 23 messages a day is no joke. At times, i feel at wits end. However, i held on to what the girl told me, not to be affected by it if it doesn't really even mattered.
Things got worse (as exclaimed by him) to the extent that i re-looked at everything and eventually, it was purely one sided. Those accusations, those childish acts, those blaming here and there simply turned me off. He stalked my twitter, my facebook activities, deleted me off his friend list and added me back, he scolded me for declining to meet him, he mentioned he felt neglected over my absence, he blamed me for having a girlfriend. From someone whom i hated right at first sight, to someone who managed to convinced me that he's a nice guy, to someone who invaded my privacy and got on too much and now, to someone whom i couldn't even be bothered to.
He reminds me of my childhood, where friends will say '你不跟我玩，我就不跟你好'. To think such a person still exist, worse still, threaten that i meet him after my exams and for god sake, who is he to compare himself with the girl. The mention of this yet further pissed me off. And since when did i even let him pat of my fking neck and say the word 'WARMTH. WTH. Phui Phui Phui. For once, i really feel like telling him, i have no interests in someone of my own gender, i have no interests to be your whatever god-son and given your serious age, instead performing childish acts, perhaps you would like to show more to your wife and not waste your time on life just like that.
I won't be bothered by your what is and what nots. And in this case, ignorance is the best solution and come what may, i'll see how much childish and irritating you can get.
From a colleague, to a friend, he was a nice person to talk to. A nice person to share things with, just the same like any other friend or colleague. But i never did realise it's like a wierdo in disguise. One who turns desperately for attention. I had to be wary. I never knew his desperation for attention was from everyone, or specifically me. It didn't bothered me much, much so because the interaction was on a mutual level initially.
Things took a turn. Weird, amazingly enough, i didn't even realise it until today. All the events that has been happening, piece by piece unfolds the sequential events that rhyme so perfectly. I feel purely DISGUSTED, and still do now. To think that umpteen times, he can mentioned the girl time and time again, as if he even know her very well. I never forget how he pestered wanting to come for Zoukout last year. That encounter, he took it as acknowledgement, that's probably the start to everything else.
Childish enough i preferbly assumed, he remembered every single favour he did for me and mentioned it each time i chose to react NORMALLY. Spams of messaging through emails, work emails, facebook messages, SMSes followed suit. The day i decided this is too much, i naturally did what i presume was wise. I clearly know who is my friend, who is not. I know how much a friend should care and whether he has cross the line already or not. For all of the abovementioned, he belongs to the latter.
The thought of him being my most feared type of person is really becoming real. He sprouted words then i never thought would come out from a normal friend. Even my very close male friend didn't said all those to me. I puke at this thought at this moment of writing. From nothing, he can make a super big mountain and simply kick a fuss out of practically everything. 23 messages a day is no joke. At times, i feel at wits end. However, i held on to what the girl told me, not to be affected by it if it doesn't really even mattered.
Things got worse (as exclaimed by him) to the extent that i re-looked at everything and eventually, it was purely one sided. Those accusations, those childish acts, those blaming here and there simply turned me off. He stalked my twitter, my facebook activities, deleted me off his friend list and added me back, he scolded me for declining to meet him, he mentioned he felt neglected over my absence, he blamed me for having a girlfriend. From someone whom i hated right at first sight, to someone who managed to convinced me that he's a nice guy, to someone who invaded my privacy and got on too much and now, to someone whom i couldn't even be bothered to.
He reminds me of my childhood, where friends will say '你不跟我玩，我就不跟你好'. To think such a person still exist, worse still, threaten that i meet him after my exams and for god sake, who is he to compare himself with the girl. The mention of this yet further pissed me off. And since when did i even let him pat of my fking neck and say the word 'WARMTH. WTH. Phui Phui Phui. For once, i really feel like telling him, i have no interests in someone of my own gender, i have no interests to be your whatever god-son and given your serious age, instead performing childish acts, perhaps you would like to show more to your wife and not waste your time on life just like that.
I won't be bothered by your what is and what nots. And in this case, ignorance is the best solution and come what may, i'll see how much childish and irritating you can get.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
As Time Passes Me By
Everyday has been pretty much the same. Mugging has been on the agenda ever since i'm back from the beautiful white Sahoro. It's back to reality and to all the routinal stuff that follows. I feel i am mugging much harder than before, probaby the hardest my entire life but i cannot feel the confidence level at its peak at all. Probably i'm disheartened at the assignments and reports submitted before this decisive exams that is going to be happening come next week.
Ever since the girl got her iphone, it's WOW-ed. Smses became free (and i shall terminate my SMSplus soon). She got more enthu than me and can search wonderful apps at just within her fingertips, literally. And now, it's camwhoring, movies, reality shows, music, messaging all just one touch away.
Finally caught Clash of the Titans. Love the couple seats at Cathay and the Grand Cathay. Lovely theaters and the ever so spacious couple seats that never made you feel watching movie can be a chore even if the movie's really boring. But of course, Clash of the Titans was a great movies that got me laughing over the 'Juices', 'Breast-sagging aunties' etc....
The girl was mentioning how everyone around us is getting married, making me believe and appreciate the fact that there are indeed still people believing in getting hitched and furthermore, at a young age. Nothing waits forever. Everyone ages, and the fact that i'm reaching my mid 20s tells me how much impact time has on my life. It's like the ticking of the seconds never fail to inform you that time is really passing me by. I hit on the high time that i am working hard towards the future and now as i look back on those days, together with the girl that i realise i have been taught well, i grew up comfortably and appreciate that i should be contented with my life at this present moment. Both of us spoke how everything happens for a reason, be it good or bad. At times, just by staying positive keeps me going, and it would be seeking what's beyond the imperfections that really matters. Appreciative and contented never seem as important as now, and that's what i'm feeling.
On a side note, Man Utd has been disapponting ever since Rooney's out on injury and it's worrying to see how each season, they depended on one man show to get what they want and after tonight match, i'll just say the next match i'll watch should be the upcoming World Cup whereby i'll hopefully be able to don on a Blue/White jersey and scream go Argentines!
PS: Taipei, please come....
Ever since the girl got her iphone, it's WOW-ed. Smses became free (and i shall terminate my SMSplus soon). She got more enthu than me and can search wonderful apps at just within her fingertips, literally. And now, it's camwhoring, movies, reality shows, music, messaging all just one touch away.
Finally caught Clash of the Titans. Love the couple seats at Cathay and the Grand Cathay. Lovely theaters and the ever so spacious couple seats that never made you feel watching movie can be a chore even if the movie's really boring. But of course, Clash of the Titans was a great movies that got me laughing over the 'Juices', 'Breast-sagging aunties' etc....
The girl was mentioning how everyone around us is getting married, making me believe and appreciate the fact that there are indeed still people believing in getting hitched and furthermore, at a young age. Nothing waits forever. Everyone ages, and the fact that i'm reaching my mid 20s tells me how much impact time has on my life. It's like the ticking of the seconds never fail to inform you that time is really passing me by. I hit on the high time that i am working hard towards the future and now as i look back on those days, together with the girl that i realise i have been taught well, i grew up comfortably and appreciate that i should be contented with my life at this present moment. Both of us spoke how everything happens for a reason, be it good or bad. At times, just by staying positive keeps me going, and it would be seeking what's beyond the imperfections that really matters. Appreciative and contented never seem as important as now, and that's what i'm feeling.
On a side note, Man Utd has been disapponting ever since Rooney's out on injury and it's worrying to see how each season, they depended on one man show to get what they want and after tonight match, i'll just say the next match i'll watch should be the upcoming World Cup whereby i'll hopefully be able to don on a Blue/White jersey and scream go Argentines!
PS: Taipei, please come....
Thursday, April 01, 2010
Uob Travel
My very first time writing about my job, well, not literally. I was mentioning to the girl on how i meet all sorts of interesting (some, VERY interesting) people throughout my course of working in UOB Travel for coming to 2 years. Jokingly, i would have this great example of a tele-conversation i had with a assumingly CHEENA lady.
ME: Hello, UOB Travel....
CHEENA LADY: Hello, can i *blur* Manjurini?
ME: Sorry?
CHEENA LADY: Manjurini...
ME: [Search around and ask my colleague who is Manjurini]
ME: [still holding the line and check through my phone book list of my company, still no Manjurini to be found]
CHEENA LADY: Hello?!?!?
ME: Hang on Madame.
CHEENA LADY: Speak MANJURINI!!!!
ME: I'm sorry Madam, but there's no one by the name of Manjurini here. I think you've called the wrong number.
CHEENA LADY: Speak MANJURINI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ME: I'm sorry????!?! [Frustrated already]
CHEENA LADY: 讲华语啦！！！
ME: [showing the 'WTH' face] 可以讲华语！
and so....the tele-conversation goes on...
This job wasn't a fantastic one, purely because it's not something i regarded very well when i first got it. At that point, it's really just a JOB. slowly, my interests in this industry increased and it got me to hang on until where i am today. At times, i had to admit the work environment turns me off, but the loads of stuff i learn over here, is definitely what i cherish and would like to share with just about anyone.
I've learnt more about destinations both possible and impossible to travel. I've learnt about destinations i've never heard before, and learnt MORE about destinations i've heard before, and i'm proud of it, because it's really so wonderful and interesting to know these facts. I start loving Travelogues, Travel magazines and alot more stuff, such as the design of aircraft, the different models of aircraft, the wonders of car hire, the amazing facts on certain places on earth. Perhaps, i'll take this chance to share...
[Maldives is made up of thousands of islands and Mauritius is just one island by itself (twice the size of Singapore)]
[Hohhot is a city in Mongolia]
[New England is located in United States of America, not Great Britain]
[Jeddah, the capital of Saudi Arabia can only be entered by Muslims]
[North Korea - only one travel agency in Singapore does it and you are not allowed to bring your mobile phone into the country and one North Korean must accompany you to everywhere except when you are sleeping, shitting or peeing (making love included)]
I decided it's too much for me to share and i'll probably spill them all out when i'm in the right mood..
Personally, i've been on trips because of my job and probably one of the best satisfaction i can get as well. It's great how i can go on trips for both job and personal purpose and ultimately share it with everyone, friends and customers included. Observations on how kiasu and ugly some customers can get as well WOW-ed me at times. Of course, aside from that, there are customers who made your day. Till now, i will never forget how there is this nice customer (yes, an auntie) made my busy day. She was a customer whom i served, booked a package with me. Satisfied by my service, she not only praised me. She hanged around the fair for a few hours after she booked the package with me, only to pop out so suddenly (while i'm still serving another customer of mine) with a cup of hot coffee. One word to describe that, heart-warming...
After being in this line for so long (ok, not very long, but long enough to make some interpretions), the hardest to deal type of customers is naturally those aunties. Surprisingly, the easiest to deal type of customers is also aunties, so i have this love-hate relationship with aunties.
One of the most memorable experience with passenger would be one which just even happened yesterday when i served a pair of handicapped couple. Husband, Dumb and Deaf, and wife, Dumb, booked a vacation. Surprisingly, my first time handling such passenger and it's a touching experience i would say.
Many lessons and experience i've learnt through my job, and one of things which i regard it as the most important aspect of travelling is the preparation for the travel, the 'what to pack and what not to pack' into your luggage that is. Something i love to share and at least, the next time i travel, i know where i can refer to again. 20kg baggage allowance is no joke. It may seem alot, almost half the weight for some, but seriously, especially for ladies out there, 20kg is just a mere figure. Some are so horrifying that they already take up near 15-18kg before the trip and coming back would be a big issue, unless they do not mind paying crazy amount for excess baggage.
My Must Bring List (enough to hit between 10-13kg already)
- Toothbrush & Toothpaste (even so the hotel provide, most would be pathetically small and could barely cover all of your teeth)
- Shampoo, shower foam & condition (same as the one previously mentioned, even if the hotel provides, you won't know what the previous user [it could be some prankers] put inside the container, all the hotel do is refill). Unless the hotel provides you with the bottle type, then you can be assured to use them.
- Swiss army knife (you never know when you need it and seriously, it's super handy, be it opening a bottle of beer, cutting stuff etc)
- Luggage tag (many luggage look damn alike, how would you even know your luggage is really yours, save yourself some trouble and embarassment, hang or attach a luggage tag on your luggage, at least when it comes out for the luggage belt, you know right away it's yours)
- Cup Noodles (to spare myself from going to bed hungry at wee hours at night, or to satisfy my in between hunger. you'll never know how expensive the room service can be and where to even get the food if you don't know the place well)
- Undergarments (disposable ones would be better. You won't want to wash those smelly during the trip and what's worse, imagine going for a long trip and when you are back home, unpacking eventually what would seem or smell so unpleasant. Err...just imagining is bad enough...)
- Medication (a must for me, flu is a common thing for me because sleeping through the air con room is too 'powerful' for me. For those who need to medication on a regular or certain basis, this is a must bring, and of course, just in case, no one can predict what can happen)
- First Aid Kit (definitely for case of emergency, accidents do occur, especially when you least expected it)
- Moisturing Cream (our skin tends to get dry and it is very essential)
- Lip balm (cracking lips is no joke, you can bleed from it. you got to apply it before your travel and not during your course of travel)
- Shaver (travelling also means you should groom yourself, so, look tidy)
- Facial foam/cream (our face is just as important as our body)
- Clothings (depending on the countries you are visiting, if it's hot weather, chances are you will bring more clothes to change)
- Mobile Phone (only if you want to stay in contact with your loved ones. Also note that certain mobiles phone are only workable in certain network at the destination you are visiting, i.e: Only 3G phone are workable in Japan) PS: Double check with local operator to check which operator should you connect to when you reach your destination in order to obtain the cheapest rates
- Passport (forget to bring this and you can forget about leaving the country, unless you think you are Mas Selamat)
- Camera (it's considerably one of the must bring when travelling in today world. I'm sure you would want those moments to be captured as perfectly so that 10 or 20 years down the road, you can at least flip back these photos and remember, how enjoyable everything once was)
- Umbrella (unless you are god who can predict no rain at all, or not scorching hot sun, or you just love soaking yourself in the rain, if not, safe than sorry always works)
- Tissues (for your mouth, butt, face, body and everywhere else you can think of)
- Travel Insurance (the ultimate 'safe than sorry'. Period)
It's a job that i hold high interests in. Every now and then, i get to see the world and i'm thankful for all that opportunities. Friends alike always feels i'm lucky but the work behind it was hidden by this partition that no one would understand unless you are in the same trade as me. It made me realise how important networking is as well as somehow, provides me with soft skills. I love travelling more than ever thanks to this job and right now, this has become my dream to travel around the world. Till then, i foresee myself still sitting and doing what i am doing, probably not for long but what i've learnt from these one year plus, is definitely what i will bring with me, throughout my entire life.
ME: Hello, UOB Travel....
CHEENA LADY: Hello, can i *blur* Manjurini?
ME: Sorry?
CHEENA LADY: Manjurini...
ME: [Search around and ask my colleague who is Manjurini]
ME: [still holding the line and check through my phone book list of my company, still no Manjurini to be found]
CHEENA LADY: Hello?!?!?
ME: Hang on Madame.
CHEENA LADY: Speak MANJURINI!!!!
ME: I'm sorry Madam, but there's no one by the name of Manjurini here. I think you've called the wrong number.
CHEENA LADY: Speak MANJURINI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ME: I'm sorry????!?! [Frustrated already]
CHEENA LADY: 讲华语啦！！！
ME: [showing the 'WTH' face] 可以讲华语！
and so....the tele-conversation goes on...
This job wasn't a fantastic one, purely because it's not something i regarded very well when i first got it. At that point, it's really just a JOB. slowly, my interests in this industry increased and it got me to hang on until where i am today. At times, i had to admit the work environment turns me off, but the loads of stuff i learn over here, is definitely what i cherish and would like to share with just about anyone.
I've learnt more about destinations both possible and impossible to travel. I've learnt about destinations i've never heard before, and learnt MORE about destinations i've heard before, and i'm proud of it, because it's really so wonderful and interesting to know these facts. I start loving Travelogues, Travel magazines and alot more stuff, such as the design of aircraft, the different models of aircraft, the wonders of car hire, the amazing facts on certain places on earth. Perhaps, i'll take this chance to share...
[Maldives is made up of thousands of islands and Mauritius is just one island by itself (twice the size of Singapore)]
[Hohhot is a city in Mongolia]
[New England is located in United States of America, not Great Britain]
[Jeddah, the capital of Saudi Arabia can only be entered by Muslims]
[North Korea - only one travel agency in Singapore does it and you are not allowed to bring your mobile phone into the country and one North Korean must accompany you to everywhere except when you are sleeping, shitting or peeing (making love included)]
I decided it's too much for me to share and i'll probably spill them all out when i'm in the right mood..
Personally, i've been on trips because of my job and probably one of the best satisfaction i can get as well. It's great how i can go on trips for both job and personal purpose and ultimately share it with everyone, friends and customers included. Observations on how kiasu and ugly some customers can get as well WOW-ed me at times. Of course, aside from that, there are customers who made your day. Till now, i will never forget how there is this nice customer (yes, an auntie) made my busy day. She was a customer whom i served, booked a package with me. Satisfied by my service, she not only praised me. She hanged around the fair for a few hours after she booked the package with me, only to pop out so suddenly (while i'm still serving another customer of mine) with a cup of hot coffee. One word to describe that, heart-warming...
After being in this line for so long (ok, not very long, but long enough to make some interpretions), the hardest to deal type of customers is naturally those aunties. Surprisingly, the easiest to deal type of customers is also aunties, so i have this love-hate relationship with aunties.
One of the most memorable experience with passenger would be one which just even happened yesterday when i served a pair of handicapped couple. Husband, Dumb and Deaf, and wife, Dumb, booked a vacation. Surprisingly, my first time handling such passenger and it's a touching experience i would say.
Many lessons and experience i've learnt through my job, and one of things which i regard it as the most important aspect of travelling is the preparation for the travel, the 'what to pack and what not to pack' into your luggage that is. Something i love to share and at least, the next time i travel, i know where i can refer to again. 20kg baggage allowance is no joke. It may seem alot, almost half the weight for some, but seriously, especially for ladies out there, 20kg is just a mere figure. Some are so horrifying that they already take up near 15-18kg before the trip and coming back would be a big issue, unless they do not mind paying crazy amount for excess baggage.
My Must Bring List (enough to hit between 10-13kg already)
- Toothbrush & Toothpaste (even so the hotel provide, most would be pathetically small and could barely cover all of your teeth)
- Shampoo, shower foam & condition (same as the one previously mentioned, even if the hotel provides, you won't know what the previous user [it could be some prankers] put inside the container, all the hotel do is refill). Unless the hotel provides you with the bottle type, then you can be assured to use them.
- Swiss army knife (you never know when you need it and seriously, it's super handy, be it opening a bottle of beer, cutting stuff etc)
- Luggage tag (many luggage look damn alike, how would you even know your luggage is really yours, save yourself some trouble and embarassment, hang or attach a luggage tag on your luggage, at least when it comes out for the luggage belt, you know right away it's yours)
- Cup Noodles (to spare myself from going to bed hungry at wee hours at night, or to satisfy my in between hunger. you'll never know how expensive the room service can be and where to even get the food if you don't know the place well)
- Undergarments (disposable ones would be better. You won't want to wash those smelly during the trip and what's worse, imagine going for a long trip and when you are back home, unpacking eventually what would seem or smell so unpleasant. Err...just imagining is bad enough...)
- Medication (a must for me, flu is a common thing for me because sleeping through the air con room is too 'powerful' for me. For those who need to medication on a regular or certain basis, this is a must bring, and of course, just in case, no one can predict what can happen)
- First Aid Kit (definitely for case of emergency, accidents do occur, especially when you least expected it)
- Moisturing Cream (our skin tends to get dry and it is very essential)
- Lip balm (cracking lips is no joke, you can bleed from it. you got to apply it before your travel and not during your course of travel)
- Shaver (travelling also means you should groom yourself, so, look tidy)
- Facial foam/cream (our face is just as important as our body)
- Clothings (depending on the countries you are visiting, if it's hot weather, chances are you will bring more clothes to change)
- Mobile Phone (only if you want to stay in contact with your loved ones. Also note that certain mobiles phone are only workable in certain network at the destination you are visiting, i.e: Only 3G phone are workable in Japan) PS: Double check with local operator to check which operator should you connect to when you reach your destination in order to obtain the cheapest rates
- Passport (forget to bring this and you can forget about leaving the country, unless you think you are Mas Selamat)
- Camera (it's considerably one of the must bring when travelling in today world. I'm sure you would want those moments to be captured as perfectly so that 10 or 20 years down the road, you can at least flip back these photos and remember, how enjoyable everything once was)
- Umbrella (unless you are god who can predict no rain at all, or not scorching hot sun, or you just love soaking yourself in the rain, if not, safe than sorry always works)
- Tissues (for your mouth, butt, face, body and everywhere else you can think of)
- Travel Insurance (the ultimate 'safe than sorry'. Period)
It's a job that i hold high interests in. Every now and then, i get to see the world and i'm thankful for all that opportunities. Friends alike always feels i'm lucky but the work behind it was hidden by this partition that no one would understand unless you are in the same trade as me. It made me realise how important networking is as well as somehow, provides me with soft skills. I love travelling more than ever thanks to this job and right now, this has become my dream to travel around the world. Till then, i foresee myself still sitting and doing what i am doing, probably not for long but what i've learnt from these one year plus, is definitely what i will bring with me, throughout my entire life.
