On Route To Hokkaido

After i'm done with post, i swear i'm going to sleep. This whole tour leading trip is nothing but memorable, for both right and wrong reasons. As i'm typing, i can still hear the 'wong wong wong' hollowing sound just within my right ear, coughing as i typed along as well.

It's a fun trip. Really fun. It's a totally different from how on the day before, i dreaded going. It feels good to mingle with group passengers, talk and crap with the funny tour guide and of course not forgetting the beautiful scenary that Hokkaido has to offer during Autumn time. If only tour leading can be a job, i would most certainly be glad to take it on. Imagine, your whole life will be travelling, enjoying, interacting, very different from those collar-bound job, sitting in front of the computer and stressing as you type.

It's even funnier when everyone starts to ask if i'm single and one by one, they start to tell me how they want to introduce girls for me. Funny. I've met different sorts of people before and for this trip, there's really lots of interesting people. Some became friends and sometimes, you can really see the power of Singaporean Auntie. I suppose the international hobby of girls is mainly dominated by Aunties, Singaporean Aunties. They can shop from the start, all the way until the departing airport. Already last call, still can shop. Awesome. It's even funnier when it's obvious that shops are already closed on certain nights and they will go 'where can we go shopping tonight?'. I take my hat off them.

I finally had my collection of KitKat from Japan. At last, not forgetting my beloved 白色恋人. On the whole, the trip was great.

However, memorable because of the wrong reasons as well. Feeling sick nearly throughout the whole trip. The weather didn't help much as it makes everything else worse. Flu, cough, fever...you name it. The flight back completes the torture, the pressure change make my right ear nearly deaf. I can't help it. How i wish i can tour lead again....

On a side note, i can't forget how i cried a few times on the plane when i was watch My Sister's Keeper and the Japanese guy beside must have thought i misses home so much....

Mad Rush

Hectic month. And worse, it's barely after halfway. Changes. How many of us can cope and adapt to it so well? The re-scheduling of the roster, changing on certain structure and moving on a different direction. It is too much to ask for and for us, too much to take.

Apart from the very fact that people has been asked to leave, some are sill leavung on their own accord, one even to the extent to forking out a one month pay worth and leave immediately. Roster forced us to work during the weekend like never before, and messed up the whole system during the weekday schedule. Now, mistakes occured more often than ever before. Everyone's stressed, with low morale.

I've never been so stressed before over work. You see the real ugly side of people. Also, you get to see people whom you can really trust. I have been affected by this roster so much as that i'm missing out on my social life, family life as well as my studies. It has been affected so badly that i'm missing out on my projects deadlines, doing and trying to complete it at wee hours as well as skipping lessons. Gosh...I almost had a nervous breakdown.

Solutions had better come fast before i can sense more even leaving myself. Meanwhile, i'm glad i am the land of the rising sun, temporaily away from office work.

Over here in Nihon, it's cold, cold, cold and cold. Nothing but cold. I misses the Sapporo Ramen, Bai Se Lian Ren, Corn Chocolate, Sashimi and this time round, i must try and Alaska crab and Sea Urchin...Yummy yummy...

Little By Little

Fought for own existence to get the attention..
Dream the dream that never expects any resistance..
Fading like stars among the night sky are how the feelings could be..
Little by little, everything that could be dreamt of was given..
Little by little, the pieces of dreams starts to shatter and came off..
To give it all in life and all the time, in the end, only to ponder why..
True perfection has to be imperfect, although foolish but it's true..
The day has come for acceptance..
So....this is it....

Read My Mind

How easy is it to read someone's mind? How good or bad would it even be if we possess the special capability to do so? But it all still seems so impossible. We humans can only make it easier to read someone's mind, but definitely, we can't simply read it off without understanding that person.

Often, misunderstanding occurs. And that can be one of the worst thing that can be happening to me. I hate to be in a situation whereby i caught in between trying to explain myself clearly, and at the same time, already been misunderstood by others. Precisely, it's because of this tiring explanation job, many don't even bother to explain at times. Till time either fade that misunderstanding, or if not, wait till things get worse, that relationship will be torn, possibly forever.

It always seems to us that what we remark in this consciousness is obvious. Hidden meaning aren't easy to be noticed or even discovered. Speak with empathy, make logical or educated guesses on what the person might be thinking, observe his eyes and actions...all in all, it's tiring, but necessary.

Maintaining a relationship factors in understanding whoever is involved, including spending time to do what's mentioned above. Once that level of understanding is reached, slowly, the chances of misunderstanding is minimized. Ever seen buddies who can simply just click the moment they meet? They could even know what the other party is thinking. That bond i called it, is inseperable. It's almost telepathy. I wish i could have that with all my friends, and i really do....

No, I'm Not

Not a dog
Not a puppt
Not an idiot
Not a toy
Not a retard
Not a dimwit
Not a fool
Not a jackass
Not a sparetyre
Not a pet
Not a backup
Not a sucker
Not a kid

Try harder....