Argh...

I had lotsa things to say..complain about..but afterall, i shouldn't..for i know what i'm in for. I should have expected all this the day i started it. Well, it has to come and i have to do..Don's recovering well..that's good..Friends all around me are all falling sick...Same for me..Asthma came back unexpectedly yesterday..that leaves me in low morale. I can't sleep in air-con room. That leaves me no choice, but to turn down my boss to stay in this lavishing and comfortable service apartment. Much as i would love to, i can't..i really wanted my own self to recover fast.

Recently, rubbish and nonsense has polluted my mind, leaving me lotsa troubles. Unable to concentrate on my work well, i end up doing my work not so well, afraid of not being able to live up tp expectations, i had this load of burden. I don't wish Saturday to come so soon, for i'm afraid of something - i don't know why. It seems as if work is never ending. I want this 'final' PSLE event of the year to pass by perfectly, but i not happy with the way i did it..Everything is almost done, somehow i feel it's not. Why...don't know either..I guess i'm going to the event with two feelings this saturday. Fear and Eager! Well, hopefully, this saturday will be a happy event. I'm expecting that.

I missed my guitar...it's has been lying in no-man's place for a long time..Hopefulyl i ca get it back soon..I need to ease my troubled heart with disturbing music..Rock music always saves my day..

Don's Birthday!!

It's Don's birthday yesterday!..Had a hard time thinking what present to buy for him. He's a guy that is very 'anything', so that makes is harder. But luckily, this cousin of his is clever enough and bought him a cap and a bag. Shared by a few of us. Luckily, he seems to like it alot..

Friday was a long-awaited day that me and Don has been waiting for. Finally, the two 'Botaks' are back! We din really have quality time together. Luckily, i managed to chat with Jon for a while while others are asleep. He really gave good advice, and a very good listener. After talking to him, i felt alot better. So sad, he's has to book in in around 1 hour more..so sad..this kind of feeling is bad. I just can't bear to leave him. For we have been friends for alot of years..Weekdays are lonely..haiz...

Yesterday, we went to celebrate Don's birthday. I met up with Tired Jon early to get the presents for Donovan. Search all around Far East to buy his presents. After that, we went to hunt for some children's day gifts. I spent a whopping near 100 bucks yesterday. Omg...haiz..i guess it's worth it. Bought my very 1st ORIGINAL Man Utd Jersey tml.Cool huh..haha! But yesterday Man Utd lost the match..sad sad..disappointing one..

Today i woke up very late, cos i turn in very late yesterday..Whole day maple..Take like donkey years just to reach another level..haiz!! I need strong maplers!! Help anyone?? Today will be a boring day...hmmm....

Life is unpredictable..so much so that we won't what tomorrow has for us..It's always a blessing that we are able to live til to see tml sun, or even the moon. Yet, there's always some people who are always grumbling and complaining. Although it's mostly a qualities of a small group of females, he, an average man, yet behave and possess such qualities. I mean, cmon, why be like that. Badmouthing people won't do you good, neither denying what you do will do u any good either. Friends are leaving you, bad impression of you are falling on you..ask youself..WHY!! Well, you appear to be helping me but as much as i can see, u are not helping me much..Lies after Lies expose you to be cornered, let's assume no one tells me what happen, i would have guess it, maybe not sooner but later. But why do this to me? Just because i did something that doesn't really make u happy? or just because you are jealous of me? Cmon, U have taken away what used to be part of my life, u have taken away a person whom i mind alot and really care and dotes on. Yes, i agree initially i am hurt, to the extent or breaking down, yet, u still put up a fake front? I'm not sure as i'm not you. But why? Since you have taken away what's used to be a very part of my life, and i think the situation cannot be salvage, so be it. Go ahead and influence her! I don't give a damn. And i will never. Anything that you are going to do next time, be sure it's something good for i will never forget what u did to me, what kinda blow u gave me that i have to dealth it through fire and ice! One more time i ever see you do whatever u deem right, i'm not going to give whatever shit face to you and let me tell you, that's it!

Jon is coming back tml, i can't wait to pour all my woes to him. He's one that has a really 'big' listening ears and dear! i Miss him. I'm hooked on Maple and thanks to Shaoqi, and i really mean thanks. Now my holiday won't be so boring. Don and Mun Hoe's leaving..It's kinda pity and i'll feel lonely again. Weekdays is will always be lonely and i'll always wait for weekend impatiently in the future. Hopefully, i will feel alot better tml after i talk to Don. These few days, some kids really make my day..Xin Yi, Dana, Jie Rong, Deanna, Yunru..omg..too much to list..And of cos ShaoQi, needless to say..haha..Please teach me how to play Maple, Shaoqi! Well, after your PSLE of cos..Meanwhile, all the kids, please study hard!

New Blogskin...

I disappeared or rather died for around a day or two..keeping myself from the outside world..left alone for a while, calm myself down, ponder, wonder and think...through and through..somehow, i am abit 'enlightened'..

Yesterday, bought a power multi-effects machine to boost my guitar..now, i am totally into music and when i say music it means ROCK MUSIC..what can sounds more powerful than rock music..It never fail to relax my souls, motivate me and bring me into the world of virtuality. Don and me can be considered constantly improving on our guitar skills, looking at MVs always allow us to get more motivated than ever to improve ourselves, with the help of the new 'booster', Natural Objection is set to rock em' all...

Yesterday i had great fun playing Maple with Shaoqi..actually i would say it's with her and her other two siblings..it's sooo fun. So somehow or another, i'm kinda hooked onto Maple..Gosh..is it good news or bad news? omg..who cares, i'm having my holidays now. Shaoqi, please do let me know if u are playing, i wanna faster become ice mage! (Hope she's reading this)..Today has a presentation and it turned out to be far and much much better than expected. I was one of the high-graders..haa, well, yes, i am shocked! Cos i handed in incomplete work and did last minute work too..but i must say, my presentation this time was the best..After presentation, i went to buy some stuff and also bought something for Dana..luckily she liked it..Then i went back home wanting to play my beloved guitar but was kinda busy with my blog...all the way until not long while ago, i am playing maple!! HAHA...going to play til 3am now...bye bye

Finally my project is submitted...It's incomplete..afterall, i still didn't manage to put my heart onto it as i'm too bothered with things i mind too much..Too many things happen recently with me being dealth a great blow and series of consequences i have to bear..I know it's too heavy for me but yet, i have to bear it. Mood is starting to get better and picking up well, but nevertheless, i'm still kinda bothered. Someone once told me this - "A Rainbow Will appear After A Storm"..It make this phrase especially meaningful when it comes out from her..now, i still can't believe what's happen between us..i know i am currently in the storm and desperately awaiting for the rainbow to appear..but however, when the rainbow finally appear, i guess it would lack of one colour which i guess is the person who told me this phrase. I'm still sad for what happen after all, no one's at fault as it's all misunderstanding and miscommunication with ONE PERSON rubbing salt to my wound. Maybe that night i did scare her off but showing the weak side of me, and i do really feel bad and wanted to apologise. Sorry..let's hope things could be as before...

Yesterday i watch to catch a movie..it was the only time since don't know how many donkey years i get to relax myself..Tons and tons of projects, submission has exhaust me off my energy. Went to watch a movie at Suntec called "Cave". It's a very nice show i would say. Suppose to meet two more "BIG SHOTS", but in the end, both of them put aeroplane on me and Mun Hoe..Feeling abit frustrated!! Well...can't be helped. Had the best time of my life with Mun Hoe..He's so fun and nice..Mun Hoe is really a friend not to be missed..well, now that i am praising him too much..let's hope he don't float..are u floating now? Haha..

Bought a printer today..Yay!! Finally can print all my favourite guitar tabs..oh ya, we have a new movement..contact me soon people..Byee!

Please appear my in rainbow..please..

I'm simply depressed...i hate my school..i wanna leave home..i'm going to HongKong, Malaysia and also going on Cruise Soon...I spend more than 100 bucks without actually realising it today..what's with me? I'm still searching for the old me..will someone please help me? I'm giving myself a chance to be pathetic..My mind are still filled with those memories..polluted now..

I enjoyed myself alot recently...except for some really pitiful incidents..Coaching in ACES has always been fun, together with the kids..especially with the kids who are really nice and some of my favourite students..but for the 1st time, i cried over a participant..I don't mean to scare that very person but just that i wanted to explain things so much so that i feel too hurt and broke down in the end..If i really don't mind, why would i even bother to drop those tears..not even at my own house and just outside that event room..Nevertheless, my fellow friends is stil there to calm me down, i appreciate it alot but i'm really really very hurt...it's just like having 10 daggers pierced into your fragile heart. I asked myself, my mum didn't even do this to me, why must you..
And all those apologies coming from two mouths came fast but unexpected that day i broke down once again..but til today, i realise that only one is sincere...even the gift given to me..i appreciate it as there's this thoughts but if it's bought just for the sake of buying, i rather u save those money..i have been reflecting on myself this few days, i seriously don't went wrong, i found the wrong person to find the answer for me and i did get back part of what i thought was lost..As this blogs is being typed, tears are starting to come out...i really miss those good days, i wouldn't have put them in my heart if i really don't care for them..and right now, only one of them know my intentions and i'm hurt and disappointed.
Why tell me that nothing negative is going on when in your heart, you just had this feeling against or on me..i'm really really upset..why does it happen to me...what did i do wrong...

I really still wanna be your favourite coach..and no matter what,both of u is still my favourite students..as always...

Today was great great fun..Hehe..Finally, ShaoQi and Samantha agreed to take photos with me..but it's Neoprint actually..well, to me it's actually good enough..Hehe..well, thanks to someone i suppose...Two days has pass since the Weekdays event have started..On Monday, they pass me a paper with my name of it and gave me a nickname 'BlossomBerry/Byosenberry'..well..rather weird but i like it anyway..They also bought me a keychain which is a donkey that very much looke like eeyore..i hook it with my keys already..hehe
Today we went to take neoprint..the moment i stepped into the arcade, both of them jump in joy and what i saw is numerous toys and sweet lying on the game machine..haa..these two girls are spending money like water and i chipped in abut too..After that, we went to take neoprint..had lotsa fun before, during and after event..Tml might be taking summore pictures..this time maybe with Diane..Look forward to tml..!! Will post the pictures of my gifts and the neoprints soon..check back soon..

Tell me how does it feels to be accused of things that you never did..How fingers are all pointing at you and yet you are just so innocently..I admitted i did things in a moment of folly at times but nevertheless, i do not have a heart of a evil devil that always carries an intention of really harming or even to the extent of sabotaging people..Such acts are being considered despicable by me and not even will be tolerated, let alone me carrying all these acts out myself..

Today was the 1st day of the September event..Alot of new faces..saw Sophie which just so happen coincidentally happen to be born the same day with me..hehe..however, she was all the way talking to her schoolmates..haa..among the students are XinYi, Zong Ye, Jerome and Xue Hng..The latter 3 certainly made my day..We formed this funny movement, playing a prank on Jonathan, in the end, all ended quite funny because of actions carried out by Jonathan..After the event, it was down to dinner..Dinner was sastifying but towards to end, wasn't really feeling very comfortable..Jonathan received his mobile phone that we bought for him..hehe..hopefully he like it..Seriously, i must say i am going to miss you and all those pranks i played on you which started recently, even before you know it, were meant to be pranks! Haha...don't cry Jonathan, cos i have no tissues for u!

Shaoqi change the date of staying in Parksuites..omg..that also cause come confusion in Samantha and frustration i guess...as heard from Anne...however, i am so looking forward to that very day...hmmm....i just can't wait..they are really really fun kids to be with and i seriously treat them like my sisters..Don will also be joining..CAN"T WAIT!!

ARGH!! Help...my project submission is coming..so is the ACES events..i'm now being stuck in between my studies and work..well i only enjoyed doing the work and starting to lose interest in studying, nevertheless, i still and to study and not fail as much as possible which i really don't want to. I just can't wait for my October holiday to start whereby i can get to go out and enjoy myself...Right now, i am having confusions...mixed feelings...regardings lotsa things..i just can't think straight..think well...think properly..

But there's a good news..my asthma is healing and hopefully i can be back to the old me whereby i can run and exercise which i seriously need to and drink all the super cold drinks and eating the best and delicious desserts in Singapore...hmm..Yummy..speaking about food...Recently these two days, my lady boss has been bringing me to this Chomp Chomp market in Serangoon..omg..each visit was a SASTIFYING and a fulfilling one..hopefully i can gain a few KGs out of it..haa!!

This week event is coming and i just can't wait...i can't wait to see my Favourite Students.!!!