Way of Life

This is adsurd..absolutely. Human has to learn..Human has to grow up. For one to grow up, there's has to be risk, sacrifices and difficulties. It's only through these hard processes and moments that human learn and learn and grow from there.

One can't just stucked in the shell. If that's that case, something has to be done. If not, things will go out of hand. It don't just involve a person. It involve many. I may not be related, but i feel i have the responsibility. It's good things are starting to change. Reminders has to been given every now and then.

Imagine a person who's always at home. He/she won't know what's going on out there. He/she won't know what is the life out there. It will cause great harm and difficulties when he/she go out to work in future. Parents can be there for now, but what about future?

There's a saying that goes:

Give the person a fish and he'll survive for that day only.
Teach the person to fish and he'll survive forever til the day he dies.

Right now, i can only say everything is unstable. I had always thought it can last. At least for the very 1st few months. But now, things seems to take a turn. I'm still not feeling as though i'm part of what i should be. All those words shooted from your mouth seems to have a specific direction and damage to me. It's words of anger, yes i agree. But isn't it too harsh? I'm sure i'm not treated how i should be treated when those words was shoot isn't it. I'm very sure. Worse of all, that sentence finally came out. I knew..it has scarred my heart once again. Never will i forget that, and never easily will i forgive that. It's done. Not easy to forget. I've learnt a lesson. One that only i can teach myself.

For now, i won't pin too much hope. I'll let nature take its course. I realise there's certain things that it's better if i keep to myself and not tell anyone else. I've learn to depend on myself more. I trust myself more than anybody else now.

Sidetrack abit...i've been exercising everyday recently. I'm on my way to 6-pac physique. No more tummy for me. No more wobbling fats for me. Just a healthy body and i want to make sure i can eat well, at the same time, maintaining a healthy body. It's hard to resist food, especially when you are in a food heaven like Singapore. There's alot more food i want to eat! Someday, i shall drive around Singapore and eat all the good food i can find. Yummy..

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Finally touched my cut stick once again. Main joy wasn't because i got to play pool again, but because i get to catch up with my friends. It's been a long time since i last met up with Don and Jon, especially Jon. Each had our own commitments, nevertheless, we are still able to meet up.

Both of them are going to 'ORD' soon. Left 2-3 months of service and they'll be on their way to sch. Happy for them. Mentioning about school, i myself i going to school too. Had confirmed to enrol into the Diploma of Travel, Tourism and Hospilality management. Thankfully, i got the support of my mum and Dear. If everything goes on well, i should be starting school on 11 July.

Yesterday i was feeling super low. Out of the sudden. I felt as though i had no life. I was bored, i was feeling as though i had no life. So much things i wanted to do, to colour up my life. I want to go out. I want to spend time with my Dear. I want to watch soccer. I want to play games.

Man Utd won yesterday! 4-2. A big comeback from them. The EPL title is within reach now. Chelsea didn;t get their full 3 points as Bolton came back from behind to drew level with them. YES! I can't wait til the day where i watched them lift up the trophy.

Changed Thai Baht today. The exchange rate had dropped. But it's only a little difference, so not affecting us alot. May's coming, which means my trip is nearing. The news of Phuket receving tremors from the Earthquake from Indonesia yesterday does made me feared awhile, but i'm still looking forward to it. Phuket, here i come!!

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I feel that i haven't blog enough tonight. There's still stuff i haven't blog down here.

Back to the topic - MSU 2007.

I seriously think it's a crisis here. There's obviously no lack of pretty girls in Singapore, but due to the prospects, lots of such girls aren't partcipating. Most girls in the compeition isn't as attractive. some even spoke English that's broken. I suppose they don't just look at the body, looks but also the brains. But it's obvious who stands out more. Right from the start, i could made a guess of who will come out top. The points she got, doesn't it tells the viewer the results already? Hmm...i was disappointed that peggy didn't get through instead, the other got into the top 3.

PS: XiaXue looked fat when she posed the question to the contestant. Waha!

I somehow regretted buying A-cash for my maple. Purpose for buying is to gain twice the experience. But i'm having difficulties finding people to train with me. I've been dying non stop and always stuck within those few %. I'm so frustrated. Haiz...i'm starting to hate this game. Yes, some of you are going to smile upon seeing this, go ahead, hopefully it will come true some day isn't it? Haa, i hope so too..

I seriously want a Digital Camera. I've always wanted to take out pictures, capturing those good moments with my loved ones. Espcially special occasion whereby it's specially meaningful. Ever since that fateful day where i lost my digital camera, i've been feeling kind of sad. Always asking myself how did it even got lost whenever something like that struck my mind. I want a Digital Camera..I'll save up after my trip. I'll get it..someday!

Mum has been telling me how good my PSP is. Being able to play video, music, games and even surf the net and watch tv, she can only say it's a right choice that i bought it. But the games i go for are quite limited. There's isn't really much genre of games i would play. So i can actually use it for lotsa of other stuff.

I'm now transferring all my photos that's inside my hard disk drive into the web. Yahoo web hosting seems a nice place to store my photos. The easy upload tool really saves me alot of time. It quite user friendly too. Someday i'll go clear my laptop and computer. Have been toggling between the two recently. Computer for the downloading of games whereas i use my laptop more for games and design stuff.

Recently, i'm hooked of songs by Relient K. Guys who are interested in rock music, get their songs from me. I got a whole chunk of their collection of songs. Blah blah blah....

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Let's start from Sunday - my guard duty. It wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. I've finally learnt how to pass weekend guard duty the easier and relaxed way. A few vcds/dvds, newspaper, magazine and food will do the trick. Rented 'A night at the museum' and 'Protege'. Both shows make my money worth spending.

Was totally shagged on monday but luckily, my boss's away at Germany till Thursday. I'll be free all the way. Shiok..

Pay finally came. First time i took pay so late, it's like around a month after i worked, then the pay came in. Nevertheless, it's always late than never. I miss my Dear over the past few days. Especially during guard duty. I'll never forget how she helped me passed my time when i'm in that 'prison'. She doesn't realised how much it meant to me when there's her when i'm having guard duty. If she did, things would probably be much much different and better. But still, she did made me feel better.

I suddenly feel so loved. We didn't argued as often as before. We were so loving recently, maybe it's before the air is cleared. We're just waiting for our first year anniversary and holiday now. May will be a great month for us, and yes i'm very sure it will be.

Made a new blog for Dear, something that resemble mine. I've been constantly working on the surprise that i'm going to give for my Dear this coming 1st year anniversary. Hearng the experiences from my friend did helped me. Hmm...seems like thing's going on very well for me.

My PSP is flashed V3.30! I'm soo happy. No more having to off my psp just to change game. No more facing plain theme background, instead, it's the picture of me and my dear. =)
I'll be downloading more games for my dear.

New BlogSkin

Finally, i've changed my blogskin. After so many attempts to change it, i've finally overcome my laziness and convinced myself to create a whole new look my blog.

Reason for that picture on top: A special meaning just for me and my dear.

Had a wonderful Dim Sum over at Red Star restaurant along with my working colleagues, a lunch treated by a female captain at my office. First time i went out with my colleagues. Actually nothing much..back to the food. That restaurant looks familiar to me but i just can't recalled anything about it.

Tml's guard duty again. I hate Sundays guard duty. All because the next day is a working day. I'll have to bear that uncomfort and lotsa stuff. I rented 2 shoes, brought one magazine, brought 2 tidbits and a waffle to past a boring day tomorrow. Wonder will tomorrow be a smooth and peaceful day for me...haiz!!

NA

So much has brought us till today. Not easy to let you go..always easier said than done. I'm sill loving you, more and more. Fate brought us together, love carried us on...Happy Eleventh Month Anniversary Mrs Dear! Muacks!

Corporal at last! / Disrespectful Bro

Got my 1st coporal pay! That little amount mean alot, especially to NSF. Plus, i was even happier when it was announced that NSF pay will increase by 50 bucks in july this year. Wah shiok, which means in a few months time, i'll be getting XXX bucks? Woot!

Another good news to share. Man Utd got through to the FA cup final with a whopping 4-1 win over Watford. Possibly facing all time rival, Chelsea. hmm...there's too much rivalry going on in between these two teams now. In champions league, in english league and now in FA cup. But there's a worrying issue, i truly wish Man Utd could hold that trophy in the final. It's been a long time since i had the feeling watching Man Utd crowned champions. The injury list is going and worrying. but i'm sure, everything will be overcome.

I have this nuts brother. His temper has really gotton over him. He talked to our parents with dissrespect. Yes, i didn't helped him with the overseas call thingy, but yet, he should have understood. What on earth do i know what's he's talking about. I know nuts about such things. Furthermore, if he knows, send me some website or procrdure that i could see or follow.
Instead, he blast my dad off, making my dad feel so angry and pissed. Dad says, this kind of son is disappointing. If in future, temper is still not curbed, the one to suffer got to be he himself. I don't know what to say. He really has a super bad temper and disrespect. He thinks he can get past everything just by blaming me. Fat Hope dude..He already gotton himself hot on heels. Dad's will surely be giving him a chop once he's back...disappointing...haiz..

haiz, i dread of the word guard duty. I'm like doing one duty almost every week. Even my mum ask why? I'm sick of the thought. Even worse is that there's stupid idiot who's planning my duty. He's simply just a blur cock. Nex month, i shall strike off alot of day for personal commitments. He better give me a decent date. Dammit..

Army Daze

I literally spend my whole day rotting in the office, doing nothing but surfing MinDef forums and chatting with my online maple friends. The good thing about my vocation is that i only follow orders from my direct superior, who happens to be one of the best guy on earth. He does almost everything by himself, leaving his personal asisstant, ME, with nothing much to do. I'm going to be spilt by him..*Choo...*

Guess what i saw today. A monkey. Not an ordinary one..it's one with its intestines coming out from the left part of his body. I feel from it. From what i heard, this monkey was fighting with another bunch of monkeys and got its stomach ripped off, leaving his intestines to hang out of this body. It's disgusting..Puke Puke..It appears to be limping, wondering if he could survive past today.

Made a pact with Dear regarding our 1st year anniversary presents. Hee..We made a list of what each other wants and choose from there. Hmm..i sort of know what to get for her already, and of cause without fail, there will be extra surpriese for her. Just you wait Mrs Dear.!! And also, our trip is confirmed!! We got our air tickets and hotel rooms already! When is 24th May coming?!?!?! I can't wait u know!!!

Going to get my Coporal pay tml!! Woot..1st increment of pay! So happy..i can smell the scent of money!! *Sniff sniff*

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Where's the promise we hold? Never did we try. I'm not sure. When 'Fishball' told me his trip to Malaysia with his girlfriend, i was only full of envy, nothing else. From a point of time whereby he told me his relationship with his girlfriend..from how egoistic his girlfriend is to how much time he had with her only per week...all the way til the day he's back to Singapore from the short holiday with his girlfriend and his girlfriend's family. He has grown to think that he can last with his girlfriend. I used to hear 'i don't think we can last, i don't have feeling that we can last'..until today, he told me 'the feeling of us being able to last is here'. As much as how Da Nu Ren his girlfriend is, there's certain thing they are able to resolve. I'm so envious.

After that judgment day, i held heart to heart talks, all for the better. Accomodation and understanding is all we agreed on, along with some promises. Til today, none of us to able to fulfill it. Somehow, i'm feeling the opposite with 'Fishball'. Not that i feel we can't last, it's just that the feeling of being able to last is not there. Partly due to me..Sadly..

Loving you..but i can't give you my everything

Yet what i can give is not what you ask for..

Neither one of us want to admit defeat

Many times, i just want to hug you close..

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Work sux today..It's bored. Plus that trip to medical centre. It's so confusing. You can make two parties happy. First, i got a letter which excuses me from over exposure to direct sunlight, which in turn is used to excuse myself from range. But it's not approved by my colleagues. Yet, my office warrant office buy my story and excused me. Today, i went to explain to the medical officer, yet, i didn't get a specific letter. Sian..I predict work will be sucky for the next week days or weeks to come. Guard duty tml..Boohoo

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Interesting news: Our Singaporean very own singlish word 'kiasu' is officially a regconised english word. It made it to the Oxford English Dictionary, along with the word, 'wiki'. Congrats to another singlish word turned english word.

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Monokuro Boo...(Dedicate it to my Dear)

'Boo' 'Love?' 'Enjoy?' 'Happy!'

A hidden message from the four words above. A message Monokuro Boo wanted to send across. It goes like this..

We live in a very complex world and have various stresses from everyday life, but we sometimes need to move away from the real world and think things simply. Therefore, Monokuro boo is here to heal you, who are tired of the real outside world.

Monokuro boo is a attractive couple, even though we don't know whether they have thick heads or they are sullen. They love each other so much!!

Monokuro Boo is based on the concept 'Simple and Convenient'. They are a symbol of happiness and love..

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Music - No one today can resist the beauty of music. Be it any genre..Rock, pop, classical, jazz etc etc..I used to have a huge collection of songs. I can still remember how i once fall in love with pop all the way until i got influenced to the swanky tunes of techno and eventually to getting addicted by the power of rock music. After i got together with dear, the route of music path to my ears changed, not very big but just abit. I was made to love chinese pop, rock..basically just chinese songs. Til now, my 'rock' passion is fading. Due to the lack of guitar practice. Anyway, music rocks my ears, world and life. BUT!!! My collection music is gone mostly. After this damn laptop met up with an accident, most songs i loved or used to loved are gone, til now, still unable to sastify the hunger of my ears. I have to re-collect them again. It's going to take a long time before i make up the list..

Have been reading up the Mindef forum at work. I've been rather slack. I've this boss that doesn't really treat my as his personal assistant. He asked other colleague of mine things that he's supposed to ask me. Well, i don't really care anyway. Back to my topic on the forum, there's still forum on Relationships. Inside, you could see people posting about their relationship. Mainly trouble people met in their relationship. My curosity proved to be of good intention and i must say i realised quite a few things about myself. I'm definitely the best boyfriend that dear can have but i can be good. I won't be perfect, but i'll be good. I'm learning everyday.

All that forum-ing has inspired me. I've thought of things i never think before. I even had an idea of what to get from my Dear when our 1st year anniversary comes.

By the way, Dear was nice to accompany me to watch TMNT. It's a very nice movie. From childhood till now. Even though i've lost touch with the turtles for ages, but the movie just got my out of my seat. The feeling of being a child just came back. Nice movie with a few funny scenes but the turtles looks abit skinny..making them look abit weird..

Another good news. Finally, Don's able to go holiday with me! I'm was glad enough to be able to go on holiday with dear once again. Just when we thought we couldn't get anybody to go to the trip with us, Don called. He made it. When it was told that only 2 seats were left, i have this fear that he couldnt make it, but luckily, he did. Now i shall wait eagerly for my leave to approved and i'll just look forward to that trip.

Life's a Highway or Rollercoaster

Life's not a highway. Isn't like that that movie said. Life should be like a rollercoaster. Full of ups and down. It makes your hearts popped out, having a twinking aching on your heart each time u fall from the peak. It gets you excited and thrilled each from you move up from below. That's all the same for life. You feel hurt/disappointment etc..when you are pushed down from the top and it gets you motivated and happy each time you realised you are steadily moving up.

Never doubt me. Cos that will sets a difference between a fine thin line of what i deemed as. I hate things i do gone down the drain just like that. Never show what i've done is not appreciated, for that will stop me from continue doing them. Never say out what would swept all away. 'm constantly reflecting on myself but don't push me. Each time my heart is scarred, it takes time to heal, i'll termed is as the cold down period.

I've really been heeding advices and constantly learning. All i need is time, it might take long, but i just need it. Sometimes, a slap or two will wake me up.

Holiday plan's almost ruined. Now it's all dependent on Donna. I can't imagine a trip that's near 2 months away can be fully booked. Well, maybe it's partly due to the school holiday season. I really wished to go for a break. Break from everything, just me and my loved one, along with my friend. No worries, no commitments, no anything!!