Army life hasn't been good so far. Was excused from Field Camp. Fell sick on the 1st day of field camp. Got warded and was on drip. Whole arm left numb for days. Fell more sick the next few days. Got confinement for some stupid dumb mistake. Sucks..

i have a pretty dear dear..she smile..so sweet........

Though she claims it's a joke..i really don't feel good when i heard it..for i say before i want to be a man she can rely on

15 days has passed. Here i am, back home again, blogging. Before i got enlisted, i thought the next time i'll blog would be mostly about my army life. But right now, i really has nothing to blog about army life. Army to me is like jail. Alot of things is restricted because they wanted to be regimental. So i conclude that there's isn't much difference between us and those jailbirds. It took me around 3-4 days to adapt to the life there, not totally though. I think for me to totally adapt to the life there, it will take 3-4 weeks instead. Waking up early in the morning is not really a problem for me. But i feel more and more restless day by day. Day by day, i feel like waking up later and later. It's not because i'm tired but it's because i dread of the day. Each day starts with me hoping that night would fall faster.

Lucky for me, my training programme isn't that tough as compared to the other PES status enlistees. I'm excused from sunlight for 56 days!! Which means i'm excused from most marching and training. The sun and heat in tekong can really kills. The temperature there is 1 degree celcius higher than mainland. My face simply went rotting under the sun there.

I got my rifle and isn't really fantastic afterall. It's just a dumb black thing where alot of people claims to be their wife. I rather exchanged this 'wife' for some tibits for at least they can sastify my hunger. Inside is rather boring. Everything is like so dead, u wake up, breakfast, training, lunch, training, dinner, training then sleep. and the cycle continues..

Every night is what i'm waiting for, for that's the time i relax myself and chat with my Dear. I'm glad that at times, i'm able to call her in the afternoon. Basically, my superiors are quite good. I've been missing my Dear Dear since the day i enlisted. It will continue for the next 5 weeks. Hope she will be able to hold on for the next 5 weeks. Yesterday is my book-out day. It's a day i've been waiting for since the 1st day i enter Tekong. But very very very lucky for me, i fell sick. I went to fetch Dear Dear from work. I waited for her and when i saw her, i suddenly feel like crying. I never had this feeling before, now i know that my heart has really grew fonder. Grew fonder for the person that i've been missing for the past 15 days. I disappoint Dear for not being to come out healthily, not only that, she spend the whole night worrying for me yesterday. Including my mummy. Seriously, nothing is better than home. Yesterday when i reached back home, i had this strange feeling. As though it's not my room anymore. I feel weird. But i'm glad to be home, with all my loved ones with me. I'm lucky. Sorry Dear, i bore u yesterday night and this morning. I'll concentrate on getting well and on my next weekend bookout, i'll compensate u. We'll do what u want..

Recently, Dear's sad. Or rather, it's yesterday that she's sad. I don't know how to tell Dear. I want to tell her, cos i tot i might be of some help, at least to make her feel better. But at the same time, i'm afraid to remind her of unhappy things. Dear care alot of others, so much so that she can ignore how she feels. She isn't a happy girl now. She has no chance to defend herself. It's really unfair to her. I really feel like doing alot of things, but this things is between she and her ??????????. I've no rights to say anything. Dear Dear, what i can do now is listen to u, be there for me, spend time with you. -i'm loving and missing u more day by day-

I saw Farhan in there. It's really makes me happy to see my friends in Tekong. Cos it's like, u don't have alot of friends in there, friends are what makes the stay better. Glad that Jonathan found his love. Glad that Don is recovering well. As for Gav, he's kind of missing in action. But i'm sure he's doing fine.

Tml i'm booking in already. Booking in sure sux. I won't feel good for sure. I hope Tuesday can come soon..