Argh!! I feel so furious..i actually went out of my house reaching her house..just to get her sms saying that she's not free..helping her students blah blah blah..can't she just inform me earlier?!!? Fine that's not important..i tried for tonight, she said she has some parent's dinner to attend..Fine...i said tml, she can't give me a confirm time..what am i to do..fancy me have to push all my activites away, change my schedule..oh Hell...Can't she more understanding..what's the point of telling him this student this, that student that..can't she try and understand me..i've got my own plans, all just to be ruined by her..ARGH!! Now i feel so pressurised..My buddies hasn't get their claim, we haven't get our pay..now our of us really feel as if we pay to work..oh what the hell...

Finally, i dyed my hair.Yay..today woke up super late..felt abit bad about it though..don't know why..Just now while dyeing my hair, one drop of that dye accidentally drop into an area near my eye, now my left eye hurts like shit..argh..Hopefully this time, the results would be good..i'll be waiting..

Yesterday bought quite a few presents..Yay!! I'm going to surprise one person. Hopefully this person will be very shocked when he/she (can't tell you if it's a she or he) gets my surprise. I'm now totally broke..ARGH!! Haa, i'm going to save money, for the Dream Theater concert that coming up..hopefully i can save that amount soon..

Christmas's coming soon! Yay..times flies, last year christmas seems like it was just yesterday. Still can remember very clearly how it was spent. Hopefully, this year, this christmas would be a fulfilling.

I got so inspired by two person Blog..Xue Ling's Blog and Xiaxue's Blog!! So much so that i am determined to enhance my blog..but still within my limits. I know i don't have the capability of making nice blogs nice them, however, i shall make my nicest blog. Got this skin for someone from the net and modified it myself. Gt to explore and browse more from the net and books to find way to make it more 'ROCK', Messy and er...nice? haa..i'll try my best..

Today got so irritated by those aunties. It seems like these Aunties are always dying to get seats, so much so that they hit and bang around just to drive their sticky and 'not-so strong' body through what they deem to be pile of easy obstruction form by polite and organised passangers to get to one seat. As if those seats has a $10 note on it. Omg! Kiasu Aunties will only make Singaporean more Kiasu for one Bus/Mrt ride will tells it all about us Singaporeans.

For once, bus fare is only of an mild amount, whereby most people could afford and yet within a few years, the fare increase so much so that it cause burden finiancially to some, even to me. Service is still the same and i don't see myself getting a more comfortable ride even i paid more then a few donkey years ago. Installing TV Mobile is a bad poor idea, fancy displaying it near each door, whereby the screen will always be blocked by some 'Big-Heads', within the video always lagging. oh..Sometimes i wonder what i am really pay for? For the comfort of me not needing to walk to my destination but yet get irritated by some irritating passengers?

Finally, i've finished the paper assignment given by my boss. I'm left with the book assignment. Rush it all til i drop dead..argh..come weekend come!!

Lonely Days are back...

The title of this post shall speaks for my feelings..hmm...sian, boring, lonely and feeling kinda sucky! Lonely days is here again..my died-hard buddies are all back to serving the nation - unwillingly..My nights will be boring..unless someone kind hearted soul is willing to chat with me til wee hours of the night..My days will be like day-dreaming..i just can't wait for weekends..Now weekends will be my best friends..come fast please!!

Finally my ears is not pain anymore. One more stud and i think it will take more than 2 weeks to recover for this newly pierced one is taking more than 1 week to heal. Poor Jon, he has to take out his piercing and replace it with a altered ear stick - one that he cut til very short by himself. I wanted to dye my hair too, but have yet to..don't when i should dye..when i feel like it bah..

Christmas and New Year's coming, i'm going get ready for the gift exchange party this sunday and the countdown..argh..can't wait..

Don, i believe u never do it..for this would never come out from your mouth..I'll be behind you for you are my best buddy..Fear not as we will go through this..I'll explain on your behalf and concentrate on whatever you are doing now..Wait eagerly for this holidays and rock and have fun!

Sis, hope you get well soon and do enjoy your last week in Hong Kong..hope you are having lotsa fun and come back soon...haa..can't wait

Tiring But Fun

Past week has really been very tiring for me..but indeed one of the best week i ever had..Last tuesday was the ENPEC camp which lasted from 6 Dec to 8 Dec which eventually extended all the way until 9 Dec because lotsa kids can't bear to leave the place..Finally my buddies Pass Out on 6 Dec and joined me in the evening for the camp. Although our job is to be a coach supervising and overlooking the whole event and kids, i feel that we are more like brothers and sisters to them. The whole event was fun but as i have to run about between school and work, it makes me exhausted. I felt tired, especially when night fall. The best part of the camp is when we were having soccer game with the kids at the park..it was fun, but unluckily, i somehow injure knee which was already injured. but the fun cures it all

On 8 Dec, i had my presentation..which went on very very smoothly which i never expected it cos i thought that with my tired and restless mind, i couldn't present well but luckily it turn out not to be so..as for the street soccer compeition later in the evening, it was a big disappointment. The last compeition that i can have in Singapore Polytechnic was just gone in 10 mins. 1st game was against my Junior..my team played hard but not well enough. I am very disappointed with myself for the performance i gave for i know i can do alot better than that. My stamina is deproving and i know something has to be done but can't.

The next day, my knee was more painful than ever. I went to sch with a tired body and mind and went home before school dismissed because i'm really too tired. On Saturday, i went to Gavian house and we jammed! Woohoo, i would say this time is the best jamming session because all of us were really into it, especially jon, i could see his efforts made weren't easy and although the results weren't that good, he already put his best and i really respect him for that. That very night, we went Clubbing!!! It's like the 1st time in so many months since we last clubbed together. It was very enjoyable and we saw lotsa pretty girls and pole dancing..some hot, some boring like sh!t..we went home and knocked out right after we showered..

Sis's at Hong Kong..What an envy..haa..she used to be the 1st person that came to my mind whenever i have problem but now she's at hong kong, i can't sms her much for i all it's very very enpensive to even send one sms. But i know she's always there for me, spiritually..Hope you enjoy yourself and i'll be waiting for u to come back..haa! Eat more Smelly beancurd!

During that week, i had some good and bad experience. I knew some of my friends more like Xue Ling. Besides that, i got to know fantastic people like Darren, Claire, Cindy and Jun Li. They were great people and fun to be with. However, i had a bad experience during the camp. Someone has been badmouthing me, and it's not just me but also my friends. How could we work together if she continue doing all this nonsense. I really feel like quitting my job but i can't for i have to finish what i'm doing. Til this day, i've totally seen through what kinda person, she can be a very nice person but at the same time, she can be the most 'poisonous' person on earth. Well, her bad points can't seem to overcome her good points..i'll see how it goes..meanwhile, i shall concentrate on my studies and wait for this saturday..YAY, going sentosa!!

GASTRIC!!

Here i am, sick yet again..This time, it's the terrible and torturous GASTRIC!! It all started on yesterday afternoon, i went home bending my body down, it's quite pain with me not realizing it might be gastric. So i went home, bathe and the pain started to gets deeper and this time, it's really pain. Tried to lie down, sit down, crouch and stand..none of the position can make me feel abit more comfortable. So i had my dinner and went to bed. Thiking that a short sleep would help to kill away the pain.

Woke up feeling more pain, then there's nagging from my parents, not wanting to hear anymore, i went to bed early, the earliest this sesmester i suppose. Then, my brother turned in, followed by my parents. Ptch black everywhere and the only sound that broke the silence is my groaning. The pain is unbearable. Whole night i didn't sleep well because of the terrible. I tried to bear with it all the way until this morning, i quickly rushed to the clinic downstairs. Went at 8:30am, in the end i have to wait until 9:15am to be consulted, cos the doctor only came in at 9:10am. Why does Doctor always come later than the opening time..Luckily, i was the 1st one to be consulted, went home, took my breakfast and medicine and went to sleep. Intending to go sch actually as there's stuff to be submitted tml but the pain was simply unbearable, making me feel weak and restless, so i informed my group members. Thanks alot for their understanding, i manage to have a good rest and i'm feeling alot better..just abit pain now...........

Yay..Submission Over!

Yay...my BP/DC submission is over..finally can have some free fresh air..This submission can be said to be the best one i ever had this year. I worked quite hard for it..haa..This submission make me learn who's selfish, who's not. It's always unlucky that there will be one classmate who always appear to be kind to you but he's actually not..Lots of people are unhappy with him..His work is always so called the 'best', just bcause he has no life, as in no other lifestyle. He never shares his work with others, that is ok, but he still say people names, saying people don't have pride in their work. How could someone ever say such things out to own friends..never mind that. When fellow female classmates ask for it, he gave them without a second thought. That all tells us how and what kind a person he is..oh my god..he simply sux

Friends should care and share, never mind those minor stuff/arguments but always keep a lookout for each other. I'm glad i do still have friends who are really good to me. For this, i count myself lucky. Yesterday was the PSLE results, overall, i think most students did quite well, except for one or two. Well, never brood over it too much. For those who think u have a bad result, learn from it and move on. Work harder in the process. For those who have dine well, congratulations and all the best in your secondary school life!

Recently, i have been bugged by my project, so much so that i realised my dark rings are DARKER now..ENPEC manual has been finished but always unable to meet Anne for timing she set is always wrong. Well, i can't possibly accomodate her as i do have my own commiment which i deem as the most priority. But no matter what, i still do my job well and as usual. Tml's the meeting of Xero4 cum Natural Objection..let's look forward...meanwhile, let me rest and have a good nice sleep

Oh ya Maplers, if u wanna get maple cash card, please do let me know..i've got 'lobang'...haa!!

Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire

It's a day that i have been looking forward to recently..Because it's going to be the only day of the week i get to dismiss the earliest. I dismissed at 2pm, went to gym after that. Today my fitness dropped, didn't manage to do the number of targeted Chin-ups but instead, i gain 1 more KG! Haha..so glad..weeks of heavy meals certainly works on me now. I'm starting to see results. Today is the first time i run after i fall sick on Feburary. I intend to just run 1KM because it's been months since i last ran. I ran quite fast during the 1Km and by the time i finished running the 1KM, i felt abit giddy and feel like vomiting. Maybe it's due to the long period of time i haven't been running like that..

After that, i rushed home to get changed before proceeding to meet Anne and the kids. This time we are going to watch Harry Potter and the Goblet of fire. Certainly not a Harry Potter fan, i manage to get fascinated by this great series of Harry Potter ever since it 1st came out on screen. This time, although the story plot wasn't that fantastic, the whole concept and the way the story was acted was nice. Especially the part where the dragons get to appear on the screen. It was simply cool. Scenes and scences of exciting moments gave me suspense and eagerness to find out what's going to happen, unfortunately, it was spoiled by XinYi..Keep asking me question regarding it, making me abit irritated and moodless...haa..but luckily, the nice scenes kept me moving. The show actually lasted for 2 and a half hour. Didn't realise it..well, time flies..how true can this be..For thos Harry Potter Fans, better catch this show and i'm sure u'll like it..or rather LOVE it!

Sickly Me

Just barely a day after i went for the medical checkup, and i'm sick..yes..yet again. This time down with serious flu..making me totally exhausted and tired..Today went to school very early..earliest time i suppose in this sesmester. This tells u how lazy i am. Haha..well, late and heavy sleeper i am.

Had the most work done this sesmester and i am proud of myself. But i am considered one of the last few students as my classmates are all already up ahead. Yes, i intend to stop slacking and start to work on my project. While consulting the lecturer regarding my project today, my flu started coming. It's very irritating with those liquid flowing down endlessly, making me frustrated and moodless to do my project after the consultation. Using my handkerchief even til it became wet, Eww...i know it's disgusting..haa! I tried to hold on all the way until 5pm, which is my dismissal time, and great i am, able to hang on til that late. Class started at 9am. Argh, this sesmester timetable sux big time,almost everyday follows office hours. When i reach home, i was in rather foul mood, because of my stupid nose. It's making me look like a clown because of the constant rubbing of the nose. I was dead beat and totally exhausted. Hunger further make me feel the torture and finally when dinner was served, i started regain my lost energy. After eat, i went to sleep because i'm really very restless. Woke up and all ready to charge for my project.

Although my nose is still not ok yet, i went on with my project as i mention earlier, i have to work on my project. Just popped one flu tablet and i guess i'm not in a drowsy state cos i'm starting to see blur image on this screen.haa..that's all for now..byee!

NS Medical Checkup

Today i didn't went to school. Instead went for the Ns Medical Checkup at CMPB. Realising i am going to be late when i reach Redhill Mrt, i took a taxi to CMPB instead of bus. On the way there, the taxi driver was telling me, how NS is a waste of time..blah blah blah..i agree totally with what he said..as i felt that National Service today no longer serve its real purpose.

Upon reaching, i have to pass this heavily guarded entrance gate before finally reaching CMPB main building. So on i went and started registering myself. 1st station was eye test, as usual, that will be my fastest test because i had perfect eyesight (Hehe). Next, i proceed on to hearing aid test, got a pass for that too before proceeding for the urine and blood test. Urine test sucks cos u have to actually fill up that small bottle with your urine..YUCKS! After that, it's blood test, that darn medical officer sqeeze my finger so hard that i actually feel the pain when i see blood oozing out from the spot he hit with a needle. Ouch!! Then i enter to the next station - Chest X-ray. From what i know, one cannot take more than one x-ray within 6 months. I just had one chest x-ray taken last month yet i have to take again just because i didn't have any dumb documents to prove. I was wondering will there be any damage to my body? Pray it won't...After that i went to a room to have my height and weight taken. After all that, i strip myself down to shorts and went to this room to do what they call EGC. Well, i don't what's that but what they do is put a few things on your chest, i guess it has something to do with your heartbeat.

All that, went to this room where they started to ask me about my asthma and then strip me naked totally and asked me to cough. Don't know what are they testing on with this. X.X..Finally, it's down to the last section which is also the longest section - IQ test. This stupid test takes more than one hour and i am rotting as the question are mostly dumb. Some even test what i learnt in Secondary school but i have long forgotten what h learnt in school. Wonder if i can pass that section or not..HAHA! As i have a asthma history and is currently under medication, i am being catogorised as PES D. I am required to do another test, something to do with my lungs i suppose before i am eventually being given a another PES status. I hope to be given PES C. At least i will be able to experience army life yet slack all the way..

Bad Day

11/11/05 is certainly one of the worst day of my life..I'm very disappointed..i fail my dearest ones...i blame myself..i feel bad...

It's A New Beginning!

My year don't starts on 1st January. Instead, it starts right exactly on my Birthday - 27th October. A good beginning spells a good year ahead. Hopefully it's true. Things are starting to look better. I'm used to being 'lonely' at night. Occupied by games, projects and some other unnecessary sms-es. As always, i will always go school later than scheduled. Nevertheless, school's still not as stressful and that's because i'm still slacking as though there's no other people business. I shall work my project through slowly, i assure that there won't be any last mintue rush - will have last minute work but won't rush it..HAA!

Recently, i received 2 more presents. One from my sis (XingYun) and another from my buddy(Donovan). Coincidentally, both presents are wallets. That makes me abit stucked. I have to give up my old wallet which is Billabong-branded. But i don't mind as both wallets are just as nice and even more 'useable' than my previous one. But which one to use? I intend to switch between wallets occasionally. One bring to school while the other bring when i'm out hanging around.

Oh ya, Man Utd Won..Finally, this win came not easy. Overcoming lotsa nonsense ever since the past two defeats, Man Utd yet again show their pro-ness. This time to a damn cocky club - Chelsea. And surprisingly, it ended their unbeaten run of winning games, like what Man Utd did to Arsenal last season too. Cmon, Man Utd is not a team to ignored.

Reaching to this age is certainly now easy. Knowing lotsa people, learning lotsa thing and experiencing things that i have never experience before. I must say my 20 years is lived worthwhile.

For Sister,
Past few weeks/months, i have been neglecting my Sister. She's not my real sister but someone whom i regarded as one. Known her for a number of years, we maintained a good relationship and never fail to keep in touch with each other. We shared quite a number of woes/happiness etc together and from there, grown to know each other better. She's simply a sister that i never regretted knowing. Due to work and studies, i have neglected not long ago. Although she didn't say anything, i still felt bad cos certain time when she needed someone, i was not there. No matter what, she's still my sis and will always remain that way. If u are reading this. hope u can forgive me. Dui Bu Qi! It's been a long time since we last went out already, shall give u a big treat..please do let me know when u are free wor, hopefully before u leave for HongKong. Take care and Siblings Always!

Slacking week.!

This week has been a rather slacking one. Monday i didn't go to school because i was just plain too lazy. Anyway, it's holiday the next day so i didn't think much. I went gym in the afternoon that day and yay! I gained weight!! Hooray..after that, i went for my driving lesson. Went for the lesson with an excited yet carrying that bit of fear. Ever since i fail my 1st driving test that time, i couldn't bring my confidence in driving up. Luckily the lesson went quite well. Hopefully for the next few lessons and eventually until the driving test, everything will run quite smoothly and pass!

Wednesday is supposed to be a schooling day. Yet i didn't go school again. This time it's not because i'm lazy but because it's my grandfather death anniversary. In the end, i didn't wake up and help out but i did pay respects to my grandfather. Although i'm not that close to my grandfather, but i still feel somehow close to him. It's really saddening to see someone just left this world like that. When my grandfather pass away a year ago, i felt that sudden fear. Suddenly, i'm scared. Cos once a person is gone, he's gone forever. He will only remains in your heart. That all really makes me treasure certain people more.

Went out with my fellow buddies later that night. Supposed to go clubbing but didn't because Jonathan and Mun Hoe doesn't wana go. Somehow i felt that i disappoint Gavian. Well, i will make it up to him next time. I myself also wanted to go because i miss those clubbing day with them whereby we really had hell lot of fun. So that day, we went to watch movie instead. Two movie in a row really makes my back ache. The 1st movie was Domino. A very very sucky movie. This is the 1st time i felt so uncomfortable and slept during a movie. That could show how lousy this movie can be. That's why i say, sometimes, trailers don't show the whole movie. ARGH! But luckily, the 2nd movie was alot alot better and nice. I would give it a rating of 10/10. It's simply a superb movie. It's called Tom-Yum-Goong. Here how the movie goes roughly.

It's about a Thai who had his two beloved elephants stolen by a group of people who stole endangered and rare animals to serve as a dish in Australia. So the thai with the only clue of where one of the bad guy is, went to Australia to find back his beloved elephants. He met with lotsa difficulties but with the aid of a few people, he managed to find his way eventually to the place where the elephants where brought to. !st he found the smaller elephant which is the child. After that, when they eventually reach the highest level, all he could find is skeletons of the big elephants. The bad guys had killed the big elephant which is the father i supposed and use it as a statue with this ugly piece of gold cloth overing it. Filled with anger, he fought to revenge for his beloved elephant and evetually killed the mastermind.

This movie really moved people. I can actually feel how the actor feel. It's how strong the movie is and i really would love to watch it again. I highly recommend it to everybody. After the movie, we went for a nice supper and headed home to watch soccer match. Man Utd lost once again. They don't seem to be like before. Now they play like some division 3 teams and they really sucks!! Jon, Gavian and Mun Hoe gave me a birthday present. Didn't expect it to be a watch but i really like it very much. Thanks buddies! Below is the pictures of the watch. Quite cool. Now that all of them have booked in already, i shall look forward to Saturday and hang out with them. Wooo....

My Birthday!!

20 years ago, i had my 1st cry. It wasn't easy for my mum to brought me to this world. Not even to mention how my parents brought me up well and good. I wouldn't have what i had today if not for them. This year birthday wasn't possible without them. My greatest present ever is the love i get from my whole family.

This year birthday was kinda boring. On my birthday itself, i stayed at home, lazing around. Just don't feel like going anywhere and doing anywhere. Maybe it's because of the exhaustion i had from too much playing on cruise the day before. The moment the clock struck 12am, i received a few birthday greetings. All from people whom i know cared for me. This year, my fellow friend weren't there to celebrate for me, for all of them were in army. But i know once they are out, fun will be around. My very 1st present was from Mildred. Gave my something very meaningful (Secret) and it was thoughtful of her to do something very special for me. Well, i couldn't have thought of that, i guess she learnt it from her sisters too. Haha..thanks anyway. 2nd present came from Diane, XueLing and Berlinda. Thanks 3 pretties! They have me 1st half of the present, saying the 2nd half would be given some other day. Well, maybe that's suprising enough.

Yesterday, i'm out with Gerald, Denise, XinYi, Sarah, Diane and Anne. We went to watch Transporter 2. A terrific movie with lotsa actions. It was very very nice. How cool was the man as he go all out to save a boy, a girl, even the world. After that we went to Seoul Garden to have the buffet. And guess what, we wait for near 2 hours just to get our turn , by the time we went in, we were like hungry pigs searching for food. Then, food was like gold bars. I took lotsa food, and started eating even before the food was cooked. Cos all we have left is around 45 mins. That's the fastest buffet i have ever eaten. Oh ya people, the chocolate cake was very very nice and thanks. After that, we went to watch the 2nd movie - The Legend of Zorro..It was another fantastic movie. Filled with fun and actions. A fulfilling day ended and i enjoyed myself very much. Thanks for everything, everyone.....i shall wait for another day of fun when all my buddies book out..

Cruise with Family

Once again i hopped onto Superstar Virgo yet again on 23rd Oct..Everything seems to be so familiar as i'm at the exact same cruise boat about a week ago. This time cruise was slightly boring, because i have tried everything when i was there a week ago. Nevertheless, i spend my time best and well. Doing things i didn't get to do previously and also enjoy the plunge pool which is forever so refreshing. This time, i brought my brother along we really enjoyed ourselves very very much. Luckily this time, there's tour to Penang and Phuket, which makes the whole 4D3N trip not so boring.

In Penang, my family joined the Nature tour, whereby we visited the spice garden, butterfly farm and also did some shopping. Over there at the spice garden, i only see plnats and lotsa mosquitoes. Luckily, i sprayed some mosquitoes repellent on my body already, if not, i'll need to eat lotsa pig liver to replanish my precious blood. In the butterfly farm, it was the most fun..Over there, i saw the biggest spider and bettle. There are thousand species of butterflies too. And there butterflies were like flying all around. They can land on your hand, hair, shirt etc...but on the floor, u can see lotsa dead butterflies. It's kinda gross cos u have to be careful of them too. Oh ya, i also saw big big big scorpions. They glows in the dark..which makes them especially cool and nice.

Once again i hopped onto Superstar Virgo yet again on 23rd Oct..Everything seems to be so familiar as i'm at the exact same cruise boat about a week ago. This time cruise was slightly boring, because i have tried everything when i was there a week ago. Nevertheless, i spend my time best and well. Doing things i didn't get to do previously and also enjoy the plunge pool which is forever so refreshing. This time, i brought my brother along we really enjoyed ourselves very very much. Luckily this time, there's tour to Penang and Phuket, which makes the whole 4D3N trip not so boring.

In Penang, my family joined the Nature tour, whereby we visited the spice garden, butterfly farm and also did some shopping. Over there at the spice garden, i only see plnats and lotsa mosquitoes. Luckily, i sprayed some mosquitoes repellent on my body already, if not, i'll need to eat lotsa pig liver to replanish my precious blood. In the butterfly farm, it was the most fun..Over there, i saw the biggest spider and bettle. There are thousand species of butterflies too. And there butterflies were like flying all around. They can land on your hand, hair, shirt etc...but on the floor, u can see lotsa dead butterflies. It's kinda gross cos u have to be careful of them too. Oh ya, i also saw big big big scorpions. They glows in the dark..which makes them especially cool and nice.

In Phuket, we went for the shopping tour. Not really that fantastic as it's just normal shopping. I did some shopping myself. Bought Manchester United T-shirt, a shirt and several stuff. I also bought a guitar model. Argh, cool cool cool..everything was not really cheap..just a little bit cheaper than singapore that's all.. That very night, we had Gala dinner. My whole family dressed ourselves up and went for the dinner. Everything was like so nice and everybody dressed up. As in we were in some kind of grand party in a big ballroom. Finally, the night ended and we were on our way back to Singapore.


This time Bingo wasn't that successful but did played some jackpot and win. Hehe..The next time i board a cruise board, it will be Gemini already...Can't wait...

Me and My brother

The Biggest Spider

It's been a long time since i last blog. Well, i had wanted to post up a new post since a few days ago but hasn't been able to due to laziness and the late coming of those photos. During this one week or so, i had lotsa fun. Been to cruise and also went to Kuala Lumpur. This holiday was fun and i'm going to tell u guys the fun that i've been through. Let's start off with the cruise.

Set off for cruise centre on 14th October. Went there to meet the people 1st then off we go. Wait wasn't long, luckily and we started off the day with a nice, peaceful dinner. Over there, i tried alot of things i have never tried before when i was in the same cruise boat - Superstar Virgo. Don and I tried the Japanese plunge pool. There's this two pool whereby one is super cold and the other one is super hot. Inside the cold pool, i can't even stay inside more than 20 seconds because it was like super cold and after that i immediately plunge myself into the hot pool. Repeatedly ran between these two pool. It is said to improve blood circulation and i works wonder. Both me and Don felt so refreshed after that. Another thing i tried that was fun is the Bingo. Whereby one has to struck off all 15 numbers within 45 calls, if not, the one who manage to struck off all 15 numbers 1st wins. During my last day of cruise, i finally won! Woohoo, though it's just a hundred and over bucks, it did brought lotsa fun. I even won a medal for some compeition - NOT TOPLESS DANCING! Just some compeition in search for 'hercules'. HAHA! The children - XinYi and JieRong brought much fun and their company is certainly enjoyable and make my day. Jackpot in casino wasn't that fun because both me and Don was like losing money like free. So that sucks. The 'Char Kway Tiao' there was simply superb. It was very very delicious that make my craves for it even til now. When i went back on 16 October, i was simply exhausted due to the lack of sleep and the overpowering of the air-conditioner there. The next day is my KL trip already, and i thought i was going to fall sick. Below is the photo of Me and Don when we were on the cruise ship. At this nice lobby.
On early morning of 17th October, i set of f to school. Had to wake up very early but i can't get to sleep til wee hours on that day because i wasn't feeling very good. So i met Farhan - My Classmate/Buddy. Then we proceed to school. After that, when everyone is present, we leave for Kuala Lumpur. During the journey, we made a few stops between we eventually reach Putrajaya, whereby i've seen the most beautiful buildings in Malaysia. That's where all the government offices and ministries are in. After that, we checked into a 5-star Hotel - Istana Hotel. It was cool man! Grand on the inside and cool on the inside. I shared one room with my buddy. Kuala Lumpur wasn't that fastantic. During my stay there, i found out that it's not very developed yet. Didn't managed to see the spectacular Twin Tower though. Wasted. The whole place doesn't have much to shop and even to explore around. It's like a low-down, shabby chinatown street. During the two morning, i and Farhan failed to report on time because we were sleeping like pig. On the very last morning, i ate my breakfast at 4am. It's because i joined my muslim friends who were having their 'Sahur' as it's their fasting month. It's the earliest breakfast i ever eaten in my life. Over the two days, we were to 2 University to learn about the buildings structure. Then went to some mega shopping centre too. Malaysia is around the same as Singapore, so there's isn't really any nice place for me to shop and look around. The trip was fun mainly because of the friends around and i do miss all the fun when it finally ended. Aww..Below is some of the pictures we took while we were in Malaysia.


This Sunday i'm going to set off for another cruise yet again but this time it's with my family. The previous one was enjoyable because the people with me are fun. This time with my family, it's going to another different fun experience. Hopefully, i will be able to enjoy it. The previous two trip recently has certainly lighten up my mood. Now that Don has went to serve NS already, i guess it's time i get used to this lonely nights. I have been playing maple recently and finally i'm a Cleric. So whoever is playing maple, please add me!

This week is basically a very slacking one. Yet, i seem to have spent tons of money, causing a big hole in my wallet and pocket. Went out with XinYi, this chap is a very fun kid to hang out with i must say. He just makes my day and maybe Don's too. The next few days i'm slacking at home like nobody business. Turning in late and waking up when the sun is already shining onto my butt! I'm more than ever hooked onto Maple. But it takes like donkey years to reach another level, nevertheless, i still finds it fun and haven't get sick of it - Well, surprisingly. Hehe..

Recently, i'm into another state of lost and troubled mind again. I lost someone who's once dear, well, not so dear but someone whom i really mind and dotes on alot. I am starting to see a gap/barrier in between us. I don't know why yet again but i make some predictable guess and assumptions. I began to take things more slightly positively as advices from the past few lessons gained made me a stronger and wiser man. Seriously, i wouldn't have take things so easily if not for my important friends. Jonathan and Gavian really really give me a great piece of advice. Well, Don's has been asking to take things easy and relax..haha..i am...TRYING! Although i really feel abit regretful of why things has come to such state but i guess it's no point dwelling. No point bringing myself down. I guess those who know me well enough would know what happen to me..Pain is still being inflicted but i guess it will heal. All i need is time..

Thanks for the early present from Denise too. She's a student whom i knew from ACES. She gave me a little Pooh Bear, a charm and a birthday card. I appreciate that and thanks alot for the present.

I have been letting myself down by not practising my guitar. Argh, the passion is there but i just don't have the mood. I don't know well. Recently, i've rented alot of Vcds and has been watching at home. Luckily all the shows i watched so far are superb. I get to watch some World-Cup qualifier actions yesterday morning too. Yay!! Switzerland has the chance of going to the World Cup next year!! Way to Go! GOGOGO!!

Well, now this paragraph is dedicated to Jonathan and Gavian. I won't be in Singapore til late next week. Hopefully, this time when the both of you book out, u guys can get to hang out or spend time with people whom u didn't get the chance to spend with for the past few days/weeks/months. All the best and hope you guys will enjoy yourselves and i'll miss the both of u!! I'll get something for the both of you from wherever i am and hope to see you guys soon. I don't wanna be lonely on my birthday! Haha

I'll be away from Singapore just for those of you who don't know..Away from all these troubles that i'm having right now. I'll come back with a better mind, free of troubles and hopefully, just a better me!

Goal!!!!

It's Saturday!!!!! Yet again i get to see my buddies! Jon and Gav are booking out and we agreed to go out in the evening. As usual we will be watching movie, whacking balls, eating and etc...But to me, it's not what we do, but it's the time we spend together. Every minutes spent is like so precious to me, maybe to the others also, well i guess it is. Whole afternoon spent slacking at home, mapling and surfing the net.

So i set off for town in the evening. We went to Long John Silver to have our dinner..It always nice to eat that kind of fastfood. Haha..Then we proceed to watch the movie called 'Goal'. A very nice movie i would say. Not only because it has something to do with my favourite sports soccer, but it also has a very meaningful plot which leaves me to ponder. Parts of the show moved me and forcing me to drop my tears which i didn't.

This show is about a buy, who has this interest in soccer since young, and he has never thought of being a professional footballer until one day a scout went to approach him. Fighting against odds, he went to England for a try-out at Newcastle United with the aid of his grandma even though his dad refused. And after fighting against all odds, he managed to make it to the 1st-team squad. The price he has to pay is that he didn't manage to see his dad who has already forgave him.

This movie is very meaningful. I greatly recommend it to everybody. It tells people how to fight against all odds, with determination and don't give dreams up easily. From this, somehow i'm abit inspired. But such things has to be accompanied by luck. Without luck, even with 101% of determination, u won't get anywhere. My dream, which some of you know, is something i still hold in my mind but can't fulfill. Maybe i can...2 years down the road, maybe i'll be on my way to fulfil my dream...Sad thing is, given the situation i'm in, it makes it very difficult..let's hope for the better..Live with what i have now i guess...

Sit Down..Relax...Listen to the song..(Welcome To My Life)

Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more?

Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked

when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face

And no one ever stabbed you in the back

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

You never had to work it was always there

You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Imperfect...Judgement

I realise something today..actually i sensed it a few weeks/months ago..but i really really confirmed..What Gavian told me before, i can really believe. She's not the one i used to have a good impression of..She starting to judge people..She always say that i'm not treating her well or good enough, it's not that i'm not..but she give me the impression that she choose whoever she wanna hang alongs with and communicate.She always like to assume stuff..i hate it alot..always assuming things, i know she lied to me sometimes, i always pretend i dunno.. Come on, i'm seriously not a toy to be played me - when u are in good mood, u play with me, when u are not, u throw me to one side. U used to be a girl that i like, to the extent of great liking..but not anymore..all because of what u did..well, indirectly..i may be wrong perceiving things like that but anyway, i can assure myself that u are really not the wonderful girl i always thought u were. I live for myself with support from my great friends, what's the big deal without you. I regret what i did in the past..Simply regretted!! But also because of that, i knew what kinda person u are..u simply sucks!!

Misunderstanding

Misunderstanding are common. It's caused by alot of factors. One main one i would say is miscommunication between parties. Usually misunderstandings are usually caused unintentionally. Sensitive-ness would also contribute to such or any misunderstanding. The worst part is that most of the time, misunderstanding can result in loss of friendship or certain relationship if not handled or solved well. Usually, it's best to solved it as soon as possible so as not to allow any further misunderstandings to arise.

Misunderstandings are best left to be handled or solved by involved parties and best not to involve unnecessary people, doing so might cause the situation to be further worsened. You'll never know when bloodsuckers / backstabbers is behind you backstabbing you but appear to be doing the otherwise instead. Personally, i had regretted not handling two such misunderstandings well. One happen because of miscommunication. I guess that different people have different views, therefore causing some arguments which leads to misunderstandings between the two parties. But luckily, i think that this misunderstands can be solved as in does not involve other parties. The 2nd one is one that i regretted the most of not handling it well. Now the situation can't be salvaged as i involved the wrong people in. It's a pity to how things can come to such state. There's always people rubbing salt to your wound / adding fuel to fire. Either they are out to go against you, backstab you or they are just plain jealous of what you have. I have come to a stage where i have accepted what's left for me. Good friends can be trusted to handle some misunderstandings for me. I have some really good friends who are always there to help me with whatever misunderstandings i have if i ever need. That's why i never had any serious misunderstandings with my good friends, even if there is, it'll be solved within hours or even minutes cos we won't let such misunderstanding ruin our relationship. It's not even worth it at all..It will be a pity just because we misunderstood each other. That few years of moments together can't be ruined just because a short moment of misunderstanding. I lost one person whom i matters alot, maybe because the time os our relationship then still can't withstand that misunderstanding. It's a pity and i regretted...Seriously...

PSLE 1st Papers in 6 Hours Time!!

Time flies....it's the 1st PSLE papers tml..It's English..I guess all or rather most of the kids must be quite tensed up for their 1st major examination of their life. Hopefully they would give it their best shot tml. If anyone of you taking PSLE later on gets to read this, please read on. No matter what, just give it your best and final shot. If you do your best, you didn't let yourself down for you have already given what you know and learn over the past few years. And trust me, your hard work especially these few days will pay off.

Here, i truly wish all the students best of luck and all the best! GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK!! May you do well in this major examinations. During these critical period, i am most willing to help any of you who needs help and please do contact me if u do need any. Last but not least, 'Jia You' and i'll pray for yuo in silence and support you morally.

Friends Part II

This post is continued from the previous one. In between my life, i also had quite a few friends. They are whom i didn't mention earlier on. Mostly my Secondary classmates. As times goes by, we seldom get in touch with each other. But they'll always live in my memory. Some of them i still keep in touch, for exmaple Mildred, Yi Lin, Shu xia, Pei Shan

In ACES - a coaching group which i worked with, i made alot of friends. To them, i might be just an ordinary coach, if better a friend or if even better, like a brother to them. I simply love this job or rather a passion. I shoudn't called this a job because it is something i don't considered it as a job. It's fun doing all these. Each time before event, i will have to prepare for lotsa things, i don't mind for i never fail to see smiles on the kids faces on every event day. Inside the room, i'm a coach to them, they are students to me but outside, we are friends. They are very nice to the extent of me even treating some like my own siblings. Some of them are very nice kids, well brought up and i keep contact with some of the kids often. Seeing the kids like that, i'll always think that it's my fate to meet such good kids and to me, they are the funniest kids ever because they all reminds me of my childhood. Sometimes, some kids would come up to me and tell me things which i never expected. It's always fun to be with them for they never fail to bring joy to me. Though i won't get to see them at all already, but i'll always remember them and hopefully they will still remember me the way i do..I sincerly wish them all the best for their upcoming PSLE!
(Jerome, Shaoqi, Samantha, Zong Ye, Zong Xi, Jolyn, Deanna, Dana, Jeanette, Yina, Sarah, Denise, Xue Hng, Xin Yi, Yun Ru, Mavis, Yukie, Rie, Sophie, and alot more..pardon if i forgot your name) --> They never fail to bring joy and laughter to my life..

This Paragraph is for Xue Ling, Berlinda and Diane. They deserve this paragraph for what they have done and for they are considered my friends too. Knowing them allows me to learn something from them too. They are very sociable and though i don't know them well enough yet, i can see that they are friends who is able to fight through thick and thin with me. Give me somemore time, and we'll develop our friendship further for i don't want good friends like you all to be gone.

People say Friends come and go..i agree with it but it also depends on how we maintain it. Quarrels and arguments with friends i would say it's common for no one is prefect. In this world, my best friends would be my Mother, Father and Brother. They are my best friends who watched my grow. They taught me moral values, brought me up. My brother is my best friend who accompanied me in times of needs and help. Both of us played together and although we quarrelled often, we are still blood brothers afterall. I can say that i never regret having this 'friend' at all.

Not everyone is perfect, but i believe that to survive and maintain friendship, one has to accomodate and compromise. This way, friendship will last longer if not forever. In my life, i have always look upon people who is willing to change for the better and i never had any friends who backstab me so seriously until recently. He betrayed my and not only that, he put on a fake front after so much. Now i feel as if that i'm being put in the wrong because of his sorry state but what i can say is that he brought it all upon himself. Most people feels that if a person is willing to change, he can be forgiven. Yes, to me i agree...but in this special case, i won't!! Because for all the pain he bring to me, the sufferings he caused upon me...he made me lose two dear 'friends' and i can't bring myself to talk to him, let alone forgive him. But i'm not going to fall and if he's going to cause more troubles upon me, i only had two words for him - FORGET IT!

In my life, friends play a important role and i appreciate them for what they have done for me - putting up with me, be there when i needed them and growing up with me...i'll never forget them..and thanks for everything all my friends!

Friends

This tribute for my friends came abit too late but nevertheless, late than never right? hehe..In my whole life, the early part of my life, i hardly have any friends, due to my shyness and lack of courage to face strangers and interact with people. As times pass by, my circle of friends widen. It all started out when i'm in my 2nd Secondary 3, i met these 3 great malay friends, and one chinese friend. They 'grow' me throughout my years in Secondary school, i become more sociable, interactive and mature. They bought me fun, joy and laughter. We shared lotsa things altogether. All the moments we shared will never be forgotten by me. We played, we fooled around and commit offences that we think it's fun. But as times pass by, individual commitments left me seldom keep in contact with them, however, i still regard them as my very good friends.
Ashraf, Rashid, Farhan and Edwin (My 1st Group of True friends)

As i came to poly, this chapter of life really sucks. Poly life ain't what i expected to be. I didn't really make much friends there, only 3 or 4 for the others are just backstabbers and bunch of people who don't really care who the hell is around them. Luckily, Farhan is still with me when i'm in Poly. Knew a few nice friends in my whole 2 and a half year poly friends, We get along quite orite but on and off, there will be a few misunderstanding. However, i must say they are good for they are always willing to help me out whenever i need it. Gladfully thanks and they always tolerate my bad temper and rubbish behaviour. We too, fool around and allow ourselves to go crazy for the sake of this wonder MUSIC - ROCK MUSIC!
Muz, Ahmad, Matthew, Farhan, Cheryl ( Another Bunch of Nice Friends)

In between my Secondary Life and my poly life, i knew this group of friend whom i have been with for quite alot of years, we do keep in touch all the way until recent years, we became very close. They are Don, Jon and Gav. Donovan is the 1st person i met in Secondary. My 1st friend in Secondary School. My 1st impression of him is that he's a very sociable person. We aren't really that close when we were in Secondary one becos we only met during our CCA. I got into the same class when we were in Secondary two and sitting with him is fun yet irritating at times. But it's always me cos i always disturb him. Ended up in bruises in my hand cos of his stupid hand. But i do miss those moments though. Then as times flies, we started to keep contact lesser and lesser until one day, we intend to meet up for every horrow movie and since then, we became very close. Next is Jonathan, i know him through Donovan. He has the same character as Don i would say. I didn't really know him in my Secondary school life too until when i started to meet Donovan few years back. Gavian is the person that i had most misunderstanding and arguments with. I knew him back in Secondary one. We were alright all the way until Secondary Two where we quarelled. All the way until a while after i started hanging out with Jon and Don, then i become close with him. All 3 of them entered me into another chapter of life - one that's full of colours. They are simply great and i just loved hanging out with them. We always watch movie together, go clubbing, whack ball. We too had common interest, ROCK MUSIC. Well, i and Don had successfully influence Gavian into Rock Music and now trying on Jon, we are on our way to success. We had our own band now and for everything we had done in recent months or years, i really feel that our bond is stronger than before. I do feel the sadness when Gavian and Jonathan is serving NS. I felt uncomfortable. It's like someone leaving our life..Don's going to serve NS too, guess my weekdays are going to be lonely..They are certainly a group of people who never fails to bring colours to my life and be there for me whenever i'm down..
Gavian, Jonathan and Donovan ( They Rocks just as i DO)

Recently, i've been hanging out with some new friends i know too. Those whom i knew from the Xero4 gang. Mun Hoe is one of them and all i can say about him is that he's cool. He got that look that always make me find him friendly and sociable. Sadly, he's another one who's going army..Haiz..hopefully he can be back from Korea and meet up with us..

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Argh...

I had lotsa things to say..complain about..but afterall, i shouldn't..for i know what i'm in for. I should have expected all this the day i started it. Well, it has to come and i have to do..Don's recovering well..that's good..Friends all around me are all falling sick...Same for me..Asthma came back unexpectedly yesterday..that leaves me in low morale. I can't sleep in air-con room. That leaves me no choice, but to turn down my boss to stay in this lavishing and comfortable service apartment. Much as i would love to, i can't..i really wanted my own self to recover fast.

Recently, rubbish and nonsense has polluted my mind, leaving me lotsa troubles. Unable to concentrate on my work well, i end up doing my work not so well, afraid of not being able to live up tp expectations, i had this load of burden. I don't wish Saturday to come so soon, for i'm afraid of something - i don't know why. It seems as if work is never ending. I want this 'final' PSLE event of the year to pass by perfectly, but i not happy with the way i did it..Everything is almost done, somehow i feel it's not. Why...don't know either..I guess i'm going to the event with two feelings this saturday. Fear and Eager! Well, hopefully, this saturday will be a happy event. I'm expecting that.

I missed my guitar...it's has been lying in no-man's place for a long time..Hopefulyl i ca get it back soon..I need to ease my troubled heart with disturbing music..Rock music always saves my day..

Don's Birthday!!

It's Don's birthday yesterday!..Had a hard time thinking what present to buy for him. He's a guy that is very 'anything', so that makes is harder. But luckily, this cousin of his is clever enough and bought him a cap and a bag. Shared by a few of us. Luckily, he seems to like it alot..

Friday was a long-awaited day that me and Don has been waiting for. Finally, the two 'Botaks' are back! We din really have quality time together. Luckily, i managed to chat with Jon for a while while others are asleep. He really gave good advice, and a very good listener. After talking to him, i felt alot better. So sad, he's has to book in in around 1 hour more..so sad..this kind of feeling is bad. I just can't bear to leave him. For we have been friends for alot of years..Weekdays are lonely..haiz...

Yesterday, we went to celebrate Don's birthday. I met up with Tired Jon early to get the presents for Donovan. Search all around Far East to buy his presents. After that, we went to hunt for some children's day gifts. I spent a whopping near 100 bucks yesterday. Omg...haiz..i guess it's worth it. Bought my very 1st ORIGINAL Man Utd Jersey tml.Cool huh..haha! But yesterday Man Utd lost the match..sad sad..disappointing one..

Today i woke up very late, cos i turn in very late yesterday..Whole day maple..Take like donkey years just to reach another level..haiz!! I need strong maplers!! Help anyone?? Today will be a boring day...hmmm....

Life is unpredictable..so much so that we won't what tomorrow has for us..It's always a blessing that we are able to live til to see tml sun, or even the moon. Yet, there's always some people who are always grumbling and complaining. Although it's mostly a qualities of a small group of females, he, an average man, yet behave and possess such qualities. I mean, cmon, why be like that. Badmouthing people won't do you good, neither denying what you do will do u any good either. Friends are leaving you, bad impression of you are falling on you..ask youself..WHY!! Well, you appear to be helping me but as much as i can see, u are not helping me much..Lies after Lies expose you to be cornered, let's assume no one tells me what happen, i would have guess it, maybe not sooner but later. But why do this to me? Just because i did something that doesn't really make u happy? or just because you are jealous of me? Cmon, U have taken away what used to be part of my life, u have taken away a person whom i mind alot and really care and dotes on. Yes, i agree initially i am hurt, to the extent or breaking down, yet, u still put up a fake front? I'm not sure as i'm not you. But why? Since you have taken away what's used to be a very part of my life, and i think the situation cannot be salvage, so be it. Go ahead and influence her! I don't give a damn. And i will never. Anything that you are going to do next time, be sure it's something good for i will never forget what u did to me, what kinda blow u gave me that i have to dealth it through fire and ice! One more time i ever see you do whatever u deem right, i'm not going to give whatever shit face to you and let me tell you, that's it!

Jon is coming back tml, i can't wait to pour all my woes to him. He's one that has a really 'big' listening ears and dear! i Miss him. I'm hooked on Maple and thanks to Shaoqi, and i really mean thanks. Now my holiday won't be so boring. Don and Mun Hoe's leaving..It's kinda pity and i'll feel lonely again. Weekdays is will always be lonely and i'll always wait for weekend impatiently in the future. Hopefully, i will feel alot better tml after i talk to Don. These few days, some kids really make my day..Xin Yi, Dana, Jie Rong, Deanna, Yunru..omg..too much to list..And of cos ShaoQi, needless to say..haha..Please teach me how to play Maple, Shaoqi! Well, after your PSLE of cos..Meanwhile, all the kids, please study hard!

New Blogskin...

I disappeared or rather died for around a day or two..keeping myself from the outside world..left alone for a while, calm myself down, ponder, wonder and think...through and through..somehow, i am abit 'enlightened'..

Yesterday, bought a power multi-effects machine to boost my guitar..now, i am totally into music and when i say music it means ROCK MUSIC..what can sounds more powerful than rock music..It never fail to relax my souls, motivate me and bring me into the world of virtuality. Don and me can be considered constantly improving on our guitar skills, looking at MVs always allow us to get more motivated than ever to improve ourselves, with the help of the new 'booster', Natural Objection is set to rock em' all...

Yesterday i had great fun playing Maple with Shaoqi..actually i would say it's with her and her other two siblings..it's sooo fun. So somehow or another, i'm kinda hooked onto Maple..Gosh..is it good news or bad news? omg..who cares, i'm having my holidays now. Shaoqi, please do let me know if u are playing, i wanna faster become ice mage! (Hope she's reading this)..Today has a presentation and it turned out to be far and much much better than expected. I was one of the high-graders..haa, well, yes, i am shocked! Cos i handed in incomplete work and did last minute work too..but i must say, my presentation this time was the best..After presentation, i went to buy some stuff and also bought something for Dana..luckily she liked it..Then i went back home wanting to play my beloved guitar but was kinda busy with my blog...all the way until not long while ago, i am playing maple!! HAHA...going to play til 3am now...bye bye

Finally my project is submitted...It's incomplete..afterall, i still didn't manage to put my heart onto it as i'm too bothered with things i mind too much..Too many things happen recently with me being dealth a great blow and series of consequences i have to bear..I know it's too heavy for me but yet, i have to bear it. Mood is starting to get better and picking up well, but nevertheless, i'm still kinda bothered. Someone once told me this - "A Rainbow Will appear After A Storm"..It make this phrase especially meaningful when it comes out from her..now, i still can't believe what's happen between us..i know i am currently in the storm and desperately awaiting for the rainbow to appear..but however, when the rainbow finally appear, i guess it would lack of one colour which i guess is the person who told me this phrase. I'm still sad for what happen after all, no one's at fault as it's all misunderstanding and miscommunication with ONE PERSON rubbing salt to my wound. Maybe that night i did scare her off but showing the weak side of me, and i do really feel bad and wanted to apologise. Sorry..let's hope things could be as before...

Yesterday i watch to catch a movie..it was the only time since don't know how many donkey years i get to relax myself..Tons and tons of projects, submission has exhaust me off my energy. Went to watch a movie at Suntec called "Cave". It's a very nice show i would say. Suppose to meet two more "BIG SHOTS", but in the end, both of them put aeroplane on me and Mun Hoe..Feeling abit frustrated!! Well...can't be helped. Had the best time of my life with Mun Hoe..He's so fun and nice..Mun Hoe is really a friend not to be missed..well, now that i am praising him too much..let's hope he don't float..are u floating now? Haha..

Bought a printer today..Yay!! Finally can print all my favourite guitar tabs..oh ya, we have a new movement..contact me soon people..Byee!

Please appear my in rainbow..please..

I'm simply depressed...i hate my school..i wanna leave home..i'm going to HongKong, Malaysia and also going on Cruise Soon...I spend more than 100 bucks without actually realising it today..what's with me? I'm still searching for the old me..will someone please help me? I'm giving myself a chance to be pathetic..My mind are still filled with those memories..polluted now..

I enjoyed myself alot recently...except for some really pitiful incidents..Coaching in ACES has always been fun, together with the kids..especially with the kids who are really nice and some of my favourite students..but for the 1st time, i cried over a participant..I don't mean to scare that very person but just that i wanted to explain things so much so that i feel too hurt and broke down in the end..If i really don't mind, why would i even bother to drop those tears..not even at my own house and just outside that event room..Nevertheless, my fellow friends is stil there to calm me down, i appreciate it alot but i'm really really very hurt...it's just like having 10 daggers pierced into your fragile heart. I asked myself, my mum didn't even do this to me, why must you..
And all those apologies coming from two mouths came fast but unexpected that day i broke down once again..but til today, i realise that only one is sincere...even the gift given to me..i appreciate it as there's this thoughts but if it's bought just for the sake of buying, i rather u save those money..i have been reflecting on myself this few days, i seriously don't went wrong, i found the wrong person to find the answer for me and i did get back part of what i thought was lost..As this blogs is being typed, tears are starting to come out...i really miss those good days, i wouldn't have put them in my heart if i really don't care for them..and right now, only one of them know my intentions and i'm hurt and disappointed.
Why tell me that nothing negative is going on when in your heart, you just had this feeling against or on me..i'm really really upset..why does it happen to me...what did i do wrong...

I really still wanna be your favourite coach..and no matter what,both of u is still my favourite students..as always...

Today was great great fun..Hehe..Finally, ShaoQi and Samantha agreed to take photos with me..but it's Neoprint actually..well, to me it's actually good enough..Hehe..well, thanks to someone i suppose...Two days has pass since the Weekdays event have started..On Monday, they pass me a paper with my name of it and gave me a nickname 'BlossomBerry/Byosenberry'..well..rather weird but i like it anyway..They also bought me a keychain which is a donkey that very much looke like eeyore..i hook it with my keys already..hehe
Today we went to take neoprint..the moment i stepped into the arcade, both of them jump in joy and what i saw is numerous toys and sweet lying on the game machine..haa..these two girls are spending money like water and i chipped in abut too..After that, we went to take neoprint..had lotsa fun before, during and after event..Tml might be taking summore pictures..this time maybe with Diane..Look forward to tml..!! Will post the pictures of my gifts and the neoprints soon..check back soon..

Tell me how does it feels to be accused of things that you never did..How fingers are all pointing at you and yet you are just so innocently..I admitted i did things in a moment of folly at times but nevertheless, i do not have a heart of a evil devil that always carries an intention of really harming or even to the extent of sabotaging people..Such acts are being considered despicable by me and not even will be tolerated, let alone me carrying all these acts out myself..

Today was the 1st day of the September event..Alot of new faces..saw Sophie which just so happen coincidentally happen to be born the same day with me..hehe..however, she was all the way talking to her schoolmates..haa..among the students are XinYi, Zong Ye, Jerome and Xue Hng..The latter 3 certainly made my day..We formed this funny movement, playing a prank on Jonathan, in the end, all ended quite funny because of actions carried out by Jonathan..After the event, it was down to dinner..Dinner was sastifying but towards to end, wasn't really feeling very comfortable..Jonathan received his mobile phone that we bought for him..hehe..hopefully he like it..Seriously, i must say i am going to miss you and all those pranks i played on you which started recently, even before you know it, were meant to be pranks! Haha...don't cry Jonathan, cos i have no tissues for u!

Shaoqi change the date of staying in Parksuites..omg..that also cause come confusion in Samantha and frustration i guess...as heard from Anne...however, i am so looking forward to that very day...hmmm....i just can't wait..they are really really fun kids to be with and i seriously treat them like my sisters..Don will also be joining..CAN"T WAIT!!

ARGH!! Help...my project submission is coming..so is the ACES events..i'm now being stuck in between my studies and work..well i only enjoyed doing the work and starting to lose interest in studying, nevertheless, i still and to study and not fail as much as possible which i really don't want to. I just can't wait for my October holiday to start whereby i can get to go out and enjoy myself...Right now, i am having confusions...mixed feelings...regardings lotsa things..i just can't think straight..think well...think properly..

But there's a good news..my asthma is healing and hopefully i can be back to the old me whereby i can run and exercise which i seriously need to and drink all the super cold drinks and eating the best and delicious desserts in Singapore...hmm..Yummy..speaking about food...Recently these two days, my lady boss has been bringing me to this Chomp Chomp market in Serangoon..omg..each visit was a SASTIFYING and a fulfilling one..hopefully i can gain a few KGs out of it..haa!!

This week event is coming and i just can't wait...i can't wait to see my Favourite Students.!!!

Yesterday was good...Woohoo...or actually i should start my post now from Friday..I went to consult a doctor on Friday, took Mc..sick sick sick...my asthma hasn't been any better and i really really really really really wish to get well now..Please all GODS!! Save me this time..Since i didn't go sch, i went to meet Gavian and Jonathan..We went to supermarket to buy our foods as we are going to have a cooking feast that very night.
After that, went to Sim Lim Square to but my very 1st Digital Camera!! Firstly, i went to this sucker shop, i wanted to buy the Digital camera, but the shop owner was like " What are you looking for?" then i replied" just looking around" then he said, " if leave if you don't wanna buy, i'm very busy"..I was like, what the hell, so i 'greeted' him off with a glare! Then i went to this shop, the salesman was very friendly and so is the boss, i saw this very nice Camera and so i bought it..I'll show you some of the masterpiece i took using the Camera i bought.. So we rushed back to Gavian house and started cooking. We took around an hours plus to cook finish all the food..Below are our masterpiece..hehex

After eating a sastifying meal, we started to rock the house with our 'weapons'...played quite a few song and we really really enjoyed ourselves..We play for hours and the next day, we continued..Below are the 'Future Rock Stars'..Please support us!!

At night, we went to visit some places for some stuff..It was very cool...enjoyed myself alot, been to places i have never been to actually..and some places which i have been to bring me back to those nice moments i used to have..eventually, i reached home at around 4am and turn in at 6am!! This is madness..haa...it's been so long since we last enjoy ourselves and reach home so late..

Today or rather yesterday which is Sunday, i and Don went to Deanna house. This is my first time there and it was cool. I get to play badminton, soccer and some TEDIOUS cycling with Deanna and Don..I find Deanna quite cute but quiet..haa..maybe she's shy..basically, i enjoyed myself very much and i find her whole family very cool and friendly..OH ya, her sister is pretty too..hehe..let's look forward to the upcoming event..woohoo

Suddenly, my heart is very heavy..very very heavy..filled with worries, troubles...tml i will be going to consult a doctor again...will this be my final visit? Can i recover after this visit? I really really really hope so...so much so that i keep on thinking about it..My project has been dangling down there and i'm not doing much..i don't know how to do it, how?? how?? How??

Today i was talking to Samantha, about some stuff about lives...indeed life is a suffering..but it can be enjoyable at the same time..We lose somethng but at the same time, we gain something..vice versa..At her age, i impressed by this very sentence she said 'a rainbow will appear after a stormy rain' ..it does happen in reality, i guess right now..both of us are in this stormy rain, desperately waiting for the rainbow to appear..hope it does appear soon..i really need to unload my burdens..at least some of it..Assurance has been given by me(some kinda of assurance)happy but sad at the same time, cos this assurance draw me closer to certain things..i'm afraid, once it's gone, i will be very very very upset..but well, that's life and i can't face it yet...

I'm sick!! I'm sick!! Omg, my asthma has been lingering around the whole of me, exhausting and consuming all of my energy, concentration and basically the whole of me..Seen the same Doctor for 2 times, the prescription he gave was quite lousy..the medicine helps initially but after a while, my asthma came back..i wanna change to Chinese Physician/Doctor..Anyone knows of any chinese phisician or doctor who treats asthma? Please let me know..ARGH!!

Ohohoh..It's been quite sometimes since i last blog..i was busy with a great time of chalet..Started off during Friday, went to watch an anticipated movie called "The Maid" and let me tell u this, this movie sucks big time...Horror shows and movies i have seen enough, this can be added into one of the lousiest Horror movie ever..Lame!! Aftert the movie, we for supper then to Aranda Country Club..We played Majong, Playstation 2, Chatted the whole day also..Time really flies....when we realised the time, it's already 6am..so we turn in

Woke up at 2pm then went to buy our stuff to get ready for the bbq..and rented bicycles..shiok, so the BBQ started..Good news is my favourite students's coming..making me more happier..haha..went to fetch them with Samantha always poking fun on me..and really had fun with them with Samantha so enthusiatic to play Majong, so me,Gavian and Jesse taught and play with her, while Shaoqi is playing with our mobiles phones as she's not interested. Soon, they went back, felt abit of loneliness..haha..then, it's down to riding time..And let me tell u, this is the 1st time i rode so far and long..rode til my legs are cramp and numb and PAIN!!! We rode from Pasir Ris to Chang Airport there...finally give them after riding on an endless road..Then we faster rush back and have a good shower..I was the 1st one to fall asleep..too too too tired..

And so, everything ended with my legs still feeling very pain..but i did enjoyed myself..Just reach home a moment before from Meeting..i felt that passion, and i am starting to imagine..how i am going to live what i am doing now..at the same time, worrying about my studies and how i am going to miss those kids..time will heal? i don't know..

Oral Ends..Sadly..

And so...the whole oral booster event ended..time really really files..sadly..yes..sadly..Yesterday the whole event was quite relax..although the students is especially many, we were still able to handle. Seeing lotsa and lotsa students i remembered and knowing more and more new students, i feel like a big brother going around and taking good care of them Laughter from their hearts always make us coaches feel more than happy and delighted. Yet again, i'm being put under ShaoQi and Samantha..haha..i put them under me, hey this time i'm not being biased. I give whoever is their favourite students to the respective coach..I guess everyone is happy except for jonnyboy..HAHA!! Jon, i already help u, just now don don't dive u the chance..just slap him if u want. I had lotsa fun with these two girls and they said they like the gift i gave them..so touched..thanks Jon for that too!! Hehe..When going for dinner, realise that i actually had alot to do than expected for my project..when i actually reach home, i;ve no mood to do..haha..someone i felt amiss...maybe i worried about my favourite students too much..haha..Samantha keep on sms-ing me and calling me, adding to my worries..haha..luckily just now, i revise with her last min..she's just so funny and nice..

I've taught quite a few students in ACES before and i hope whoever is taking the oral exams to give their very best. Goodluck to all of you..Especially those i put extra effort in..HAHA..

Today went gym alone initially, wah shiok..did alot of workout..til i feel so exhausted..Went home and called that poor poor Samantha..Though ShaoQi can't call me, let's give her moral support instead..Alot of people keep on asking me abt my previous blog..well, she still remain as pathetic as ever and making puke each time her name is mentioned..She simply sucks..

Tml i will be going Chalat..hooray..hope i wun get irritated by stupid things and just play play play and play..

I realise something today..actually i sensed it a few weeks ago..but i really really confirmed..What Gavian told me before, i can really believe. She's not the one i used to have a good impression of..She starting to judge people..She always say that i'm not treating her well or good enough, it's not that i'm not..but she give me the impression that she choose whoever she wanna hang alongs with and communicate.She always like to assume stuff..i hate it alot..always assuming things, i know she lied to me sometimes, i always pretend i dunno.. Come on, i'm seriously not a toy to be played me - when u are in good mood, u play with me, when u are not, u throw me to one side. U used to be a girl that i like, to the extent of great liking..but not anymore..all because of what u did..well, indirectly..i may be wrong perceiving things like that but anyway, i can assure myself that u are really not the wonderful girl i always thought u were. I live for myself with support from my great friends, why's the big deal without you. I regret what i did around a month ago..Simply regretted!! But also because of that, i knew what kinda person u are..u simply sucks!!

Saturday Saturday Saturday..how i miss last Saturday..It's one of my most memorable Saturday..Started the day waking up early yet again, but come again, it's ok..for i know i am going to have a fun day that very day..Went to Holiday Inn Atrium and help to set up all those stuff then just waiting for that very moment..Samantha reaches 1st and naturally, come to me..(Cos i'm her 'bro') haha! Don and Jon, Don't be jealous..As usual, Shao Qi confirm overslept...so Poor Samantha has to wait til Shao Qi comes...Then we had our fun..Samantha is bad, don't wanna let me take photo of her..The whole event went well until the parent session..aww..the whole event was dragged til late..nevertheless, i'm still happy..i'll be able to see them again..great..let's wait for that very day...looking forward..

Sunday came and i get to know w few cool students..Hehe. i'm finding fun in this job more and more and starting to love it more..if only i don't have to study..if not, i'll be able to work more often..sob sob...This year i'm gonna miss ENPEC, so sad..i had always wanted to join, since last year but never got the chance to..i guess some of the students might be disappointed too, cos they do miss me just the way i do..sob..

Yesterday was National Day..Boohoo...Singapore's turning 40..Singapore still needs lotsa support to call itself a good good good nation..Well, let's drop this boring topic..Went out with my buddies and also with Pan, Ann etc...went to watch wedding crashers..A very funny show, never more funny with Gavian laughing high pitch to my ears and Jonathan shouting "ohhhhh ssshhhiiitttt" to my left ear..haa..the show is NC16 and certainly it is, had some rather crude scenes, however, i feel that there's some scene being cut away...boo boo..

After that, went to get some gifts and presents for some really good and nice people in my life..hehe..Then it's down to neoprint..ooh..will find time to scan those neoprints so check out my blog soon..Dinner was late and at esplande..Cool and Hot it was...Cool because of the fireworks and Hot because of the environment..haa..Don would sweat like pig if he's there..Then we went to hear Ann sing..nice voices she had...envy envy envy..omg..i'll just stick to play my guitar..And maybe Jon's DRUM!! Hahah..woohoo, gonna collect his drum later..shiok..

Natural Objection coming up!!

Today was a very good day to me..First of all, everything in the event went on quite well..In fact very well, alot better than yesterday. Everything is more organised. Thanks to Great, Wonderful Jon..He let me coach his favourite student - YunRu...oops...let don't seems to be the appropiate word..Anyway, the students today really made my day. All were well-behaved and the best of all, had a very good chat with my group members. Although Matthew may seems to be abit quiet, i find him cool...Most of the time, i would be chatting with Yun Ru...find her quite a serious and hardworking girl, at the same time, innocent and great girl. Well, added her into my cart of favourite students..Haa...Today Mildred was with us coaching..hopefully it's a good experience for her..And oh ya, sorry Don!! I didn't mean to press your ears so hard, i din notice the ear sticks on your left ear...Please forgive me..haa...worse to worse, i let u pinch mine next time..Hee...

Pheobe and Lina was forever laughing whereas Jeanette and Yun Ruin keep on gossiping and doing wierd and funny stuffs...anyway, other than all that, all was fun and well. After that, we went to had dinner, wasn't really spectacular..quite ok bah..I'm looking forward to 13th cos two of my favourites students will be there..Hehe..Yawn Yawn, totally shagged out now..signing off.....

I Failed my Driving test..Aww...i'm feeling very demoralised...I actually got 34 points?!?!!! Omg...i really let myself and my parents down..the worse thing is that my next test comes only in November..i was like What The HELL!! Haiz..i'm really feeling damn down...furthermore, i didn't manage to finish project on time but nevertheless, i still handed in..suddenly, a big boulder of rock seems to be unloaded off my shoulder..or rather, brain..haiz...

Today was a good day..I worked for ACES at Holiday Inn Atrium today..hehe..was quite fun..get to see Samantha today but that stupid Jonathan keep on disagreeing with me..don't let me coach Samantha..Wah lau..yet he himself still wanna coach YunRu..No Way man!!!!!!! I'm going to make sure he don't get his way..That's soooo soooo sooo unfair...he can coach his favourite Student yet i can't?!?! Dammit..I don't care, the next time Samantha and ShaoQi turns up for any events, i shall be their coach..Makes quite a few friends tday too...but there's still few boys who are misbehaving too..hopefully tomorrow will be better...argh...whatever...let's not mention it..

The dinner today was terrific..not the best of food but nevertheless sastifying..But oops..i drank cold water today so felt a little bit unwell towards the end of the days...Look forward to next week...Woooooooooooooooo....

I'm going nuts...i'm rushing project like mad...very afraid that i can't finish it on time..1st time in my life in poly to feel like that...omg...my friends are all doing so fine...shit man..what am i supposed to do...I'm not used to my pc now..Everything is gone...my songs..my photos..my projects...sob sob...I just can't wait for this friday to end..

Sis, whatever the case, i'm always there and cheer up...

Today was a bad bad bad sad sad sad day...My computer suddenly broke down..leaving me feeling desperate and helpless..To me, my computer is my life..i simply can't live without it just like how humans cannot live without food and water..ARGH!! Everything in my computer is gone..Gone For GOOD!!!!!!! I'm feeling so stressed up, my photos, songs, videos, projects etc etc etc are all gone..I feel like dying man..haiz..Mood has been low..

Went to school today feeling down, saw my friend's projects, all done quite alot already, i'm still lagging behind like a worm..omg!! I must buck up!!!! This friday have to hand in...Please wish me goodluck people..Haiz....

Suddenly, i feel like i hasn't been a good son to my mum and dad...and not a good brother to my younger bro..i don't know why i feel that way...sob...i must show more care and love for them...just wanna let them know..i really love them very much..