Cruise with Family

Once again i hopped onto Superstar Virgo yet again on 23rd Oct..Everything seems to be so familiar as i'm at the exact same cruise boat about a week ago. This time cruise was slightly boring, because i have tried everything when i was there a week ago. Nevertheless, i spend my time best and well. Doing things i didn't get to do previously and also enjoy the plunge pool which is forever so refreshing. This time, i brought my brother along we really enjoyed ourselves very very much. Luckily this time, there's tour to Penang and Phuket, which makes the whole 4D3N trip not so boring.

In Penang, my family joined the Nature tour, whereby we visited the spice garden, butterfly farm and also did some shopping. Over there at the spice garden, i only see plnats and lotsa mosquitoes. Luckily, i sprayed some mosquitoes repellent on my body already, if not, i'll need to eat lotsa pig liver to replanish my precious blood. In the butterfly farm, it was the most fun..Over there, i saw the biggest spider and bettle. There are thousand species of butterflies too. And there butterflies were like flying all around. They can land on your hand, hair, shirt etc...but on the floor, u can see lotsa dead butterflies. It's kinda gross cos u have to be careful of them too. Oh ya, i also saw big big big scorpions. They glows in the dark..which makes them especially cool and nice.

Once again i hopped onto Superstar Virgo yet again on 23rd Oct..Everything seems to be so familiar as i'm at the exact same cruise boat about a week ago. This time cruise was slightly boring, because i have tried everything when i was there a week ago. Nevertheless, i spend my time best and well. Doing things i didn't get to do previously and also enjoy the plunge pool which is forever so refreshing. This time, i brought my brother along we really enjoyed ourselves very very much. Luckily this time, there's tour to Penang and Phuket, which makes the whole 4D3N trip not so boring.

In Penang, my family joined the Nature tour, whereby we visited the spice garden, butterfly farm and also did some shopping. Over there at the spice garden, i only see plnats and lotsa mosquitoes. Luckily, i sprayed some mosquitoes repellent on my body already, if not, i'll need to eat lotsa pig liver to replanish my precious blood. In the butterfly farm, it was the most fun..Over there, i saw the biggest spider and bettle. There are thousand species of butterflies too. And there butterflies were like flying all around. They can land on your hand, hair, shirt etc...but on the floor, u can see lotsa dead butterflies. It's kinda gross cos u have to be careful of them too. Oh ya, i also saw big big big scorpions. They glows in the dark..which makes them especially cool and nice.

In Phuket, we went for the shopping tour. Not really that fantastic as it's just normal shopping. I did some shopping myself. Bought Manchester United T-shirt, a shirt and several stuff. I also bought a guitar model. Argh, cool cool cool..everything was not really cheap..just a little bit cheaper than singapore that's all.. That very night, we had Gala dinner. My whole family dressed ourselves up and went for the dinner. Everything was like so nice and everybody dressed up. As in we were in some kind of grand party in a big ballroom. Finally, the night ended and we were on our way back to Singapore.


This time Bingo wasn't that successful but did played some jackpot and win. Hehe..The next time i board a cruise board, it will be Gemini already...Can't wait...

Me and My brother

The Biggest Spider

It's been a long time since i last blog. Well, i had wanted to post up a new post since a few days ago but hasn't been able to due to laziness and the late coming of those photos. During this one week or so, i had lotsa fun. Been to cruise and also went to Kuala Lumpur. This holiday was fun and i'm going to tell u guys the fun that i've been through. Let's start off with the cruise.

Set off for cruise centre on 14th October. Went there to meet the people 1st then off we go. Wait wasn't long, luckily and we started off the day with a nice, peaceful dinner. Over there, i tried alot of things i have never tried before when i was in the same cruise boat - Superstar Virgo. Don and I tried the Japanese plunge pool. There's this two pool whereby one is super cold and the other one is super hot. Inside the cold pool, i can't even stay inside more than 20 seconds because it was like super cold and after that i immediately plunge myself into the hot pool. Repeatedly ran between these two pool. It is said to improve blood circulation and i works wonder. Both me and Don felt so refreshed after that. Another thing i tried that was fun is the Bingo. Whereby one has to struck off all 15 numbers within 45 calls, if not, the one who manage to struck off all 15 numbers 1st wins. During my last day of cruise, i finally won! Woohoo, though it's just a hundred and over bucks, it did brought lotsa fun. I even won a medal for some compeition - NOT TOPLESS DANCING! Just some compeition in search for 'hercules'. HAHA! The children - XinYi and JieRong brought much fun and their company is certainly enjoyable and make my day. Jackpot in casino wasn't that fun because both me and Don was like losing money like free. So that sucks. The 'Char Kway Tiao' there was simply superb. It was very very delicious that make my craves for it even til now. When i went back on 16 October, i was simply exhausted due to the lack of sleep and the overpowering of the air-conditioner there. The next day is my KL trip already, and i thought i was going to fall sick. Below is the photo of Me and Don when we were on the cruise ship. At this nice lobby.
On early morning of 17th October, i set of f to school. Had to wake up very early but i can't get to sleep til wee hours on that day because i wasn't feeling very good. So i met Farhan - My Classmate/Buddy. Then we proceed to school. After that, when everyone is present, we leave for Kuala Lumpur. During the journey, we made a few stops between we eventually reach Putrajaya, whereby i've seen the most beautiful buildings in Malaysia. That's where all the government offices and ministries are in. After that, we checked into a 5-star Hotel - Istana Hotel. It was cool man! Grand on the inside and cool on the inside. I shared one room with my buddy. Kuala Lumpur wasn't that fastantic. During my stay there, i found out that it's not very developed yet. Didn't managed to see the spectacular Twin Tower though. Wasted. The whole place doesn't have much to shop and even to explore around. It's like a low-down, shabby chinatown street. During the two morning, i and Farhan failed to report on time because we were sleeping like pig. On the very last morning, i ate my breakfast at 4am. It's because i joined my muslim friends who were having their 'Sahur' as it's their fasting month. It's the earliest breakfast i ever eaten in my life. Over the two days, we were to 2 University to learn about the buildings structure. Then went to some mega shopping centre too. Malaysia is around the same as Singapore, so there's isn't really any nice place for me to shop and look around. The trip was fun mainly because of the friends around and i do miss all the fun when it finally ended. Aww..Below is some of the pictures we took while we were in Malaysia.


This Sunday i'm going to set off for another cruise yet again but this time it's with my family. The previous one was enjoyable because the people with me are fun. This time with my family, it's going to another different fun experience. Hopefully, i will be able to enjoy it. The previous two trip recently has certainly lighten up my mood. Now that Don has went to serve NS already, i guess it's time i get used to this lonely nights. I have been playing maple recently and finally i'm a Cleric. So whoever is playing maple, please add me!

This week is basically a very slacking one. Yet, i seem to have spent tons of money, causing a big hole in my wallet and pocket. Went out with XinYi, this chap is a very fun kid to hang out with i must say. He just makes my day and maybe Don's too. The next few days i'm slacking at home like nobody business. Turning in late and waking up when the sun is already shining onto my butt! I'm more than ever hooked onto Maple. But it takes like donkey years to reach another level, nevertheless, i still finds it fun and haven't get sick of it - Well, surprisingly. Hehe..

Recently, i'm into another state of lost and troubled mind again. I lost someone who's once dear, well, not so dear but someone whom i really mind and dotes on alot. I am starting to see a gap/barrier in between us. I don't know why yet again but i make some predictable guess and assumptions. I began to take things more slightly positively as advices from the past few lessons gained made me a stronger and wiser man. Seriously, i wouldn't have take things so easily if not for my important friends. Jonathan and Gavian really really give me a great piece of advice. Well, Don's has been asking to take things easy and relax..haha..i am...TRYING! Although i really feel abit regretful of why things has come to such state but i guess it's no point dwelling. No point bringing myself down. I guess those who know me well enough would know what happen to me..Pain is still being inflicted but i guess it will heal. All i need is time..

Thanks for the early present from Denise too. She's a student whom i knew from ACES. She gave me a little Pooh Bear, a charm and a birthday card. I appreciate that and thanks alot for the present.

I have been letting myself down by not practising my guitar. Argh, the passion is there but i just don't have the mood. I don't know well. Recently, i've rented alot of Vcds and has been watching at home. Luckily all the shows i watched so far are superb. I get to watch some World-Cup qualifier actions yesterday morning too. Yay!! Switzerland has the chance of going to the World Cup next year!! Way to Go! GOGOGO!!

Well, now this paragraph is dedicated to Jonathan and Gavian. I won't be in Singapore til late next week. Hopefully, this time when the both of you book out, u guys can get to hang out or spend time with people whom u didn't get the chance to spend with for the past few days/weeks/months. All the best and hope you guys will enjoy yourselves and i'll miss the both of u!! I'll get something for the both of you from wherever i am and hope to see you guys soon. I don't wanna be lonely on my birthday! Haha

I'll be away from Singapore just for those of you who don't know..Away from all these troubles that i'm having right now. I'll come back with a better mind, free of troubles and hopefully, just a better me!

Goal!!!!

It's Saturday!!!!! Yet again i get to see my buddies! Jon and Gav are booking out and we agreed to go out in the evening. As usual we will be watching movie, whacking balls, eating and etc...But to me, it's not what we do, but it's the time we spend together. Every minutes spent is like so precious to me, maybe to the others also, well i guess it is. Whole afternoon spent slacking at home, mapling and surfing the net.

So i set off for town in the evening. We went to Long John Silver to have our dinner..It always nice to eat that kind of fastfood. Haha..Then we proceed to watch the movie called 'Goal'. A very nice movie i would say. Not only because it has something to do with my favourite sports soccer, but it also has a very meaningful plot which leaves me to ponder. Parts of the show moved me and forcing me to drop my tears which i didn't.

This show is about a buy, who has this interest in soccer since young, and he has never thought of being a professional footballer until one day a scout went to approach him. Fighting against odds, he went to England for a try-out at Newcastle United with the aid of his grandma even though his dad refused. And after fighting against all odds, he managed to make it to the 1st-team squad. The price he has to pay is that he didn't manage to see his dad who has already forgave him.

This movie is very meaningful. I greatly recommend it to everybody. It tells people how to fight against all odds, with determination and don't give dreams up easily. From this, somehow i'm abit inspired. But such things has to be accompanied by luck. Without luck, even with 101% of determination, u won't get anywhere. My dream, which some of you know, is something i still hold in my mind but can't fulfill. Maybe i can...2 years down the road, maybe i'll be on my way to fulfil my dream...Sad thing is, given the situation i'm in, it makes it very difficult..let's hope for the better..Live with what i have now i guess...

Sit Down..Relax...Listen to the song..(Welcome To My Life)

Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?

Do you ever feel out of place?

Like somehow you just don't belong

And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?

Do you lock yourself in your room?

With the radio on turned up so loud

That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more?

Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With their big fake smiles and stupid lies

While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like

When nothing feels all right

You don't know what it's like

To be like me

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked

when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face

And no one ever stabbed you in the back

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted

You never had to work it was always there

You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked when you're down

To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one's there to save you

No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Imperfect...Judgement

I realise something today..actually i sensed it a few weeks/months ago..but i really really confirmed..What Gavian told me before, i can really believe. She's not the one i used to have a good impression of..She starting to judge people..She always say that i'm not treating her well or good enough, it's not that i'm not..but she give me the impression that she choose whoever she wanna hang alongs with and communicate.She always like to assume stuff..i hate it alot..always assuming things, i know she lied to me sometimes, i always pretend i dunno.. Come on, i'm seriously not a toy to be played me - when u are in good mood, u play with me, when u are not, u throw me to one side. U used to be a girl that i like, to the extent of great liking..but not anymore..all because of what u did..well, indirectly..i may be wrong perceiving things like that but anyway, i can assure myself that u are really not the wonderful girl i always thought u were. I live for myself with support from my great friends, what's the big deal without you. I regret what i did in the past..Simply regretted!! But also because of that, i knew what kinda person u are..u simply sucks!!

Misunderstanding

Misunderstanding are common. It's caused by alot of factors. One main one i would say is miscommunication between parties. Usually misunderstandings are usually caused unintentionally. Sensitive-ness would also contribute to such or any misunderstanding. The worst part is that most of the time, misunderstanding can result in loss of friendship or certain relationship if not handled or solved well. Usually, it's best to solved it as soon as possible so as not to allow any further misunderstandings to arise.

Misunderstandings are best left to be handled or solved by involved parties and best not to involve unnecessary people, doing so might cause the situation to be further worsened. You'll never know when bloodsuckers / backstabbers is behind you backstabbing you but appear to be doing the otherwise instead. Personally, i had regretted not handling two such misunderstandings well. One happen because of miscommunication. I guess that different people have different views, therefore causing some arguments which leads to misunderstandings between the two parties. But luckily, i think that this misunderstands can be solved as in does not involve other parties. The 2nd one is one that i regretted the most of not handling it well. Now the situation can't be salvaged as i involved the wrong people in. It's a pity to how things can come to such state. There's always people rubbing salt to your wound / adding fuel to fire. Either they are out to go against you, backstab you or they are just plain jealous of what you have. I have come to a stage where i have accepted what's left for me. Good friends can be trusted to handle some misunderstandings for me. I have some really good friends who are always there to help me with whatever misunderstandings i have if i ever need. That's why i never had any serious misunderstandings with my good friends, even if there is, it'll be solved within hours or even minutes cos we won't let such misunderstanding ruin our relationship. It's not even worth it at all..It will be a pity just because we misunderstood each other. That few years of moments together can't be ruined just because a short moment of misunderstanding. I lost one person whom i matters alot, maybe because the time os our relationship then still can't withstand that misunderstanding. It's a pity and i regretted...Seriously...

PSLE 1st Papers in 6 Hours Time!!

Time flies....it's the 1st PSLE papers tml..It's English..I guess all or rather most of the kids must be quite tensed up for their 1st major examination of their life. Hopefully they would give it their best shot tml. If anyone of you taking PSLE later on gets to read this, please read on. No matter what, just give it your best and final shot. If you do your best, you didn't let yourself down for you have already given what you know and learn over the past few years. And trust me, your hard work especially these few days will pay off.

Here, i truly wish all the students best of luck and all the best! GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK!! May you do well in this major examinations. During these critical period, i am most willing to help any of you who needs help and please do contact me if u do need any. Last but not least, 'Jia You' and i'll pray for yuo in silence and support you morally.

Friends Part II

This post is continued from the previous one. In between my life, i also had quite a few friends. They are whom i didn't mention earlier on. Mostly my Secondary classmates. As times goes by, we seldom get in touch with each other. But they'll always live in my memory. Some of them i still keep in touch, for exmaple Mildred, Yi Lin, Shu xia, Pei Shan

In ACES - a coaching group which i worked with, i made alot of friends. To them, i might be just an ordinary coach, if better a friend or if even better, like a brother to them. I simply love this job or rather a passion. I shoudn't called this a job because it is something i don't considered it as a job. It's fun doing all these. Each time before event, i will have to prepare for lotsa things, i don't mind for i never fail to see smiles on the kids faces on every event day. Inside the room, i'm a coach to them, they are students to me but outside, we are friends. They are very nice to the extent of me even treating some like my own siblings. Some of them are very nice kids, well brought up and i keep contact with some of the kids often. Seeing the kids like that, i'll always think that it's my fate to meet such good kids and to me, they are the funniest kids ever because they all reminds me of my childhood. Sometimes, some kids would come up to me and tell me things which i never expected. It's always fun to be with them for they never fail to bring joy to me. Though i won't get to see them at all already, but i'll always remember them and hopefully they will still remember me the way i do..I sincerly wish them all the best for their upcoming PSLE!
(Jerome, Shaoqi, Samantha, Zong Ye, Zong Xi, Jolyn, Deanna, Dana, Jeanette, Yina, Sarah, Denise, Xue Hng, Xin Yi, Yun Ru, Mavis, Yukie, Rie, Sophie, and alot more..pardon if i forgot your name) --> They never fail to bring joy and laughter to my life..

This Paragraph is for Xue Ling, Berlinda and Diane. They deserve this paragraph for what they have done and for they are considered my friends too. Knowing them allows me to learn something from them too. They are very sociable and though i don't know them well enough yet, i can see that they are friends who is able to fight through thick and thin with me. Give me somemore time, and we'll develop our friendship further for i don't want good friends like you all to be gone.

People say Friends come and go..i agree with it but it also depends on how we maintain it. Quarrels and arguments with friends i would say it's common for no one is prefect. In this world, my best friends would be my Mother, Father and Brother. They are my best friends who watched my grow. They taught me moral values, brought me up. My brother is my best friend who accompanied me in times of needs and help. Both of us played together and although we quarrelled often, we are still blood brothers afterall. I can say that i never regret having this 'friend' at all.

Not everyone is perfect, but i believe that to survive and maintain friendship, one has to accomodate and compromise. This way, friendship will last longer if not forever. In my life, i have always look upon people who is willing to change for the better and i never had any friends who backstab me so seriously until recently. He betrayed my and not only that, he put on a fake front after so much. Now i feel as if that i'm being put in the wrong because of his sorry state but what i can say is that he brought it all upon himself. Most people feels that if a person is willing to change, he can be forgiven. Yes, to me i agree...but in this special case, i won't!! Because for all the pain he bring to me, the sufferings he caused upon me...he made me lose two dear 'friends' and i can't bring myself to talk to him, let alone forgive him. But i'm not going to fall and if he's going to cause more troubles upon me, i only had two words for him - FORGET IT!

In my life, friends play a important role and i appreciate them for what they have done for me - putting up with me, be there when i needed them and growing up with me...i'll never forget them..and thanks for everything all my friends!

Friends

This tribute for my friends came abit too late but nevertheless, late than never right? hehe..In my whole life, the early part of my life, i hardly have any friends, due to my shyness and lack of courage to face strangers and interact with people. As times pass by, my circle of friends widen. It all started out when i'm in my 2nd Secondary 3, i met these 3 great malay friends, and one chinese friend. They 'grow' me throughout my years in Secondary school, i become more sociable, interactive and mature. They bought me fun, joy and laughter. We shared lotsa things altogether. All the moments we shared will never be forgotten by me. We played, we fooled around and commit offences that we think it's fun. But as times pass by, individual commitments left me seldom keep in contact with them, however, i still regard them as my very good friends.
Ashraf, Rashid, Farhan and Edwin (My 1st Group of True friends)

As i came to poly, this chapter of life really sucks. Poly life ain't what i expected to be. I didn't really make much friends there, only 3 or 4 for the others are just backstabbers and bunch of people who don't really care who the hell is around them. Luckily, Farhan is still with me when i'm in Poly. Knew a few nice friends in my whole 2 and a half year poly friends, We get along quite orite but on and off, there will be a few misunderstanding. However, i must say they are good for they are always willing to help me out whenever i need it. Gladfully thanks and they always tolerate my bad temper and rubbish behaviour. We too, fool around and allow ourselves to go crazy for the sake of this wonder MUSIC - ROCK MUSIC!
Muz, Ahmad, Matthew, Farhan, Cheryl ( Another Bunch of Nice Friends)

In between my Secondary Life and my poly life, i knew this group of friend whom i have been with for quite alot of years, we do keep in touch all the way until recent years, we became very close. They are Don, Jon and Gav. Donovan is the 1st person i met in Secondary. My 1st friend in Secondary School. My 1st impression of him is that he's a very sociable person. We aren't really that close when we were in Secondary one becos we only met during our CCA. I got into the same class when we were in Secondary two and sitting with him is fun yet irritating at times. But it's always me cos i always disturb him. Ended up in bruises in my hand cos of his stupid hand. But i do miss those moments though. Then as times flies, we started to keep contact lesser and lesser until one day, we intend to meet up for every horrow movie and since then, we became very close. Next is Jonathan, i know him through Donovan. He has the same character as Don i would say. I didn't really know him in my Secondary school life too until when i started to meet Donovan few years back. Gavian is the person that i had most misunderstanding and arguments with. I knew him back in Secondary one. We were alright all the way until Secondary Two where we quarelled. All the way until a while after i started hanging out with Jon and Don, then i become close with him. All 3 of them entered me into another chapter of life - one that's full of colours. They are simply great and i just loved hanging out with them. We always watch movie together, go clubbing, whack ball. We too had common interest, ROCK MUSIC. Well, i and Don had successfully influence Gavian into Rock Music and now trying on Jon, we are on our way to success. We had our own band now and for everything we had done in recent months or years, i really feel that our bond is stronger than before. I do feel the sadness when Gavian and Jonathan is serving NS. I felt uncomfortable. It's like someone leaving our life..Don's going to serve NS too, guess my weekdays are going to be lonely..They are certainly a group of people who never fails to bring colours to my life and be there for me whenever i'm down..
Gavian, Jonathan and Donovan ( They Rocks just as i DO)

Recently, i've been hanging out with some new friends i know too. Those whom i knew from the Xero4 gang. Mun Hoe is one of them and all i can say about him is that he's cool. He got that look that always make me find him friendly and sociable. Sadly, he's another one who's going army..Haiz..hopefully he can be back from Korea and meet up with us..

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Argh...

I had lotsa things to say..complain about..but afterall, i shouldn't..for i know what i'm in for. I should have expected all this the day i started it. Well, it has to come and i have to do..Don's recovering well..that's good..Friends all around me are all falling sick...Same for me..Asthma came back unexpectedly yesterday..that leaves me in low morale. I can't sleep in air-con room. That leaves me no choice, but to turn down my boss to stay in this lavishing and comfortable service apartment. Much as i would love to, i can't..i really wanted my own self to recover fast.

Recently, rubbish and nonsense has polluted my mind, leaving me lotsa troubles. Unable to concentrate on my work well, i end up doing my work not so well, afraid of not being able to live up tp expectations, i had this load of burden. I don't wish Saturday to come so soon, for i'm afraid of something - i don't know why. It seems as if work is never ending. I want this 'final' PSLE event of the year to pass by perfectly, but i not happy with the way i did it..Everything is almost done, somehow i feel it's not. Why...don't know either..I guess i'm going to the event with two feelings this saturday. Fear and Eager! Well, hopefully, this saturday will be a happy event. I'm expecting that.

I missed my guitar...it's has been lying in no-man's place for a long time..Hopefulyl i ca get it back soon..I need to ease my troubled heart with disturbing music..Rock music always saves my day..

Don's Birthday!!

It's Don's birthday yesterday!..Had a hard time thinking what present to buy for him. He's a guy that is very 'anything', so that makes is harder. But luckily, this cousin of his is clever enough and bought him a cap and a bag. Shared by a few of us. Luckily, he seems to like it alot..

Friday was a long-awaited day that me and Don has been waiting for. Finally, the two 'Botaks' are back! We din really have quality time together. Luckily, i managed to chat with Jon for a while while others are asleep. He really gave good advice, and a very good listener. After talking to him, i felt alot better. So sad, he's has to book in in around 1 hour more..so sad..this kind of feeling is bad. I just can't bear to leave him. For we have been friends for alot of years..Weekdays are lonely..haiz...

Yesterday, we went to celebrate Don's birthday. I met up with Tired Jon early to get the presents for Donovan. Search all around Far East to buy his presents. After that, we went to hunt for some children's day gifts. I spent a whopping near 100 bucks yesterday. Omg...haiz..i guess it's worth it. Bought my very 1st ORIGINAL Man Utd Jersey tml.Cool huh..haha! But yesterday Man Utd lost the match..sad sad..disappointing one..

Today i woke up very late, cos i turn in very late yesterday..Whole day maple..Take like donkey years just to reach another level..haiz!! I need strong maplers!! Help anyone?? Today will be a boring day...hmmm....

Life is unpredictable..so much so that we won't what tomorrow has for us..It's always a blessing that we are able to live til to see tml sun, or even the moon. Yet, there's always some people who are always grumbling and complaining. Although it's mostly a qualities of a small group of females, he, an average man, yet behave and possess such qualities. I mean, cmon, why be like that. Badmouthing people won't do you good, neither denying what you do will do u any good either. Friends are leaving you, bad impression of you are falling on you..ask youself..WHY!! Well, you appear to be helping me but as much as i can see, u are not helping me much..Lies after Lies expose you to be cornered, let's assume no one tells me what happen, i would have guess it, maybe not sooner but later. But why do this to me? Just because i did something that doesn't really make u happy? or just because you are jealous of me? Cmon, U have taken away what used to be part of my life, u have taken away a person whom i mind alot and really care and dotes on. Yes, i agree initially i am hurt, to the extent or breaking down, yet, u still put up a fake front? I'm not sure as i'm not you. But why? Since you have taken away what's used to be a very part of my life, and i think the situation cannot be salvage, so be it. Go ahead and influence her! I don't give a damn. And i will never. Anything that you are going to do next time, be sure it's something good for i will never forget what u did to me, what kinda blow u gave me that i have to dealth it through fire and ice! One more time i ever see you do whatever u deem right, i'm not going to give whatever shit face to you and let me tell you, that's it!

Jon is coming back tml, i can't wait to pour all my woes to him. He's one that has a really 'big' listening ears and dear! i Miss him. I'm hooked on Maple and thanks to Shaoqi, and i really mean thanks. Now my holiday won't be so boring. Don and Mun Hoe's leaving..It's kinda pity and i'll feel lonely again. Weekdays is will always be lonely and i'll always wait for weekend impatiently in the future. Hopefully, i will feel alot better tml after i talk to Don. These few days, some kids really make my day..Xin Yi, Dana, Jie Rong, Deanna, Yunru..omg..too much to list..And of cos ShaoQi, needless to say..haha..Please teach me how to play Maple, Shaoqi! Well, after your PSLE of cos..Meanwhile, all the kids, please study hard!

New Blogskin...

I disappeared or rather died for around a day or two..keeping myself from the outside world..left alone for a while, calm myself down, ponder, wonder and think...through and through..somehow, i am abit 'enlightened'..

Yesterday, bought a power multi-effects machine to boost my guitar..now, i am totally into music and when i say music it means ROCK MUSIC..what can sounds more powerful than rock music..It never fail to relax my souls, motivate me and bring me into the world of virtuality. Don and me can be considered constantly improving on our guitar skills, looking at MVs always allow us to get more motivated than ever to improve ourselves, with the help of the new 'booster', Natural Objection is set to rock em' all...

Yesterday i had great fun playing Maple with Shaoqi..actually i would say it's with her and her other two siblings..it's sooo fun. So somehow or another, i'm kinda hooked onto Maple..Gosh..is it good news or bad news? omg..who cares, i'm having my holidays now. Shaoqi, please do let me know if u are playing, i wanna faster become ice mage! (Hope she's reading this)..Today has a presentation and it turned out to be far and much much better than expected. I was one of the high-graders..haa, well, yes, i am shocked! Cos i handed in incomplete work and did last minute work too..but i must say, my presentation this time was the best..After presentation, i went to buy some stuff and also bought something for Dana..luckily she liked it..Then i went back home wanting to play my beloved guitar but was kinda busy with my blog...all the way until not long while ago, i am playing maple!! HAHA...going to play til 3am now...bye bye

Finally my project is submitted...It's incomplete..afterall, i still didn't manage to put my heart onto it as i'm too bothered with things i mind too much..Too many things happen recently with me being dealth a great blow and series of consequences i have to bear..I know it's too heavy for me but yet, i have to bear it. Mood is starting to get better and picking up well, but nevertheless, i'm still kinda bothered. Someone once told me this - "A Rainbow Will appear After A Storm"..It make this phrase especially meaningful when it comes out from her..now, i still can't believe what's happen between us..i know i am currently in the storm and desperately awaiting for the rainbow to appear..but however, when the rainbow finally appear, i guess it would lack of one colour which i guess is the person who told me this phrase. I'm still sad for what happen after all, no one's at fault as it's all misunderstanding and miscommunication with ONE PERSON rubbing salt to my wound. Maybe that night i did scare her off but showing the weak side of me, and i do really feel bad and wanted to apologise. Sorry..let's hope things could be as before...

Yesterday i watch to catch a movie..it was the only time since don't know how many donkey years i get to relax myself..Tons and tons of projects, submission has exhaust me off my energy. Went to watch a movie at Suntec called "Cave". It's a very nice show i would say. Suppose to meet two more "BIG SHOTS", but in the end, both of them put aeroplane on me and Mun Hoe..Feeling abit frustrated!! Well...can't be helped. Had the best time of my life with Mun Hoe..He's so fun and nice..Mun Hoe is really a friend not to be missed..well, now that i am praising him too much..let's hope he don't float..are u floating now? Haha..

Bought a printer today..Yay!! Finally can print all my favourite guitar tabs..oh ya, we have a new movement..contact me soon people..Byee!

Please appear my in rainbow..please..

I'm simply depressed...i hate my school..i wanna leave home..i'm going to HongKong, Malaysia and also going on Cruise Soon...I spend more than 100 bucks without actually realising it today..what's with me? I'm still searching for the old me..will someone please help me? I'm giving myself a chance to be pathetic..My mind are still filled with those memories..polluted now..

I enjoyed myself alot recently...except for some really pitiful incidents..Coaching in ACES has always been fun, together with the kids..especially with the kids who are really nice and some of my favourite students..but for the 1st time, i cried over a participant..I don't mean to scare that very person but just that i wanted to explain things so much so that i feel too hurt and broke down in the end..If i really don't mind, why would i even bother to drop those tears..not even at my own house and just outside that event room..Nevertheless, my fellow friends is stil there to calm me down, i appreciate it alot but i'm really really very hurt...it's just like having 10 daggers pierced into your fragile heart. I asked myself, my mum didn't even do this to me, why must you..
And all those apologies coming from two mouths came fast but unexpected that day i broke down once again..but til today, i realise that only one is sincere...even the gift given to me..i appreciate it as there's this thoughts but if it's bought just for the sake of buying, i rather u save those money..i have been reflecting on myself this few days, i seriously don't went wrong, i found the wrong person to find the answer for me and i did get back part of what i thought was lost..As this blogs is being typed, tears are starting to come out...i really miss those good days, i wouldn't have put them in my heart if i really don't care for them..and right now, only one of them know my intentions and i'm hurt and disappointed.
Why tell me that nothing negative is going on when in your heart, you just had this feeling against or on me..i'm really really upset..why does it happen to me...what did i do wrong...

I really still wanna be your favourite coach..and no matter what,both of u is still my favourite students..as always...

Today was great great fun..Hehe..Finally, ShaoQi and Samantha agreed to take photos with me..but it's Neoprint actually..well, to me it's actually good enough..Hehe..well, thanks to someone i suppose...Two days has pass since the Weekdays event have started..On Monday, they pass me a paper with my name of it and gave me a nickname 'BlossomBerry/Byosenberry'..well..rather weird but i like it anyway..They also bought me a keychain which is a donkey that very much looke like eeyore..i hook it with my keys already..hehe
Today we went to take neoprint..the moment i stepped into the arcade, both of them jump in joy and what i saw is numerous toys and sweet lying on the game machine..haa..these two girls are spending money like water and i chipped in abut too..After that, we went to take neoprint..had lotsa fun before, during and after event..Tml might be taking summore pictures..this time maybe with Diane..Look forward to tml..!! Will post the pictures of my gifts and the neoprints soon..check back soon..

Tell me how does it feels to be accused of things that you never did..How fingers are all pointing at you and yet you are just so innocently..I admitted i did things in a moment of folly at times but nevertheless, i do not have a heart of a evil devil that always carries an intention of really harming or even to the extent of sabotaging people..Such acts are being considered despicable by me and not even will be tolerated, let alone me carrying all these acts out myself..

Today was the 1st day of the September event..Alot of new faces..saw Sophie which just so happen coincidentally happen to be born the same day with me..hehe..however, she was all the way talking to her schoolmates..haa..among the students are XinYi, Zong Ye, Jerome and Xue Hng..The latter 3 certainly made my day..We formed this funny movement, playing a prank on Jonathan, in the end, all ended quite funny because of actions carried out by Jonathan..After the event, it was down to dinner..Dinner was sastifying but towards to end, wasn't really feeling very comfortable..Jonathan received his mobile phone that we bought for him..hehe..hopefully he like it..Seriously, i must say i am going to miss you and all those pranks i played on you which started recently, even before you know it, were meant to be pranks! Haha...don't cry Jonathan, cos i have no tissues for u!

Shaoqi change the date of staying in Parksuites..omg..that also cause come confusion in Samantha and frustration i guess...as heard from Anne...however, i am so looking forward to that very day...hmmm....i just can't wait..they are really really fun kids to be with and i seriously treat them like my sisters..Don will also be joining..CAN"T WAIT!!

ARGH!! Help...my project submission is coming..so is the ACES events..i'm now being stuck in between my studies and work..well i only enjoyed doing the work and starting to lose interest in studying, nevertheless, i still and to study and not fail as much as possible which i really don't want to. I just can't wait for my October holiday to start whereby i can get to go out and enjoy myself...Right now, i am having confusions...mixed feelings...regardings lotsa things..i just can't think straight..think well...think properly..

But there's a good news..my asthma is healing and hopefully i can be back to the old me whereby i can run and exercise which i seriously need to and drink all the super cold drinks and eating the best and delicious desserts in Singapore...hmm..Yummy..speaking about food...Recently these two days, my lady boss has been bringing me to this Chomp Chomp market in Serangoon..omg..each visit was a SASTIFYING and a fulfilling one..hopefully i can gain a few KGs out of it..haa!!

This week event is coming and i just can't wait...i can't wait to see my Favourite Students.!!!