PSLE 1st Papers in 6 Hours Time!!

Time flies....it's the 1st PSLE papers tml..It's English..I guess all or rather most of the kids must be quite tensed up for their 1st major examination of their life. Hopefully they would give it their best shot tml. If anyone of you taking PSLE later on gets to read this, please read on. No matter what, just give it your best and final shot. If you do your best, you didn't let yourself down for you have already given what you know and learn over the past few years. And trust me, your hard work especially these few days will pay off.

Here, i truly wish all the students best of luck and all the best! GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK GOOD LUCK!! May you do well in this major examinations. During these critical period, i am most willing to help any of you who needs help and please do contact me if u do need any. Last but not least, 'Jia You' and i'll pray for yuo in silence and support you morally.

Friends Part II

This post is continued from the previous one. In between my life, i also had quite a few friends. They are whom i didn't mention earlier on. Mostly my Secondary classmates. As times goes by, we seldom get in touch with each other. But they'll always live in my memory. Some of them i still keep in touch, for exmaple Mildred, Yi Lin, Shu xia, Pei Shan

In ACES - a coaching group which i worked with, i made alot of friends. To them, i might be just an ordinary coach, if better a friend or if even better, like a brother to them. I simply love this job or rather a passion. I shoudn't called this a job because it is something i don't considered it as a job. It's fun doing all these. Each time before event, i will have to prepare for lotsa things, i don't mind for i never fail to see smiles on the kids faces on every event day. Inside the room, i'm a coach to them, they are students to me but outside, we are friends. They are very nice to the extent of me even treating some like my own siblings. Some of them are very nice kids, well brought up and i keep contact with some of the kids often. Seeing the kids like that, i'll always think that it's my fate to meet such good kids and to me, they are the funniest kids ever because they all reminds me of my childhood. Sometimes, some kids would come up to me and tell me things which i never expected. It's always fun to be with them for they never fail to bring joy to me. Though i won't get to see them at all already, but i'll always remember them and hopefully they will still remember me the way i do..I sincerly wish them all the best for their upcoming PSLE!
(Jerome, Shaoqi, Samantha, Zong Ye, Zong Xi, Jolyn, Deanna, Dana, Jeanette, Yina, Sarah, Denise, Xue Hng, Xin Yi, Yun Ru, Mavis, Yukie, Rie, Sophie, and alot more..pardon if i forgot your name) --> They never fail to bring joy and laughter to my life..

This Paragraph is for Xue Ling, Berlinda and Diane. They deserve this paragraph for what they have done and for they are considered my friends too. Knowing them allows me to learn something from them too. They are very sociable and though i don't know them well enough yet, i can see that they are friends who is able to fight through thick and thin with me. Give me somemore time, and we'll develop our friendship further for i don't want good friends like you all to be gone.

People say Friends come and go..i agree with it but it also depends on how we maintain it. Quarrels and arguments with friends i would say it's common for no one is prefect. In this world, my best friends would be my Mother, Father and Brother. They are my best friends who watched my grow. They taught me moral values, brought me up. My brother is my best friend who accompanied me in times of needs and help. Both of us played together and although we quarrelled often, we are still blood brothers afterall. I can say that i never regret having this 'friend' at all.

Not everyone is perfect, but i believe that to survive and maintain friendship, one has to accomodate and compromise. This way, friendship will last longer if not forever. In my life, i have always look upon people who is willing to change for the better and i never had any friends who backstab me so seriously until recently. He betrayed my and not only that, he put on a fake front after so much. Now i feel as if that i'm being put in the wrong because of his sorry state but what i can say is that he brought it all upon himself. Most people feels that if a person is willing to change, he can be forgiven. Yes, to me i agree...but in this special case, i won't!! Because for all the pain he bring to me, the sufferings he caused upon me...he made me lose two dear 'friends' and i can't bring myself to talk to him, let alone forgive him. But i'm not going to fall and if he's going to cause more troubles upon me, i only had two words for him - FORGET IT!

In my life, friends play a important role and i appreciate them for what they have done for me - putting up with me, be there when i needed them and growing up with me...i'll never forget them..and thanks for everything all my friends!

Friends

This tribute for my friends came abit too late but nevertheless, late than never right? hehe..In my whole life, the early part of my life, i hardly have any friends, due to my shyness and lack of courage to face strangers and interact with people. As times pass by, my circle of friends widen. It all started out when i'm in my 2nd Secondary 3, i met these 3 great malay friends, and one chinese friend. They 'grow' me throughout my years in Secondary school, i become more sociable, interactive and mature. They bought me fun, joy and laughter. We shared lotsa things altogether. All the moments we shared will never be forgotten by me. We played, we fooled around and commit offences that we think it's fun. But as times pass by, individual commitments left me seldom keep in contact with them, however, i still regard them as my very good friends.
Ashraf, Rashid, Farhan and Edwin (My 1st Group of True friends)

As i came to poly, this chapter of life really sucks. Poly life ain't what i expected to be. I didn't really make much friends there, only 3 or 4 for the others are just backstabbers and bunch of people who don't really care who the hell is around them. Luckily, Farhan is still with me when i'm in Poly. Knew a few nice friends in my whole 2 and a half year poly friends, We get along quite orite but on and off, there will be a few misunderstanding. However, i must say they are good for they are always willing to help me out whenever i need it. Gladfully thanks and they always tolerate my bad temper and rubbish behaviour. We too, fool around and allow ourselves to go crazy for the sake of this wonder MUSIC - ROCK MUSIC!
Muz, Ahmad, Matthew, Farhan, Cheryl ( Another Bunch of Nice Friends)

In between my Secondary Life and my poly life, i knew this group of friend whom i have been with for quite alot of years, we do keep in touch all the way until recent years, we became very close. They are Don, Jon and Gav. Donovan is the 1st person i met in Secondary. My 1st friend in Secondary School. My 1st impression of him is that he's a very sociable person. We aren't really that close when we were in Secondary one becos we only met during our CCA. I got into the same class when we were in Secondary two and sitting with him is fun yet irritating at times. But it's always me cos i always disturb him. Ended up in bruises in my hand cos of his stupid hand. But i do miss those moments though. Then as times flies, we started to keep contact lesser and lesser until one day, we intend to meet up for every horrow movie and since then, we became very close. Next is Jonathan, i know him through Donovan. He has the same character as Don i would say. I didn't really know him in my Secondary school life too until when i started to meet Donovan few years back. Gavian is the person that i had most misunderstanding and arguments with. I knew him back in Secondary one. We were alright all the way until Secondary Two where we quarelled. All the way until a while after i started hanging out with Jon and Don, then i become close with him. All 3 of them entered me into another chapter of life - one that's full of colours. They are simply great and i just loved hanging out with them. We always watch movie together, go clubbing, whack ball. We too had common interest, ROCK MUSIC. Well, i and Don had successfully influence Gavian into Rock Music and now trying on Jon, we are on our way to success. We had our own band now and for everything we had done in recent months or years, i really feel that our bond is stronger than before. I do feel the sadness when Gavian and Jonathan is serving NS. I felt uncomfortable. It's like someone leaving our life..Don's going to serve NS too, guess my weekdays are going to be lonely..They are certainly a group of people who never fails to bring colours to my life and be there for me whenever i'm down..
Gavian, Jonathan and Donovan ( They Rocks just as i DO)

Recently, i've been hanging out with some new friends i know too. Those whom i knew from the Xero4 gang. Mun Hoe is one of them and all i can say about him is that he's cool. He got that look that always make me find him friendly and sociable. Sadly, he's another one who's going army..Haiz..hopefully he can be back from Korea and meet up with us..

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Argh...

I had lotsa things to say..complain about..but afterall, i shouldn't..for i know what i'm in for. I should have expected all this the day i started it. Well, it has to come and i have to do..Don's recovering well..that's good..Friends all around me are all falling sick...Same for me..Asthma came back unexpectedly yesterday..that leaves me in low morale. I can't sleep in air-con room. That leaves me no choice, but to turn down my boss to stay in this lavishing and comfortable service apartment. Much as i would love to, i can't..i really wanted my own self to recover fast.

Recently, rubbish and nonsense has polluted my mind, leaving me lotsa troubles. Unable to concentrate on my work well, i end up doing my work not so well, afraid of not being able to live up tp expectations, i had this load of burden. I don't wish Saturday to come so soon, for i'm afraid of something - i don't know why. It seems as if work is never ending. I want this 'final' PSLE event of the year to pass by perfectly, but i not happy with the way i did it..Everything is almost done, somehow i feel it's not. Why...don't know either..I guess i'm going to the event with two feelings this saturday. Fear and Eager! Well, hopefully, this saturday will be a happy event. I'm expecting that.

I missed my guitar...it's has been lying in no-man's place for a long time..Hopefulyl i ca get it back soon..I need to ease my troubled heart with disturbing music..Rock music always saves my day..

Don's Birthday!!

It's Don's birthday yesterday!..Had a hard time thinking what present to buy for him. He's a guy that is very 'anything', so that makes is harder. But luckily, this cousin of his is clever enough and bought him a cap and a bag. Shared by a few of us. Luckily, he seems to like it alot..

Friday was a long-awaited day that me and Don has been waiting for. Finally, the two 'Botaks' are back! We din really have quality time together. Luckily, i managed to chat with Jon for a while while others are asleep. He really gave good advice, and a very good listener. After talking to him, i felt alot better. So sad, he's has to book in in around 1 hour more..so sad..this kind of feeling is bad. I just can't bear to leave him. For we have been friends for alot of years..Weekdays are lonely..haiz...

Yesterday, we went to celebrate Don's birthday. I met up with Tired Jon early to get the presents for Donovan. Search all around Far East to buy his presents. After that, we went to hunt for some children's day gifts. I spent a whopping near 100 bucks yesterday. Omg...haiz..i guess it's worth it. Bought my very 1st ORIGINAL Man Utd Jersey tml.Cool huh..haha! But yesterday Man Utd lost the match..sad sad..disappointing one..

Today i woke up very late, cos i turn in very late yesterday..Whole day maple..Take like donkey years just to reach another level..haiz!! I need strong maplers!! Help anyone?? Today will be a boring day...hmmm....

Life is unpredictable..so much so that we won't what tomorrow has for us..It's always a blessing that we are able to live til to see tml sun, or even the moon. Yet, there's always some people who are always grumbling and complaining. Although it's mostly a qualities of a small group of females, he, an average man, yet behave and possess such qualities. I mean, cmon, why be like that. Badmouthing people won't do you good, neither denying what you do will do u any good either. Friends are leaving you, bad impression of you are falling on you..ask youself..WHY!! Well, you appear to be helping me but as much as i can see, u are not helping me much..Lies after Lies expose you to be cornered, let's assume no one tells me what happen, i would have guess it, maybe not sooner but later. But why do this to me? Just because i did something that doesn't really make u happy? or just because you are jealous of me? Cmon, U have taken away what used to be part of my life, u have taken away a person whom i mind alot and really care and dotes on. Yes, i agree initially i am hurt, to the extent or breaking down, yet, u still put up a fake front? I'm not sure as i'm not you. But why? Since you have taken away what's used to be a very part of my life, and i think the situation cannot be salvage, so be it. Go ahead and influence her! I don't give a damn. And i will never. Anything that you are going to do next time, be sure it's something good for i will never forget what u did to me, what kinda blow u gave me that i have to dealth it through fire and ice! One more time i ever see you do whatever u deem right, i'm not going to give whatever shit face to you and let me tell you, that's it!

Jon is coming back tml, i can't wait to pour all my woes to him. He's one that has a really 'big' listening ears and dear! i Miss him. I'm hooked on Maple and thanks to Shaoqi, and i really mean thanks. Now my holiday won't be so boring. Don and Mun Hoe's leaving..It's kinda pity and i'll feel lonely again. Weekdays is will always be lonely and i'll always wait for weekend impatiently in the future. Hopefully, i will feel alot better tml after i talk to Don. These few days, some kids really make my day..Xin Yi, Dana, Jie Rong, Deanna, Yunru..omg..too much to list..And of cos ShaoQi, needless to say..haha..Please teach me how to play Maple, Shaoqi! Well, after your PSLE of cos..Meanwhile, all the kids, please study hard!

New Blogskin...

I disappeared or rather died for around a day or two..keeping myself from the outside world..left alone for a while, calm myself down, ponder, wonder and think...through and through..somehow, i am abit 'enlightened'..

Yesterday, bought a power multi-effects machine to boost my guitar..now, i am totally into music and when i say music it means ROCK MUSIC..what can sounds more powerful than rock music..It never fail to relax my souls, motivate me and bring me into the world of virtuality. Don and me can be considered constantly improving on our guitar skills, looking at MVs always allow us to get more motivated than ever to improve ourselves, with the help of the new 'booster', Natural Objection is set to rock em' all...

Yesterday i had great fun playing Maple with Shaoqi..actually i would say it's with her and her other two siblings..it's sooo fun. So somehow or another, i'm kinda hooked onto Maple..Gosh..is it good news or bad news? omg..who cares, i'm having my holidays now. Shaoqi, please do let me know if u are playing, i wanna faster become ice mage! (Hope she's reading this)..Today has a presentation and it turned out to be far and much much better than expected. I was one of the high-graders..haa, well, yes, i am shocked! Cos i handed in incomplete work and did last minute work too..but i must say, my presentation this time was the best..After presentation, i went to buy some stuff and also bought something for Dana..luckily she liked it..Then i went back home wanting to play my beloved guitar but was kinda busy with my blog...all the way until not long while ago, i am playing maple!! HAHA...going to play til 3am now...bye bye

Finally my project is submitted...It's incomplete..afterall, i still didn't manage to put my heart onto it as i'm too bothered with things i mind too much..Too many things happen recently with me being dealth a great blow and series of consequences i have to bear..I know it's too heavy for me but yet, i have to bear it. Mood is starting to get better and picking up well, but nevertheless, i'm still kinda bothered. Someone once told me this - "A Rainbow Will appear After A Storm"..It make this phrase especially meaningful when it comes out from her..now, i still can't believe what's happen between us..i know i am currently in the storm and desperately awaiting for the rainbow to appear..but however, when the rainbow finally appear, i guess it would lack of one colour which i guess is the person who told me this phrase. I'm still sad for what happen after all, no one's at fault as it's all misunderstanding and miscommunication with ONE PERSON rubbing salt to my wound. Maybe that night i did scare her off but showing the weak side of me, and i do really feel bad and wanted to apologise. Sorry..let's hope things could be as before...

Yesterday i watch to catch a movie..it was the only time since don't know how many donkey years i get to relax myself..Tons and tons of projects, submission has exhaust me off my energy. Went to watch a movie at Suntec called "Cave". It's a very nice show i would say. Suppose to meet two more "BIG SHOTS", but in the end, both of them put aeroplane on me and Mun Hoe..Feeling abit frustrated!! Well...can't be helped. Had the best time of my life with Mun Hoe..He's so fun and nice..Mun Hoe is really a friend not to be missed..well, now that i am praising him too much..let's hope he don't float..are u floating now? Haha..

Bought a printer today..Yay!! Finally can print all my favourite guitar tabs..oh ya, we have a new movement..contact me soon people..Byee!

Please appear my in rainbow..please..

I'm simply depressed...i hate my school..i wanna leave home..i'm going to HongKong, Malaysia and also going on Cruise Soon...I spend more than 100 bucks without actually realising it today..what's with me? I'm still searching for the old me..will someone please help me? I'm giving myself a chance to be pathetic..My mind are still filled with those memories..polluted now..

I enjoyed myself alot recently...except for some really pitiful incidents..Coaching in ACES has always been fun, together with the kids..especially with the kids who are really nice and some of my favourite students..but for the 1st time, i cried over a participant..I don't mean to scare that very person but just that i wanted to explain things so much so that i feel too hurt and broke down in the end..If i really don't mind, why would i even bother to drop those tears..not even at my own house and just outside that event room..Nevertheless, my fellow friends is stil there to calm me down, i appreciate it alot but i'm really really very hurt...it's just like having 10 daggers pierced into your fragile heart. I asked myself, my mum didn't even do this to me, why must you..
And all those apologies coming from two mouths came fast but unexpected that day i broke down once again..but til today, i realise that only one is sincere...even the gift given to me..i appreciate it as there's this thoughts but if it's bought just for the sake of buying, i rather u save those money..i have been reflecting on myself this few days, i seriously don't went wrong, i found the wrong person to find the answer for me and i did get back part of what i thought was lost..As this blogs is being typed, tears are starting to come out...i really miss those good days, i wouldn't have put them in my heart if i really don't care for them..and right now, only one of them know my intentions and i'm hurt and disappointed.
Why tell me that nothing negative is going on when in your heart, you just had this feeling against or on me..i'm really really upset..why does it happen to me...what did i do wrong...

I really still wanna be your favourite coach..and no matter what,both of u is still my favourite students..as always...

Today was great great fun..Hehe..Finally, ShaoQi and Samantha agreed to take photos with me..but it's Neoprint actually..well, to me it's actually good enough..Hehe..well, thanks to someone i suppose...Two days has pass since the Weekdays event have started..On Monday, they pass me a paper with my name of it and gave me a nickname 'BlossomBerry/Byosenberry'..well..rather weird but i like it anyway..They also bought me a keychain which is a donkey that very much looke like eeyore..i hook it with my keys already..hehe
Today we went to take neoprint..the moment i stepped into the arcade, both of them jump in joy and what i saw is numerous toys and sweet lying on the game machine..haa..these two girls are spending money like water and i chipped in abut too..After that, we went to take neoprint..had lotsa fun before, during and after event..Tml might be taking summore pictures..this time maybe with Diane..Look forward to tml..!! Will post the pictures of my gifts and the neoprints soon..check back soon..

Tell me how does it feels to be accused of things that you never did..How fingers are all pointing at you and yet you are just so innocently..I admitted i did things in a moment of folly at times but nevertheless, i do not have a heart of a evil devil that always carries an intention of really harming or even to the extent of sabotaging people..Such acts are being considered despicable by me and not even will be tolerated, let alone me carrying all these acts out myself..

Today was the 1st day of the September event..Alot of new faces..saw Sophie which just so happen coincidentally happen to be born the same day with me..hehe..however, she was all the way talking to her schoolmates..haa..among the students are XinYi, Zong Ye, Jerome and Xue Hng..The latter 3 certainly made my day..We formed this funny movement, playing a prank on Jonathan, in the end, all ended quite funny because of actions carried out by Jonathan..After the event, it was down to dinner..Dinner was sastifying but towards to end, wasn't really feeling very comfortable..Jonathan received his mobile phone that we bought for him..hehe..hopefully he like it..Seriously, i must say i am going to miss you and all those pranks i played on you which started recently, even before you know it, were meant to be pranks! Haha...don't cry Jonathan, cos i have no tissues for u!

Shaoqi change the date of staying in Parksuites..omg..that also cause come confusion in Samantha and frustration i guess...as heard from Anne...however, i am so looking forward to that very day...hmmm....i just can't wait..they are really really fun kids to be with and i seriously treat them like my sisters..Don will also be joining..CAN"T WAIT!!

ARGH!! Help...my project submission is coming..so is the ACES events..i'm now being stuck in between my studies and work..well i only enjoyed doing the work and starting to lose interest in studying, nevertheless, i still and to study and not fail as much as possible which i really don't want to. I just can't wait for my October holiday to start whereby i can get to go out and enjoy myself...Right now, i am having confusions...mixed feelings...regardings lotsa things..i just can't think straight..think well...think properly..

But there's a good news..my asthma is healing and hopefully i can be back to the old me whereby i can run and exercise which i seriously need to and drink all the super cold drinks and eating the best and delicious desserts in Singapore...hmm..Yummy..speaking about food...Recently these two days, my lady boss has been bringing me to this Chomp Chomp market in Serangoon..omg..each visit was a SASTIFYING and a fulfilling one..hopefully i can gain a few KGs out of it..haa!!

This week event is coming and i just can't wait...i can't wait to see my Favourite Students.!!!

Yesterday was good...Woohoo...or actually i should start my post now from Friday..I went to consult a doctor on Friday, took Mc..sick sick sick...my asthma hasn't been any better and i really really really really really wish to get well now..Please all GODS!! Save me this time..Since i didn't go sch, i went to meet Gavian and Jonathan..We went to supermarket to buy our foods as we are going to have a cooking feast that very night.
After that, went to Sim Lim Square to but my very 1st Digital Camera!! Firstly, i went to this sucker shop, i wanted to buy the Digital camera, but the shop owner was like " What are you looking for?" then i replied" just looking around" then he said, " if leave if you don't wanna buy, i'm very busy"..I was like, what the hell, so i 'greeted' him off with a glare! Then i went to this shop, the salesman was very friendly and so is the boss, i saw this very nice Camera and so i bought it..I'll show you some of the masterpiece i took using the Camera i bought.. So we rushed back to Gavian house and started cooking. We took around an hours plus to cook finish all the food..Below are our masterpiece..hehex

After eating a sastifying meal, we started to rock the house with our 'weapons'...played quite a few song and we really really enjoyed ourselves..We play for hours and the next day, we continued..Below are the 'Future Rock Stars'..Please support us!!

At night, we went to visit some places for some stuff..It was very cool...enjoyed myself alot, been to places i have never been to actually..and some places which i have been to bring me back to those nice moments i used to have..eventually, i reached home at around 4am and turn in at 6am!! This is madness..haa...it's been so long since we last enjoy ourselves and reach home so late..

Today or rather yesterday which is Sunday, i and Don went to Deanna house. This is my first time there and it was cool. I get to play badminton, soccer and some TEDIOUS cycling with Deanna and Don..I find Deanna quite cute but quiet..haa..maybe she's shy..basically, i enjoyed myself very much and i find her whole family very cool and friendly..OH ya, her sister is pretty too..hehe..let's look forward to the upcoming event..woohoo

Suddenly, my heart is very heavy..very very heavy..filled with worries, troubles...tml i will be going to consult a doctor again...will this be my final visit? Can i recover after this visit? I really really really hope so...so much so that i keep on thinking about it..My project has been dangling down there and i'm not doing much..i don't know how to do it, how?? how?? How??

Today i was talking to Samantha, about some stuff about lives...indeed life is a suffering..but it can be enjoyable at the same time..We lose somethng but at the same time, we gain something..vice versa..At her age, i impressed by this very sentence she said 'a rainbow will appear after a stormy rain' ..it does happen in reality, i guess right now..both of us are in this stormy rain, desperately waiting for the rainbow to appear..hope it does appear soon..i really need to unload my burdens..at least some of it..Assurance has been given by me(some kinda of assurance)happy but sad at the same time, cos this assurance draw me closer to certain things..i'm afraid, once it's gone, i will be very very very upset..but well, that's life and i can't face it yet...

I'm sick!! I'm sick!! Omg, my asthma has been lingering around the whole of me, exhausting and consuming all of my energy, concentration and basically the whole of me..Seen the same Doctor for 2 times, the prescription he gave was quite lousy..the medicine helps initially but after a while, my asthma came back..i wanna change to Chinese Physician/Doctor..Anyone knows of any chinese phisician or doctor who treats asthma? Please let me know..ARGH!!

Ohohoh..It's been quite sometimes since i last blog..i was busy with a great time of chalet..Started off during Friday, went to watch an anticipated movie called "The Maid" and let me tell u this, this movie sucks big time...Horror shows and movies i have seen enough, this can be added into one of the lousiest Horror movie ever..Lame!! Aftert the movie, we for supper then to Aranda Country Club..We played Majong, Playstation 2, Chatted the whole day also..Time really flies....when we realised the time, it's already 6am..so we turn in

Woke up at 2pm then went to buy our stuff to get ready for the bbq..and rented bicycles..shiok, so the BBQ started..Good news is my favourite students's coming..making me more happier..haha..went to fetch them with Samantha always poking fun on me..and really had fun with them with Samantha so enthusiatic to play Majong, so me,Gavian and Jesse taught and play with her, while Shaoqi is playing with our mobiles phones as she's not interested. Soon, they went back, felt abit of loneliness..haha..then, it's down to riding time..And let me tell u, this is the 1st time i rode so far and long..rode til my legs are cramp and numb and PAIN!!! We rode from Pasir Ris to Chang Airport there...finally give them after riding on an endless road..Then we faster rush back and have a good shower..I was the 1st one to fall asleep..too too too tired..

And so, everything ended with my legs still feeling very pain..but i did enjoyed myself..Just reach home a moment before from Meeting..i felt that passion, and i am starting to imagine..how i am going to live what i am doing now..at the same time, worrying about my studies and how i am going to miss those kids..time will heal? i don't know..

Oral Ends..Sadly..

And so...the whole oral booster event ended..time really really files..sadly..yes..sadly..Yesterday the whole event was quite relax..although the students is especially many, we were still able to handle. Seeing lotsa and lotsa students i remembered and knowing more and more new students, i feel like a big brother going around and taking good care of them Laughter from their hearts always make us coaches feel more than happy and delighted. Yet again, i'm being put under ShaoQi and Samantha..haha..i put them under me, hey this time i'm not being biased. I give whoever is their favourite students to the respective coach..I guess everyone is happy except for jonnyboy..HAHA!! Jon, i already help u, just now don don't dive u the chance..just slap him if u want. I had lotsa fun with these two girls and they said they like the gift i gave them..so touched..thanks Jon for that too!! Hehe..When going for dinner, realise that i actually had alot to do than expected for my project..when i actually reach home, i;ve no mood to do..haha..someone i felt amiss...maybe i worried about my favourite students too much..haha..Samantha keep on sms-ing me and calling me, adding to my worries..haha..luckily just now, i revise with her last min..she's just so funny and nice..

I've taught quite a few students in ACES before and i hope whoever is taking the oral exams to give their very best. Goodluck to all of you..Especially those i put extra effort in..HAHA..

Today went gym alone initially, wah shiok..did alot of workout..til i feel so exhausted..Went home and called that poor poor Samantha..Though ShaoQi can't call me, let's give her moral support instead..Alot of people keep on asking me abt my previous blog..well, she still remain as pathetic as ever and making puke each time her name is mentioned..She simply sucks..

Tml i will be going Chalat..hooray..hope i wun get irritated by stupid things and just play play play and play..

I realise something today..actually i sensed it a few weeks ago..but i really really confirmed..What Gavian told me before, i can really believe. She's not the one i used to have a good impression of..She starting to judge people..She always say that i'm not treating her well or good enough, it's not that i'm not..but she give me the impression that she choose whoever she wanna hang alongs with and communicate.She always like to assume stuff..i hate it alot..always assuming things, i know she lied to me sometimes, i always pretend i dunno.. Come on, i'm seriously not a toy to be played me - when u are in good mood, u play with me, when u are not, u throw me to one side. U used to be a girl that i like, to the extent of great liking..but not anymore..all because of what u did..well, indirectly..i may be wrong perceiving things like that but anyway, i can assure myself that u are really not the wonderful girl i always thought u were. I live for myself with support from my great friends, why's the big deal without you. I regret what i did around a month ago..Simply regretted!! But also because of that, i knew what kinda person u are..u simply sucks!!

Saturday Saturday Saturday..how i miss last Saturday..It's one of my most memorable Saturday..Started the day waking up early yet again, but come again, it's ok..for i know i am going to have a fun day that very day..Went to Holiday Inn Atrium and help to set up all those stuff then just waiting for that very moment..Samantha reaches 1st and naturally, come to me..(Cos i'm her 'bro') haha! Don and Jon, Don't be jealous..As usual, Shao Qi confirm overslept...so Poor Samantha has to wait til Shao Qi comes...Then we had our fun..Samantha is bad, don't wanna let me take photo of her..The whole event went well until the parent session..aww..the whole event was dragged til late..nevertheless, i'm still happy..i'll be able to see them again..great..let's wait for that very day...looking forward..

Sunday came and i get to know w few cool students..Hehe. i'm finding fun in this job more and more and starting to love it more..if only i don't have to study..if not, i'll be able to work more often..sob sob...This year i'm gonna miss ENPEC, so sad..i had always wanted to join, since last year but never got the chance to..i guess some of the students might be disappointed too, cos they do miss me just the way i do..sob..

Yesterday was National Day..Boohoo...Singapore's turning 40..Singapore still needs lotsa support to call itself a good good good nation..Well, let's drop this boring topic..Went out with my buddies and also with Pan, Ann etc...went to watch wedding crashers..A very funny show, never more funny with Gavian laughing high pitch to my ears and Jonathan shouting "ohhhhh ssshhhiiitttt" to my left ear..haa..the show is NC16 and certainly it is, had some rather crude scenes, however, i feel that there's some scene being cut away...boo boo..

After that, went to get some gifts and presents for some really good and nice people in my life..hehe..Then it's down to neoprint..ooh..will find time to scan those neoprints so check out my blog soon..Dinner was late and at esplande..Cool and Hot it was...Cool because of the fireworks and Hot because of the environment..haa..Don would sweat like pig if he's there..Then we went to hear Ann sing..nice voices she had...envy envy envy..omg..i'll just stick to play my guitar..And maybe Jon's DRUM!! Hahah..woohoo, gonna collect his drum later..shiok..

Natural Objection coming up!!

Today was a very good day to me..First of all, everything in the event went on quite well..In fact very well, alot better than yesterday. Everything is more organised. Thanks to Great, Wonderful Jon..He let me coach his favourite student - YunRu...oops...let don't seems to be the appropiate word..Anyway, the students today really made my day. All were well-behaved and the best of all, had a very good chat with my group members. Although Matthew may seems to be abit quiet, i find him cool...Most of the time, i would be chatting with Yun Ru...find her quite a serious and hardworking girl, at the same time, innocent and great girl. Well, added her into my cart of favourite students..Haa...Today Mildred was with us coaching..hopefully it's a good experience for her..And oh ya, sorry Don!! I didn't mean to press your ears so hard, i din notice the ear sticks on your left ear...Please forgive me..haa...worse to worse, i let u pinch mine next time..Hee...

Pheobe and Lina was forever laughing whereas Jeanette and Yun Ruin keep on gossiping and doing wierd and funny stuffs...anyway, other than all that, all was fun and well. After that, we went to had dinner, wasn't really spectacular..quite ok bah..I'm looking forward to 13th cos two of my favourites students will be there..Hehe..Yawn Yawn, totally shagged out now..signing off.....

I Failed my Driving test..Aww...i'm feeling very demoralised...I actually got 34 points?!?!!! Omg...i really let myself and my parents down..the worse thing is that my next test comes only in November..i was like What The HELL!! Haiz..i'm really feeling damn down...furthermore, i didn't manage to finish project on time but nevertheless, i still handed in..suddenly, a big boulder of rock seems to be unloaded off my shoulder..or rather, brain..haiz...

Today was a good day..I worked for ACES at Holiday Inn Atrium today..hehe..was quite fun..get to see Samantha today but that stupid Jonathan keep on disagreeing with me..don't let me coach Samantha..Wah lau..yet he himself still wanna coach YunRu..No Way man!!!!!!! I'm going to make sure he don't get his way..That's soooo soooo sooo unfair...he can coach his favourite Student yet i can't?!?! Dammit..I don't care, the next time Samantha and ShaoQi turns up for any events, i shall be their coach..Makes quite a few friends tday too...but there's still few boys who are misbehaving too..hopefully tomorrow will be better...argh...whatever...let's not mention it..

The dinner today was terrific..not the best of food but nevertheless sastifying..But oops..i drank cold water today so felt a little bit unwell towards the end of the days...Look forward to next week...Woooooooooooooooo....

I'm going nuts...i'm rushing project like mad...very afraid that i can't finish it on time..1st time in my life in poly to feel like that...omg...my friends are all doing so fine...shit man..what am i supposed to do...I'm not used to my pc now..Everything is gone...my songs..my photos..my projects...sob sob...I just can't wait for this friday to end..

Sis, whatever the case, i'm always there and cheer up...

Today was a bad bad bad sad sad sad day...My computer suddenly broke down..leaving me feeling desperate and helpless..To me, my computer is my life..i simply can't live without it just like how humans cannot live without food and water..ARGH!! Everything in my computer is gone..Gone For GOOD!!!!!!! I'm feeling so stressed up, my photos, songs, videos, projects etc etc etc are all gone..I feel like dying man..haiz..Mood has been low..

Went to school today feeling down, saw my friend's projects, all done quite alot already, i'm still lagging behind like a worm..omg!! I must buck up!!!! This friday have to hand in...Please wish me goodluck people..Haiz....

Suddenly, i feel like i hasn't been a good son to my mum and dad...and not a good brother to my younger bro..i don't know why i feel that way...sob...i must show more care and love for them...just wanna let them know..i really love them very much..

Laziness has prevented me from blogging yesterday..Yesterday my bro and i went to celebrate my mum birthday in advance. Knowing my mum loves japanese food, i search all over Singapore for nice Teppenyaki Restaurants and manage to find one in IMM. It' s called Hoshio Restaurant. We went there for the dinner and it turn out to be a disappointment. Yucks..the food is tasteless and not so nice but however, my mum enjoyed it not because of the food but because her two precious sons celebrated it for her..Hehe..May she have all her wishes come true!

Today woke up early to settle some stuff..rushed home den played my computer for a while before lying back on the bed. I was deadbeat! After that, went reluctantly to Ps to catch movie with my good old buddies. Why reluctant, because i wasn't really interested in the movie after watching the preview and i was exhausted. But i never regretted it, The show was very very nice. It's called 'Stealth". I'll give it 9.5/10. It was quite touching and with a good storyline and simply superb. After that, it's down to whacking balls. Today was especially fun, because we had two table and loser will wait for either table to finish a game and challenge the winner of that table. Gavian was kinda out of luck cos he keeps on losing...that Don is forever winning, he dun seems accurate but his shots always went it..frustrating playing with them but nevertheless, it'll improves my Pool skills..

Went for supper then back home...now relaxing in my cosy, air-conditioned room...hm....feeling tired now..Yawn Yawn

Today was totally tired man.Dun feel like going out..promised Aisyah to help her reformat her pc..in the end, i dragged til around 12 plus then i leave my house. My bed was always there for me to laze around..hehex..After that, it's down to Aisyah's hse. Tried reformatting her pc and in the end dragged until 5pm. Because of some technical stuff..have to drag til 5pm. Jon said we are still going to Gym..i was feeling sooo sooo soo lazy but nevertheless, i still went. All because i wanna gain weight, keep fit and maybe have a body that's not so skinny. I'm not a bamboo stick afterall.

So went gym, Jon's late but i joined my bro 1st. Learn quite some stuff from Jon again today. That's why i say, going gym with jon is always good. In no time, i will be able to fulfill what i want with the grat help from Jon. After that, went for a sastifying dinner..Carbo and Protein intake is greatly appreciated by me. Then proceed to Jon's hse to reformat his pc with the intention of staying overnight. (Don't misunderstand wor) Luckily manage to reformat after several attempts..til now, still not done yet..haa..guess we gonna sleep at 4/5am...yawn yawn..

Just read Don's blog, was quite touched and seriously i din regret having him as friend..It's kinda funny how we got as good friends..I already treated him into part of my life, along with Xero 4 members..I'll also write a tribute to my friends..but before them, i'll write to my mum..cos her birthday is coming. Gonna celebrate her birthday in advance today..hope she'll like the arrangments i made..guys, check back on 6/7/2005 for the tribute i made to my mum..!

Today, someone told me how she's being wronged. I under stand how she feels..it just puzzled me that why can't people put themselves in other people shoes and try and understand from the other point of view instead of just directly condemnming the person straight away. It's very unfair to them..Such people are to known as selfish, pathetic and petty. It's not the accusal that hurts people but it's the scar that's left..It don't just stay there for hours, it can stay there for days, weeks and even months. Bless these victims and Curse those selfish people!

Woke up today with a damn lousy mood..heavy heart filled with troubles...ARGH!!! Went online then started slacking..

Anyway, my mood turns better because i knew there's always someone i can turn to..my sis!! hehe..and lastly, there's these 4 person...they are just great..i feel happier now..

i live for myself.......

One word to summarise the whole day outing - BAD! That's why i'm using this colour in this post. Firstly, i guess i caused some misunderstanding between my side and the great gals(pan, ann etc). Secondly, had a real bad headache and in the end, giving one dark dull face to my buddies (Sorry Don, Jon, Gav and all...if i've offended u guys)..Guess lastly, i spent too much today, way way too much, have been over spending alot recently and i am really at my wits end..shit shit shit..Whatever the case, today sux big time! Apologies to all for those unnecessary misunderstanding and offences..

I'm really touched by pan and all for trying to meet up, yet we keep failing and disappointing them..time just don't match and i appreciate for what's they have..thanks thanks thanks..u people are just so great and i would certainly like to hear ann sing..there will be a chance and i do have a song for u to sing..would u mind?

Watched the movie - The Island..Was rather a nice movie but not that spectacular..maybe because i feel like dozing off during the movie, feeling damn uneasy because of the headache and also of some unhappy events..Well, people do say tomorrow will also be better, let's just hope so..

Wet Dreams 2

Today was great..Woke up only to found out my precious mummy bought me rice..hehe..so glad..So went online and ate the rice...School's starting at 1pm so as usual, i'll be taking my own sweet time..Reached sch feeling extra good today..Didn't know why.just feel great..Time pass fast in school and before i realised, it's 5pm!! Look forward to meeting My buddies..

Upon reaching, i walked and waited for the gang to come, late as usual..Haha..Then we proceed on the watch the long-awaited movie - Wet Dreams 2..Although i missed the 1st part, i still look forward to this..thinking that this would be a rather funny comedy even though it's in korean. It didn't turn out to be a disappointment..in fact i give it almost full marks, just because the ending wasn't that nice..But on the whole, it's a very funny movie..Jon and Gav are always laughing the loudest with me and Don stuck in the middle, hearing them laugh louder than the Surround Sound! For those who has no intention of watching, let me tell u abit about this movie.

This movie is about 3 girls, all curious about how man can get aroused. There's this girl who met her man of destiny in her dreams and eventually found out that it's her teacher. She tried ways to make him fall in love with her, even to the extent of sleeping with him. But she had this rival who has a great figure as compared to her.Because of this, she always get bullied and call a girl and not a woman. She feel inferior and try ways to find out how does it feels like to be a woman. She tried cucumber with condom on it but only to be eaten by his dad without knowing anything, eventually she had her 1st period and she was so happy about it. But by then, guess she realise something and goes for another guy.

I think i missed out a few parts, anyway, it's a nice movie, faster go watched it before it disappear from the box office..I'm waiting to attack this guy in Gangsterhood..oh ya, by the way gangsterhood is a game that quite fun..those interested please register on this website --> http://www.gangsterhood.net <-- Have fun!! Looking forward to tml..

Finally, Lecturer accepted the form and the plans of my buildings. Finally can proceed on with my projects. Took me days , in fact, weeks to get this done. I'm quite excited on how my building is going to look like..hehe..can't wait. .

Yesterday, my day ended badly. Just because of what Jonathan said. Sometimes, u just have to believe there's actually people who are damn irritating and Childish. SHITHEAD! Argh...stupid..Sis is feelin bad this few days, everyone seems to be in this kinda stucked up mood. What's actually happening..Just let hope she'll be ok, whatever happens, i'm here..always...24 hours available..(I'm 7-Eleven)..In fact that applies to those who knows me, or rather, those whom i regard as friends.

Today my driving revision wasn't quite ok..I thought that it would be bad the moment i saw that instructor..This instructor is really having PMS at times..But today, he taught me alot of things..Initially during the revision, i wasn't used to the whole machine called 'Car'..Everything is like so not smooth and inaccurate..But lucky, he's patient enough today to correct me. I've learnt quite alot today and hopefully i can pass my test when that DAY comes. After driving lesson, i and Jon went gym. He's my instructor (haha, he's always my gym instructor if he's around). Did quite lof, realise my fitness isn't as good as before, most probably it's due to the recent period of time whereby i fall sick..But luckily, i'm recovering well..still not fully recovered yet but i'll try not to consume too much cold stuff and oily food..

Out of the sudden, i really wanted to see those kids again...can I?

Yesterday was very cool..Made alot of new friends most importantly..haha..Started off by meeting mildred at CCK..This girl is always rushing one as she's always late..i'm used to it, so it;s ok..haha..den we rushed to meet Don and gang. Somehow, the journey was longer than usual but has never been more pleasant with mildred. There's jam on the expressway and it took longer than usual. After that, we rushed to meet them and proceed to the Parksuites. Parksuites is a service apartment whereby the 2 storey apartment is being rented to people i suppose. It's located in the heart of orchard. Cool indeed, with quite a few nice amenities. When all was present, we went to Alvin's apartment and so the meeting started. After the meeting, it's down to introducing ourselves..Everyone present in that room seems cool and friendly, that's when i felt that there's no need to be so 'anti-social' after all. So we went introducing ourselves with Uncle Ben always there to Lighten the atmosphere well.

After introducing, got to know better and proceed to dinner. Dinner was scrappy but nevertheless, good. We found a potential vocalist for our band much thanks to me and gavian calling out for a vocalist during our introduction because we knew someone out in theat four walls, surely there's someone we need..my instincts told me that..Well, i'll contact her soon..

After all that, it was down to clubbing time. Lawrence manage to get quite a few invites for us people because it was Trance Republic yesterday night. Somehow, my cousin can't make it because he brought one underage chap and so he decided to not leave his friend alone and went out with him. I promised to bring him again next time, well, this time only him i guess..And so, we went in and look for those people. I know this guy called Ben. He's good at his magic tricks and i did learn from him, and i find him very cool. Quite fun to see what's he's working as and find it cool. Monica and Lala wanted to go CB (ChinaBlack) and asked us to tag alone. Well, i have this thing in mind - I would never go there unless it's someone (Female) who i'm quite close to or comfortable with asked me to. If not, let's just forget about that darn place. That Jon is like so pyschotic, wanting to go with them. Parly because of the music is trance. Haha, still he stayed along with don and we did have a few fun events. I must say Don is building up more courage in him already and we actually danced with four JC girls but in the end all elft after a while. After that, we went to and fro Zouk and Phuture. I and Jon went to Phuture at a certain time and manage to dance with this group of girls. I can see very much, jon is enjoying very very well. Why? Ask him yourself if u know him..After that shortly, everyone show signs of tiredness..especially jesse. So Jonathan, Jesse and I went to the petrol station and grab a bite and waited for everyone to come out before we went for supper.

Supper was great, the chicken rice was power and sastifying. Then we went back to Parksuites. I and Don bathed and wanted to sleep already, That stupid Lawrence say he wanted us to go down and talk to Jesse when he is the pro. Still we went down but came back for a while, Don't know he asked us down for what..He's good enough to talk to Jesse. Morning came and by the time we (me and don) woke up, it's afternoon already..We went to changed and chatted for a while before leaving. Lawrence is obviously super high and started crapping all the way until he left. Me, Don and Gav went to walk Far East for a while den left for Home. Feeling tired today, slept quite alot..Well, School's tml...looking forward to Wednesday!

Woke up later than usual and expected..Turn in yesterday only at 5am..Went to watch movie yesterday - Fantastic Four. After that supper...The movie was quite nice..but not as good as i expected. There weren't much actions as expected..The seats we sat seems like there's no air-conditioning..We were feeling so warm the moment our butt touch the seat. Nevertheless, we calm and settle ourselves down and enjoyed the movie..After the movie, the 3 DUHsits stated to give names..I'm the invisible woman, Jonathan the thing, Donovan the fire idiot and Gavian the elastic Ass...Haha..Stupid idea...Supper was nice but never filling and sastifying..We ordered BBQ Sting-ray, BBQ chicken wings and carrot cake..hmmm...yummy!

Tonight is the time i'm going to enjoy myself again..woohoo

Today was kool....totally kool...haha..Skipped gym cos feeling abit uncomfortable..Then i surfed the net for a while before meeting Don..How nice of him to help me buy lunch right? Haa...but it's carrot cake, anyway, i appreciate that..So we were on our way to our 1st rockin' session at Gavian house.....

Started of by tuning our guitars, adjusting whatever is necessary..So, we started to get things going. Started off with a rather powerful song, it's called "For Whom The Bell Tolls" by Metallica..We played, and stop and played and stop, moving to and fro the room to the living room. We had to listen to the song so that we can get the song to be played as accurate as possible..Struggled abit and then, the flow start to get more smooth..After that was "Holiday" by Greenday..This song was much more smoother although there's still pauses in between because of the inaccuracy and the wrong timing and co-ordination among ourselves..Nevertheless, we managed to settle the problem, i would say this song is quite successful. Lastly, it's "Californication" by Red Hot Chilli Peppers..We tried ways to make sure it will sound nice and accurate, Gavian had some problems with the intro but after a while, he managed to played it,maybe with a little bit of flaws that doesn't really matters..Actualy, there's this last song, but we intend to do away with it, cos it's somehow too confused..I'm really looking forward to the next rockin' session..Can't wait...oops! Gonna choose my song now..Bye bye!

Today was kinda sux..Suddenly, i'm not used to the "free" weekends..cos usually, my weekend will be filled with activties..recent weekends seem so serene..calm...quiet..boring! Nam, i shall plans some activities by myself in the next few weekends.

Yesterday outing was great..Rushed to PS to buy tickets for the movie "War of the Worlds"..After that, went home..took bus with don..As usual, we will always be crapping and talking nonsense. Went home feeling hungry, then i saw Shao Qi online, so chatted with her..haa..After that, realised time is very late, faster took a quick bath and den pack my guitar and amp. Ate some dishes and den rushed to meet gavian and Don. In the end, i'm the one waiting..someone still claims he can be on time..(AS IF, U STILL OWE ME A MEAL)..Gavian came and den we proceed to his house..played for a while den realised we are late.Faster took a bus and rush to PS..Watched War the Worlds..Sitting beside Gavian is forever =_=""...He will be laughing and laughing..like some idiot or depressionist.

That show to me is very very nice. I'll give it a rating of 8/10..Go watch it if you are into Sci-fi Movies...

Today was a bad bad day..well, bad since yesterday night. Thought that two puffs of inhaler might helps..yes, it did, for a day or so only..i started coughing again last night, i've stopped drinking cold water but i am wondering if it's my exercise that is making me feel terrible again. Cos i know that Asthmatic people can't exercise, for at least for the time being..Stressed..Yesterday i also saw SuRaYa..It's been a long time since i last saw her..she's no ordinary malay girl..one that has a strong character and when i met her yesterday, those nice memories came back...so happy and nice...i had always wanted to meet her since she last migrate to malaysia but din had the chance..hopefully, we could meet up again..2 months later bah..aye Suraya!

Woke up in the morning, naturally feeling uncomfortable. Took one puff of inhaler again. Feeling much better now. Wanted to go for driving lesson, i change, baths and wash up..ready to go and just when i wanted to offline and get ready to go off, i went to the BBDC webbie and check..AND GOSH!! i realise i book the wrong time..it's 3:45pm instead of the expected 9:50am..Shit man..how can i book the wrong timing..Anyway, i cancelled it..wasted my time to sleep....Yesterday gym was shiok, did quite alot, feel aches here and there already...

Anyway people, i have an mp3 player for sale..Used one of cos..It's Muvo TX Fm128mb. It's silver in colour. Sell-out price is 60 bucks. Interested buyers please contact me.

Don't force me to do thing i don't like, once i say no, means no...No point forcing, u'll only make me feel angry

Finally change a new blog skin...did a new one for shao qi also..u can see her blog through my friends..hehe..
Today was free!! Stay at home throughout except for the trip to Bukit Panjang Plaza..My dad wanted to bought a new DVD Set HiFi. It was quite cool but ain'nt the best...i'm not really fascinated by it..

Today, played game the whole day also..Had difficult breathing again..but i ignored it..I was thinking of what's to comes in the next few days..Chatted with quite a few students..especially Shao Qi..Don too...hehe

Hope u guys reading this can tag my taggie..Good days ahead pple!

Today Jamming was a total letdown..how could anything happen....wah...i can't take it..This might be the last time i am going to jam with them..That's it man..

Went Gym today with a rotten mood...saw Lawrence there...so coincidental..haa..den went to exercise..haha..mood started to brighten up...think i gonna change my blog skin soon...stay tune

I decided - i blog for myself...not for others..in this way, i'll feel happier..just as the same meaning - I live for myself, not the others

Well, surprised at my COMEBACK? haha...suddenly, i felt as if i got alot to talk...things that i can't talk to a person just like that...can't describe my feelings, emotions and thoughts through my mouth..so i decided to pen it down...

Well, let's forget abt the past...it's over...I REPEAT --> IT'S OVER!! Assurance from someone has actually gave my the urge to do what i though actually has no purpose in doing..Past few weeks has its ups and downs..Spend my weekend with Don, Jon and Gav. It has never been better, this grp of friends is always why i look forward to weekend..Sch is as boring as eva but my bunch of clsmates nv failed to accomodate me with our nonsense..But recently, i feel so left out..I'm in this project grp, all are malays, and they will be speaking malay, and i was thinking why would i be an idiot and tolerate such stupid acts..I decided to do what i shld do and refrain from them, what the heck with them, they are nothing!!

Finally submission over last friday. I have been working for all the weekend this month. Coaching those kids has never been as wonderful. Today was the best becos i get to coach my favourite participants, thanks to DON and Jon kindness to let me coach them. Just feel that special thing going on...oh well, they would say i like to flirt with xiao mei mei, but it's not onli samatha and shaoqi that i like to coach..haa..There's always Xing Yi and Xue Hng..My health is full of up and down..dunno what to do with it also..I guess i'm gonna use the pay i earn and save it up..Maybe pamper myself abit..Time for me to think of my prospect seriously...Pondering time!!

Well, life's good...i seldom blog even though i online everyday...i'm finding no purpose in blogging...it only cause disappointment in me...these few days has been great for me..Bought new shoes, bag and even got married - To my wife..haha..i'm so happy that i finally got one...Project's in sch is kinda ok...going well and very slack too..I'm now hoping i can faster finish my driving...

Haiz...i got nth to blog....no motivation to blog...no mood...wun blog again i guess...sux!

Finally, sch starts...Was kinda expecting it. School life is just so relax and carefree..Haha..Knowing 'Squirtle' would be my lecturer..This year is quite a good year i guess, my lecturers are good..Glad to see some of my classmates again..Today was kinda slack, miss school food also...hmm....din know sch can be so fun....oops...did i say fun? DUH!

Past few days was great. Finally finish my attachment..Don came to overnight at my house on Friday. That's the 1st time i ate soooo full, or i should say one of the few times bah. Den he watched his anime and i played my own game. That night, we din manage to 'Open Ceremony'..becos we are feeling kinda tired and full, anyway, i wasn't feeling well..Saturday, went to sell my guitar for a damn stupid price. Feeling kinda bad and regretful but well, dun talk abt it..I'm gonna buy a new guitar man!!

On sunday i and Don went gym, afterwards, we went to buy shoes. He found his shoes which i feel that it's really quite nice..I bought my converse high cut shoes.. Like it alot..I also bought a Billabong bag..It's been so long since i spend so much money, Shopping can be SOOO fun!! haha...Die man, spend too much already..Oh ya, i also bought Speakers from the creative fair on Sat. Finally, i can enjoy the sounds from both left and right speakers..haha..which i previously being deprived of.

Tml will be going to site, well, look forward to it..and also to this SAT!! Come fast!!

Today finally was my last day of my Attachment. I'm so happy man. Haha, finally i'm free. Yesterday was quite a good day for me, 1st time i strike TOTO. Din wanna buy it initially but my collegue ask me to try my luck..so i put 1 dollar and in the end, i strike 4 numbers including the additional number. Although the winning was not much, it was still better than nothing. !st time leh...haha...feeling so lucky.

Today went to the construction site instead of going to the UBI office because i just dun like going to the office, so i purposely go the construction site 1st. I read newspaper, sleep den rot at the construction site until around 3pm den i proceed to the office. It was only 3pm and the mrt was so crowded. There's this bunch of sticky and sweaty aunties rushing into the cabin, as if they nv took mrt before, rubbing their sticky and swaety body against me. YUCKS!!! I feel so IRRITATED and DISGUSTED!!!! Neverttheless, i tahan. All the way until i reach the office. Glad to find that forever hateful auntie gone, she took half day leave.. Heng..Lady boss signed my log book, bombarded me with a few qns and luckily i managed to answered them Got my pay check today, but it's seems that the amount was wrong, but i can't do anything...so be it..I got lotsa things i wanna buy now..haiz...money always seems to be the problem ahead of me. Well, anyway, all seems to end well.Don is now at my hse, watching anime. I guess it's really time for my to relax and enjoy the few days before i started sch. KelDon bless u!

Today was quite a great day..haha...1st day of work in the week....Got MC yesterday and went out with my friend - kelvin..Yesterday morning i went to market with my mum...it's been a long time since i last went to the market with my mum, all those memories...hmm...quite nice...who says marketing can't be fun...haha..den went around the market with my mum, had breakfast...haven had such a good morning for quite a long time..After that i went to meet kelvin and watch Initial D Stage 3, although it's in jap, i'm still able to understand...it's sooo nice man, i just can't wait for the movie to come out. After that, i went back home and get ready to go out with Kelvin. We went to the coffeeshop and saw one idiot (well, let's not mention). Afterwards, we went to his workplace and den proceed on to look for my bag in bugis. Finally, found a bag that i like very much, but it's kinda ex...den went sim lim to look for speakers..found out there's alot of things i wanna buy, but broke..Waiting for my next pay..

Today work was slack, basically i was doing nothing the whole day...just counting down to 5pm..haha..although Daniel wasn't around, i manage to keep myself occupied by doing small stuff and stupid stuff..haha..Later there's gonna be a long awaited match - AC Milan VS Liverpool...I supported both clubs but i betted on liverpool to win..haha..I just can't wait man...2:30am...start counting down.....

Way to go....

Yesterday was one of my worst clubbing experience..well, i can say it's a disappointing night..Day started off badly, because of my cough..luckily, the rain saved me...dun need to go gym..if not i'll be dying..Recently, alot of games have been installed in my pc, haha, i won't be so bored again..Nights falls and i went to meet Donovan and Jon..We went to eat den we went to ChinaBlack to buy our tickets and get our chop..Den i and jon and Kelvin(other friend of mine with the same name as me) went to watch soccer..The match was nice man!! but turn out to be a disappointing one..Man utd has 101 reasons to win!! But just because of that stupid penalty Shoot-out..Haiz!! Den the night was made more disappointing when we have to queue more than an hour just to get back into Chinablack..OMG!! FRustrating night! When it's finally our turn to go in, i was filled with excitement only for it to turn into disappointment yet again. The musix inside there sux...Guys that behaved like wolves are all around me..i was all "dead"

After clubbing at 4am, we went to macdonald to chill outall the way until 6am den we went to temple. I pray for my health and my family, hopefully things will turn out better..Feeling shagged, went back home den shower, online for a while den sleep..Halfway through, i felt terrible again..coughing and having difficulty breathing...I went to see doctor desperately den went home and eat the medicine..den here i am typing..not feeling tired..Well, i'll sleep later, once i update my game..hehe

Trust me---CHINABLACK SUX!

Cough Cough Cough...haiz! yet again...i'm coughing again...i was thinking of going to see doctor but afraid that i cannot be on medication regularly cos i have to go work...when should i really go see doctor? Alot of people ask me to go see doctor as soon as possible, don't u pple think i want? But what if i really seen and i have to go work or sch, the medicine makes me drowsy...real real drowsy..! Well, come sunday and i'll see...

Today is the last day i see Daniel, kinda saddening..Our last day together din started off well and end boring-ly also...i kinda feel abit emotional..He's been a great great guy..and i admire him alot..well, there'll be a day when we parted..at least i know, i made another good friend..

My day sux big time today...have lotsa troubles that has becomes secrets for me...I'm not the past who can pour out my sorrows...It's difficult to find someones who listens...maybe there is but i dunno what to say or how to put it...so let's get this tide over as soon as possible..

Today was kinda tiring...Morning started off badly, my cough is back...and much more worse the previous days..Was coughing all the way until afternoon..My ear also hurts becos of the infection..abit swollen...Daniel turn up late today, i tot he din come for work, and i was thinking - If he din come for work, what should i do..I am totally lost man..if he din turn up, i really dunno what to do, cos he's the only person i can talk to during work and get along well enough i suppose..Luckily, the foreman today work half day, i was so happy...haha...world to myself...

I went shopping for a while with Daniel after lunch, bought Teens magazine becos got TWINS!!! haha...omg!! they are so cute, my heart's melting..can u hear the sizzling sound? haha...den the whole afternoob was slacking around...when i found out Daniel have to go on course next week, i turn very disappointed, suddenly my heart become too heavy...i felt abit sad...what's gonna happen to me if he's not around at work next week...just me and that foreman...i can't imagine what will happen..he consoled me, i consoled myself and my mum consoled me when i reach home...well, left a few more days...i'll try and tahan

My sch timetable for the next years sucks! Everyday have to go sch...some course dun need to go sch everyday..Furthermore, i have to go sch early morning everyday...wah...sian...how am i going to survive...PRay for the better man! When i told sis my situation today, she was so concerned...i was kinda touched...thanks for the concern sis...rest assured everything's gonna be ok

I shall be strong

Went gym yesterday..this time i did quite heavily..and i know my dream is coming..haha..I'm starting to gain weight ( despite still having cough )..I can see some muscles within my body..haha..that's good..den after that, went to eat the long-awaited lunch with don - Kway Chap! YUMMY! Den i rushed home and change, met kelvin and his bro, den we went to watch movie..Guess who i saw, my secondary sch classmate...a female..sooooooo long nv seen her already, it's been a long time..well, those were the days........ sob sob

After that on my way home, mildred called me...den we chatted for a while...so happy...that girl ah, like forget me like that, sooo long nv contact already...sms her she also nv reply..haha..den she called me again later den we chatted for a while...life's good for her, and i suppose for some of my other former classmates..

Today i went to work as usual, still with a heavy mood, feeling tired..but i saw something which reminds me of a sad incident ( well, i'm not going to mention it...yet again). Work was no good ever possible if not for Daniel. My best pal in the construction site, if not for him, i would still be in Dying state! Den i went back home without meeting don. I'm worried for my mum...pls! Dun worry and be happy. I dun wan u to be sad..u are my dearest kin and i will do my best possible to keep u happy. Stay healthy Mum!

u are always with me...and so am i to u

Work has been very slack these few days...i just love being at the construction site...so kool and slack..The people there are so nice to talk to, and i feel like a boss down there, cos i am wearing a white helmet ( Those workers wears yellow helmet..Some even call me Lao Da..They though i'm some supervisor or what..haha..i really hope i won't get posted back to that UBI office..ONLY 2 MORE WEEKS!! 2 MORE WEEKS!!!!!! can't wait for this stupid attachment to end. The next few weekends is going to be so fulfilling..i just can't wait

Went to PS ( Plaza Singapura) today, actually wanted to watch movie (The Amityville Horror), but cannot get the tickets..FULL House sia..Ps is always like that de, must book ard 2 hours in advance den can get..So wanted to go to parklane and play pool, in the end the rain was quite heavy, spoil everything, instead we took MRT and den went to lucky plaza and play pool..Den played a few games, today not in the mood to play...very sian, den we went to eat Mac..That gavian was laughing from the point he met us until we boarded the bus His "Depression" is gettin from bad to worse..He really needed a SEX CHANGE! Today i watch the Initial D anime again, wah!! it's soooo nice man...i really recommend it to anyone who watch anime..If u wanna watch, inform me..

Well, i'm still waiting

yea!! Finally intend to use a more appropiate blog skin...the previous one was kinda sucky...Today work was very sian...assignments handled out to me can be done within one day....but i purposely drag til today...for fear that i might go back to the office..anyway, something happened today - My boss bro pass away...i do wonder how vunerable life is. Today everyone went back to the funeral, well, not for me...i dun even know him..anyway, my plan is to drag as long as possible, hopefully can stay at the construction site for as long as i want and can..

Cough have been acting recently again...so sian...this time i really wonder what happen...shld i see a doctor? i'm afraid that it might not be much help yet again..haiz...

Haha..ive got good news....my boss finally allow me to stay in the construction site and work..which means, lesser travel time to work, earlier dismiss time, can go workout already..woohoo!! But i dunno when this will last..hopefully as long as i want to..Basically, yesterday was quite orite, slack like hell..Just stay in the office and do colouring..FINALLY, 5pm came...haha...i rush out of the site and den proceed to LOT1. Went to play arcade and was kinda boring so i went to do some shopping, bough soya bean milk and some tibits, yaya, i know, i'm still sick but but but..eat or dun eat, i'll still be sick. Not much diff

Expect a boring weekend for me, wanted to join Don and Jon for movie actually, but i'm really broke so...no choice, have to refrain..Now i'm also boring, actually wanted to bring my mum out, but she dun wan..this year mother's day, she dun wan anything from me...what should i do?!?!?!? Haiz...now i'm just waiting for the night to falls, den have fun with donnie! Be there soon!

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Eh....it's been like 5 days since i last posted? sorry to those who have been to my blog regularly and only to get disappointed not to see any updated post...i kinda feel moody this few days...due to my attachment...well, now i really know why those poly seniors always say attachment sux..Among the whole poly life, the worse thing is the attachment...freedom dashed, pricinples unruled, pride lost and dignity missing...what the heck...i have to tolerate with a bunch of aunties!!

Luckily, i am being posted to the construction site today, a place where i can learn more and most..the people there are good to me, well, except for one or two..Today is my sis birthday, bought her white lillies a few days ago, hope she like it and pass her the birthday present today...sorry sis, i couldn't find eeyore..so got the family instead, anyway, hope u really like it...Happy birthday!

Well, i'm just looking forward to this weekend..pls come fast!

dun run away

So sian......yea...yet again...work was so sian...i wonder how long i can tahan in that office..those aunties are so unreasonable and so lazy...ask me do this do that. On my last day of attachment, i am going to give them some colour man!!

Yesterday i was supposed to go out with don at night, but end up staying at home..I was very hungry by the time i got home..so i eat one big bowl of noodles, everything becomes delicious when i'm hungry..Den i went to watch tv...as i watched, i have difficulty breathing le, so went to sleep early...

Woke up only to find my sms-es..haha...sorry sis, din reply u..in the morning today i went gym, surpirsed to find sis there also..haha..Din do much in gym today, becos wasn't really in the mood to do..den after that we went to makan lunch and then went to Suntec den to Plaza Singapura to walk walk...After that rush to my relative house...kinda boring...argh...sian

when will it end???

I din expect today to be such a disappointing day...i expect today to be like tml, but haiz...Yesterday was so good, i work and slack like hell, den went back exercise and den watch tv and eat dinner..den went to sleep cos feeling abit uncomfortable...but today sux!!! I actually got back to UBI - the place i work initially and i hated it alot!! The aunties there sux and worse of all, i'm all alone and lonely..i was very down, feeling very very down...den my friends console me...haiz...somehow i am feeling better...but tml i am in for it...one auntie down there is surely gonne gimme a hard time..ass man! I just pray this whole attachment faster finish..

Next tuesday i am going request from my lady boss that i wanna go to the site...hopefully can!!! People reading this blog...pray for me...oh ya, pray for my good health also! Recently, i got back my sickness again..haiz...sian...get well soon sis...

Today was quite ok...everytime this time of the year, i would start to crack my brain of what kinda birthday present to get for my sis...it must be nice, must be something she likes and hopefully something that can make an impression for her...haha..hopefully i can do it this year...got a rough idea of what to get le...hopefully i am able to find em'

Today work was very slack, the tiles contractor was not here and i was left with nothing to do at all...so i just slack in the office den walk walk around the construction site den slack at office again...aimlessly! haha..today i din let out a single cough all the way until just now...haiz...just when i though i am getting better le..Weather has been very hot recently, all kinda sickness start to set in...ah...pray!

Actually i don't feel like working this sunday, cos i really need a break and rest...my attachment is taking too much of my favourite time...but i need money...haiz...no choice...have to force myself...hopefully that can end fast

It's been so long since i last posted...i was just waiting for weekend..Friday was the day i'm waiting for...den i waited for 5pm to come!! Den it came! haha...finally...one week of stupid attachment ended..but hai...5 more weeks to go..but who cares...i just wanna enjoy my weekend..

I went to meet donovan and den went to my house...somehow i was feeling kinda relaxed..after all, it's always good to be someone you are comfortable with - friends!! haha..den i and donovan went to eat my favourite - Teppanyaki..Hmm, so sastifying..den we went for the chalet le..but on my way there, my cough was pestering my non-stop...so sian..all the way until sat sia...chalet was kinda boring..abit disappointed bah

Saturday came and we went to watch movie..a weird movie called - infection..i wouldn't recommend it to any nurse or doctor to watch this pathetic movie though..Today i went to gym with donovan and gavian..den we play table tennis..it's been sooo long since i played table tennis...had fun..den i went to walk around..

Tml have to work...hopefully weekend come again faster

Is Life Suppose To Be Like That? Or Better? Or Worse

My mood is starting to pick up...getting alot better...thanks to all my friends out there...who help me, console me, advice, cheer up...thanks gavian, ali and sis especially..not forgetting my cousin too..today was quite good because i went to site...but morning sux...i reached too early...end up being alone one hour...luckily...i got my sis with me...as in sms..haha..thanks sis

After that...i started 'working'..on site, i'm either walking around the site or just sit inside the air-conditioned container...everything was so relaxed...i feel alot better on site den inside that stupid boring office...summore the site is nearer to my house...yay...can sleep late..but i still have to go back office someday...sian....anyway, who cares...i live for tml what..haha...so far everything is good except for my cough...it's been weeks and i have still not recovered but the medicine my mum bought was abit effective bah i would say...

really touched by what my mum did for me...even though she's abit unwell, she still takes good care of me...console me...love my mum forever!

without you...i can't live

1st day of attachment simply sux...i actually felt very emotional all of the sudden..the office was orite but the working situation and their way of working make me very unused..Those work i did on the 1st day seem not to have any relation with my course...they simply dun teach me anything but just ask me to do those paperworks...ARGH...i'm driving nuts...one day is already hell for me...i wonder how i can pass the 6 weeks...i really pray i do not have to work on sat...if not, i will surely die!

Travel 2 hours just to reach my workplace is bad enough...but what can i do...i can only tahan...haiz....

pray.......

It seems that i seldom post my blog...i discover not much people view my blog..haha...sob sob..haha..
Days seems to be getting better...really starting to enjoy these few days...if not no chance le...cos attachment coming soon..Zouk on Wednesday night was cool...so shiok...haha...that's the time i really feel that i drink a little too much...wasn't walking properly..but i really enjoyed myself...thanks to the company of my friends and alot of pple out there...

Woke up at 3pm on Thursday...i was sooo tired man...den went for the agency meeting...den just now went to gym and play pool with jon and don..Suddenly, i feel that that's what i needed...friends and enjoyment...Today driving lessons was kinda sux...can't concentrate leh...dunno why...

I'm now in dilemna...shld i get a good electric guitar and give the pedal up? or should i get a normal electric guitar and the pedal...Stress...oh ya...pple reading this blog, i need your help to help me sell my Samick Guitar...pls do help me...for details..just message me..Wink!

so far yet ao near.........

Hey people...the song u are listening to now, i highly recommend it to u guys..it's called 'Pieces' by Sum 41. If u do not have the song, please message me in Msn Messenger den i'll send u..It's a nice nice song man..

I slept at 5am today...watched two stupid soccer matches..i just can't believe that chelsea could last so long..anyway, i doubt they would win the champions league trophy. Went to school today skipping my meidication and knowing there will be some kinda consequences and it does...haiz...When in school, i went to take back my stuff and glad to know my name were not in the boards..I'm in Year 3 Finally..WOOHOO!!

Today i will just enjoy myself..and do take care because the weather this few days is freeking scary..

It's been days since i last blog..this few days has its ups and downs..or i should say more of downs and less of ups..Finally i completed stage 3 of my driving lessons, hopefully i can get my license before school reopens. The date to attachment is drawing close..which makes me kinda sianx..but can't be helped..ARGH

Recently i spend money like water flowing...dreams of having a new guitar is fading away..Wah...must save and earn money like siao den can man..later going for another 2 driving session, hopefully everything turns out to be ok!

Where are u?

WooHoo...thing starting to get just better...i am feeling alot better already...hopefully i can recover before wednesday..can't wait for that day to come, i'm gonna to have fun! past few days was kinda shacked because i din get enuff sleep...overnight at Gavian house was fun..today went to orchard..bought a new long sleeve shirt..gonna wear it for that very wednesday! I really can't wait for that day - black shirt, black pants, sunglasses, blonde brownish hair, silver ear studs, leather shoes. I'm gonna look cool on that day man...oh ya, i saw one shoes i like today...must buy it once i got money..went to Singapore Pools, bought 4D..must strike ah! Now i am low on money..i overspent too much already..

I wanted to buy new guitar..can someone help me sell my guitar? if you are reading this...i really can't stand it already!! ARGH!!!

Mierda

Cough Cough Cough..yet again..tml i'll be seeing doctor..finally can't take it..ARGH! Today was bad enough..with tml's portfolio submission making it worse...Life's a hell...went to overnight at my friend's hse..in the end, waking up feeling so lazy and tired...so cancelled one driving lessons and went for the other one

Today's driving lesson SUX..that stupid instructor actually give me problems..i really can't hear what he is saying and he said i am not following his orders..SLAP his face! in the end, i was quite pissed of with him but i needed that chops...what to do...tahan lo..ARGH! can't wait for lessons to end faster and when the time comes, i was relieved..went home after that feeling sian...played Gunbound and intend to do my portfolio only later..
Den i went to dyed my hair..now it's something like abit brown...den portfolio was difficult, i still haven redo my submission but i don't intend to...too lazy...feel like giving up...moodless....

Pray for the better tml...

it's better to die or live terribly?

Wow...finally got to post my blog again..it's so laggy and i tried and tried..Yesterday was quite ok...after my drivin, i went to play blowing..1st time i'm learning how to spin that heavy bowling ball..haha...still not pro yet but still can hit down those pins la..quite fun...but initially, the mood will abit spoilt by this ugly idiot..i was wanting to key in the names for me and my friends den he was sitting down there, not having the intention to give up the seat..so i ask him to excuse me..in the end he stand up and stare at me while i was keying the names..he eyes was somehow gonna pop out..just feel like slapping his face..acting ah beng..pathetic..but lucky, we played some nice games..den went home to chiong GB...SUX MAN!

Today actually wanted to see doctor but didn't..cos woke up late den wehn i reach there..the waiting time was 2 hrs and 7 mins..WTH!! see one doctor have to wait that long, so i give up and went to sch and collect my stuff den went to jurong...discuss recipes..my favourite..haha..den i went for driving
Driving today was tiring man..the crank course make my left legs ache...and my leg actually went numb during the session..wah!! fierce man the lesson..but i still manage to learn how to drive through the course...it was raining while i was driving..quite shiok..haha..later got match...gonna stay up late and support LIVERPOOL!!

it's freezing..who can hug me?

Can i be counted as feeling better le? i'm still having difficulty breathing...can't wait for tuesday to come..i wanna see doctor..this morning went gym..nothing much cos i can't really do much, was coughing throughout the whole workout..so sian...after that went to eat 'kuay chap'..My Favourite!! Den i went to lot 1 to buy the Twins album..woohoo..finally got my hands on that album. But supposed to comes with a poster but that stupid XXXXXXXX owner never give me...she and her stuff was like eye lookings at eye...which makes me abit supicious..i guess they have it but dun give away..saying what, out of stock blah blah blah...bad attitude!! Den i went to buy cod liver oil..heard from Don that it might helps with my lungs...so thinking of giving it a try..even though it taste AWFUL!!

Den i and gav went to queenstown..i went to change my studs ..bought ear sticks also..chatted with gav during the way, quite alot of talk..talk about relationships, ear piercing, tattoos and so much other stuffs...*at that point of time, i was not in any pain, not panting, not coughing* how weird can my body be..sianXX

den went back home, online for a while, watch finish the vcd den went to sleep..woke up online for a while den watch that barcelona match...OMG!! i was wondering what happen to all the strong teams...all playing like shit recently..ARGH!! Life's sux...unfair....weird

Today was bad...so sianxx...sian sian sian..woke up in the afternoon, den feel so sian already...expect the day to be boring which it really turn out to be so..went online den went lot 1...went out like no motive like that...in the end...make farhan bored with me..haha..i must say he's really someone there when i really need...buddies foreverx!

went home feeling so sian...den intend to watch some horrow show..it was nicebut only watch disc one cos wanna go pei my sis online..oh ya!! Saw felicia online today...she's got a webcam..den she show off to me...in the end, she din show herself to me, instead, show her typing..haha..she say she shy..den what's the point of having the webcam...such a nice girl must show mah.haha..after that..i went to chat with samantha..today i chatted with her the longest time..haha..1st time sia.

Still coughing as usual but no asthma, that's what i am relieved about..hopefully my cough can go off soon..Man Utd sux today..play like shit..i'm so disappointed..no comments..day ended badly..started off badly too..there's will be always tml..

Yesterday night was a tortue..i could not sleep properly..lying down on bed makes me have difficulty breathing..so i have to sit upright instead..i went offline and watch Alien Vs Predator again..a nice movie that i'm not tired of..den i was abit down..feeling terrible...what was on my mind --> why am i always sick? why aren't the medicine working? how long is this gona last?
i went online and chatted with my friends..so while i am feeling better..i went to sleep..but still feeling abit difficult breathing..

This morning, i was so tired..yet feeling abit alright alrdy..went to school for that foever sucky test...and know what...i could 40/50..and i actually 'tikam' one..so heng..now waiting for another test... hope i get well soon

do u really exist?