Today Jamming was a total letdown..how could anything happen....wah...i can't take it..This might be the last time i am going to jam with them..That's it man..

Went Gym today with a rotten mood...saw Lawrence there...so coincidental..haa..den went to exercise..haha..mood started to brighten up...think i gonna change my blog skin soon...stay tune

I decided - i blog for myself...not for others..in this way, i'll feel happier..just as the same meaning - I live for myself, not the others

Well, surprised at my COMEBACK? haha...suddenly, i felt as if i got alot to talk...things that i can't talk to a person just like that...can't describe my feelings, emotions and thoughts through my mouth..so i decided to pen it down...

Well, let's forget abt the past...it's over...I REPEAT --> IT'S OVER!! Assurance from someone has actually gave my the urge to do what i though actually has no purpose in doing..Past few weeks has its ups and downs..Spend my weekend with Don, Jon and Gav. It has never been better, this grp of friends is always why i look forward to weekend..Sch is as boring as eva but my bunch of clsmates nv failed to accomodate me with our nonsense..But recently, i feel so left out..I'm in this project grp, all are malays, and they will be speaking malay, and i was thinking why would i be an idiot and tolerate such stupid acts..I decided to do what i shld do and refrain from them, what the heck with them, they are nothing!!

Finally submission over last friday. I have been working for all the weekend this month. Coaching those kids has never been as wonderful. Today was the best becos i get to coach my favourite participants, thanks to DON and Jon kindness to let me coach them. Just feel that special thing going on...oh well, they would say i like to flirt with xiao mei mei, but it's not onli samatha and shaoqi that i like to coach..haa..There's always Xing Yi and Xue Hng..My health is full of up and down..dunno what to do with it also..I guess i'm gonna use the pay i earn and save it up..Maybe pamper myself abit..Time for me to think of my prospect seriously...Pondering time!!

Well, life's good...i seldom blog even though i online everyday...i'm finding no purpose in blogging...it only cause disappointment in me...these few days has been great for me..Bought new shoes, bag and even got married - To my wife..haha..i'm so happy that i finally got one...Project's in sch is kinda ok...going well and very slack too..I'm now hoping i can faster finish my driving...

Haiz...i got nth to blog....no motivation to blog...no mood...wun blog again i guess...sux!

Finally, sch starts...Was kinda expecting it. School life is just so relax and carefree..Haha..Knowing 'Squirtle' would be my lecturer..This year is quite a good year i guess, my lecturers are good..Glad to see some of my classmates again..Today was kinda slack, miss school food also...hmm....din know sch can be so fun....oops...did i say fun? DUH!

Past few days was great. Finally finish my attachment..Don came to overnight at my house on Friday. That's the 1st time i ate soooo full, or i should say one of the few times bah. Den he watched his anime and i played my own game. That night, we din manage to 'Open Ceremony'..becos we are feeling kinda tired and full, anyway, i wasn't feeling well..Saturday, went to sell my guitar for a damn stupid price. Feeling kinda bad and regretful but well, dun talk abt it..I'm gonna buy a new guitar man!!

On sunday i and Don went gym, afterwards, we went to buy shoes. He found his shoes which i feel that it's really quite nice..I bought my converse high cut shoes.. Like it alot..I also bought a Billabong bag..It's been so long since i spend so much money, Shopping can be SOOO fun!! haha...Die man, spend too much already..Oh ya, i also bought Speakers from the creative fair on Sat. Finally, i can enjoy the sounds from both left and right speakers..haha..which i previously being deprived of.

Tml will be going to site, well, look forward to it..and also to this SAT!! Come fast!!

Today finally was my last day of my Attachment. I'm so happy man. Haha, finally i'm free. Yesterday was quite a good day for me, 1st time i strike TOTO. Din wanna buy it initially but my collegue ask me to try my luck..so i put 1 dollar and in the end, i strike 4 numbers including the additional number. Although the winning was not much, it was still better than nothing. !st time leh...haha...feeling so lucky.

Today went to the construction site instead of going to the UBI office because i just dun like going to the office, so i purposely go the construction site 1st. I read newspaper, sleep den rot at the construction site until around 3pm den i proceed to the office. It was only 3pm and the mrt was so crowded. There's this bunch of sticky and sweaty aunties rushing into the cabin, as if they nv took mrt before, rubbing their sticky and swaety body against me. YUCKS!!! I feel so IRRITATED and DISGUSTED!!!! Neverttheless, i tahan. All the way until i reach the office. Glad to find that forever hateful auntie gone, she took half day leave.. Heng..Lady boss signed my log book, bombarded me with a few qns and luckily i managed to answered them Got my pay check today, but it's seems that the amount was wrong, but i can't do anything...so be it..I got lotsa things i wanna buy now..haiz...money always seems to be the problem ahead of me. Well, anyway, all seems to end well.Don is now at my hse, watching anime. I guess it's really time for my to relax and enjoy the few days before i started sch. KelDon bless u!

Today was quite a great day..haha...1st day of work in the week....Got MC yesterday and went out with my friend - kelvin..Yesterday morning i went to market with my mum...it's been a long time since i last went to the market with my mum, all those memories...hmm...quite nice...who says marketing can't be fun...haha..den went around the market with my mum, had breakfast...haven had such a good morning for quite a long time..After that i went to meet kelvin and watch Initial D Stage 3, although it's in jap, i'm still able to understand...it's sooo nice man, i just can't wait for the movie to come out. After that, i went back home and get ready to go out with Kelvin. We went to the coffeeshop and saw one idiot (well, let's not mention). Afterwards, we went to his workplace and den proceed on to look for my bag in bugis. Finally, found a bag that i like very much, but it's kinda ex...den went sim lim to look for speakers..found out there's alot of things i wanna buy, but broke..Waiting for my next pay..

Today work was slack, basically i was doing nothing the whole day...just counting down to 5pm..haha..although Daniel wasn't around, i manage to keep myself occupied by doing small stuff and stupid stuff..haha..Later there's gonna be a long awaited match - AC Milan VS Liverpool...I supported both clubs but i betted on liverpool to win..haha..I just can't wait man...2:30am...start counting down.....

Way to go....

Yesterday was one of my worst clubbing experience..well, i can say it's a disappointing night..Day started off badly, because of my cough..luckily, the rain saved me...dun need to go gym..if not i'll be dying..Recently, alot of games have been installed in my pc, haha, i won't be so bored again..Nights falls and i went to meet Donovan and Jon..We went to eat den we went to ChinaBlack to buy our tickets and get our chop..Den i and jon and Kelvin(other friend of mine with the same name as me) went to watch soccer..The match was nice man!! but turn out to be a disappointing one..Man utd has 101 reasons to win!! But just because of that stupid penalty Shoot-out..Haiz!! Den the night was made more disappointing when we have to queue more than an hour just to get back into Chinablack..OMG!! FRustrating night! When it's finally our turn to go in, i was filled with excitement only for it to turn into disappointment yet again. The musix inside there sux...Guys that behaved like wolves are all around me..i was all "dead"

After clubbing at 4am, we went to macdonald to chill outall the way until 6am den we went to temple. I pray for my health and my family, hopefully things will turn out better..Feeling shagged, went back home den shower, online for a while den sleep..Halfway through, i felt terrible again..coughing and having difficulty breathing...I went to see doctor desperately den went home and eat the medicine..den here i am typing..not feeling tired..Well, i'll sleep later, once i update my game..hehe

Trust me---CHINABLACK SUX!

Cough Cough Cough...haiz! yet again...i'm coughing again...i was thinking of going to see doctor but afraid that i cannot be on medication regularly cos i have to go work...when should i really go see doctor? Alot of people ask me to go see doctor as soon as possible, don't u pple think i want? But what if i really seen and i have to go work or sch, the medicine makes me drowsy...real real drowsy..! Well, come sunday and i'll see...

Today is the last day i see Daniel, kinda saddening..Our last day together din started off well and end boring-ly also...i kinda feel abit emotional..He's been a great great guy..and i admire him alot..well, there'll be a day when we parted..at least i know, i made another good friend..

My day sux big time today...have lotsa troubles that has becomes secrets for me...I'm not the past who can pour out my sorrows...It's difficult to find someones who listens...maybe there is but i dunno what to say or how to put it...so let's get this tide over as soon as possible..

Today was kinda tiring...Morning started off badly, my cough is back...and much more worse the previous days..Was coughing all the way until afternoon..My ear also hurts becos of the infection..abit swollen...Daniel turn up late today, i tot he din come for work, and i was thinking - If he din come for work, what should i do..I am totally lost man..if he din turn up, i really dunno what to do, cos he's the only person i can talk to during work and get along well enough i suppose..Luckily, the foreman today work half day, i was so happy...haha...world to myself...

I went shopping for a while with Daniel after lunch, bought Teens magazine becos got TWINS!!! haha...omg!! they are so cute, my heart's melting..can u hear the sizzling sound? haha...den the whole afternoob was slacking around...when i found out Daniel have to go on course next week, i turn very disappointed, suddenly my heart become too heavy...i felt abit sad...what's gonna happen to me if he's not around at work next week...just me and that foreman...i can't imagine what will happen..he consoled me, i consoled myself and my mum consoled me when i reach home...well, left a few more days...i'll try and tahan

My sch timetable for the next years sucks! Everyday have to go sch...some course dun need to go sch everyday..Furthermore, i have to go sch early morning everyday...wah...sian...how am i going to survive...PRay for the better man! When i told sis my situation today, she was so concerned...i was kinda touched...thanks for the concern sis...rest assured everything's gonna be ok

I shall be strong

Went gym yesterday..this time i did quite heavily..and i know my dream is coming..haha..I'm starting to gain weight ( despite still having cough )..I can see some muscles within my body..haha..that's good..den after that, went to eat the long-awaited lunch with don - Kway Chap! YUMMY! Den i rushed home and change, met kelvin and his bro, den we went to watch movie..Guess who i saw, my secondary sch classmate...a female..sooooooo long nv seen her already, it's been a long time..well, those were the days........ sob sob

After that on my way home, mildred called me...den we chatted for a while...so happy...that girl ah, like forget me like that, sooo long nv contact already...sms her she also nv reply..haha..den she called me again later den we chatted for a while...life's good for her, and i suppose for some of my other former classmates..

Today i went to work as usual, still with a heavy mood, feeling tired..but i saw something which reminds me of a sad incident ( well, i'm not going to mention it...yet again). Work was no good ever possible if not for Daniel. My best pal in the construction site, if not for him, i would still be in Dying state! Den i went back home without meeting don. I'm worried for my mum...pls! Dun worry and be happy. I dun wan u to be sad..u are my dearest kin and i will do my best possible to keep u happy. Stay healthy Mum!

u are always with me...and so am i to u

Work has been very slack these few days...i just love being at the construction site...so kool and slack..The people there are so nice to talk to, and i feel like a boss down there, cos i am wearing a white helmet ( Those workers wears yellow helmet..Some even call me Lao Da..They though i'm some supervisor or what..haha..i really hope i won't get posted back to that UBI office..ONLY 2 MORE WEEKS!! 2 MORE WEEKS!!!!!! can't wait for this stupid attachment to end. The next few weekends is going to be so fulfilling..i just can't wait

Went to PS ( Plaza Singapura) today, actually wanted to watch movie (The Amityville Horror), but cannot get the tickets..FULL House sia..Ps is always like that de, must book ard 2 hours in advance den can get..So wanted to go to parklane and play pool, in the end the rain was quite heavy, spoil everything, instead we took MRT and den went to lucky plaza and play pool..Den played a few games, today not in the mood to play...very sian, den we went to eat Mac..That gavian was laughing from the point he met us until we boarded the bus His "Depression" is gettin from bad to worse..He really needed a SEX CHANGE! Today i watch the Initial D anime again, wah!! it's soooo nice man...i really recommend it to anyone who watch anime..If u wanna watch, inform me..

Well, i'm still waiting

yea!! Finally intend to use a more appropiate blog skin...the previous one was kinda sucky...Today work was very sian...assignments handled out to me can be done within one day....but i purposely drag til today...for fear that i might go back to the office..anyway, something happened today - My boss bro pass away...i do wonder how vunerable life is. Today everyone went back to the funeral, well, not for me...i dun even know him..anyway, my plan is to drag as long as possible, hopefully can stay at the construction site for as long as i want and can..

Cough have been acting recently again...so sian...this time i really wonder what happen...shld i see a doctor? i'm afraid that it might not be much help yet again..haiz...

Haha..ive got good news....my boss finally allow me to stay in the construction site and work..which means, lesser travel time to work, earlier dismiss time, can go workout already..woohoo!! But i dunno when this will last..hopefully as long as i want to..Basically, yesterday was quite orite, slack like hell..Just stay in the office and do colouring..FINALLY, 5pm came...haha...i rush out of the site and den proceed to LOT1. Went to play arcade and was kinda boring so i went to do some shopping, bough soya bean milk and some tibits, yaya, i know, i'm still sick but but but..eat or dun eat, i'll still be sick. Not much diff

Expect a boring weekend for me, wanted to join Don and Jon for movie actually, but i'm really broke so...no choice, have to refrain..Now i'm also boring, actually wanted to bring my mum out, but she dun wan..this year mother's day, she dun wan anything from me...what should i do?!?!?!? Haiz...now i'm just waiting for the night to falls, den have fun with donnie! Be there soon!

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Eh....it's been like 5 days since i last posted? sorry to those who have been to my blog regularly and only to get disappointed not to see any updated post...i kinda feel moody this few days...due to my attachment...well, now i really know why those poly seniors always say attachment sux..Among the whole poly life, the worse thing is the attachment...freedom dashed, pricinples unruled, pride lost and dignity missing...what the heck...i have to tolerate with a bunch of aunties!!

Luckily, i am being posted to the construction site today, a place where i can learn more and most..the people there are good to me, well, except for one or two..Today is my sis birthday, bought her white lillies a few days ago, hope she like it and pass her the birthday present today...sorry sis, i couldn't find eeyore..so got the family instead, anyway, hope u really like it...Happy birthday!

Well, i'm just looking forward to this weekend..pls come fast!

dun run away

So sian......yea...yet again...work was so sian...i wonder how long i can tahan in that office..those aunties are so unreasonable and so lazy...ask me do this do that. On my last day of attachment, i am going to give them some colour man!!

Yesterday i was supposed to go out with don at night, but end up staying at home..I was very hungry by the time i got home..so i eat one big bowl of noodles, everything becomes delicious when i'm hungry..Den i went to watch tv...as i watched, i have difficulty breathing le, so went to sleep early...

Woke up only to find my sms-es..haha...sorry sis, din reply u..in the morning today i went gym, surpirsed to find sis there also..haha..Din do much in gym today, becos wasn't really in the mood to do..den after that we went to makan lunch and then went to Suntec den to Plaza Singapura to walk walk...After that rush to my relative house...kinda boring...argh...sian

when will it end???

I din expect today to be such a disappointing day...i expect today to be like tml, but haiz...Yesterday was so good, i work and slack like hell, den went back exercise and den watch tv and eat dinner..den went to sleep cos feeling abit uncomfortable...but today sux!!! I actually got back to UBI - the place i work initially and i hated it alot!! The aunties there sux and worse of all, i'm all alone and lonely..i was very down, feeling very very down...den my friends console me...haiz...somehow i am feeling better...but tml i am in for it...one auntie down there is surely gonne gimme a hard time..ass man! I just pray this whole attachment faster finish..

Next tuesday i am going request from my lady boss that i wanna go to the site...hopefully can!!! People reading this blog...pray for me...oh ya, pray for my good health also! Recently, i got back my sickness again..haiz...sian...get well soon sis...

Today was quite ok...everytime this time of the year, i would start to crack my brain of what kinda birthday present to get for my sis...it must be nice, must be something she likes and hopefully something that can make an impression for her...haha..hopefully i can do it this year...got a rough idea of what to get le...hopefully i am able to find em'

Today work was very slack, the tiles contractor was not here and i was left with nothing to do at all...so i just slack in the office den walk walk around the construction site den slack at office again...aimlessly! haha..today i din let out a single cough all the way until just now...haiz...just when i though i am getting better le..Weather has been very hot recently, all kinda sickness start to set in...ah...pray!

Actually i don't feel like working this sunday, cos i really need a break and rest...my attachment is taking too much of my favourite time...but i need money...haiz...no choice...have to force myself...hopefully that can end fast

It's been so long since i last posted...i was just waiting for weekend..Friday was the day i'm waiting for...den i waited for 5pm to come!! Den it came! haha...finally...one week of stupid attachment ended..but hai...5 more weeks to go..but who cares...i just wanna enjoy my weekend..

I went to meet donovan and den went to my house...somehow i was feeling kinda relaxed..after all, it's always good to be someone you are comfortable with - friends!! haha..den i and donovan went to eat my favourite - Teppanyaki..Hmm, so sastifying..den we went for the chalet le..but on my way there, my cough was pestering my non-stop...so sian..all the way until sat sia...chalet was kinda boring..abit disappointed bah

Saturday came and we went to watch movie..a weird movie called - infection..i wouldn't recommend it to any nurse or doctor to watch this pathetic movie though..Today i went to gym with donovan and gavian..den we play table tennis..it's been sooo long since i played table tennis...had fun..den i went to walk around..

Tml have to work...hopefully weekend come again faster

Is Life Suppose To Be Like That? Or Better? Or Worse

My mood is starting to pick up...getting alot better...thanks to all my friends out there...who help me, console me, advice, cheer up...thanks gavian, ali and sis especially..not forgetting my cousin too..today was quite good because i went to site...but morning sux...i reached too early...end up being alone one hour...luckily...i got my sis with me...as in sms..haha..thanks sis

After that...i started 'working'..on site, i'm either walking around the site or just sit inside the air-conditioned container...everything was so relaxed...i feel alot better on site den inside that stupid boring office...summore the site is nearer to my house...yay...can sleep late..but i still have to go back office someday...sian....anyway, who cares...i live for tml what..haha...so far everything is good except for my cough...it's been weeks and i have still not recovered but the medicine my mum bought was abit effective bah i would say...

really touched by what my mum did for me...even though she's abit unwell, she still takes good care of me...console me...love my mum forever!

without you...i can't live

1st day of attachment simply sux...i actually felt very emotional all of the sudden..the office was orite but the working situation and their way of working make me very unused..Those work i did on the 1st day seem not to have any relation with my course...they simply dun teach me anything but just ask me to do those paperworks...ARGH...i'm driving nuts...one day is already hell for me...i wonder how i can pass the 6 weeks...i really pray i do not have to work on sat...if not, i will surely die!

Travel 2 hours just to reach my workplace is bad enough...but what can i do...i can only tahan...haiz....

pray.......