There are moments in life when you miss someone so much, you just want to pck them from your dreams and hug them for real.
When the door of happiness closes, another opens.
But often, we look so long at the closed door, we don't see the one which has been opened to us.
Don't go for the looks, they can deceive.
Don't go for the wealth, it can fade away.
Go for someone who makes you smile because a smile can make a dark day bright.
Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go.
Be who you want to be because you have only one life and one chance to do the things you want to do.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past.
You can't forward until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
Live your life so that at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
Don't count the years -- count the memories.
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Recently, i don't know what's wrong with my tummy. It's not in its normal condition. Ever since monday all the way until wednesday, i feel something wierd inside my stomach. It's not pain, just easy, as if someone is rubbing my stomach from the inside. All the way until Friday, things got worse. I woke up early today because of my stomach. I was in great pain. Dragged myself to the toilet, bombed the toilet while sleeping..wahaha, that's how tired i am. Then went for work. Met up with Yoon Foong for Breakfast today, thinking that Candy might be late, instead, Candy appears to be the earliest there, and i'm the latest. As my stomach ain't feeling that well, i ordered the fillet burger meal whereas Yoon foong ordered hotcakes and Candy ordered BIG breakfast. This is the 1st time i've seen Candy eating sooo much during breakfast as she always claims that she's fat and can't eat much during this hour of time. Surprisingly, Yoong Foong also finished her breakfast. This is the 1st time i've seen her finished a single meal. I guess i'm the lousiest today.

Went to office, still feeling uneasy. My fillet burger is still left there untouched. By the time lunctime is reached, we went for lunch. Today's lunch will be abit special cos one of my colleague is leaving. It's her last day today. We went around the fastfood restaurant nearby and to our surprise, ALL fastfood restaurant were filled with students. I wondered what occasion it is, maybe it's just some flag day thingy. That forced us to change our dining venue to a restaurant of higher class - Delifrance. In case u don't know, i brought i fillet burger which i brought since morning along with me. In the end, i ended up ordering chicken wings and waffle ice cream for my lunch, and Candy's leftover fish and chips. My fillet burger was left untouched. Joyce, the colleague who's leaving after today, treated us to this meal. Thanks alot Joyce.

Back to office, this is the 1st time i reached office so late after lunchtime. By right, we should be back to office by 1pm, but today, we reached the office at 1:40pm. Well, Yoon Foong said there's some explaining to do with the boss, when we reached back, WAH!!, Boss was later than us..haha..phew..By the time i reached back to the office, i sudden'y feel very wierd. Just that this feeling that the world is against me, the feeling that i'm useless because i'm just now able to do certain things. But like most people said, time heals. In between the process, we went out to take a photoshoot. Today is another day of the month where the company will hold a special event. Colour as theme will be named and today's colour is green and yellow. That's also explain why i'm wearing green on this very day and why our office is go 'green' today. In the end, our department won because i guess we had the most number of people wearing green. Went back, did my work and until it was 5:30pm. It's birthday celebration for those colleague who has their birthdays falling on the month of March. 5 of them in total and they are all GIRLS! As usual, birthday song were sang, birthday cake were cut, candles were blown, wishes were made. It's game time. This is a game that i;ve never play before. Each person is suppose to write ur name on a sticker paper which is provided of cause, then we stick on behind us on our shirt. Then everyone will start writing positive stuff abt how he/she feel abt the person. And so, the room suddenly became messy, each and everyone of us were busy writing on each other's back. It was quite fun, and one more thing, we were not supposed to see what's written abt. After everything finished, we will read out one most suitable words listed from that pad aloud to everyone on our left. For mine, it was generous. I don't know why this word initially until i know who wrote it and eventually know why. Not gonna say it anyway. Quite fun too..

Today did OT and stayed in the office the longest so far ever since i worked in that company since late March.
As i'm still not feeling that well, i decided not to go Don's house.

Yesterday, i and Don went to Suntec to bought some chocolates for someone. Then we went around looking, window shopping. I'm still in dilemna of what to buy for someone. Argh! Afterwhich, we went to play pool. Brought my cue stick along and played with Don for almost an hour. I thnik i;ve improved abit with the help from the book which i brorrowed a few weeks ago. I'm determined to improve more and hopefully playing it well.

Tml's sat..i suppose i'll be dying my hait..mud colour..hmm..nice? Don't know..will post pictures for u to judge..

Friday

Went Don's house and overnight. Woke up in the morning feeling lazy. Very luckily, it's a Friday. A public holiday. Long weekend we have..and yea, we had fun. We jammed, played PS 2 and jammed again all the way until night. As time passed, we feel more and more lazy and sian. Just when Gav prepared to go home, we suggested playing Mahjong. And so, we dragged the relunctant Jonathan to join us at Don's house. We watched finish the drama show before started on the Mahjong. Now comes the funny part, after playing 4 games, suddenly, we realised that we are short one 4 tiles!! Oh gosh, to think that we still can play 4 games of mahjong without realising the missing tiles. Well, all thanks to that Sickly and sleepy Jon. He has been piling and arranging his tiles with shortage. Pro. So, we restart the whole mahjong session and play til anyone of us become bankrupt 1st. We used Chips instead of money cos we don't really Gamble (WOOPS). And yea, Gavian lost! Phew..but this time round, the mahjong session wasn't really fun, i got tired of it, simply because there were too many doubts on this game, all four of us were still too noob to know the rules of the game. After the game, i went home and watch another stupid match by Man Utd..They shall go through this season with only a Carling Cup Trophy. Haiz..

Saturday

We went town on this day! I wanted to search for something to get for someone. Cracking my brains as hard as i could. Darn, i'm bad as buying stuff. I sux at such things. Opinions from my friends didn't help release that 'burden' much simply because i'm just too indecisive. We went Taka shop, found amd asked the price of the PUMA belt i wanted to buy, went to a few sports shop in that vicinity too. After that, we went to HMV. Wow, i had always wanted to listen song by DA PUMP (in case u don't know, it's a korean band, don't really know what genre though). So, i went to look at the albums, gosh..the album actually cost between S$70-80 bucks. And that one ALBUM! Which means one song cost around S$7. Well, actually it's expected because it's directly imported from Korea and no other music shop sell em'.

And YEA, i bought my pool cue stick already. Shall post pictures of it soon. I quite like it even though i haven officially own it. I shall learn and try to master Pool. Alot of people have this impression that people who play pools are those Ah Bengs and Ah lians. Well, i can't blame that for that impression because it's just these kinda people who makes this hobby and that kinda place so complicated. To me, i'm just playing because i like it as a hobby. It's fun to play with your friends too.

After that, we went watching movie. I had wanted to watch Ice Age 2 but received objection. So, we watched Firewall instead. It's quite a nice show. I'll give it 4/5. After movie, everyone is like so dead and quiet. I guess we were tired. Went home, chiong my maple and slept til Sunday.

Today

Rotted at home. started coming down with the flu. Must be kena from Jonathan. Shared the glass of water with him on Friday. Oh gosh..Argh! Finally, i'm level 63 in Maple. I can't wait for lvl 70! I went to Lot 1 with Don not long ago to rent some books on Mahjong, Pool and Bowling. My interest in bowling is back. Ever since i stopped playing with my cousin, i've never touch bowling again til last thursday. Hmm, shall go play bowling again one day. Now, i'm like a clown with my nose super red. sneezing and sneezing.Argh..irritating..i'm feeling weak..

Today was a great great day. Why? Because it's the 1st time i went out spending and playing with my colleagues and their beloved ones. I went out with my 'Big jie jie and Small jie jie', Noy and Joyce. Small jie jie brought her boyfriend along whereas Noy brought her family along. I and Joyce brought our friend/s along too. I would say it's really great today and i enjoyed every single bit and moment of today.

Started the day quite well and happily. Today is the 1st time i ate my lunch 'takeaway'. 1st time i ate at the pantry area. The reason why is because as we were going out today, and the credit cards applications are piling huge, we have to sacrifice some of our lunchtime and do our work. The applications and getting hell lot and lot day by day. Nevertheless, we still tried our best completing them today. Times flies and it's finally 7pm. Knock-off time, work was incomplete but still, we managed to finish a big chunk of it. Great. My mistakea at work are getting lesser but still, careless, which means it could actually be prevented. Hm..i shall be more careful.


After work, a few of my colleagues and i went for dinner. Then we proceed to SPANS (it's a country club). A small country club i would say. Supposedly, we were supposed to go Marina Square but then the bowling alley was fully booked from 6pm tp 10pm/ I would considered that lucky as SPANS's bowling alley was much cheaper. Even though the place aren't that spacious and big as the ones found at Cathy or Marina Square, it's enough to give all of the fun and enjoyment we needed. I started off the game quite ok until my friend arrived. This Don is super pro, for the bith games he played, he's topped the chart whereas my best came only for the last game Same for Gavian too. Our fun was further 'enhanced' by Noy's two cute little daughters. Seeing kids like that always make me feel happy, eager and lotsa emotions going through my mind. Only my very friends will know what i'm talking about i suppose.

Now, i'm at Don's house and Me and Gav's staying overnight at his house. Now Gav is dead asleep and i shall go bathe now..cya..will update more

Sunday

Went gym. It's the 1st time since dunno how many months. Finally, once again, i'm stepping into the once so familiar gym at Choa Chu Kang Stadium. Changed and as usual, i'll so weigh myself, checking if i'm putting any weight as i've been expecting. I still maintained the same weight as before. Well, i can only say that's something still good, at least i didn't lose weight. *Choi* Started off with the 1st station - Chin-Up. Gosh, i lost my fitness. Used to be able to do 8 chin-up, now i could barely do 4. I'm getting weaker, i shall exercise more regularly now. Find Don's method of training biceps quite effective, i'll go on to tell u why later on.

Monday

Work today was simply terrible. I did something very stupid today, which caused some misunderstanding between me and my colleagues. I've said things that don't really sounds that nice. It in turned caused some misunderstanding. Felt really bad about it, but luckily, my colleague is understanding, i really hope she didn't hold it against me. Sometimes, it's just me to talk without using my precious brain. Dumb! simply just dumb..A heavy lesson learnt, and realise an idiotic part of me. Don't worry, i'm getting rid it off..

Tuesday

As usual, i keep on yawning and feel like dozing off at work. Nth much on this day.

Wednesday

Today was one of the worst day of work. I felt so tired than i keep yawning and yawning. I even feel like sleeping, i'm totally not focusing at work today. I even make a few mistakes. ARGH! I hate myself. Luckily, i talked to my 'sister' to keep myself awake. She's a remedy for lotsa problem i faced at work. Glad to have such a 'sister'. Why i called her 'sister' is because of how she told me abt her story whereas i told her mine. That's how it happens. Today we discussed as to where will we be heading to after work tomorrow, cos our original plan was ruined because the original place we were supposed to be going to will be fully booked. So we changed our venue. We changed it to SPANS. We'll be playing bowling. I managed to get Don and Gav to go with me. ope it's all fun tml as i'm going to overnigth at Don's house too..

Feeling tired now..gtg sleep..If not, tml i'll be yawning away again

Well...it's really a bad bad day..1st, i was bored at home, til my brain is going to burst..Staying at home simply bores me..Nothing to do..and so, i drag myself and my brother out. We went to town. I finally went to the PUMa shop at Taka that i've been always wanted to go. Cos i wanted to see if i can find this PUMa belt which i saw in Kuala Lumpur when i went there last year. And guess what, i found it. Hmm, still as nice as ever. I just can't wait to get my hands on it, but i'm totally broke now..so i shall wait for my payday.

After that,both of us went walking around. Argh...going out with my brother simply sux too..He's always pulling that black long face, making me feel so sian also. And so, we went PS thinking of catching a movie..When we reached there, all nice movies were already either sold out or have to wait til 11 plus..it's like an hour more before we can actually watch movie. So we skipped movie and went arcade instead. It's been so long since i get my ears invaded by the booming sounds of those game machines..As usual, i'll top up and play my favourite game - Virtual Striker. Haha..so long never play already, lose abit of skills, but still can manage to win a few challengers. The feeling of winning is just shiok..Just when i was about to go home, i received a news which i deemed to be bad - i'm going to get enlisted on 21st July!! Argh!! Shit man..I thought i won't get enlisted so early but there comes that dumb letter.

But i'm glad for alot of things:

1.At least it's not under PES A or B
2.At least i get to finish my contract without breaching it
3.At least i get to watch WORLD CUP

Hmm...when i reached home, i started to talk about army life with him. Then he went on to tell me alot of interesting stories about himself. I'll share with u people on msn as it's quite long. ask me if u are interested too. After talking to him, it somehow makes me feel that going Ns isn't that bad after all. It's just that i'll be missing alot of my friends and my family. Hmm..so for now til that very day, i shall spend as much time with them as i could..

It's finally weekend! But it doesn't seems to be as good as my usual working weekday. Haiz..weekend, how everyone is wishing for that right? Everyone just can't wait for Friday to come, where they'll be earger welcoming the morning sun of Saturday. Just like everyone else, Saturday is my favourite day. It'a day where i get to meet my friends, play, enjoy my outing etc..lotsa things to do actually. So much so that, my pocket will have a big hole everytime it reaches Sunday night.

Now it's a saturday, yet, it's not much different from any other weekday just before i started working..Ever since i started working, seriously, i dun actually look forward to weekend. Friends would be tired after booking out from camp, some would have their own activities, family would be busy too. Hm...i'm left with the company of my computer. How nice can that be. Ever since i started working, my usage of the computer has dropped drastically. Hmm, that's why i should spend more time with my computer rather than going out. Wahaha..how boring can that be!!!!

I need some entertainment..i dread weekends..i assume the following few weekdends will be worse. With Don going on operation and need to rest at home. Hmm...Weekend please don't come. Maybe i can ask some of my colleagues out..wahaha..it'll be nice as most of them are girls..

Yesterday went home with my colleagues, had a talk with them..found out more abt them..nice people they are indeed. Glad to be able to work. Ahh.!! Farhan received his Letter..He's going to get enlisted at June 10. I seriously hope i won't received that kinda letter anywhere soon. I don't want to go army. I want to work and enjoy..

Yesterday Don came and have lunch with me. Hahah..so good of him right? Yes..he certainly is. although lunch time is short, it's enough. I must say this is the time where i actually cherished every minutes i have. Haha..Had lunch before walking around and he's on his way home after that..Can't wait for Monday now..

Work this week has been kind of weird. Has it ups and its downs. As always, i'm still making mistakes at work. Nevertheless, the always forgiving colleagues is always there for me. Finally, my Maple main character has levelled up. It has motivated me further. I want to reach 3rd job as soon as possible. I'll get always to train with my friends - Don, Jo, Pei shan etc etc..well, that's the only fun part of Maple now. It;s soooooooo bored to play alone. I'm still in the progress of making my new blogskin. It's a totaly new blogskin that i made myself. But it'll take some time.

Dunno why, nowadays, everytime i reach home from work, the 1st thing i would touch is my guitar, Maybe under the influence of Don's Mp3 player (thanks him for lending me his mp3 players..muacks) wahah..Now i've a few songs in mind, i'm going to master them and some even sing while playing. Sounds abit impossible huh..don't worry..practice makes perfect..when there's a will, there's a way..how true can that be..

Today i went to the bank and submitted my damaged ATM card. What a Day.! Queue was super long..but no choice, i've have to wait. Cos that's the only time i could go and get a new Atm. Before i go work and after i finished work, the bank would be closed, so the only time left is lunchtime..sadly..It east into my lunch time..nevertheless, i still managed to find time and had lunch. It's the 1st time i'm having lunch with my 'lunching' colleagues. Finally, it's my turn. Gosh, had to pay 5 bucks for the replacement for the damaged ATM card. Haiz..all because of that stupid wallet, causing much bending to my ATM card, making cracks all over it. Now, i shall be wiser and put it in a more appropiate place.

Talking about such matters..Yesterday i was talking to Don about what i've wondered. Cos nowadays, internet banking and tranferring of funds has been so common. All i need to do tot transfer money to my friends is just by getting his account number and just transfer money from my account to his. But (CHOI CHOICHOI), let's say i entered the wrong number (maybe becos i was blind at that point of time or maybe he accidentally read 7 as 1), the money would be pocketed into someone else's account. GOSH! That'll make me panic enuff and make my heartbeat so fast like train. In such cases, i wonder what should i actualy do. So far, i've not seen or heard cases like that but i'm sure such things does happen. And when it happens, will the bank help u even though u have your friend as witness. Hm..i dare not even think of it. Imagine it's a big transaction - one that's enuff to buy u an MP3 player..wow..cool..the one who 'accidentally' got the money just becos some blind people accidentally put it into his acc must be over the clouds upon seeing the cash. He must have had believed that money does drops from the sky right?

I think that if the cash's not used, maybe there's still chance of retrieving the money back..maybe police report will be necessary. But..i mean BUT what if the person has used the cash, he could claim that he didn't realise the sudden increase in his amount of money in his account. In such situation, no one;s to be blame but the person who doing the transferring of the money. Especially, if it's between friends. I would surely not know what to do if i'm in that kind of situation. Money VS Friends..Tough huh..Well, people always say, money hurts reltionship - i agree it to a certain extent. I've seen how money has strained relationship, and realised that it's so so true. That's why til now, i'm still not that confident of transferring money in that manner..Convenient? YEs, that's for sure..Sale? Perhaps..but risk is there..accidents do happen. I'll prefer handling money in cold hard cash. I could even smell the scent of it, y isn't it better?

*Sniff Sniff*

Work has been alright for the past 3 days..except for the last day maybe. I made hell lotsa mistakes..which yet again makes me feel bad. Those mistakes are quite silly actually. Gonna be abit more careful next week.

Cut a shitty hairstyle on Wednesday. It sucks big time. Some said it just simply not nice, few say i look like small kid, well, i find it 'just ok'..wahaha..Finally met up with Farhan and he was saying how he's juggling 2 jobs right now. At least it's just for a while. Hmm..this is how we are expericing too. Who doesn't needs money. Money don't drops from the sky or gush out from somehwhere like how water is 'spit' out from fountain. Yet, the standards or living has made it almost impossible for teens like us to enjoy life and at the same time, not spending 'much' money. One trendy t-shirt would cost u one day or even one week pay. Gosh..as much i know precious money is, how it is to earn money, i always fail to appreciate it and would use it without thinking giving much thought. I shall get rid of that bad habit and think think think think think before i buy anything.

For now i had a rough idea of how am i going to deal with my 1st pay. Buy some of the things that's from the wishlist and save some, give my parents some, give my friends a treat..hm..wonder how much would i have left by then.

On thursday, work was fine until i spill that darn cup of milo on the table! Gosh! Damn! At the moment of time, fear came. I dunno what kind of fear, i just had this uneasy feeling. Luckily, my colleague, the always happy-go lucky one helped me, as always. She's always willing to help me, with abit of 'nonsense' to calm things down. Her smile and talking to her always makes ur day. I learnt alot from her and would like to learn more. I hope i won't make silly mistakes again. Cos each time i make one, she will have more to do.

Friday was the worse, mistakes after mistakes i made. Giving my colleague more problems. Haiz..feel damn bad! Shall be careful rather then slow this time. Pray!

Finally, Xero4 is back for another short outing yesterday. We went to Queenstown and eat some really nice food. If u guys wanna know where, ask me..i'll give u more details. We ate alot of food. Hor Fun, Guo tie (Fried and steam dumpings) and there's also sweet and sour soup which i skipped. After all that, we ordered another 30 Guo tie. By then, the auntie whom we ordered from are starting to think if we are really mad to be able to finish sooooo much food. We thought we could until the last few piece, we started to have our stomach bloated up. So, we played games and loser shall eat up the dumpings left.. One by one, the dumpings gone and after everything is finished, we were like pregnant man! After that, stupid Jon went back home as he claims that he can't stay up late with us. So, instead, Me, Gavian and Don went to play pool. Yes, Don's the winner again..hmm..i shall train up myself more. After i reached home, it's soccer match. and YES YES YES!! Man Utd won Bolton by 2-1, closing down the gap from stupid Chelsea to only 7 points. Yes, i said ONLY!

After the game, we saw Jon onlien. Haiz..Disappointment..He still online..he still say he needs to sleep because he has to wake up early this morning. Stupid Jon. U better play ur drums. Judgment day is soon..drawing nearer and nearer

Finally i've started work ysterday. It's been two days since i started work as a bank assistant in UOB Pte Ltd. wow..some may think that bank assistant is a position whereby one work in a bank, behind the counter, doing some admin stuff. Er, instead of working in the bank, i'm working at UOB bank office - credit/debit card department. The position 'bank assistant' - some may think that it's tough whereas some may think that's it a slack job. Well, to me, it's a mixture of both i would say. I won't say it's tough, cos it's not tough at all. Doing paperwork, photocopying documents, sorting them out and etc..how tough can that be. The only tough part is sitting on the chair for hours, that make my back and neck ache. Other than that, it's not even tough at all. Just boring i would say. Everyday doing the same thing. Well, still, i'm fine with it. It's not really a slacking job as i'm basically working all along and resting only during lunch time. What makes my working mood better is the collegues that i just knew. They were friendly and very easy-going. I've yet to know alot of people and hope i'll have the chance - cos there are alot of females around and nice to make friends right? (got motive one!! Wahaha). In case you haven't know, in my department, there's only two guys. One is my supervisor, another one is me..The rest are all girls. Cool! Wahaha..

Well,, can expect that as bank is usually/ most of the time a female working environment. Nevertheless, i really enjoyed working there day by day. I'm being put under two female. Both are older than me i think. One mature and pretty looking, whereas the other cute and innocent looking. It's funny being able to work with them. Although they didn't give me any stress, i do pressurize myself. As i'm new to suck job, i tried to do things right, sometimes, i still do make mistakes. But they do not mind at all, that make me feel more bad.

In weeks to come, i think i'll get the hang of it. It's the 1st time i work in an office and have my own working desk. I'm going to decorate my working desk, make it feel more like my own. Like that, i'll have a better mood when working. This office that i'm working in isn't that strict. Employees are allowed to wear casual smart attire. Food can be consumed in the office but of cos u can't be eating all the time. I get unlimited flow of drinks too but i don't drink much cos consuming sweet drinks too much isn't good to your body too.

I'm afraid when the contract is up, i might not be ablt to continue. By then, i think i'll develop some kind of relationship with my collegues. They are really great people, even some i haven't know them yet, i can tell from the way they work and talk. Hm..i just can't wait to know more of them..

Later there's going to be champion league match. Hope i have enough of sleep later and wake up. Hmm..hopefully i won't be yawning my way through tml's work.

Wednesday

Hasn't been updating my blog regularly despite me still being so free. If u did read my previous post, u would have known that i went for the interview. I received a call from the agent informing me that i got shortlisted. I was over the clouds when i heard that. Can't wait to tell the news to my mum, and poor Don who was waiting for me at Funan IT Mall because i was following someone whom i know to a place where she say there's job opportunities. Well, stupid stuff aren't really worth mentioning but i still wanna say. I realised how stupid i am upon entering the company. The so called 1.5 million makeover company seems no different from any others. As the person brought me through the place, i realised it to be some sort of marketing company. Haiz..they even drag me to listen to a talk, but luckily, i managed to break free of that dumb place.

Rushed to Don and told him the news..as time pass, the fear in me grew. I'm afraid i couldn't meet the company expectations. The company is called United Overseas Bank (UOB). A big company needless to say. Just by the interview, i could see it's a totally new kind of job for me. One that i've never been to work before. Everyone was wearing so formal, it makes it stressful for me as i scared if i didn't do the job well, i'll be like so 'extra', they'll be hiring a useless bum. That apart, i'll try do my job well.

Went to watch 'Dorm' with Don. It was a Thailand horror show. Watching the show certainly bring some comfort to my mixed feelings at that point of time. The show brought out feelings. It makes me feel for the boy. I won't classified this movie under horror as it's all about a boy leaving his home to stay in a dorm. There he found a friend after which he realised is a ghost. He went miles to help his friend reborn as he could see his suffering for re-enacting the whole scene of how his friend died. He helped to the extent of even daring to sacrifricing his life. A rather touching movie i would say. How many of us could actually do that..it's difficult a choice. I give this movie a perfect 5.

After movie, it's down to MOS - Candy Floss Retro. I and Don went in near 10pm. Inside, there's nothing much. Everything has not started yet. So, we walked around and enjoy the music while waiting for more people to come in. There's this friendly female waiter who attended to us. Chatted with her and has a good impression of her. Her smile and charm just simply lives in my mind. Wahaha..maybe someday i go back there, i'll go look for her again. Candy floss retro was simply shiok. I and Don simply enjoyed ourselves. After that day, we realised the best time to go MOS on wednesday is at 12am. That's when people starts to fill the dance floor and simply dance! The best part of that night was around 1:30am. Rocky music started flooding the main arena and i and Don out of the suddenly, got high and dance. It's as if we were under drugs. The music change near 3am and aww, we was kinda disappointed. Not long after, the music starts to get more and more sucky.

Thursday

Went with Don to the job agency to sign the contract. I'm told to start work only on monday. What a relief. Phew..haa..and so, i went with Don to GuanYin Temple and i prayed there. To repay the god for getting me a job. Actually we planned to do lotsa things on that day, but we headed home instead and mapled!

Friday

I went to meet Don early to collect his new passport. Then we proceed to buy the ingredients as both of us will be cooking later in the evening. After buying all the ingredients, we headed to his house put the stuff and went to another shopping centre to get summore ingredient and food for our supper. Wahaha..what big eaters we are. After which we head back to his house again and relax and chill. Finally, it's time to cook

We started off by mixing ingredient for the chicken. We cooked two dishes that evening - Penang Char Kway Tiao and Shrimp Paste Chicken. We made lotsa blunders that evening. But it's only blunders that we learned and become better..isn't it? And so, we started mixing the ingredients then Don went to marinate the chicken with it. So while waiting, we intend to cook the Penang Char Kway Tiao 1st. I have to pound the chilli which i hate it..haa! Then we started to cook. When we need the Kway Tiao, we realised that we forgot to bring it out the fridge. Wahaha...the kway tiao was so hard that i have to soak it a while in the water before putting it all onto the wok. And finally, it's done. We did a little tasting and declare that dish a SUCCESS! Next up, the chickens. We wondered how come there's so much water on the pot that we marinate the chickens only to realised that i forgot to drain away the water i used to watch the chickens. OHOHOH! Big Big BLUNDER. Wahaha..still, we went ahead with it and fried the chicken. Oil was splattering all around..making the whole floor oily. One by one, the chickens was dished onto the plates and we had the 1st bite. This time round, we declared it a SUCCESS too. Hooray, we are potential Chef. Cooking is really lotsa fun and how i wished those times don't end.

After eating, we played some games and it's supper time. We ate, chilli Tuna with Bread, Duck porridge, curry puff and leftover chicken from dinnertime. Full til we can't moved, not long after we finish our supper, we felt sleepy..zzzz

Saturday

Nothing much on this day. Attended my friend's performance at Phunk Bar. Lotsa noisy bands around, why noisy because the vocalist were mostly screaming out rubbish as i couldn't hear a word they 'sang'. My friend's band wasn't too bad.

As there's nothing much, we left and headed home. Swat 4 and maple abit then sleep...

Today

Went to meet up Jon and Don for lunch. Then headed to Bukit Batok to buy Jon's contact lens. Head back home and maple. Yay..i finally levelled up. Hmm..can't wait for 3rd job. I think once i start working, it'll be more difficult for me to level up as the time spend to play will be much lesser.

Tml i'll be starting work already. Feeling very mixed and messy now. Hopefully, tml will turn out to be fine. I have to re-adjust my sleeping hours. Usually, i'll be sleeping like around 4am, now, i'll have to sleep at around 12am to get ample sleep. Waking up at 7am is never easy for me. I'm so afraid i wouldn't be able to wake up because it's been so long since i wake up so early. Hopefully, i'll be able to wake up.

Today kick off with me waking up especially early. At least it's considered early to me. 9 plus am and i'm already awake..rare to find me awake at this hour as i would and should be sleeping like a pig. Today woke up especially early, just to wake from a call from my agent. I'm supposed to go for an interview today and so i purposely woke up early to wait for her to gimme the details. And yea, she finally called after much wait.

Gave me the details and i met Don up. He's accompanying me to the interview and we were planning to play pool too. Had lunch before setting off to Toa Payah HDB hub. I was wondering, if i really worked there, will it be a long trip from home to work and work to home. Check the information chart and it says that from Choa Chu Kang to Toa Payoh will take u ard 38mins excluding waiting time. Which turns out to be quite accurate. Well, if i really get shortlisted and work that, it isn't that bad anyway ( i was thinkin to myself then ).

And so, i reached there early than expected. The interview is suppose to be 2:30pm but i intend to go there earlier as it's always better to be early, especially interview! The HDB hub has lots of lift lobbies. Making me blur. Took two lift wrongly, went to wrong floor. Ask around before finally found the place. That agenet gave me the details, it says 25th storey. When i reach 25th storey, the whole place is like so sercured. It has a tainted glass panel and a telephone by the side with the glass panals door locked! One female suddenly opened the door from inside and told me the interview who's suppose to interview me is on the 18th storey and not 25th storey. ARGH!! Make a wasted trip to 25th storey. And so, i took back the lift and make my way to the 18th storey.

Reached 18th storey. Went in and ask for the interviewer. He came out, dressed formally with tie and look totally a office guy. Luckily, i dressed myself in formal too, well, not as formal as him. He shook my hand and so, we proceed to a room and start the interview. This is the 1st time i attend such a formal interview. He started off by asking me to introduce myself. And so, i introduce myself. Saying out my education, current status, strength and weaknessess. Right after i finishing talking, he starting asking questions. Without any preparation, i just spit out whatever i could think of. Somehow, the usual crappy me, seems to have a fliter in my brain at the point of time. I could think before i say. I realised that i really have to think before i talked. Any mistakes will caused a bad impression. Then he went out to ask me about my experiences. He then tell my about the job scope and expectations. It seems a different kind of job to me and not really what i expected. But i would really love to have it. Somehow, from the way he interview me, i realised that he needs someone who is experience is such field as in those who has experience in admin work. Although he mentioned that he admired my attitude towards work which i crapped abit about, but the impression he gave me is that he would rather choose those that has more experience.

He also asked questions like, " what makes u stand out from other candidates for this job." Totally unexpected, i mentioned about my strength and again crapped abit. I realised that in interviews, if u are just talking about yourself, u might drag yourself into a dangerous sea. Crapping abit will do you good as it somehow creates that kinda of impression that might makes u stand out.

After done with the interview, again, they say they will contact me if i'm shortlisted. So, i'll considered that as a disappointment 1st. Went with Don to town to play pool. again, he's the ultimate winner but luckily this tiem round, there's no punishment. Wahaha..i brought him to a desert shop to have desert. He ordered mango sago whereas i ordered seasame paste with Ah Boling. In case u are wondering what Ah Boling is, it's called Tang(1) Yuan(2) in chinese. And shit. I regretted ordering it. Seeing Don eating the mango sago which is COLD, i regretted ordering something hot. And in no time, he finished up his bowl of desert and while i'm still slowly eating my sesame paste, i starts to feel abit sian. The sesame paste smells so nice when it was 1st served onto the table right in front of me and as i eat, it gets more and more yucky. But the Ah Boling saves me. It's always so damn nice for me to eat that. Yummy, after finish all the Ah Boling on that bowl, it's left with the sesame paste. It taste so weird to me now so much so that it look as if i can never finish it up. Every mouth i take, i feel something terrible down my throat and at last, i couldn't take it. I feel like vomiting. So, we left the place and i bought an ice cold winder melon drink and it manages to prevent me from puking.

By the time i reached home, i started to have a slight headache and by 10pm, it was so pain that i could feel something vibrating in my head. It's as if my whole head wanted to burst. I really feel like banging my head on the wall at that point of time. I actually wanted to continue staying online as i wanted to play maple with Don. But it was so pain that i decided to have a short 'nap' 1st. So i slept for around 2 hours plus and woke up. By then, my head wasn't even pain. Sleeping cures my headache. Wahaha..who says i need Panadol! Saw Don online and he complained that he died two times in maple.

Well, starting off at level 51 isn't easy. Cos by level 51, the degree of the game would by far be more difficult as the monster u handle is different from when u are level 20,30 etc..So it's natural that Don's not used to it yet. But i think that he's starting to get the hang of it. But just now as we played, there this idiot then ks us. Level 74 and so he went around ks-ing us. She even go to the extent to calling his friend and gave Don a mass defame. Afterwhich, they proceed with childish acts like scolding our parents, saying us dogs. And of cos, NOT being childish, we ignored them. How can one be so childish and i mean, it's just a game. Do one have to go to the extent of being so lame. Haiz, but who cares, they can scold all they want, I and Don just wanna enjoy the game. Finally, after much playing, Don's starting to get the hang of it and hopefully, he'll levelled up soon.

Recently, i hasn't been contacting in touch with sis. I know she has common test this week. Jia you and don't give yourself too much stress. Stay positive and good luck for all your tests.

Well, this is by far one of the longest post i've ever posted, if not the longest post. Haha..i'll change my blogskin soon..Tired of it already..stay tuned!

I have to say something. It isn't lazy of me to blog..it's just that i'm simply moodless and don't have the mood to blog..I'm feeling troubled enough as to not being able to find a job. I've tried for weeks, coming to a month. Haiz..it's the disappointment that gets me feeling so troubled. And from time to time, i get disappointment because i pin too much hope each time i receive calls from my friends and from employers, asking me to go interview. But after each and every interview, i would end up feeling more disappointed. Those employers will always say, "i will give you a call if u are being shortlisted."

After that sentence, i'll never hear from them again. Dumb system CMPB has. Why can't they allocated everyone according to their PES status and give each and every enlistees their enlistment dates. At least it would be fairer. Argh, now i'm still in a 'unknown' state whereby i don't even know when i get enlosted. Damn frustrating. Difference from June and October is full 4 months. That's like SOOOO many months! I can earn lotsa money. Argh..now i'm stuck with completetely no jobs.

Today i was brought to the same job agency that i visited weeks ago by Yang Bing. Had i known he would bring me to this job agency, i would have rejected him. From actually having an interview to having none of the job opportunities at all bring my morale down. Argh...sux man.

Just now i received a call some a female who was speaking so fast then i forgot to ask her where's she from. Now i can only be left dangling down there, waiting for her call. Hopefully i can get her call tml, as she said she will. I WANNA WORK!!

Yay..Aqua road in maple is open. Finally i'm in! I manage to hunt my set of tubes and i got 3/4 tubes for my sister already. Hehe..But Aqua Road is kinda boring. The style of fighting in the map is difficult because it's in the water, i have to constantly float in the water while fighting, which makes it difficult for me to kill those monsters. Nevertheless, i've mastered the art of fighting in Aqua Road. So if u are having difficulties, let me know..hehe..

Finally, Don's playing Maple. Wahaha..actually wanted to sell my level 50 suit to earn some mesos but since he's playing, i shall give him those stuff and earn mesos myself. Meanwhile, i shall pray that that girl who called me earlier on would call me back soon..

*PRAY*

ARGH! Today was different from all other normal holidays. Well, my so called 'holidays'. Today actually intended to go for severals interviews and job application. But in the end, we went for only one. We went to a Job Agency called KELLY SERVICES. It seems a place which is very professional. That highly boost my thinking that i'll get a job here. Introduction by a friend also mentioned that this job agency is good. But it don't turned out to be so. It's so sucky man. They only have A JOB available and it's a contract job. OMg, how am i ever able to go into a CONTRACT job. I called the MINDEF and they can't even give me an answer on when can i get enlisted. My friends mentioned to me before how slow people in CMPB and MINDEF are..today, i hear it for myself..the guy talking to me on the phone is just repreating what the operator is talking. What's the difference of telling me when that dumb operator has already told me, obviously one would have called this line and heard the operator before calling the guy. Oh..how dumb can one be..

Haiz..disappointed and frustrating. Went to this foodcourt to eat..had to walk quite a distance just to find something cheap to fill our stomachs (it's not easy to survive when u don't have an income). After that, we went to Jurong West Library. Eh guys, it's a new library.u guys should check it out..well, it's not the nicest library as compared to the one in Jurong East and the new National Library, but it's certainly a good place for studying. Borrowed a book on Photoshop. Sudden;y, i have a craving for design. I personally feel that designing and ooze out all your creative juices, making u a better thinking person. Flow with what ur mind thinks and i suppose it's an achievement to design something and get comments that are positive and negative.

I was shocked to hear Matt called just before we wanted to left home. He's at Jurong West Library too..i was shocked only to find out it was Muz who asked him to come. Good timing and lucky Matt, later by a few mintues and we are going to HOME SWEET HOME. Matt suggested jamming. WOOT! It's something i haven't done for months, almost coming to a year (in this case, what i mean by jamming is 'rocking' in a proper jamming room, with everyone fully in the band). Shiok, this time round, it was special. It's the 1st time we jammed like this. One started off any thune/chords and other instruments will play accordingly. In the end, we created quite a few song by ourselves and it did actually sounds quite nice too. As always, one hour will be up so soon before we know it. Jamming is never enough but as far as money is concerned, we can only limit ourselves to an hour of fun.

Went home with a heavy heart. Finally, got a precious call from Jon, saying that there's a job for me. Hm..i'm going to try my luck tml..hopefully i'll get it. Yang Bing also says he has got a job for me..ARGH! I simply just can't wait to work.

Don said something to me. Treat this period of time like a holiday. Enjoy it. Having a job will be a bonus. But how can i enjoy without income. I won't have anything to eat. I'll just die at home, munching on bread and buscuits. How sucky man! So no matter what, i'm going to try til i get a job.

Woot..almost one week since i last blogged. Hmm...let's recap an overview of what i've done since Sunday til now..Yawn..

Went for Chan Min's 21st Birthday Party. It was very nicely done. Held at Aloha Loyang, the place is spacious. Alot of people were present at her party. Quite alot are her female classmates..pretty and cute..wahaha..but as always, we guys only have the share of admiring from far..So far this year, i've been to quite a few 21st birthday parties. Hmm..ever since i knew The Billiard House has closed down, i have been troubling as to where should i hold my 21st birthday party. It's going to be the 1st time i hold a party and maybe the last, so i was intending to make it a unique one. But unique means difficult as in Singapore, it's hard to hold a party at a 'Unique' place. Nevertheless, i will still try finding. Hm..i've still got a few more months to think about that..slowly..

This week has been boring. Looking for jobs, blah blah blah...Now i fully understand how difficult it is to find a job. There are so many factors to consider. Location, pay, interest, job scope etc etc..All this makes looking a job far more difficult. U can buy weeks of Straits Times and look under JobsAds and not getting a single Job interview and i mean INTERVIEW only.! Kaoz..Doesn't it sux..I'll still continue finding..i really wished a job would come my way soon..

As usual, i'm still indulging myself in 'korean love'. I;ve been renting and downloading Korean Movie like never before. I guess i can watch tons of such movie and go crazy about it. Hmm...someday, i would really wished to know a korean girl, learn their culture, their tone of language, cook korean dish..Argh...might as well be a korean right..wahaha..

I just come back from this chinese god thingy. Have to look after the place as i promised my relative..it's super bored just now but i still have to do it. Now i'm feeling super tired. Today i finally levelled up (i mean maple). I just can't wait for get to 3rd job..Yawn, i better get going..my bed's calling me

Woot! My last day of school has ended. How time flies..it's 3 years in a blink..although poly school life ain't really that fantastic, but i've really made some really good friends and had quite a few good moments in sch..Luckily, this time round, i don't have to get interviewed by lecturers. Getting interviewed by lecturers is not something good. The day we had to take back our portfolios and stuff, we will at the same time, show fear on our faces, fearing that our name will be shown on the list where it shows who are the people needed to be interviewed. It simply just means u might not be able to pass this year, that's why the lecturers has this interview thing going on.

I'm simply glad not to see my name appear there..phew..i heard from my own class tutor that if one is not able to pass this year, he/she won't even get the chance to repeat the year. He/She will be out of course right away. How cruel can that be?!?! U go through 3 full years, only to end up with nothing, not even a chance..i'm really thanking god for this chance..wahaha..

Yesterday went looking for job through job agency. Haiz, hard to find a job now..harder to find one that suits u. Really don't know where to start looking for job. Anyone know of any job agency? Can intro me?

Alright man!! Yesterday was officially the last day of school. My final assignment was handed in. All i have to do now is pray and wait for my results to be out. This week seems rather empty, i'm totally slacking at home. Now, i shall watch all the vcds i rented and played all the games i bought. It's time, of cos meanwhile, i'll still be looking for job. Hopefully, i can manage to get one.

I want to watch Final Destination 3!!!!!!!!! Wahaha..have been looking for pple to watch with me, but either some are working, in camp, not free or no money..I don't want to miss movie just like that..like how i miss I Not Stupid Too..That's it..i will call upon whoever is reading this, ask me out for movie..FAST!! I'll be waiting..

It's already almost near 4 days since the street soccer competition, and i can still feel aches all over my body, even though they are slightly less painful now. After the compeition, the days that followed were painly boring. Stayed at home like an idiot, not going anywhere else. Felt just so tired and plain lazy. All i am thinking is just mapling and playing my guitar.

Finally, i learned how to play Master Of Puppets Verse. Haha, that may not be something that's very wonderful to some but at least i am learning. It's shiok and cool. I think with the help of the mike and webcam, i might even come up with a MTV of myself..wahaha..shameless right? NO! This is going to come true, trust me..wahaha..

I regretted buying that webcam, although the quality is only so-so, i still don't mind. But what makes me fed up is that my computer shuts down all of the sudden, just by random , and restarts by itself whenever webcam program is on. FRUSTRATING! I'm going to get a new and much much better webcam once i found a new job.

Argh..speaking abt finding a job..how the hell am i going to find a new job. I simply don't know where to start. I wanted to work full-time, earn more money, but at the same time, i'm worried that i might not be up to it. Even if i could, i might not be able to find a proper full-time job. Argh, so many things to bother just one thing - looking for a job. Argh..Pple, got any job lobang? Please contact me, i'm somewhat desperate already. HELP!!

Friday i got back my test papers result. As i suppose i didn't do very well in the final presenation that time, i seriously hope that this test would help me. But after finishing the tests paper a week ago, i left the school with fear. Fear of failing my tests, resulting in poor grades. To my surprise, i passed all except for one. I almost pass the one which i failed, but it's ok, that module ain't that bad as compared to other modules which i'm already very poor at. Hopefully, it will push my overall grade up. For now, i'm only left with the final assignment of my whole dipolma course, my final year portfolio. It's not something very difficult but it require some time to do. I shall devote some time for that portfoilo. Deadline for University application is up, everything seems to be so rush this year so much so that i am not able to submit my application on time. I shall tried my luck next year. I'm hoping to do a part time degree course in something i'm interested and work at the same time while studying after my National Service. Well, that shall be my plan for now. Advices pple?

I'm getting more and more free. During this time, before entering National service, i shall do what i wanted to do, before i enter NS. I played games, watched vcds, watched movies, played guitar etc etc..Recently,i had this feeling again. The same old feeling a few years ago, when i mad at korean movies. Now, i'm into it again. It's a sweet, nice feeling that make me yearn for lotsa thing. Things that i can't say out unless you are really my close friend, probe me when u see me online bah. Upon saying all that, my ideal honeymoon shall now be South Korean. A winter honeymoon with the one u love, doing things together, spending time together, just the world of the two of us..hmm...sweet feeling.. That's my ideal honeymoon i suppose. Wahaha..I guess that would be quite a romantic country. Hmm, for now, i shall soak myself in more romance korean movie..haha..hmm...i'm floating....

Yesterday was Shiok! Went to school to print my assignment. After that, is the long awaited street soccer compeition. I had a little hestitation wether to join this compeition or not, cos my knee is still injured and has yet to recover fully even though the condition has improved. I'm afraid that after playing, my knee would be pain yet again. However, i still go ahead with the decision of joining as to me, this will be the last time i'm playing street soccer in sch and with my poly friends.

So the match started. And gosh, this time, we had to play 7 games. It was hell. With just four players and one substitute, we were simply struggling. Lost 4 games, draw 1 and won 2. One of those we one is because one team forfeit. ARGH!!! We tried to score in each game, and yea, we sure did. I scored the most goals among the team but because at the same time, we weren't defending well, therefore, we lost. Nevertheless, we had fun. Losing or winning doesn't matter, it was how we enjoy it.

And so, the game lasted til late evening. By the time i reached home, i was aching all over, having headache, due to the extreme weather in the afternoon. Went to bed early and woke up in time to catch the soccer match. And yea, Arsenal won and Liverpool lost! WOOT!.

After the match, it was sleeping time. I woke up this afternoon, feeling even more pain at my knee. Haiz, this time, my knee is going to take a while before i can really heals..

Saturday

Woot! I met my buddies late..my mum cooked my lunch, i'm somehow 'forced' to confine in the day for a while, after lunch, i feel lazy to go, so went to meet Gavian and Jonathan late. As usual, whacked balls and this time, we watched movie. I always like the feeling of watching movie. That's when time really flies, and during the process, we were engrossed in the movie. Be it nice ot bad, i treasure this moment for i hardly enjoyed film like that other than being in the movie theater. This time round, we watched 'Match Point'.

I thought this movie would be boring, as the starting shows quite a boring scene with lousy music. Although this whole movie only has two soundtracks - which are both 'music that caused sleepiness', the story wasn't really that bad. The girl certainly was beautiful, sensually attractive i would say. This actress has a lips that most man would want to kiss, i suppose that's the main reason why Don and Mun Hoe chose this movie.

Sunday

Went to buy my 1st ever webcam. So whoever has a webcam, please approach me online. Let's have some fun video conferencing. I suppose it would be fun. Hehe..oh ya, i decided to dump the idea of buying an Ipod Nano. Instead, i'm going to get the latest Sony A-series Walkman. It's so sleeky and cool, i simply can't wait to get my hands on it. Purple colour is the best, because it's my favourite colour. ARGH!!! I can't wait!!

Today

Woot! 1st time getting a free ride from Farhan's bike. This is the 1st time man, can u believe it. It's been weeks since he last bought his bike, and finally, he bought a helmet today, that's why i'm getting rides from him. I still remember how he said he would not speed that time when he just passed his driving test and about to buy a bike and today, he was speding through, way over the speed limit. Haha, initially, i was abit scared to ride as it's been months since he last pillion a person. Wahaha, but the feeling was shiok. Simply shiok, to have wind passing by you, hearing the sound of the motor bike engine and the speeding wind, one word can describe t - SHIOK! Farhan helped me alot in my portfoilio. As always, he's the only person that would helped me so much in most things that i do, that is why i never regretted knowing him as a friend, to the extent of regarding him as a very very close friend. Haha, the way he ride a motorbike is just different from the way he behaves. Only i can tell you that, for not many will be able to have the chance to witness what i witnessed today.

Tml is the street soccer compeition. Wish me goodluck people!! Wahaha, hope i don't come back with an injured leg again. *PRAY*

Alright man! Finally got my photocard license. The feeling is just so different. It's not an ordinary card, to me, it's a hard that i have been yearning for, one that i have been trying to get hold for months. Now whenever i pass that stupid dumb Bukit Batok Driving Centre, i can happily say that i will not need to go back there again (Don't worry, i'll try my best to be a safe driver and not get my license suspended) CHOI CHOI CHOI! The photocard license is certainly nice..wahaha..

Another piece of good news, finally my tests are all over..i can consider myself as a free bird..except i'm left with a small assignment to do which is my portfolio.

Now i shall try and chiong my maple and hopefully get the 3rd job asap..3rd job, here i come!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Valentine's Day To all couples, singles...EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If you are attached, may you feel especially loved today with lotsa roses, chocolates and maybe kisses..

If you are single, congrats. We are in the same boat..cmon..think positively..Ask me out..wahaha...

Alright! It's another wonderful outing yesterday. Sleeping for less than 3 hours, i woke up again. This time, off to send Amelia off to Australia. She's studying there..for how long..er...i'm not veru sure. This time round, we need to travel by public transport. We've got a car. Wahaha..Gavian picked Don up 1st before picking me up. After that, we're off the Changi Airport. Reached there very early....this is the 1st time i reached Changi Airport so early..Sent Amelia off and we went Chinatown.

Argh..we searched for The Billiard House. I had a mild impression of it - it's located above YumCha restaurant. And so, i found YumCha restaurant but at the same time, realised a bad news. The Billiard House has closed down. There goes my 21st birthday plan. I'll just have to find another place to celebrate my birthday party. At 11pm, it's also very hard to find a place where we can play pool..in the end, we were walking under the hot sun, around chinatown like an idiot. Headed back to the carpark where we parked our car and we proceed to Paradiz Centre.

When we reached there, we started whacking balls. Then Mun Hoe came to join us shortly..this time round, there's no ultimate winner and loser. ARGH!! i could have win, but only to lose to Don during the last game..wahaha..Mun Hoe left to met his friends after the pool session whereas we went to pick Jonathan up. Along the way, we saw alot of Indians..They were walking along the streets, celebrating Thaipusam i think. Some had to carried heavy stuff with lotsa things pierced onto their body..ewww...

Finally we met Jon, Natural Objection all present. And so, we went to Taka for dinner. We went Pariss. I started off the dinner quite uncomfortably because of stomach upset, but after bombimg the toilet, i'm back in action and started eating lotsa food..eat and eat and eat..It's been a long time since we had buffet together. As it was Gavian's birthday, we make do with the cake we found there. We gather up all the small cakes and used the marshmellows dipped with chocolate sauce as candle and present it to Gavian, singing birthday song at the same time. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAVIAN!!!

After dinner, it's down to MOS..Shiok..this is the 1st time we go to MOS (Ministry of Sound). Upon entering, loud booming music boost up the whole place. We decided to explore the whole place before settling down at a table. Along our way to exploring, we notice lotsa tables being reserved. Curious, we asked a waiter, under what conditions can we reserve a seat like that. His answer is that we can just called and reserve or e-mail them, provided we ordered at least..AT LEAST!!..a bottle of hard liquor i suppose. Example chivas..asked the waiter again, one bottle of such liquor would cost a whopping $200++..Wow..haa..maybe i shall hold my party here instead..hmm...I didn't drink that night as i would be the one driving later on. MOS to me is quite a nice place. But the only place that is spacious enough is 'The Arena" where the music is like house i suppose. I danced over there the whole night as the Retro and Hip-Hop side were packed like mad. A nice experience i had.

Can't wait to go there again..MOS anyone?

9th Feburary 2005! What an important date to me. A day that contain the most of my ups and downs. It will be a day that i'll always remember for the rest of my life. I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!! Well, u may think i'm nuts for 'bolding' and 'capsing' the words, but other than that, i can simply use nothing to convey my happiness, excitement and tons and tons of feelings and expressions to u people.

I owe this pass to lotsa people. My mum especially, who has been the one supporting me, encouraging me and even be there for me when i'm the one intending to give up, especially when that time i failed my driving test for the 2nd time. No one will understands how it feels to see you mum waiting anxiously at the driving centre just to see your failure and yet encourage you. That strongly makes me feel useless and a big letdown myself at that point of time. But my mum was the one who is there to drive me on..on and on and on...I owe this to her!! Others include my dad, my bro, my buddies and GOD!

I'm not a person that believes in GOD fully. 'GOD' itself is a profound word to me and always, to lotsa people. That's why religion is there for u to believe in and in search of the true you. I went on last friday to 'pray' to a GOD. He/She advice me to wear only blue or white and no red and black at all. My mum asked me to go, so i came back, telling her all the advice that was told by GOD. So, my mum prepared my shirt, jeans, underwear and almost everything that is to be wore by me on that very day. She even cut out the brand of the shirt which is black in colour. I was like, WTH. But what to do, i have to do it and believe in it since i asked and pray to it. So i went out with this kinda nerdy look, perticularly different from my usual self as i took of all my ear studs, cut my hair real short and dressed myself up like an er...idiot? Wahaha..

All these so called scacrifices payed off. I passed my driving test. I'm shocked to find out that i passed as i didn't drive really well that day. I was stunned for a few seconds when i got my results. After that, i was super happy, very very very happy. I couldn't wait to call my friends, and my mum!! Out of the 13 people who got tested on that time slot, only 4 passed and i was one of them. Phew...what a relief..now u know how strict the tester are and how lucky i am. I must stressed that i am darn lucky. I could passed because the tester were lenient on me. After that, i collected my temporary license and off i go to home sweet home.

When i reached home, i shared the good news with my mum and she jumped for joy. Reward for passing, ABALONE noodle soup. It's real abalone ok...not those that taste like fishcake.. Wah..lucky chap i am...then the rest of the day is just maple, maple and maple..

Today, Gavian went to rent a car as discussed. Today is the 1st time i drove frely without any instructor beside me. The feeling was totally different and shiok. The 1st time i drove on expressway too!! Wah..let me tell you, it's super cool..But it also let me sees how reckless some drivers are. The real driving ain't that safe. You won't even notice even if you are sitting in the front seat of a taxi or someone else's car. U have to actually drive to understand what i meant. Speed limit sign seems to have no effect on any drivers out there. I'm already exceeding the speed limit by abit due and all the car and speding past me..omg, imagine, speed limit is 90km/h and they are speding past me, i assume their speed would be around 140km/h. Wah..haa..kinda scary. Well, today was a good experience for me. Tml i'll be driving too. This time from west to east (My house to Changi Airport) Wow..haa..can't wait..gtg liao...ZzZZZz

I'm sorry to someone that this post came late, well, maybe way too late. I remembered i did mention someone i assumed that she's going to be my loyal reader. And surprisingly, i suppose that it's true..

This week ain't a good one for me..The worst so far this year..Monday, i handed in my final submission - my final year major project..Just so i thought i could relaxed after monday..nightmare came..I had my presentation on Tuesday.

I woke up very early on Tuesday, to be ready for my presenatation. Everything was ok until my turn, i'm expecting myself to do quite alright..like everyone does. It turned out not to be so..i'm abit disappointed in myself but more disappointed at my own lecturers who praise me for my good work before and during submission, yet not helping in to explain why i fail to convey. You may ask, it's your presentation, why should they do that to help you. First of all, they did help the others too, y not me? Secondly, they understand my work best and most, so why not correct my failure in presentating my project scheme to the panel. Haiz..Anyway, it was a total suck-up!

After presentation, i went for my driving revision. It's been 3 months since i last drove (the last time i drove was the time i failed my driving test). The driving revision was totally bad. I forgot how to drive and had some , err, actualy it's alot of mistakes. I felt totally bad, my morale is low. Suddenly, all bad things are happening. I pour out to my mum yesterday, as usual, she's worried for me and consoled me. How good it is to have a mother who listens to you. I'm happy that i have such a mother..Mood started picking up.

Went market today with my mum..It's been so long since i last went to market with her. Had a short chat with her, cut my hair (for the driving test tml). I seriously hope i can pass, so that i won't let myself down, my friends down and most importantly, my parents down. Please God, bless me and let me pass my driving test. Today driving revision was alot better that yesterday. That heavily boost my morale to the top and i'm starting to gain confidence for tml's driving test. Saw my cousin at the driving centre too. After the lesson, i met up with him and chatted a while. He complained about his driving instructor, who's always giving one chop at a time. Well, i understand how he feels as i've been through what he's going through. But i supposed he's much more worse than me. It's very frustrating how your instructor who purposely gives u only one chop when u have completed what u are supposed to or even more and better. That means we have to put in more money into the 'BBDC' (Bukit Batok Driving Centre) pocket.

Haiz..ive got no mood to write alrdy. Hopefully by the time i blog the next time, hopefully tml, i'll be blogging about some really good news...readers, pray for me..

Well, this post is for a recent reader who turns out to be quite a friendly girl who goes around calling me ' red head, red head'. Haa..I suppose she will be a loyal reader to my blog just like how her sister used to be like, or maybe still..haa, i don't know.

Yesterday rushed project til i'm going bonkers. Actually, i;m not rushing. Just getting frustrated by the amount of work that has to be done. Making my hair stand up. Nevertheless, i still manage to finish it - of cos not putting my whole heart and mind onto it. Well, i'm not the kind that will concentrate on doing the project, and doing it properly. I'm just those kind who's like ' aiyah, like that can la..heck..as long as got show can already'. That's why i never get good grades - i mean As or even Bs. I never intended to for i know what kind of person i am. People may say, y u don't try, isn;t it wasteful of your parents money for u just to study in this manner. I can't help it, that's how i am and i don't intend to change. I'm not cut out to be those 'study, nerdy, hardworking' type. Ask me to spend hours to study for a test/exam or doing project on the computer, i will tell you, not even one hour, i will feel uneasy. Ask my buddy, Don, and he will tell u how exactly it feels like to be doing the forementioned. Cos he recently got tormented by some dead living things - his notes about his training.

I'm the one who's like what Mildred say she is too - work hard and play hard. Wahaha, well, not exactly that type, i suppose to be those who work less play more. I'll always find time to relax myself, in prevention of me going nuts and jumping down from where i am sitting to studying or doing my project (I lived at 9th storey, jumping down from where i am will surely caused some 'mixing up'. And yay! Finally i gained level. But as compared to Mildred who i have decided to presume her as MAD! She's already level 57, in the time span of like, a few days/weeks? Well, maybe she has the help of whom she claimed not to be her bf but ain't it just so obvious. Well, i'm not going to probe too as she might has her own reasons.

Man Utd was shit yesterday. They play like some fools, being fooled around by monkeys(refering to blacburn here). Watching the 1st half was already wasteful of my sleeping time, so i decided to turn in during the 2nd half. Farhan woke up early to come to my house to complete our projects. ARGH, i got fed up with some problems that came on just before we were finishing our projects. It's always the thumbdrive that driving me crazy. Til now, the thumbdrive that someone gave me is still not fixed and i'm pissed! So much so that i have decided to buy myself a external HDD. Woo..whoever is reading this, any recommendations and any idea what's the price range for a external HDD of around 30-40GB?

Finally, got my project printed out. Driving test is next week, this is my ??? time. I seriously wanted to pass..tml i'll be going to temple to pray, argh, i'm just having this darn phobia of this test. Crap..let me cool myself and feel fearful all the way until next thursday. Mel was mentioning on her blog how lonely she is going to be. Thinking through of what she has blogged, it kinda tough to find your other half. It takes two hands to clap so well, what to do. I'll be joining Mel and lotsa other singles on that very wonderful day. Isn't it just another normal day, just abit more roses, chocolates, a few more intimacy between dumb couple (because i'm jealous of them..wahaha). Chey..haa..i rather be mapling and gain level fast, hopefully to catch up lotsa people. I'm fed up with being ks-ed and not getting help from friends..they sux..

Chinese New Year

Well, all i could say is that Chinese New Year is getting more and more boring year by year. I basically spending my whole 3 days of holidays at home. Slacking, drinking and consuming the all junk food that i can find. Didn't manage to go anywhere to bai nian today. As usual, my relatives would all gather at my aunt house who lives below me with her only son - 'ah bear'. Afterwards, they'll come and gather at my hse. The duration of their stay at my house is lesser and lesser year by year too. Surprisingly, two of my relatives and their families didn't turned up this year. That makes it even worse. I didn't even talk to some of my cousins as we aren't very close or rather, not close at all. Thinking that how great it was to spend chinese new year when we were still young (refering to around age 10), looking forward to this great festive holiday is the happiest things on earth, cos we get to drink fizzy drinks, eat like never before and most importantly, play til we sweat as if we just came out from the swimming pool. However, years pass, all of us has grow up. No general topic between each other, and that makes us bored. Nevertheless, i still tried to organise activities with a few of my closer cousins.

We went to lot 1 to play abit of pool. It was a great session. After which we proceed to movie. This time round, we watched 'Fun with Dick and Jane'. A funny movie of cause but i don't think it's worth the money as the story ain't that nice and the duration of the movie was short.

Here comes day 2 and it's more boring than day 1. I'm staying at home the whole day..playing maple and surfing around. How i hate Chinese New Year now..it's even worse than Hungry Ghost Festival. Luckily, Jon came to my hse later in the day before us, proceeding to Don house for some fun. Haa, now's the fun part. We started off by going to don's parents and bai nian to them. As usual, exchange of madarin oranges and hong baos. Then finally, the last man has arrived - Gavian. We then chatted a while before trying out PS2. Haa, my multi-tap sux as it couldn't function anymore. I don't know what is wrong with it but luckily, Gav's works. Wohooo, we played Winning Eleven with 4 of us together as a team. Haa, it's more than just a game to Gavian and maybe to us, it's a Comedy too! Haha..it's hilarious how 4 person can play as a team as chasing after a ball would require the 4 of us, dashing towards a stupid ball, haha..causing lotsa funny action. After that, it's WWE. Haha, we punch each other, kick each other like there's no tomorrow, til our hands numb, or maybe it's just me. Finally, it's mahjong session. Gavian has the best luck initially, then followed by Jon. I won a few too but poor don didn't win any. I feel it's kinda unfair to Don as he don't really know how to play but i guess he still had fun. During this session, there was some debate on some issues on the game, ahaha, which still remained unsettled for we are still not experts afterall. Jon finally gets 'fed up'. He lost money to me and Gav like it's going to last forever and in the end, he suggested play poker game - a game he presume he could win back his loss and even get winnings - FAST! Wahah..well, expected or maybe not, he lost even more money. Hahah...cmon jon, it's fated. After which we packed up and went back home to ZXzZzZz

3rd day. It's project day. Haha, it's the day before sch starts again which means, it's the day where i try and do my project fast. As usual, i can't get my heart set on it, and get kinda frustrated doing it. Sis and her bf came ard mid afternoon. I must say i'm a poor host but certainly better than my bro. Hong Qi (my sis bf) went to my bro room (of cos as he don't know me that well) and started playing PS2 and my sis of cos would come to my room. Aww, i'm so stuck to what we should do. Me, being the one who ask my sis to come, end up making my sis bored. Haa, feeling bad, i cracked my dumb and cocked up brain and in the end, some vcd saves the day, or rather afternoon. Initially, she suggested watching 'wet dreams' (a korean sex comedy), but as she watched, she don't know what are they talking about, haa, so we switched to her 'favourite genre' - HORROR!! Haa, suprise to find her choosing that movie. And i must say, she's great, for being able to watch finish the whole movie. It's cute to see how my sis react to the movie where there;s horrow scenes. Haha, come to think of it, i haven't seen any horrow movie with her before. hmm...nevertheless, we complete the movie and son after she left with her bf.

I slack while before falling to sleep. Didn't have a good day yesterday because i'm having too much troubles, maybe that explain why i can be such a bad host to my sis too. Haiz, a sleep and a talk with my mother certain;y makes me feels better. The company of Don online was helping too. Poor him, have to study for his exam to the extent of not sleeping (well, he still sleep in the end..haa!). Wish him goodluck for his exam, oops, maybe it's over already but still, goodluck man!

It's only a few more days to my project submission. I can't wait for it to past!! ARGH!! These efw days, i have to burn midnight oil, going to sleep to replenish my fuel now..

Finally, the long awaited Lunar New Year is here...i miss the 'aucpicious' hour..i slept past it..wahaha..can't help it, i'm just too tired after a fulfilling reunion dinner.

Yesterday went Mun Hoe with Gavian, Donovan and Mun Hoe. Actually intended to go eat frog leg porridge but cos we were afraid we were unable to catch any bus to anywhere convinient, so Gavian suggested going clubbing. This time, Jonathan didn't join us because someone in his section/company lost his rifle. I didn't know it was so serious to lost a rifle until my buddies told me how serious it could be. One could get charged and held in detention barracks for 7 years, that's no difference from going to jail. I bet the person who lost is must be feeling bad, worried...just having lousy and mixed feelings. It's just no joke. Then thoughts started coming to my mind. Serving NS so much so until u get into trouble yourself, suffering in and out..just total crap. Enough of this shit, let's talk about the clubbing instead.

So we guys went to Music Underground after much thought and analysis. But it proved to be a wrong decision. Wahaha, should have gone to zouk man, well, no one's to be blamed. Reason why clubbing ain't that fun yesterday - well, at least for me. Too little people, that greatly decreased the number of female clubbers. Not only that but yesterday Hip Hop songs seems a little bit too much, actually not little bit, it's too too much. I was like standing there for quite a long time before some techno songs came back to get me into dancing mood. As usual there will be one or two weird clubbers. There was one who dance like a monkey who lotsa funny actions, making me laugh as i thought he's just making a fool of himself. Mun Hoe and Gavian didn't seems to be that active yesterday..i wonder why..

Today i woke up, kinda worried about my project but i just don't give any [CENSORED]--> (damn/shit) about it. I started off the Lunar New Year eve with lotsa maple. Wahaha..had fun and it's just play play play for today. Finally, it's reunion dinner time. This year, we had steamboat. Yay..i ate alot..especially the fishballs - my favourite! Yummy...after eating, went to watch tv. Godzilla is showing on tv..it's just a superb show i would say. After the show, i fall asleep without realising and by the time i wake up, it's past midnight. Wahaha, never mind. Still --> HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR PPLE <--

Saturday

Went to Don's house in the afternoon with my guitar, pedal and amplifier. Ready to rock his house. Pick Gavian up in a cab before heading towards Donna house. Once we reached the house, we put down our 'weapons' before heading to the nearest foorcourt to replenish our energy before going back to Rock and Jam!

We started off with Jesus of Surburbia. This time round, with the absence of Jon (Due to one/some reasons or another). We had a great and fun time, as always. Not long after, we (The 'we' here refers only to me and Gavian because Don has elegantly tourtured his leg - sprained) headed to Lot 1 Shoppers Mall. Shopped for whatever we need for the steamboat and off we go, back to Don's house.

So we started preparing the food. Slowly one by one, dishes of good filled up the whole table and soon, it was dinnertime! Started off by eating the 'YU SHENG'...Huat ah!! That's the earliest 'Yu Sheng' i've ever ate in my life but was quite fun. Then it was down to steamboat...ate and chatted along the whole meal all the way until the dessert part - Chocolate Fondue.

With abit of Chocolate Fondue left, Don started suggesting playing Indian poker. So those who lost will have to eat whatever is left on that steamboat pot and mix with the chocolate, can u imagine? It looks like err..almost like shit(U will know why i say 'almost' later).. So one by one, got punished and including me too. Finally, the worst forfeit - Raw egg with tomato sauce, chilli sauce and chocolate. Ewww, that's what i called SHIT! As planned, Mun Hoe gave out the cards and purposely leave Don's lucky card - Clubs of ACE and in the end, Don ended up forfeited, expected anyway. He knew Mun Hoe cheated by still drank it, well, Applause for his Spirits!!

Sunday

Spend whole day at home, took a nap before waking up. Finally, more and more people are joining me in Maple. Those who used to played with me are started to give me cold shoulders, just because they think they are of higher level than me, they can choose to depise me, ignore me, but who cares..Play with Rocky abd Solomon. Haa, these two are funny chaps and enjoyed playing with them as i could see myself in them (i used to be a beginner too).

Later that night, it's showdown. Man Utd VS Liverpool. Watching the match with eargerness. It was a tight match and i was expecting a draw. Who knows in the final minute, Rio Ferdinand heads in a nice ball from my favourite player - RYAN GIGGS. Well, he couldn't have scored if not for Giggs's wonderfull cross-in right..hmm..Man Utd Way to go!!

Can't wait for Chinese New Year..Come fast please!

This week's has nothing much in store. Actually was looking forward clubbing tml but then Don coincidentally sprained his legs. He asks us to go ahead, but i was thinking, what's fun without him. Already without Jon, now still without him? No la..cannot de..see don, i'm so good...treasure me more...I suppose we will go his house to jam and have steamboat instead. Hm...not a bad idea too.

My project's on the right track, now i've another problem.. I wanted to apply for Degree-courses but i don't know where i should be heading. I was thinking for taking up hospitality courses or some design courses - as in product design. Film's not bad too as i took film as my elective. Got that interest for it since last time, just unlucky my English ain't that good, that's why didn't manage to get into Film, Sound and Video course in Ngee Ann Poly. Hopefully, by the deadline, i should be able to apply for what i would like to pursue.

Yay..Finally..My Maple character has levelled up. Took me so long, finally it's able to wear the new clothes that i spend alot money on. Somehow, got cheated too..I shall train harder to get it to level 50 so that it can wear the complete suit..

Sis's fell sick. From her sms, i feel that it's quite serious. But she don't want to see doctor, she even wants to go sch and take the test. Seeing her like that, i was thinking..Studies in JC is already very tiring. Have to study study and study..if it's me, i would probably die from all the lectures notes..Hopefully sis can get well soon..

Today my lecturer was giving a lecture on partition. I must say this is the lecture that i gave my most attention to. Don't know why, i just feel that i learnt alot today - about parition. Glass partitions, concrete wall partitions..hmm..My lecturer also tells us something. He says, the reason why most of us sang so well in bathroom is because the space tends to be smaller as compared to a room. Furthermore, the tiles around it and small open spaces within the bathroom absorbs and also bounce off the sounds, making this 'surround' sound. He also joked that the reflected sound are your back up singer. That's why u tend to think that u sing better, thus increasing some people morale and even went for Singapore Idol Audition only to get "****" by Dick Lee or that 'Ah Lian'( Florence)..wahaha...i'll still try playing my guitar in the bathroom someday..

Yea!! It's Monica Birthday PArty!! Headed down to Suntec 1st actually to buy my Chinese New Year clothes. Went Topman and bought a nice long sleeve t-shirt. Quite like it. It's the same designs as Donovan's ('Brothers' should wear the same design mah), but the colour is different from his though. Afterwards, went to Monica's house straight. Along the way, we talked about lotsa things, as always, topics would just come naturally between us. That's the kind of bond we had, and i proud to say, it's getting stronger day by day or rather week by week.

Reached Monica's house without Jonathan (who's the one holding her present). Wished her a happy birthday but felt bad as i feel that it's isn't that nice to wish her happy birthday without giving her the present. I didn't expect it to be so awkward. Saw a couple of my friends or rather classmates. Mon was at her best that day but of cos, it's her day! Not long after, Relatives of her and some other classmates and her friends came. Soon, we started mingle around with a few of them. Wow, they were such a babe! Lucky me to know them..wahaha..Played a game of Indan Poker and let me tell u, it's the worst Indain Poker i've ever played. There were Martell, Vodka, some other alcohol, coke and sprite. Luckily, they only played one game as it's time to cut the birthday cakes. The mug used in the Indian poker is super big man..lucky i'm not the unlucky one, or should i said, the lucky one. Haa, hmmm, i'm imagining what would happen if Jon were to drink it. And bet you, he would drink it all up because pretty girls are all around him.

After that we took photos with Mon and when we finished singing the birthday song, everyone sprayed at Monica, creating 'webs' around her. Wahaha..its was so fun and not long after that, we left for town yet again for a session of pool. This time, Mun Hoe won..Alright, that's it! Next time, it shall be either my turn or Gavian's.

That night, i was talking to Don about the fining of some authorities for posting songs on blogs and personal free hosting website. One will be fined if caught. Allowing downloads of songs/videos will get worse punishments. Haiz..i was thinking, it's getting abt unfair. We actually have to apply for permission to put songs on our web/blogs, and this application cost at least $1000. The more songs we uploaded, the more we have to pay. I mean the purpose is not about piracy anymore. I'm mean not in this case. I'm talking about putting a song on our blog, to let readers enjoy what the blogger enjoys and likes. At the same time, relaxing the reader's mood to get him/her into the right ambience to read what's being posted on the blog. It certainly has no reason of going against original and being 'pirated'. I wouldn't say that much for the uploading of songs on web for viewers to download cos that indeed supports piracy. I'm myself ain't a 'original' person, i mean most aren't. No fuss about it. People will ask, 'WHY ME?' Often than not, i hope i won't be the lucky one. Neverthless, i still put the song on my blog for i don't think i will be given that surprise.