Phuket Trip

Feeling low. Don't know why. I guess it's a syndrome that ALMOST everbody will suffer from. A syndrome whereby it will only occurs usually after a period of enjoyment, be it short of long. Usually, after a few days for holiday or spending a few days in a high, i'll suffer from this syndrome. Plus the lung function test on Wednesday morning. Obviously the letter my doctor gave me doesn't has any effect on anything, or is it just that stupid Medical Officer making things difficult for me. I don't know..usually when such times, Dear will come to my rescue..but she's sick..sadly..but thankfully, i talked to several people, my brother, my mother and fishball. Hopefully, Wednesday will turn out fine..

Now back to my Phuket trip. Finally, my first time out of Singapore ever since i got enlisted. Ever since my last overseas trip with dear to Genting, i've been looking forward to a 2nd one. This trip has an addition of two person, Donna and his friend, Chloris.

Reached airport super early. By 6 plus in the morning, we're already there. Checked in and there we are, flying to Phuket. Weather was hot, what was more worrying is the closure of those beaches prior to the news report we saw regarding Phuket when we were in Singapore. I mean, what's Phuket without the BEACHES?!?!?!

Had a short tour before finally reaching the hotel. Not as nice as expected in terms of appearance but still, it was good enough for a stay. The sun there was as glaring as ever. Hot but not humid, i would gladly conclude the weather in Phuket would be much more bearable as compared to Singapore's weather.

And now for our first feast!! I've heard so much from people who had been to Phuket telling me how cheap the seafood there was. And true enough, the seafood there is super cheap. Our first feast at a seafood restarant was a good experience. Well, can't expected any grand ambience there, but the food make it up for everything. The juicy prawns, crispy and tender squid, soft and tasty veggies...wooo...simply delicious. Everything was so cheap except for the prawns! The prawns in Phuket cost much more expensive as compared to those prawns in Singapore.

And also, their Macdonald there was different too. They upsize is really UPSIZE! For a person who can eat two Macdonald meals in Singapore could well barely finish off a UPSIZED Macdonald meal in Phuket. Their large cup of drink and big packet of fries is enough to down you.

Had actually wanted to tried food from roadside stall but we pushed it till the very last day, just in case anything happens, we'll be in safe Singapore by then. We did went to the beach! Sunset was beautiful. Sand was fine. Sun was good but dirty water! Didn't achieved the tan we wanted.

I and Don went to Phi Phi Island (they claim that if you never been to Phi Phi island, that means you've never been to Phuket, how true is that, we check it out). We went there with the intention of snorkeling and to make up for the failure to make ourselves tan the day before. Took us near 2 hours before we arrived to our snorkeling destination. My first time snorkeling. Something interesting happen.

Both me and Don had purposely bought a water camera (resistant and water proof) for the snorkeling adventure. I put it in the pocket before we dipped ourselves into the sea. The moment i jumped down, i was told by staff that we had to put our safety vest on. And so, we did. After swimming a distance away, Don asked me where was the camera, it's only then that we realised it's gone from my pocket. We know it's gone for sure. Haiz...to our dismay, we continued the whole snorkeling adventure without the camera. To think that Don still don't believed me when i told him it's lost. His reaction was funny..very funny..

The snorkeling trip was eye opening for me. I see coral, fishes and sea urchins real life. All those creatures that i've been seeing on TV for years had finally appeared just in front of my eyes, just centimeters away.

We had our final seafood feast that night. We ordered more, but to our disppointment. It was as nice we expected. Anyway, there's lots of things in Phukt. There's gay bars, lots of bar and oh ya, Thai Boxing compeition. You could hear vans moving around the road, shouting 'Tonight, tonight! Thai boxing. 9am at XXXX Boxing Stadium. See the Champ of the Champ.' We heard all those everynight. Until even Don could memories all in his head. Haa..

Time came soon when you were having fun. Finally our last day and home we flew back! Bought a bottle of Vodka Pear. The tastiest Vodka i've ever drank. The pear taste was so obivious that you can literally taste it. If anyone of you have got the chance to go to the duty free shop, buy it. You won't regret it.

Finally, i'll let the photos do the talking

Phuket Ice-Cream Feast
A new addition to the street ever since the Tsunami 06
Big Elephants!! We rode them!
Nice scenery isn't it!

Patong Beach
Sastifying Meal
Sunset at the Beach

Random

Finally, the day i've been waiting for has arrived. I'm not as excited as i was when i knew my trip was confirmed. Maybe it's because of the knowledge that Phuket isn't a great place to be in now. Its beaches are all closed. It has high flood and it's rainy season over there. That seriously has dampen my mood. I even stretched my mind with the thought of going to Bangkok from there for a short trip.

It's ok. My second time going on a holiday with Dear, this time round, with my best pal, Donovan as well and his friend. Coincidentally, It's the 2nd time i'm going holiday with Donovan as well. Waha! Seems like two is the lucky number this time round.

Guard duty was scary 3 days before. I didn't know if it's my own illusion of what, somehow or rather, i felt the bed moving, or to be exact, i felt the pillow trembling. I ignore the fact subconciously. Haiz..i hated Guard duty. That has always seem to be the case. I hate National Service. Seriously, until now, i still felt that it's a total waste of time.

I'm not enjoying my work. My superior doesn't really treat my as his personal assistant. My working colleagues? Nah, i just can't click well with them. Thankfully, there's fishball. A great buddy i would say.

I'm so sian now...Waiting for Champions League Final to begin. I wonder if i can pass through the night and if i can, will i be super shagged tomorrow? I don't want to have headache again. My headache came back again today. It sucks totally. Let's just hope my trip tml will be a fun one. Much more better than last year...Prayers!!

The Bloody Bruise

The Bloody Bruise

Welcome to the world of bruises. As if my head isn't bringing my enough headache. If anyone of you bother to read the previous posts, you would have realise my agony that i had with my head for the past few days.Now, to top it off, i've an additional 2 more 'bun' on my head. One from knocking my head on the wall, the other from knocking my head against the edge of my computer desk. Ouch..both 'bun' are so near to each other that it actually hurts. Blood can be seen coming out from the second bruises. Ouch..pain pain pain..

I USED TO know i was once allergic to perfume and pet's fur. As i grow older, i started to come across more of such thing, especially perfume. To a date whereby i even started using them. I didn't know i had any problem with it, i though my allergy's cured. I was so wrong. My brother bought perfume from the duty free shop, one for my mum, one for my girlfriend. It was exquisite - small and nice. Never did i know, they were so deadly, deadly to me. I tried to help both lucky ladies to open those small little bottles, ended by, having a few drops on my hand. I smell it, just for a mere 1-2 seconds, and that's it. I'm a clown now. My nose red as clown. My runny rose was running as though water is rushing out from the tap. I've used 3 handkerchief. I took flu medicine. It isn't helping. Hopefully by tomorrow morning, i'll be alright.

The Exquisite but deadly perfumes.

Tomorrow's my final guard duty for the month. As usual, morale will be low. I'm glad enough to have Dear taking up her studying time for me. Especially for me. What happened earlier on was over, i'm just glad i finally get to see her long enough, long enough to feel what i've lost for a long time. Love You Mrs Dear.

By the way, Man Utd lost. They seriously shouldn't have. They played well, better than Chelsea. They shouldn't have lost. And even that goal that wasn't counted should have been a goal, but well, human make mistakes, referees were no exception. At least they ended this season with a league title. Good enough. There's always next season. Go Fergie!

My Life so Far

I realised something. I haven't live my life the way i should. But i've got almost everything. Very supportive parents, a cool brother, wonderful girlfriend and some great friends. What else is lacking? Let's see....hmmm..

I'm finiancially doing well. Sometimes, it's not easy for NSF to spend as they wish, but still, i managed well. I don't spend much, except for the fact that i still do go out and dotes on myself. and of course, on my dear.

My studies. I've got every certificate i'm supposed to get at my age. I'm starting a new course soon. I know it will be my stepping stone. It's part of my interest. I'm starting to look forward. I'm seeing a light at the end of the tunnel that i'm still walking. Everyone including my family, girlfriend and friends have been supportive. That's well enough. No way am i going to let them down.

I hardly go out now. I've become a more homely person. The bed at home, the games at home, the shows on tv and the food my mother prepared, all that is enough to keep me occupied at home and i'm loving it. I hardly go out nowadays. I miss outside. I want to go zoo. I want to go shopping whole day. I want to go pubbing and clubbing. I want to go roller-blading. I want to go alot of places! I miss those times..

My health is bad. Nothing's wrong with me now, but i feel i am. I had to control my diet and i'm trying hard. Singapore ain't named a food paradise for no reason. It's hard to resist good food, whereby in this case, good food to me refers to oily, fried and delicious yummy food. I had to refrain consuming too much of such food, if not, before i know it, some part of me will lose its function.

My First Year with dear just passed. Had a nice dinner. At the same time, gave away my 3 gifts of love for her. Was happy, but she isn't feeling well. And yes, at the very wrong time. Few more days and we will be flying. That place is quite dangerous now, but it's not going to stop our fun.

Ever since my brother came back, home has become such a nice place to be in. I shall make full use of these few days before he's gone flying back to Bangkok again..and oh yes, finally bought my new digital-camera. The salesperson even gave me a cordless phone for free. The past experience with my EX digi-cam is gone. It shall be erased and replaced by this. I love my new digi-cam.

More pictures will be coming soon...just you wait!!

NA

I've been waiting for this day for a long time. A year ago, i could still remember clearly how we managed to get together. It was still clear and fresh in my mind, as though it had just happened yesterday. Although we didn't managhed to celebrate today, but no worries. Just concentrate on getting well. Thanks for the present. The folded hearts that was meant a surprise for me had touched me, the bracelet was even better and to top it off, your name was even carved there. Loved the presents you have me. Love the surprise you made for me. Most importantly, i love you. Muacks!

Finally, my bro's back from Thailand after months. We felt so alright these few days. No arguments like before. It seems so different now. Hmm...the feeling is just great. The feeling of family...the bond between us, is still there..just like before...

Dangers of Mobile Phone

Read this somewhere on the net...Believe it at your own risk!

A pregnant woman would have a very very high risk, almost near to 100% of having miscarriage. This is because her uterus has been affected by HAND PHONE radiation.
The radiation affected her uterus which the major portion of her uterus cells already deadand wasn't able to cannot carry a healthy baby. This would happen if one keep her hand phone in area which the position is just right to the uterus position for few years time. Please beware and take note the consequences is not worth.

Please do not overlook the hand phone radiation which will affect our health or body organs. Please put away your hand phone when ever you don't need it much.

As for man, Please do not keep your hand phone near to the kidney position and pants pocket as this will hurt and affect your "production" if you plan to get baby.

Doctors also advice people to hand phone away from a new born baby to avoid radiation to baby's brain and cells. Do not let the baby or toddler play with the hand phone for long time. This is because the small young baby or toddler still very fragile and most probably they cannot take the radiation.

Please remind yourself do not sleep together with your hand phone or put next to your bed. Keep away any other electronic goods (such as TV also) which got radiation away from your bedroom to reduce risk as we have to sleep few hours a day in our bedroom at night. Do not think that you switch off the TV it will be no radiation actually it is still around in your room just not eyes visible, even the small alarm clock not to be advised to put just next to your head while sleeping.

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My head has been giving me trouble recently. I've been having heacaches on the right side of my head. So painful that i wasn't able to open my eyes wide. So pain that i had to keep pressing my head. But medicine would stop the pain almost instantly. This headache has been around for days. I'm worried. My blood pressure was ok, maybe it's because of my nose - flu and blocked nose. My ears would hurt too..

Just back home from a guard duty. I was called up at the very last minute. Dut to certain cocked ups, my name wasn't named in the nominal roll, yet somehow, i'm actually in the list of the personnel doing guard duty on Saturday. Hopefully, i won't get punished. I assumed i would be able to watch Man Utd going all out against the pathetic Chelsea in the FA cup final! Woot!!

Dear finally started her very first exams. All i can say is that i'm feeling equally anxious as well. But my worries wasn't necessary, she has been preparing herself hard for the exams with exceptional late mid night oil. I admire her fighting spirit now. It's the kind of spirit which she had shown when i first known her.

My maple story has been well! Bought 24hr 2exp and chiong for quite long. Didn't managed to complete the final hours and gain another level because of the guard duty. Nevertheless, i'm happy with my level. A level 106 priest. Not good for some, but it's doing well for me. Shall progress to 4th job soon...very soon!!

I'm looking forward to next next week. This week shall passed fast. I hasn't been able to work on the surprise for my dear on our first anniversary..Hopefully i'll finish by then. I wonder how would i feel on that night..=) the feeling of falling in love again? Perhaps..

Anyway, i disappoint my mum yesterday. Had intended to treat her to a meal but was suddenly called up for guard duty. She was disappointed. I felt such a let-down. I'll try and make it up to her soon, very soon. Anyway, Happy Mother's Day Mummy!!

Man Utd - C.Ronaldo / Happy Birthday Mei Mei

Man Utd won Arch rivals Man City yesterday night by 1-0. They are so close to clinching the premiership title. It won't be long. A draw or loss for Chelsea against Arsenal will send them watch Man Utd clinch the title! All thanks to this man - Cristiano Ronaldo.

Next week, i'm sure they will be clinching the title. C'mon Man Utd buddies, make yourself free and let me know!!

Recently, i've seen dear so stressful over her exams. She had much lesser sleep, she even give up her favourite tv shows. She went out to study with her friends whole day non stop. I know she's tired. Sorry if i didn't show enough understanding, but no matter what, jia you dear dear. Let me know if you need any help.

You can do it. Gambatei!

Yesterday was Sis birthday. Gave her a pair of shades and a birthday card. Hope you like it. Happy Birthday sis.

Spiderman3 - The Movie

Spiderman 3- A nice movie. Linked well with the previous 2 series. The opening of the movie got me up on my seat. I'll give this movie a 4.5/5. The 0.5 wasn't given because of some stupid and lame scenes which really aren't worth mentioning. The totally cool part was the appearance of Venom. Wow, i was like so cool.!! It was a blue spider like monster that has similar skill to spiderman, except that it's evil. I love it's head with its sharps teeths. This movie tells me something too. Never do something unless you know you won't regret. He wore the evil suit even though he knew of the consequences, even hurting his girlfriend. But luckily, all ended well.
Overall, a nice movie thay i would recommend. =)

Dear was sweet to come early to my house on that public holiday itself. We finally spend quality time together because she's quite busy recently as her exams are coming up. I do feel quite empty at times but i do understand that it's only for a shirt period of time. Dear, do not worry and go ahead with your studies k, u have my support.

My mind has been thinking about my 1st year with dear and the phuket holiday. When is it coming...i just can't wait..i'm going to have so much fun again. No worries, just relaxing and playing..Never mind, i'm starting to count down

Man Utd lost 3-0 AC milan and got knocked out of Champions League. No Man Utd fans would expect that results. That sucks..totally. I'm glad i didn't wake up and watch the match cos if i did, i'll just faint right away. Disappointment!! Just when i thought the treble hopes are alive, suddenly it's dashed.Sad!

Way of Life

This is adsurd..absolutely. Human has to learn..Human has to grow up. For one to grow up, there's has to be risk, sacrifices and difficulties. It's only through these hard processes and moments that human learn and learn and grow from there.

One can't just stucked in the shell. If that's that case, something has to be done. If not, things will go out of hand. It don't just involve a person. It involve many. I may not be related, but i feel i have the responsibility. It's good things are starting to change. Reminders has to been given every now and then.

Imagine a person who's always at home. He/she won't know what's going on out there. He/she won't know what is the life out there. It will cause great harm and difficulties when he/she go out to work in future. Parents can be there for now, but what about future?

There's a saying that goes:

Give the person a fish and he'll survive for that day only.
Teach the person to fish and he'll survive forever til the day he dies.

Right now, i can only say everything is unstable. I had always thought it can last. At least for the very 1st few months. But now, things seems to take a turn. I'm still not feeling as though i'm part of what i should be. All those words shooted from your mouth seems to have a specific direction and damage to me. It's words of anger, yes i agree. But isn't it too harsh? I'm sure i'm not treated how i should be treated when those words was shoot isn't it. I'm very sure. Worse of all, that sentence finally came out. I knew..it has scarred my heart once again. Never will i forget that, and never easily will i forgive that. It's done. Not easy to forget. I've learnt a lesson. One that only i can teach myself.

For now, i won't pin too much hope. I'll let nature take its course. I realise there's certain things that it's better if i keep to myself and not tell anyone else. I've learn to depend on myself more. I trust myself more than anybody else now.

Sidetrack abit...i've been exercising everyday recently. I'm on my way to 6-pac physique. No more tummy for me. No more wobbling fats for me. Just a healthy body and i want to make sure i can eat well, at the same time, maintaining a healthy body. It's hard to resist food, especially when you are in a food heaven like Singapore. There's alot more food i want to eat! Someday, i shall drive around Singapore and eat all the good food i can find. Yummy..

Random

Finally touched my cut stick once again. Main joy wasn't because i got to play pool again, but because i get to catch up with my friends. It's been a long time since i last met up with Don and Jon, especially Jon. Each had our own commitments, nevertheless, we are still able to meet up.

Both of them are going to 'ORD' soon. Left 2-3 months of service and they'll be on their way to sch. Happy for them. Mentioning about school, i myself i going to school too. Had confirmed to enrol into the Diploma of Travel, Tourism and Hospilality management. Thankfully, i got the support of my mum and Dear. If everything goes on well, i should be starting school on 11 July.

Yesterday i was feeling super low. Out of the sudden. I felt as though i had no life. I was bored, i was feeling as though i had no life. So much things i wanted to do, to colour up my life. I want to go out. I want to spend time with my Dear. I want to watch soccer. I want to play games.

Man Utd won yesterday! 4-2. A big comeback from them. The EPL title is within reach now. Chelsea didn;t get their full 3 points as Bolton came back from behind to drew level with them. YES! I can't wait til the day where i watched them lift up the trophy.

Changed Thai Baht today. The exchange rate had dropped. But it's only a little difference, so not affecting us alot. May's coming, which means my trip is nearing. The news of Phuket receving tremors from the Earthquake from Indonesia yesterday does made me feared awhile, but i'm still looking forward to it. Phuket, here i come!!

Random

I feel that i haven't blog enough tonight. There's still stuff i haven't blog down here.

Back to the topic - MSU 2007.

I seriously think it's a crisis here. There's obviously no lack of pretty girls in Singapore, but due to the prospects, lots of such girls aren't partcipating. Most girls in the compeition isn't as attractive. some even spoke English that's broken. I suppose they don't just look at the body, looks but also the brains. But it's obvious who stands out more. Right from the start, i could made a guess of who will come out top. The points she got, doesn't it tells the viewer the results already? Hmm...i was disappointed that peggy didn't get through instead, the other got into the top 3.

PS: XiaXue looked fat when she posed the question to the contestant. Waha!

I somehow regretted buying A-cash for my maple. Purpose for buying is to gain twice the experience. But i'm having difficulties finding people to train with me. I've been dying non stop and always stuck within those few %. I'm so frustrated. Haiz...i'm starting to hate this game. Yes, some of you are going to smile upon seeing this, go ahead, hopefully it will come true some day isn't it? Haa, i hope so too..

I seriously want a Digital Camera. I've always wanted to take out pictures, capturing those good moments with my loved ones. Espcially special occasion whereby it's specially meaningful. Ever since that fateful day where i lost my digital camera, i've been feeling kind of sad. Always asking myself how did it even got lost whenever something like that struck my mind. I want a Digital Camera..I'll save up after my trip. I'll get it..someday!

Mum has been telling me how good my PSP is. Being able to play video, music, games and even surf the net and watch tv, she can only say it's a right choice that i bought it. But the games i go for are quite limited. There's isn't really much genre of games i would play. So i can actually use it for lotsa of other stuff.

I'm now transferring all my photos that's inside my hard disk drive into the web. Yahoo web hosting seems a nice place to store my photos. The easy upload tool really saves me alot of time. It quite user friendly too. Someday i'll go clear my laptop and computer. Have been toggling between the two recently. Computer for the downloading of games whereas i use my laptop more for games and design stuff.

Recently, i'm hooked of songs by Relient K. Guys who are interested in rock music, get their songs from me. I got a whole chunk of their collection of songs. Blah blah blah....

Random

Let's start from Sunday - my guard duty. It wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. I've finally learnt how to pass weekend guard duty the easier and relaxed way. A few vcds/dvds, newspaper, magazine and food will do the trick. Rented 'A night at the museum' and 'Protege'. Both shows make my money worth spending.

Was totally shagged on monday but luckily, my boss's away at Germany till Thursday. I'll be free all the way. Shiok..

Pay finally came. First time i took pay so late, it's like around a month after i worked, then the pay came in. Nevertheless, it's always late than never. I miss my Dear over the past few days. Especially during guard duty. I'll never forget how she helped me passed my time when i'm in that 'prison'. She doesn't realised how much it meant to me when there's her when i'm having guard duty. If she did, things would probably be much much different and better. But still, she did made me feel better.

I suddenly feel so loved. We didn't argued as often as before. We were so loving recently, maybe it's before the air is cleared. We're just waiting for our first year anniversary and holiday now. May will be a great month for us, and yes i'm very sure it will be.

Made a new blog for Dear, something that resemble mine. I've been constantly working on the surprise that i'm going to give for my Dear this coming 1st year anniversary. Hearng the experiences from my friend did helped me. Hmm...seems like thing's going on very well for me.

My PSP is flashed V3.30! I'm soo happy. No more having to off my psp just to change game. No more facing plain theme background, instead, it's the picture of me and my dear. =)
I'll be downloading more games for my dear.

New BlogSkin

Finally, i've changed my blogskin. After so many attempts to change it, i've finally overcome my laziness and convinced myself to create a whole new look my blog.

Reason for that picture on top: A special meaning just for me and my dear.

Had a wonderful Dim Sum over at Red Star restaurant along with my working colleagues, a lunch treated by a female captain at my office. First time i went out with my colleagues. Actually nothing much..back to the food. That restaurant looks familiar to me but i just can't recalled anything about it.

Tml's guard duty again. I hate Sundays guard duty. All because the next day is a working day. I'll have to bear that uncomfort and lotsa stuff. I rented 2 shoes, brought one magazine, brought 2 tidbits and a waffle to past a boring day tomorrow. Wonder will tomorrow be a smooth and peaceful day for me...haiz!!

NA

So much has brought us till today. Not easy to let you go..always easier said than done. I'm sill loving you, more and more. Fate brought us together, love carried us on...Happy Eleventh Month Anniversary Mrs Dear! Muacks!

Corporal at last! / Disrespectful Bro

Got my 1st coporal pay! That little amount mean alot, especially to NSF. Plus, i was even happier when it was announced that NSF pay will increase by 50 bucks in july this year. Wah shiok, which means in a few months time, i'll be getting XXX bucks? Woot!

Another good news to share. Man Utd got through to the FA cup final with a whopping 4-1 win over Watford. Possibly facing all time rival, Chelsea. hmm...there's too much rivalry going on in between these two teams now. In champions league, in english league and now in FA cup. But there's a worrying issue, i truly wish Man Utd could hold that trophy in the final. It's been a long time since i had the feeling watching Man Utd crowned champions. The injury list is going and worrying. but i'm sure, everything will be overcome.

I have this nuts brother. His temper has really gotton over him. He talked to our parents with dissrespect. Yes, i didn't helped him with the overseas call thingy, but yet, he should have understood. What on earth do i know what's he's talking about. I know nuts about such things. Furthermore, if he knows, send me some website or procrdure that i could see or follow.
Instead, he blast my dad off, making my dad feel so angry and pissed. Dad says, this kind of son is disappointing. If in future, temper is still not curbed, the one to suffer got to be he himself. I don't know what to say. He really has a super bad temper and disrespect. He thinks he can get past everything just by blaming me. Fat Hope dude..He already gotton himself hot on heels. Dad's will surely be giving him a chop once he's back...disappointing...haiz..

haiz, i dread of the word guard duty. I'm like doing one duty almost every week. Even my mum ask why? I'm sick of the thought. Even worse is that there's stupid idiot who's planning my duty. He's simply just a blur cock. Nex month, i shall strike off alot of day for personal commitments. He better give me a decent date. Dammit..

Army Daze

I literally spend my whole day rotting in the office, doing nothing but surfing MinDef forums and chatting with my online maple friends. The good thing about my vocation is that i only follow orders from my direct superior, who happens to be one of the best guy on earth. He does almost everything by himself, leaving his personal asisstant, ME, with nothing much to do. I'm going to be spilt by him..*Choo...*

Guess what i saw today. A monkey. Not an ordinary one..it's one with its intestines coming out from the left part of his body. I feel from it. From what i heard, this monkey was fighting with another bunch of monkeys and got its stomach ripped off, leaving his intestines to hang out of this body. It's disgusting..Puke Puke..It appears to be limping, wondering if he could survive past today.

Made a pact with Dear regarding our 1st year anniversary presents. Hee..We made a list of what each other wants and choose from there. Hmm..i sort of know what to get for her already, and of cause without fail, there will be extra surpriese for her. Just you wait Mrs Dear.!! And also, our trip is confirmed!! We got our air tickets and hotel rooms already! When is 24th May coming?!?!?! I can't wait u know!!!

Going to get my Coporal pay tml!! Woot..1st increment of pay! So happy..i can smell the scent of money!! *Sniff sniff*

Random

Where's the promise we hold? Never did we try. I'm not sure. When 'Fishball' told me his trip to Malaysia with his girlfriend, i was only full of envy, nothing else. From a point of time whereby he told me his relationship with his girlfriend..from how egoistic his girlfriend is to how much time he had with her only per week...all the way til the day he's back to Singapore from the short holiday with his girlfriend and his girlfriend's family. He has grown to think that he can last with his girlfriend. I used to hear 'i don't think we can last, i don't have feeling that we can last'..until today, he told me 'the feeling of us being able to last is here'. As much as how Da Nu Ren his girlfriend is, there's certain thing they are able to resolve. I'm so envious.

After that judgment day, i held heart to heart talks, all for the better. Accomodation and understanding is all we agreed on, along with some promises. Til today, none of us to able to fulfill it. Somehow, i'm feeling the opposite with 'Fishball'. Not that i feel we can't last, it's just that the feeling of being able to last is not there. Partly due to me..Sadly..

Loving you..but i can't give you my everything

Yet what i can give is not what you ask for..

Neither one of us want to admit defeat

Many times, i just want to hug you close..

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Work sux today..It's bored. Plus that trip to medical centre. It's so confusing. You can make two parties happy. First, i got a letter which excuses me from over exposure to direct sunlight, which in turn is used to excuse myself from range. But it's not approved by my colleagues. Yet, my office warrant office buy my story and excused me. Today, i went to explain to the medical officer, yet, i didn't get a specific letter. Sian..I predict work will be sucky for the next week days or weeks to come. Guard duty tml..Boohoo

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Interesting news: Our Singaporean very own singlish word 'kiasu' is officially a regconised english word. It made it to the Oxford English Dictionary, along with the word, 'wiki'. Congrats to another singlish word turned english word.

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Monokuro Boo...(Dedicate it to my Dear)

'Boo' 'Love?' 'Enjoy?' 'Happy!'

A hidden message from the four words above. A message Monokuro Boo wanted to send across. It goes like this..

We live in a very complex world and have various stresses from everyday life, but we sometimes need to move away from the real world and think things simply. Therefore, Monokuro boo is here to heal you, who are tired of the real outside world.

Monokuro boo is a attractive couple, even though we don't know whether they have thick heads or they are sullen. They love each other so much!!

Monokuro Boo is based on the concept 'Simple and Convenient'. They are a symbol of happiness and love..

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Music - No one today can resist the beauty of music. Be it any genre..Rock, pop, classical, jazz etc etc..I used to have a huge collection of songs. I can still remember how i once fall in love with pop all the way until i got influenced to the swanky tunes of techno and eventually to getting addicted by the power of rock music. After i got together with dear, the route of music path to my ears changed, not very big but just abit. I was made to love chinese pop, rock..basically just chinese songs. Til now, my 'rock' passion is fading. Due to the lack of guitar practice. Anyway, music rocks my ears, world and life. BUT!!! My collection music is gone mostly. After this damn laptop met up with an accident, most songs i loved or used to loved are gone, til now, still unable to sastify the hunger of my ears. I have to re-collect them again. It's going to take a long time before i make up the list..

Have been reading up the Mindef forum at work. I've been rather slack. I've this boss that doesn't really treat my as his personal assistant. He asked other colleague of mine things that he's supposed to ask me. Well, i don't really care anyway. Back to my topic on the forum, there's still forum on Relationships. Inside, you could see people posting about their relationship. Mainly trouble people met in their relationship. My curosity proved to be of good intention and i must say i realised quite a few things about myself. I'm definitely the best boyfriend that dear can have but i can be good. I won't be perfect, but i'll be good. I'm learning everyday.

All that forum-ing has inspired me. I've thought of things i never think before. I even had an idea of what to get from my Dear when our 1st year anniversary comes.

By the way, Dear was nice to accompany me to watch TMNT. It's a very nice movie. From childhood till now. Even though i've lost touch with the turtles for ages, but the movie just got my out of my seat. The feeling of being a child just came back. Nice movie with a few funny scenes but the turtles looks abit skinny..making them look abit weird..

Another good news. Finally, Don's able to go holiday with me! I'm was glad enough to be able to go on holiday with dear once again. Just when we thought we couldn't get anybody to go to the trip with us, Don called. He made it. When it was told that only 2 seats were left, i have this fear that he couldnt make it, but luckily, he did. Now i shall wait eagerly for my leave to approved and i'll just look forward to that trip.

Life's a Highway or Rollercoaster

Life's not a highway. Isn't like that that movie said. Life should be like a rollercoaster. Full of ups and down. It makes your hearts popped out, having a twinking aching on your heart each time u fall from the peak. It gets you excited and thrilled each from you move up from below. That's all the same for life. You feel hurt/disappointment etc..when you are pushed down from the top and it gets you motivated and happy each time you realised you are steadily moving up.

Never doubt me. Cos that will sets a difference between a fine thin line of what i deemed as. I hate things i do gone down the drain just like that. Never show what i've done is not appreciated, for that will stop me from continue doing them. Never say out what would swept all away. 'm constantly reflecting on myself but don't push me. Each time my heart is scarred, it takes time to heal, i'll termed is as the cold down period.

I've really been heeding advices and constantly learning. All i need is time, it might take long, but i just need it. Sometimes, a slap or two will wake me up.

Holiday plan's almost ruined. Now it's all dependent on Donna. I can't imagine a trip that's near 2 months away can be fully booked. Well, maybe it's partly due to the school holiday season. I really wished to go for a break. Break from everything, just me and my loved one, along with my friend. No worries, no commitments, no anything!!

Random

Exactly one week since i last blogged. Has been busy all week - guard duty, work, late night movie and simply just plain tired.

I got a scare of my life when i received rumours that they might increase my guard duty to 5-6 times per month, with 2 being weekend. But luckily, it all turns out to be false alarm. Phew, i got 3 guard duty for the month of april - one weekend and two weekdays. Which means more days to spend for myself, most prob with my Dear.

I feel so bad today, and most prob tml too. I'm working today and tml..i took up the job all because i need it. I really do see the need. It's been a long time since i'm earning that decent amount of salary. Luckily, she understands..but she still misses me as much as i do. What happens yesterday will allow the slightest thing sparks a big happening.

Sorry for everything yesterday Mrs.Dear. Everything is like a stranger to me now. Maybe it's being scarred now. At the moment i mean. Time will heal, it's just a matter of time. I'm nt sure how things will turn out in future (hopefully just like before). Your heart is still with me, it has always been here, it's still there and will be there as always. I'll do what i promised you, i'llk try my very best. Same for u too..

I've been receiving pranks sms recently. This stupid irritating idiot's sending stupid sms-es. Police report is just a mile away. Just one more sms and he/she's gone. I've been through all this before, i know what's it's going to be like. I may not know the number, i may not be able to know who...but i'm very sure, once the police intervene it, all will be out. Til then, that person better count his/her days now..

Hasn't been mapling recently. I'm lagging behind, very seriously..As for my psp, it's doing very well and fine. Started playing more games, started downloading more games as well. Another good news, my laptop is finally back to my arms. So happy to own two workstations again. It's soo convenient..

Too tired to proceed any further...ZZzz

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Mood was a high today. Rather since yesterday. It's like i've did something which i've never done since ages ago. Yes! Hanging out with Dear. Always cooping at home during weekend will make my heart sink. What's weekend without walking out in the hot sun, along the buzzling streets.

Kicked off yesterday at kBox. It's always our 10th month together. Time flies..So much been through. We don't need to be seperated to know how much we meant to each other. Isn't it Mrs Dear? I just realised kBox has quite a few nice english songs to sing too. But most are original singers with some dumb pictures..Imagine u singing a rock song, but all u see on the screen is those loving 80s Music videos..Gosh..don't match at all..

Celebrated JieWan birthday way in advance too. Popped her an unexpected surprise. Haa..1st time i see her short hairstyle and also her bubbly self after so many months..Hearing her experience as a teacher in school, i was thinking to myself, being a teacher isn't that bad a career. She seems happy with teaching. I can just imagine different sorts of people being a teacher. Example myself, dear, my bro etc etc..haa..it can be quite funny..

And YES! Finally took our NeoPrint after so many months. I've always love taking photos with Dear. Keeping it as a good memories. Esp, yesterday, which's also a special occasion for us. She also got her long awaited 'ShiLin fried chicken cutlet". Haa..

At orchard that place, u can also find cheap dinner. Far East Plaza has one!! The Sakura Restuarant has nice food, their food is as cheap as $3.5. Well, not that expensive for a meal at orchard huh..

Warming and heartening. That's exactly how i'm feeling. Love drowned me. My arms has her in the morning. Hee, her revision class has finally started. Hopefully, she's really trying to work towards her target and study hard..

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Just when i was about to blog about happy thing, i received a bad news. She accepted the tuition. Well, i have to respect that decision. I won't challenge it. Right now, it doesn't really matter. There's so much i wan to made known what the consequences might be, but i failed to put it across. It's only 24 hours per day, to some it may seem long..but to certain people, it's not enough, not even when u put 48 hours into a day. I won't say much, cos i know it's not going to change anything. I'll just hope everything will turn out fine in future. I see lots of complications, challenges and implications ahead upon receiving the sms, but i'll just prayed nothing will happen.

Learning how to say NO. To many, it's still a problem. It has to do with your character, strongly. Some get influenced easily, some don't. Some sympathised and pitied other easily, some don't. So the word NO naturally seems hard to come by for the latter one. Learning how to say NO is important. It saves you from regretting your choice of not saying NO. Think of it this way, short term pain/suffering is better than a long term one. So learn how to say NO and save yourself from suffering. If not, just pray.

Finally, a sign of relief. My laptop has been sent for servicing. Today rain was heavy. It almost vlew my umbrella into a upward cone shape. I'm basically fighting against the wind rather than the rain. Just when i managed to win the fight, this big bus came from the side and past by me. My lower part of my body was splashed by the water. Gosh!!! Soaked Chicken you may call me.

HP service center is certainly cool. This is the 1st time i've seen a service center that really went to the extent of serving people. That place not only offers u food, drink, comfortable seat but also the usage of their computers. Own time own target. So cool, it's makes u forget that u were in a queue. Cool huh..

My visit to the medical centre today was a pleasant one. The wait wasn't long. I'm trying to get range excused. Instead, the medical officer gave me an excuse of over-exposure of sunlight based on the medication i consumed. Indirectly, i'm excused from range..BUT BUT BUT...it's only for a month..

Tml's Man Utd match against UEFA 1st 11. I intend to watch, how i wish i could really wake up. Hmm..let's hope i'm able to wake up to watch..Meanwhile, i shall continue to download my PSP games..Mentioning about PSP, i managed to get my PSP to emulate to Version 3.03. Still, i'm trying to make sure it can emulate to the latest version - Version 3.11. If anyone knows how, please enlighten me!!

Blog Relocated

I've decided. It's time i breathe new air. So that'll be all.

Blog relocated..

Good Time Pals!

Double Blow - PSP and Laptop. It's been days since i bought my PSP, still, i hasn't started playing. I know nuts about it. When i bought it and reach home, opened up the package and i'm just simply staring at the psp. It knows me, but i don't know it. I had no idea how to go about starting the PSP, installing software in it etc etc..

Luckily, i had friends who saved my day. The latest version of hacks failed on me, i had no choice but to demote it to the previous version. Worse of all, my Laptop DIED ON ME - All thanks to my impulsive action. I should have wait til it load the page where i could just select shut down. But i didn't. I conveniently reach my finger to the power button and simply just shut it off! Consequences: Laptop could not load windows. Gosh..i'm doomed. I didn't submit the warranty card for this laptop, i lost the warranty card and it seems everything is gone. All i could do now is pray.

Catched 300 yesterday with Don, Gan and Mun. A nice show but abit not realistic. I realised there's alot of nice movies coming up. Up 1st : Teenage mutant Ninja Turtles! Woot! I must catch that movie. Followed up by Transformers, Spiderman 3, Fantastic 4 (2). Cool..All those childhood superheros are coming to the big screen.

1st week of April - i'm going to have a jamming session with my friends. I feel kinda guilty for not playing my guitar regularly. Too many things to occupied myself with. But it's just 3 songs, i shouldn't complained. I'll just perfect these 3 songs that we're going to Jam. Rock on Dudes.!

PSP At Last

Finally, i bought my PSP!! Silver in colour. Looks cool..I realised there's so much i need to know about it before i can really enjoy it. The software, firmware, settings etc etc..Though it made a big hole in my wallet, but i suppose it worth the money. Its functions made me WOW. I can't wait to play my very 1st game in my PSP. Tml, i'm going to get all the games possible from Donna!!

Dear bought my this horoscope keychain. I loved it, it can record voice message for 12 seconds maximum. An cute ox with the voice recorded by my Dear. Hehe, i loved it..Thanks Dear..

I'm been quite demoralised on how i might have to change my guard duty. I don't want to stand guard at sentry. I don't to be in a situation where i have to carry my rifle and stand there like a big boulder for 2 hours. Stand 2 hours, rest 4 hours, continue this cycle for 3 times. Gosh..If weekend, this cycle will have to be done 6 times, whole 24 hours. Something has to be done.

I'm glad my maple is doing well. This major patch has been quite a trouble for me. I want to reach 4th job level as soon as possible. Can't wait..!!

Strike TOTO

Sianz..i'm going to serve my weekend guard duty again..The thought of being 'locked up' in that stupid camp just turns me off..my guard duty frequency increase this moh - from the usual 2 to 3. Haiz..i hate to do guard duty when the next day is a working day. I feel super uncomfortablr for not bring able to bathe in comfort and sleep in a nice bed (Tthe bed in my guardroom is yellow with stains and dirt spots). Imagine sleeping in that kind of environment. My guardroom is even worse. I can see spider webs all around and big fat lizards making that damn irritating voice..

A nice weekend to be spent inside that damn place in indeed demoralising for me. My morale for work on monday will be super low i reckon.

I should have known better. What have become of me..i so sorry for what i have done, yet i do not realised it in the nick of the time..so sorry dear. Thanks for being so forgiving..it's nice to have you with me, how i wish my tml will be spent with you..but got that damn guard duty..Time's really wasted today, hopefully, i'll have a better weekend next week.

Work has been rather smooth recently..i've been wanting to buy a PSP but i'm still trying to save just enough..There's still alot i should know abt it before i really buy it..i'll do more survey..people who owns a psp, please tell me more!!

Oh ya!! I strike TOTO yesterday. Yea..2nd time in my life. But, only 4 numbers striked. It's already an achievement cos it ain't easy striking 4 numbers - 5,6,17,35. My lucky numbers..i can only say i owe it to my Dear, becos all numbers has to do with her<..except for 35..

Got to think how am i going to spend tml..haiz...

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I find myself blogging less frequently as before. Simply because i has lost the mood in blogging. The enthusiasm in blogging in no longer around. It's hard to blog about your life, or what u have to say when u know there's actually people out there reading your blog not because they want to know how i've been up to but just reading so that they have something to gossip in, more to talk about. It's irritating yet so unpredictable to deal with such people.

I've thought of changing my blog add, til now yes i still have the intention, but circumstances don't allow me to do that. I'm having restrictions in blogging in my OWN blog. It's sounds funny, even absurd but that's how things are now..

CNY - As i grow older, CNY gets more and more boring. Nothing ever interests me..not those goodies or red packets(er, maybe yes), it's more like looking forward to gathering with people whom i'm seldom in contact with. But surprisingly, i've been gambling quite alot this year.

Friday is finally here. Though how much i said i'm finally free after my brother's gone, deep down, i actually missed him. Haa...i can't believe it. But whatever it is, he's still my bro. And lucky him and he should be honoured that i actually took a day leave to send me off. Woke up early and reached the airport. Now comes the funny part, in my whole life, i've never heard anyone who doesn't know which airline or flight he's taking until that very last hour. Yes, that's until my bro. Gosh..we actually went to the wrong terminal cos he though he's taking Tiger Airways til his friend called him up and give a big knock on his dummy head. So we had to rushed to Teminal 1 to take his AirAsia flight. Luckily, everything still goes on well.

And so, off he goes..it'll be another 3 and a half months before my family can see him again. So for this 3 and a half months, i'll be watching soccer matches alone, play my games alone, even talk to myself. Pathetic...bet he feel the same ways, hopefully he does, then he'll know how important we are. Hope by the time he's back, he'll treat my mum better. Even me too..haa

That night was shiok, went gambling with Dear's cousin and watched movie. It's the 1st time i went out with Dear til so late. Err, with her cousin as well of cos. I watched Norbit for the 2nd time. Not that it's a very very fantastic movie, but it's funny. Moreover, i promised to watch with her. I've yet to watch Protege!! I'm going to catch it next weekend.

Yesterday was boring. Seeing her doing last minute studying makes me abit worried. Haiz..if only...Feel so empty not meeting her yesterday. Donna and Gav paid a visit to my family yesterday. Finally, we betted again. Wahaha...Stupid Jon found a new close friend that gave him the choice to give us up. Better not let me see him or he's DEAD!!

After the house visit, it's mahjong time at Don's house. Woot..we had a feast before we started our session. Mutton curry, Chicken curry, Vegetable curry, Fishcurry, Briyani Rice, KFC was on spread on the table. Haa, of cos, we didn't managed to finish, I've this thing against curry. It's either very nice or it just sucks big time. I can't stand mutton..Ewww!!! It just makes me feel like vomitting..

I was on a winning streak playing mahjong yesterday. I supposed we played around 20++ rounds yesterday. Hee, 1st time in my life i did so well in mahjong.

And oh yea, i baked my very 1st cake today. Wasn't that fantastic but good enough for a 1st timer. As compared to baking, i still prefer cooking. Hmm.speaking of cooking, it's been a long time. Secret recipe guys?

Sick Thoroughly

So many things happen within this few days..There's Chinese New Year Preparation, Valentine Day, 9th month Anniversary with my Dear and also, both of us fell sick..

This whole week, i only went to work once. Monday was gladly an off day for me. I managed to skipped the event held by my camp (phew!). I'm so lucky to have my guard duty on sunday. But sadly, Tuesday was a working day for me, so i didn't really look forward to anything. Whole day was so meaningless. Just watching the time pass just like that..

Tuesday was much more better. Alot of stupid things happen. It's as if i haven't been to work for a long time. But still i went for the run. A run organised to ensure we soldiers have a healthy lifestyle. 3km - 16 mins plus...hmm..nt sure if that timing is good but sure i'm not bad cos most people are still behind me when i cross the finishing line. =) i'm just waiting for Wednesday to come. I've look forward to it since ages ago...just my off work time was delayed due to some preparation for the inspection tml!! ARGH!!

Finally, wednesday came. Many emotions involved..but i'm not going to talk this day.

Thursday - Sick. Went to the doctor, he said i've got food poisioning. I was running to toilet every now and then the night before - vommiting and bombing the toilet. Dear was sweet enough to come and take care of me despite her being sick herself. I was feeling so much better. Love's the medicine...but something still irks me until now.my eye....the red patch on my eyeball is still there, and dun seems to be fading. I don't know what to do with it. It makes my eye look so vulnerable. But the problem is, i can see perfectly. Just hope it will be back to normal in no time..

The red patch on my left eye

By the time friday comes, i'm already all well. Went around doing last minute shopping for New Year stuff with Dear. I realised while doing the shopping that all those goodies don't really seems of any interest to me anymore. In fact, Chinese New Year isn't a festive season to me. It's just a plain holiday where i don't need to report to work. Nothing much to look forward to. It's just more eating, more meeting of people that's all..Plain...

Just had my Reunion lunch. Yes, my family has this trend of eating reunion lunch and dinner. Of cos, it's steamboat. I've always loved steamboat until Wednesday that i presumed it's the steamboat that made me have food poisoning..But nevertheless, steamboat at home was not bad. It's been so long since i eat with my family...nice feeling..it shall be like that again tonight..chaoz...

Congrats Don

I miss my dear dear so much..even though tml hasn't even started. The thought of tml being stucked inside the camp makes me feel to rejected. I feel so negative towards guard duty. Miss u!!

Oh ya, grats don for passing his theory test..

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Heart pierced. Yes, what u said might be true..but it just came as thousands of bows and arrows aiming towards me. U leave me with no space of defending myself. U don't care how i'm going to feel when those bows and arrows were shooted at me. All you want is to get your point clear to me.

Well, clear enough. I'm just asking for a treat from you, cos i have no money left. But u relate it back to the lunch incident. Now i know..and rest assured, i won't ask a single treat from you. At least it won't complicate things and create misunderstandings. U calculated how much i've owe u. U remember clearly the times where u helped me finiancially, but u well forogtten the times i helped u when u were having finiance difficulty. Never mind, i'll return you what i owed to prevent being bombed again. Now i know who to go to when i really need help in terms of finiancially.

Sorry for what i've done wrong. Sorry..

Dear's sick today. Hope she really get well soon. I don't know if i passed her the virus but no matter what, trust me i'm really worried.

Miss u..

Sick..Sick...and still Sick

Finally i'm all well..Been sick for the past few days. I think i'm the record holder for taking the most number of MCs since the start of this year. Everyone must be thinking how i have been chao-keng my way since i'm posted there.

My whole life has been haunted by sickness. Asthma, Grastric or Fever u name it. This 3 are my worst enemies. Each time any one of this hits me, i'll be in great torture and suffering my way til i'm well. If i'm lucky, just a few days will do, if worst, it will be months. I still remember very clearly, the worst asthma attack i had and how long it took me to cure. A pathetic, torturing 10 months. That's also how i got my PES C9 status.

It's hard to have a good body. I'm not one who can take good care of myself well, although more often than not, i've been telling myself, it's time i really should. Though i didn't succeed each time round, i'm glad to those who took care of me. My mum especially. Ever since i was born, i'm always sick. She has been the only one who has been taking great care of me while i'm sick, even until now. So i'll say thank and love u mummy! Thanks to my dad during my later part of my life where he realise his care for me is important. But surely no thanks to that brother of mine. He'll just pretend as though nothing happen. Now there's always an extra care from my Dear. This care allows me to heal faster. Haa..true enough..

I've prepared the materials. So it's time to start work..soon..hopefully i'll be able to succeed.

Gosh..i've been exploring around so many times..i managed to fight powerful mobs. Just yesterday, i levelled up. I declared myself level 91. I visited Pianus right after that and before i even see his head for more than 3 secs, i'm dead. So didn't managed to take a screenshot while i'm still alive. I need mesos. There has been so many people who's crazy over gachapon. Gacha-ing and then sell of those items, earning them millions of mesos. That was my intented solution to solve my mesos woes but i decided that it's not that worth it after all. I shall earn it the hard way. I've yet to hunt my 1st steely in my whole maple life. And i vowed to get it! At aLL cost!!!

Miss my dear already...chaoz....

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Gosh!!!! I slept sooo late last night. I had less than 4 hours of sleep. I turned in at 2am..but after some tossing here and there, i think i manage to doze off at around 2:30am..And i woke up freaking early - 5:45am..Woke up feeling very restless, like a living dead..But no choice, have to report to work..well, that's life

I'm very disturbed at the fact that the toilet bowl in my kitchen is leaking water. Nothing is done too..maybe not yet. I can't stand the fact that the water is just leaking down freely..it's as if throwing coins down the pipe. I feel a little bit heartache (Although i'm not the one paying the utilities bill). What makes the matter worse is that, my mum actually forget the off the showerhead just now and the showerhead was turned on at FULL blast..at the very least, for an hour. Gosh, that's throwing piles of notes down the pipe. I suddenly feel so scared. This month utilities bill is going to be a huge sum. Hopefully, dad will be able to handle the amount. Haiz..the bad thing about this house is that everywhere seems to be leaking water - my kitchen tap, toilet bowl, showerhead..arghh....i always have to make it a point to ensure the water leakage are at their minimum before i turned in for the day (cos i'm the last one to sleep).

Dear was sad. Reason i won't say it down here, cos some people reading my blog just don't deserve to know. I just want to tell you, u are not the only one feeling sad, i am sad too, so are ur parents. But no matter what happen, umust always learn from it, heed advices. Don't always think that i'm stressing you. I'm just trying to help you. You know yourself better than no one else. U need to be pushed..You may say, your parents don't force you, that's simply becos they don't know how u are doing, but i know. Cos i'm the only one u've been telling things to.

Tml my camp start this healthy lifestyle event. It held every tuesday and friday. But luckily for me, i'm excused running..so i supposed i'll just walk 3km..that's abit dumb but a good way to past time.

My maple has been doing well so far. 30 more level to go and i'm all ready for 4th job. Oh ya, and Man Utd won 4-0 against Tottenham last night. It's so cool. O'Shea even became the Goalkeeper after Edwin Van Der Sar was injured in the last 5 mins..haa...1st time ever...

Jia you Dear...Love you..Muacks!

Unpleasant HairCut

Went for a hair cut on Saturday. It's a visit to Dear's favourite saloon. I've never waited so long for just a haircut in my life. This neighbourhood saloon although it small, the number of patrons visiting it is far much more than those exclusive saloon. My haircut was also much faster as compared to the '10 mins hair cut'. Like my current hairstyle. Paid a few bucks more due to the little increment cos of the Chinese New Year season.

1st time on an outing with Fishball. Motive: To shop for Valentine's Day present. Quite enjoyable to go out with him. Went to several place. Even played pool. Taught him how to play pool, i feel as though i'm some professional. But poor him, his back got worse after playing pool. Sorry dude..Suntec was our shopping spot. We thought we can have lots of options there. Who knows, we went shops after shops..eventually, we chose to go Marina Square instead. Over there, the shops are much, and that explains the variety too. But still, we couldn't find much options. *secret for now*

Recently has been eating too much fastfood. I suppose that explains why my face is facing so much problems now. I hope the dry period will go off soon. I shall constraint myself for a few days.

Not in a good blogging mood now...tml shall blog more..

NA

I thought i wun have to envy people again. I though i'll be able to spend that day the way that i've been dreaming ever since i was in a sec sch student. I envy people and always wondering when would be my turn. Months ago, i have so much on my mind about that day. I've always been looking forward to it. For finally, for once, my wish is going to come true. But now, everything has changed. I'm following the norm. I'm not going to fulfill my wish. It's the 1st time that's special to me.

What was said make me so useless. Yet again this year, i could only have the share of envying people again. I said before, if only one could be happy, i rather it be her. So everything shall go according to her wish. I dunno whether it will be a happy day for me, but i'll try. But at least for now, i'm sad, i'm disappointed. She meant well, i knew it. But that's really not what i want.

She has been telling what she expects from that day. I got that in my head and also planned. I been wanting to make a huge surprise. For all that express how far i would go just to make that day a special for both of us. Even to the extent of taking half day leave.

But it seems everything is pointless. The things that i have been thinking for the past few days especially, all are unnecessary. All gone down the drain. I won't pursue this matter any loner. For it's going to be endless. This time round, i have no choice. A day that's supposed to make both happy could only make one happy. It might even not let both be happy on that day.

How i really wish that day never come. I don't look forward to it anymore. I don't want that day to come. I shall cancelled my leave. I'll do what i promised...

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Guard Duty on Tuesday was alright. It seems like i'm starting to accept the fact that i have to do at least 2 guard duties per month. Seriously speaking, i'll have to consider myself lucky enough to do Guard Duty at School of Ammunition. Where on earth can u get KFC delivered to your guard house. Where on earth can u watch hours of tv while doing guard duty. Where on earth can u get duties that only require u to prowl even less than 5 mins. All only at SOA. Haa..But the after effect of guard duty is that super exhaustion on my body. It just makes me feel so restless, as though my body is splitting apart. The comfort at home has made my body unable to adapt to our harsh environment.

Received news about that happen to sis. Take care sis..don't get too upset.

V.Day. A day that's considered special to me. I've made plans. No point changing it. I won't. I know i'll be happy on that day..i know u will be happy on that day too.

I utterly disappointed. Ive never imagined that. If you are going to do something behind your partner back, i suggest u don't do it. By doing it, u'll lose that trust that u've gained over the months. Breaking up should not be hanging on your month without much thought. And worse, u don't be with the person just because the person wants to. It's super unfair. Haven't u even thought about the happy memories before? Haven't u know how much u have gone through til today? Is what u did right or ok? Think for yourself...

I was on a bus just now. I notice a new trend of tapping EZ-Link card by lazy people. I saw this uncle, with his card on his cheat pocket, he conveniently bend down and puts his chest in front of the tapping machine and 'beep', off goes the sound. The gesture and position that uncle is in, it just makes himself look like a fool. His actions is considered funny though..nice way of tapping your EZ-Link card.

Singapore won Thailand 2-1 on the 1st leg. It's seriously unbelievable. Even til now, i strongly believe Singapore wont have the ability to beat Thailand. All by luck. Look at the line-up. How many players were imported. Somehow, they were similar to Chelsea. Using money to attract talents, tobring this 'fake' fame for Singapore.

Man utd won Watford 4-0. A big thrashing. 6 points away from Chelsea. Good. I shall wait for the day where Man Utd clinched the title. I'm waiting...

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ARrgh..i failed to exercise again. On both occasions..But it's ok...i didn't eat too much unhealthy food recently. I have been consuming this supplement to maintain and control my cholestrol level, making sure it's of healthy level.

Great news from the NSC on friday. Doctor says i'm recovering well. I'm sooo happy. 6 more weeks and i'll be able to stop the medication for long. Shiok..after nearly 6-7 months of consumption, i can finally stop. No more worrying of forgetting to medicate, no more forcing myself to eat just to eat that medicine. Yay...the scars will take time to heal. Very very long time, but i'm sure the wait is worth it.

Missed the outing to Chinatown on Saturday. All because of two sleepyheads. Gosh..haa..it's ok..Dear and i had plans to make it on this coming sunday. Had planned to make a trip to Starhub Plaza Singapura to get my mobile phone mms fixed. Dammit..my mobile phone has been without MMS settings for months, I just can't seem to get the settings from anywhere - be it online, through the customer care consultant or manually. I'm so fed up. So much so that i've decided to bring that mobile phone personally down to the Starhub to get them fixed for me. And of cause, i didn't cos of my beauty sleep.

I wanted to teach tuition. Til now, i hasn't get anything started. Dear's going to help me. That extra income will do me great. Given the situation i'm in now, it isn't such a bad idea to tutor afterall. Anyway, i can go home after work almost everyday, except for special case such as guard duty. So i was thinking, y not. Dear supported me too...so do my parents.

As for the business that i'm doing, i have really no choice but to give up. Seriously speaking, i realise that it's just not my cup of tea, I'm not cut out to do such a thing. I tried, even though i didn't give my best. Sometimes, certain thing u don't have to give ur fullest to realise that u are not able to do it. It's too much a burden to me finiancially. I should have listened to Dear earlier, then i won't have to suffer.

My maple slowing down, but luckily, i found this new place to train. A nice place, where all the super pros partying me. Suddenly, i felt as though my character has been upgraded. I can't wait to reach 3 digits level. Here i come...

Tml's guard duty. As usual, it will set my morale to low automatically the night before, all the way until i finish work the day after my guard duty. I can't wait for Wednesday to come, that's when i can see my Dear. I know i'll miss her..so does she. What happened today is plain fear. But that fear was silenced off by your assurance. Thanks Dear...let's look forward to what we just talked about ard 1 hour ago. 4 years isn't too far..it's possible.

K la, i gonna visit my Sweetheart is Dreamland now....

NA

I don't know..but i just feel so bad..

I just knew that was going to happen. That laptop WILL NOT be used. Expected. U asked me to trust u one last time. I did...u broke it. I expected the reason for not using it. I sensed that strong unhappiness that u know i'm out. Haiz..u didn't even bothered to give me a call that i've been waiting.

I won't dare to do it again. NEVER.

Debit Card!!

So many happy things happen within these few days. Firstly, i finally got my Debit Card. The feeling of being able to possess a debit card again is just great. Though my previous experience with my very 1st Debit card wasn't really a good one, but the convenience of having once just makes me feel having after i got it. I got the Capitacard. Seeing the privilleges that the card brings, i'm just glad that i got that card for myself. Finally, i can book movie tickets online, buy stuff online and have a card that has my name on it.

Woot..Yesterday i got everything i wanted for Dear. That's why it makes me especially happy. I'm seriously contented. We have been through alot and til now, i'm dare to say, what's bad is past..what's good is memories. We've overcome lots of obstacles and we shall look forward to the future. Today, there's this colleague of mine, asking me why stick to one girlfriend. He suggests i should keep my options open. Well, my reply was simply: I'll be faithful to my girlfriend. I was thinking, if i don't, then what would be love. Where would be the trust. I'm not some people who would agree to have flings around. Hiding behind their partner back just to go out with some guy or girl. One is enough..if u know u can't commit, don't enter into a relationship. Dun be selfish. I love you my Dear..my one and only.

My exercise plan is going well. I've been exercising quite regularly. Tml, Dear's going to exercise with me for the 1st time. Woot..i can't wait. Mentioning before the importance of exercising, i'm going to make sure i and Dear lead a healthy lifestyle and stay healthy.

Had a long talk with Gavian. Decided to quit what we are doing now. No point going on. We are just not cut out for it. Hmm...suddenly, i feel that the burden is off. I should have listen to my Dear. I'm relieved now. I rather spend the money on buying something better for my Dear for her Valentine's Day. Can't wait...my very 1st Valentine!!

Stress..

Oh great..i'm sick..yes..again..Counting the number of days i'm sick ever since i got into my new vocation, it can be seriously said to be dangerous. I think my immune system is getting poorer. Time for supplements and regular exercise..plus of cos, proper diet. I can't afford to be sick all the time. It makes me feel as though i'm a handicapped, a useless person.

The trauma is back. I'm traumatized. I don't know what i should really do. Should i changed my metality of how i see it now? I used to thought just it alone will be strong enough to hold on to everything. It will overcome everything. But what was said yesterday night makes me feel that, it's not just about it. There's more things that's being involved, things that i've never considered it to be one before. My mood is ultimately low. Just because of certain things, it can endanger the whole thing between u and me. Is it so vulnerable that words can cause it to be broken? Is it so simple that it doesn't deserve any respect? I don't act on impulse is unavoidable..but know what to say, what not to say. Anger words may be harsh. The one saying might not feel the same way as the one hearing it. To me, it may just be anger words..but to me, it's these words that makes me ponder - pondering what a person am i, what have things come to such state, what can be done, why those words was said. So many things to think.

My physical headache out of the sudden is being overlapped by this mental headache. I couldn' sleep. Tears don't flow from my eyes easily..if it does, it will also mean that my heart is crying. I'm not comparing to anything before. It's just that, promises made must be kept. I don't nag at a person with bad intentions. If i know i will get scolding, coldness or whatever jus because i nag, do u think i will still go ahead with the nagging. I couldn't bear to just forget abt everything and just dump everything. This way, complications won't occur but it will show that i'm not concerned. I'm sad..but i know i'm not the only one..Right now, i'm still thinking..The thought of being left alone, not being able to contact is scary. Everything is still whirling up my mind now..i can't seem to sort them out right..cos i still haven't get pass myself. Somehow, i don't know who am i, what kind of a person i am. Failure?

Business hasn't been good. Had this very thought of giving up. Anyway, support from family and friends isn't that great. I shouldn't say there isn't any at all. But there's people doing the same thing as me. I'm stil learning. I've seen people succeed in it. Some may think i'm just nt cut out for it, why waste my time..but why can't i learn. All i need is time.

My maple is doing well. But i'm going to stop playing soon. I'm always playing at the wrong timing. It just cause so much misunderstanding. I don't want what i do to be an excuse being added to what's so unnecessary. Cos it will cause all the disappointment, hurt and sadness...

Random

Weekend's coming to an end. Tml's a working day again. Back to facing some idiots at work. Sian..

Today ain't a bad day. But nevertheless, Dear and i never failed to make things back on track and we ended the day really sweet. I like my day today. Thank you Dear..and sorry too...

My character in maple seems harder to level up now. At level 86, training at coolie zombie is started to get harder. I'll start finding new maps to get my character pumping up his percentage fast. My guild is getting stronger - more stronger and active maplers. It's never too boring to play maple again..

Have been having so much talks about Chinese New Year with Dear. I think this year's Chinese New Year will be a nice one for me. There will certainly be lots of nice food, hong baos and hehe..going to spend a special holidays with Dear..Can't wait..

Meanwhile, i shall countdown to my 1st valentine day.

Random

I don't know is it that she always forget what she say or she just pretend that i have forgotton about it myself by keeping mum about it. I hope that she will treat what was said seriously and not something that bypass her ears. Treat what people gave you like your own. It hurts to see how things given to you are being treated. I hate it when what was planned was not carried out. I don't know if it's because you are lazy but it seems that i'm always the one doing the trips. Argh...can u remember?

Bought lotsa stuff yesterday. Went out with a great shopping with mum and Dear. Started the day good..but ended the day lousily. Shall update about my shopping list tonight.

My maple is doing well and fine. It's climbing up slowly and steadily. 4th job doesn't seems to far for me now. I'll be there in no time..

Importance of Exercising

Yay!! I finally started on my exercise program. The importance of exercising. I can't stress it enough. I saw a new report on tv.

A skinny or average-build human being doesn't necessary means that he or she is less prone to disease like heart disease, diabetes etc than people who are obese or heavily overweight. Yes, obese people are prone to such dieases because of their dietary habits and no or little exercise. The main point here is that diseases such as heart problems etc look for people who don't excise and not people who are skinny. Usually, heart problems, stroke and diabetes all are cause mainly by a powerful subtance called fats. And it's these fats that are located near certain organs that proved to be disastrous. Fats around our muscles aren't the main cause..it's those fats that are around our heart, kidney etc that leads to diseases and illness. For example, if we don't exercise, our heart don't pump as much, it's became so inactive that the stomach can't absorb what it can, so eventually, these fats got to the heart and form a thin layer of fats around it, blocking arteries etc..that's when heart problems and stroke occur. High cholestrol is also the high consumption of fats, which the body can't absorb and is being retained in the body. That explains that high level of cholestrol. Main point here is, EXERCISE REGULARLY.

Come 21st March 2007, i'm going to be a Coporal. Finally. That's means higher rank and most importantly, more pay. Although a mere 70 bucks increment, but it's already like a big bonus to NSF like us..yay...

Feburary come fast! There's so many things for me to anticipate. Sometimes if u really think, time makes us realise what really matters to us. Think now..

Random

I'm now at Dear's hse...she studying..me plaing my own laptop...Hee..Facing her, she look so focused in her work. Another side of her..a more serious one..Hee..on and off, she'll stick out her tongue, rub her nose, move her face around..haa..cute dear!

It's been 3 days since Sis's bf enlist. She has been missing him as expected. It all brings me back to those days where i'm in Tekong while Dear's at home. We'll chat on the phone..missing each other so madly..hee..those days are over...

Guard duty on friday was relaxed but an irritating one. I hate doing duty in the rain. It makes the floor so wet and dirty..totally irks me off. I feel so awkward. Worse enough, i'm doing it with one private and a stupid coporal. A damn lazy one. He chooses his own slot in the benefit of him. Selfish ass...But time flies and finally sat is here. Dear's sweet yet again to come and look for me..Hee...

Next week i'm going to surprise her..hee..can't wait for that day..

BMW Covertible Ride

Today i got my butt on a seat of my dream car - BMW convertible. Super cool. Shaped like some robotic turbo car with silver finish. My favourite colour. Sitted inside, u feel as though u are floating. The engine silence, power surround sound. Totally cool...Finally...yes, finally..i have no regrets anymore..

http://usa.asus.com/news_show.aspx?id=4809

The above link. Go ahead..click on it..Showed to me by my friend. My dream laptop. Envy..whoever's getting it, let me know. Give me every chance to envy you or even rob you. It has the best of stats..good enough for almost everything..ARGH

Guard duty tml. sian...til now, i'm still putting myself in the well. Thinking how nice it is that some people actually do not need to serve guard duty. But like most said, it's part and parcel of NS. We take SAF's pay, we have to listen. I shall just wait for Saturday to come..

Movie - Life's a HighWay

Life is a highway. This sentence comes from a title of a soundtrack from the movie 'Cars". Life is really a highway, full of ups and downs.

My day began well. Finally, i get to have my PES status remained at C9L2. It's a great great news, which means i won't have to go to Tekong for that damn BMT. But sadly, i couldn't get excused for my range. I hate range...it gets ur ears deaf, get your body sticky and muddy. Ewwss...just the though of it turns me off..

It's real convenient to have a laptop with you. U bring it whenever and wherever u want. Hehe..i'm still happy at the thought of it..

Tml's another day of work...haiz...

Random

Soo full..til now, my stomach still feel bloated..Tonight's dinner is cooked specially for me. My beloved mum cooked it specially for me. My favourite wanton soup, steamed beancurd with prawn, spicy chilli sardine with onions and chilli omelette. Yummy...Dear got lucky to have a decent share of today's dinner too. Hope she's enjoying it.

Tml i'm going to get my PES status reviewed. Hopefully, my PES status remained..I wanna skipped my range again, skipped those stupid IPPT. ARGH!!! Shoo Shoo...


Made model for the water mitigation for my superior again today. It's always fun making model. Spent the rest of the day chatting with my colleague about games. Realised that there's so much about games that i still don't know. I used to be interested in games, be it console games, pc games etc etc...

Introducing Chery QQ

Today a few of us were talking about cars. There's this car that i've heard it sometime on news before. The model is Chery QQ. It's a car that's made in China. An economy car that is suitable for simple usage. Easy to drive, easy to manage. I was thinking maybe i'll start pestering papa about this..I'm quite interested in this car now..The review of it isn't that bad too..

Finally, applied for Capitacard debit mastercard from DBS. Hopefully, it will go through successfully. Can't wait to receive the card..

If you think you're unlucky, read on!

You think you are the most unluckiest person on earth. You think you are the pitiest person that has ever exist. You think you have no future. All the above shouldn't exist at all. Wait til u hear what i'm about to say.

A colleague of mine, turning 20 this year, has served NS for about a year. Recently, his condition has worsened. He belong to PES E status due to his skin condition and his eye problem. He visits skin centre for some therapy almost 3-4times a week, each time taking almost half a day. But i supposed what's bothering him most is his eye. He's almost blind, yes, ALMOAST BLIND. His eye is very blurish and has cause him great convenience. He used to be better but it just got worsened after he enter army. He told me alot of thing. He asked, have you ever wondered what you would do if u go blind? He even said to me, he haven't been in love once and he said he won't have any chance cos he's going to turn blind soon. His blood pressure and eye pressure has make his eyesight almost disappearing due to his breakage of nerve near the eye.

He told me he can't see things that near him. His scope of vision is so narrow that u keeps banging into things. Once he said he even bang onto full height mirror and said sorry to his reflection because he couldn't see. My heart reached out to him when i heard what he said. He said he's having depression now and i feel very sorry for him. But i must say he's strong that he's still living life as usual, just with abit negative thoughts. He told me this, i don't want my last moments which i can see to be in army, i want to see more beautiful things. At that moment, i shut my mouth. I didn't know what to say..

To me, i would rather go deaf, i would rather go dumb but i would never want to turn blind, for that is the most scariest thing that can ever happen to me.

I've been feeling super lousy today. I feel totally depressed. Still suffering from the lapse yesterday. My mood wasn't ok until just now when i reached home after meeting Dear. Dear, u did make my mood better.hee..out of the sudden, i miss her so much. She managed to score well for her assignment and i'm glad for her. She's picking up well and hopefully, she can make it through and well for her exams.

My PEs status is expiring soon. I'm going for the review soon and hopefully, it will stay at C9L2, which means no IPPT for me. Guard duty this friday, the though of it just makes me feel sucky..Haiz..

Don't Do Things Last Minute

I find myself quite weird earlier on. I just gone so quiet and silent by myself out of a sudden. Nothing happen or maybe it just that i'm bothered or troubled by things that doesn't really matter. Whether it's about Dear, work, family or what..i couldn't figure out what happen to me. It's a rather depressing feeling that makes me feel like doing nothing. Not in the mood to talk either.

It's not good to do thing at the very last minute. There's always risks involved. No matter how lucky u were to manage to scrap through, things won't go your way all the time. No harm preparing the things u need earlier. No harm planning ahead. In fact, it gets u ready. What happen just now hopefully is a good lesson. Advice to you: Pack your bag the night before u turn in. And lastly, on your mobile phone to the normal mode the moment u are out of that sch or office!

NA

A real bad day yesterday. It kind of woke me up. Reminded me how i have changed. I used to better..but not good as before. I'm supposed to be better than before. I'll change..i'll take note. But it takes two hands to clap. I may agree to what was said, i felt regretful too. But it doesn't mean i accept what was said. Both of us has to reflect. What i did was totally wrong, in fact, so wrong that i almost fall into that deep pitch that was supposed to be my stepping stone.

Sunshine after rain. Hope it won't happen again. Both are at fault so let's move on. Know what to do, what not to do. Things will get better. The agreement on 4 years later is still on.

I finally got started on it. Now i'm just going to start thinking how do i reach it to people..shall crack my brain, squeeze out my creative juices..

NA

I've got a bad feeling..i tried to help..but u must help yourself too...there's a limit to what i can to and a limit to how much i'm allowed to help you. If i overdo it, it will cause unnecesary trouble and misunderstanding..Wish u gdluck..

Misses Movie With My Friends

It's such an envy to be able to catch the latest movies at the theater. I miss those days where i always catch new released movies with my friends. We used to watch movie almost every week, sometimes up to 3 movies per week. We even bought the gv coupon to sastify our hnger for nice movies. Gone were those days..

So finally it's my turn to envy people who catches the movies they are interested in..some day, i'm going to be like last time..so crazy about movies!

Random

Finally i'm well. Free from bad flu..free from uncomfortable sorethroat. No fever too..phew..Alive and kicking!

Yesterday was chionging maple. Finally, i've found a new place where i can train well. It's always better to train in party. You gain exp fast, you get more items and more fun! Seeing Don's damage just make me feel so jealous. His damage reach as high as 5k plus as compared to mine which is around 2k on average. We made plans tomake our mapling more fun. We shall chiong together, raid maps together, bring out our guild, eliminate inactive members, earn mesos together. It's nice to have a mapling buddy. Well, don has been my gaming buddy since years ago. We started out on games like yahoo pool, pokemon, swat 4 and lotsa of other games. Cos it's never bored to play with him.

Presenting 'kendoboi'

Finally planned my business with Don. It's really time i get started. Shall elaborate more on my blog next time. I feel confident to bring this business up. Got support from my dear too.

Went to 'kuan yin'temple with Don today too. Prayed for a few people. Hope they stay healthy and happy, of cos that includes me..=)

Sick

As mentioned yesterday, and i woke up today feeling extra uncomfortable. Decided to report sick..It's so troublesome for me to report sick. There are so many people i have to inform - my superior, my in-charge, my friends etc..

Broke but no choice, i went on the the Edinburgh Clinic. Luckily, my family doctor was there. Got a few medicine for flu and some antibiotics. Got a letter from her for the medical officer and the best - 2 days MC!!

I keep telling myself no eating of food that would bring up my cholestrol level. Eat more veggie as mum and Dear would said. I promised them i would change my eating habits and diets.

Dear's eyes has been so pain. Even til today, yet stubborn her still dun wan to see doctor. Poor her..hope she get well real soon..

Right now, i'm just feeling hot on my body..temp: 37.2 degree celcius.i'm so scared i would have a fever..please don't come to me..

Random

A terrible day..1st working day of the year was quite alright. No more slacking around in the office allowed. All the high ranking officers and staff are back. Get caught sleeping, reading magazines or simply just doing personal stuff will just get u into hot soup, meaning sign 3 extra guard duties..Sob..that's is why i'm always on high alert. Moreover, the new commander is said to be a pyschotic man. He screams at his man, he throws his temper at his man and he will basically just make a big fuss out of a small matter, making no turning back for you.

Made a model for the whole day. I get envy from people because my job now is just making model. Futhermore, it's own time own target. I choose when to do, when to rest..But the pressure of making it look real to the actual one is there, i dare not let a strand of hair down.

As i'm typing now, my nose is running. It hasn't stop since just now, in fact a few days ago. On and off. I had this bad feeling that i might have a fever soon. I'm feeling hot after sending Dear home just now. I took my temperature just now - 36.9 degree celcius. But i'm now feeling as though i'm having a very high temperature. Wanted to report sick tml, see a private doctor instead of polyclinic (They see patients as though as they were shopping for clothes), but i'm hard on cash. I'm still considering. Let's hope tml, i'll feel i'm still as strong as a bull. I don't want to have fever, it's one of the worst thing that can happen to me. Asthma, fever, grastric..Argh..i want them no more..shoo shoo shoo..go away...

I'm feeling so sick...wish me well..Dear hasn't been feeling well too. So are some of my friends. A bad start of a new year for many. Dear has got eye irritation and rashes. Dear Dear, hope you recover soon. No scratching of your skin, no rubbing of eyes and drink more water..

Glad to hear no complaints or problems from sis. Let's hope her work will continue to be this smooth.

New Year Resolutions

Overall to say, Year 2006 has been a great year for me. Several things for me to be happy about.

- I've successfully completed my Diploma In Architecture Course.
- I've more memories with my friends and sis.
- I've went on 2 holidays this year. 1 with my family, 1 with my Dear
- I've found my love.
- I've found a job that i've never worked before.
- I've become a soldier.

*There are alot more..but those mentioned are mainly the ones that have made my year so wonderful.

Year 2007 is finally here..Hopefully this would be a great year for me. As always, resolutions will be made. I've always try my very best to follow these resolutions but more often than that, the determination fade away as situations don't allows.

This year, i rather have some wishes and hopes than to have resolutions.

- Be a better person - a better son, brother, boyfriend, friend, soldier.
- Be a better guitarist. I got to play more music.
- Go on a vacation again.
- Stay healthier by exercising and folow a healthier diet.
- Make more money with my upcoming plans and save more money. Spend wisely.
- Decorate my room, i'm gong to make it feel more like my room.

Basically, that's all i can hope for..i'll just try my best and hopefully, this year 2007 would be a great year...

Random

Love knows no boundaries..be it race, religion, nationality, distance, height etc etc..it's amazing seeing people whom overcome those factors just to find their true love. Distance has never seems to be a problem for me. I'm ok with it..it's used to be ok for the both of us too..but now, as several months has passed, it just seems that it's getting kind of difficult for u. I understand but come to think of it, why should it be..

Mistakes made once doesn't mean it will stay there forever. No one is unreasonable forever. I know he made a mistake before..he realised it to and come to terms with what we reason with him. I see no reason why should that matter still remain so strongly in ur heart when u even said that it can disappear in you. I understand how u feel, i also assure you, if such a thing ever happen again which i jolly well it won't, i'll fight for you. I'll reason and thrash out with him. There's people behind u and me too. The thing is, that matter is in the past, don't dwell on it anymore. Accept that just the way he accept our reason. Don't fear of anything again. I'm here..come to me should anything arises.

Seeing Don's hamster yesterday just made me want to have one too. Dear had the experience of bringing up those hamsters before. I'm seriously considering in getting one. I'll have to think twice before i really do that. Somehow when i see Don's hamster yesterday, i'm like a small child again, playing with it when it doesn't know what am i talking about. Hehe..it look so cute that i just want to put it on my hand but Don says it bite. Hm..i'll think and consider...

Weather hasn't been good. Almost everyone around me isn't feeling well. Me, my friends, my Dear..so many. oor Dear, even had a stomach upset which is still haunting her now. She's now in her dreams..let's hope everything will be ok for her tml..cos it's hard to ask a stubborn person to consult a doctor...*Pray*

Dear received her SIM letter not long ago. I fear for her..i know she's starting to worry..don't worry Dear. I'll help u wherever i can. Come up with a timetable or study plan, focus more on your studies now. i know u have start making plans and hopefully u can stick to it. I understanding the time u need, i will understand. Don't worry too much..jia you!!