Get Well Soon..Please

I feel like killing one of my hamsters. Yes, you are not seeing things. I bet if you are in the same situation as me, you MIGHT feel the same as well. But of course, i can't bear to do such a cruel thing.

MiuMiu is currently very 'sick'. His body is full of 'wounds' and 'sickness' i presume. From one big lump on his body months back, he has currently 5 lumps on this body, with 1 bloody now. Bloody because he bit on his own lump, causing blood is flowed out constantly.

Just last week, i separated him from the other hamster, ShooBing. All because he changed. He started bullying ShooBing, biting him on his butt until now, ShooBing trembles at the sight of MiuMiu. What's worse, ShooBing has his butt rotten and injured due to the constant attack from MiuMiu.

Nevertheless, i didn't blame MiuMiu as much as i wanted to because given anyone who see MiuMiu now would give him all the sympathy in the world. MiuMiu not only has 5 lumps on his body but his right eye is shrinking (i guess it's caused by the fight between him and ShooBing). What's even worse is MiuMiu's face is starting to swell ridiculously. I couldn't go on any longer. Right now, i just wish MiuMiu would go to somewhere much better peacefully, rather than suffering now i presume. I intend to bring him to the vet but i presume the vet would not be able to do anything like how she has mentioned the last time i went to her, telling me how the lump is part of the body and cannot be removed and also telling me how small the hamster is and any medication might prove too strong for him. I'm at loss..total loss.

I regretted what happened to them today. From buying this hamster as a birthday gift to someone whom i once loved so much till just weeks after that, their prospective owner decided that she can't and don't want to take care of them, nicely putting them @ my house instead yet claiming them to be her precious all the way until today whereby my mum grew the greatest bond and feelings for them and with them. I'm filled with regret. Somehow, i thought and i feel i brought this upon them. What should i do? There's no way i can ask the vet to end their life because i reckon she won't. I need help somehow, someway...