First Day of NATAS

First day of NATAS. I somehow look forward to my very first official NATAS fair when everyone is feeling the other way round. But today has been a disappointing. I got more enquiries than ever before but i don't have many bookings coming in, sadly. I'm disappointed with myself, although i very much wanted to do well.

This is the first time i felt that slightest pressure on me. This is the first time i look at my bookings and know that i need to do more. This is the first time i even think i need to make as much bookings as possible.

Plans of going overseas has been called off, both with MR and also with Xero4. Now, i'm just on plan with going Ho Chi Minh come May.

I don't know why it matters so much to me. I'm contemplating but at the very least, it's because of it that i'm feeling much better...

I'm tried, shagged...whatever you can name...