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ARrgh..i failed to exercise again. On both occasions..But it's ok...i didn't eat too much unhealthy food recently. I have been consuming this supplement to maintain and control my cholestrol level, making sure it's of healthy level.

Great news from the NSC on friday. Doctor says i'm recovering well. I'm sooo happy. 6 more weeks and i'll be able to stop the medication for long. Shiok..after nearly 6-7 months of consumption, i can finally stop. No more worrying of forgetting to medicate, no more forcing myself to eat just to eat that medicine. Yay...the scars will take time to heal. Very very long time, but i'm sure the wait is worth it.

Missed the outing to Chinatown on Saturday. All because of two sleepyheads. Gosh..haa..it's ok..Dear and i had plans to make it on this coming sunday. Had planned to make a trip to Starhub Plaza Singapura to get my mobile phone mms fixed. Dammit..my mobile phone has been without MMS settings for months, I just can't seem to get the settings from anywhere - be it online, through the customer care consultant or manually. I'm so fed up. So much so that i've decided to bring that mobile phone personally down to the Starhub to get them fixed for me. And of cause, i didn't cos of my beauty sleep.

I wanted to teach tuition. Til now, i hasn't get anything started. Dear's going to help me. That extra income will do me great. Given the situation i'm in now, it isn't such a bad idea to tutor afterall. Anyway, i can go home after work almost everyday, except for special case such as guard duty. So i was thinking, y not. Dear supported me too...so do my parents.

As for the business that i'm doing, i have really no choice but to give up. Seriously speaking, i realise that it's just not my cup of tea, I'm not cut out to do such a thing. I tried, even though i didn't give my best. Sometimes, certain thing u don't have to give ur fullest to realise that u are not able to do it. It's too much a burden to me finiancially. I should have listened to Dear earlier, then i won't have to suffer.

My maple slowing down, but luckily, i found this new place to train. A nice place, where all the super pros partying me. Suddenly, i felt as though my character has been upgraded. I can't wait to reach 3 digits level. Here i come...

Tml's guard duty. As usual, it will set my morale to low automatically the night before, all the way until i finish work the day after my guard duty. I can't wait for Wednesday to come, that's when i can see my Dear. I know i'll miss her..so does she. What happened today is plain fear. But that fear was silenced off by your assurance. Thanks Dear...let's look forward to what we just talked about ard 1 hour ago. 4 years isn't too far..it's possible.

K la, i gonna visit my Sweetheart is Dreamland now....

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I don't know..but i just feel so bad..

I just knew that was going to happen. That laptop WILL NOT be used. Expected. U asked me to trust u one last time. I did...u broke it. I expected the reason for not using it. I sensed that strong unhappiness that u know i'm out. Haiz..u didn't even bothered to give me a call that i've been waiting.

I won't dare to do it again. NEVER.

Debit Card!!

So many happy things happen within these few days. Firstly, i finally got my Debit Card. The feeling of being able to possess a debit card again is just great. Though my previous experience with my very 1st Debit card wasn't really a good one, but the convenience of having once just makes me feel having after i got it. I got the Capitacard. Seeing the privilleges that the card brings, i'm just glad that i got that card for myself. Finally, i can book movie tickets online, buy stuff online and have a card that has my name on it.

Woot..Yesterday i got everything i wanted for Dear. That's why it makes me especially happy. I'm seriously contented. We have been through alot and til now, i'm dare to say, what's bad is past..what's good is memories. We've overcome lots of obstacles and we shall look forward to the future. Today, there's this colleague of mine, asking me why stick to one girlfriend. He suggests i should keep my options open. Well, my reply was simply: I'll be faithful to my girlfriend. I was thinking, if i don't, then what would be love. Where would be the trust. I'm not some people who would agree to have flings around. Hiding behind their partner back just to go out with some guy or girl. One is enough..if u know u can't commit, don't enter into a relationship. Dun be selfish. I love you my Dear..my one and only.

My exercise plan is going well. I've been exercising quite regularly. Tml, Dear's going to exercise with me for the 1st time. Woot..i can't wait. Mentioning before the importance of exercising, i'm going to make sure i and Dear lead a healthy lifestyle and stay healthy.

Had a long talk with Gavian. Decided to quit what we are doing now. No point going on. We are just not cut out for it. Hmm...suddenly, i feel that the burden is off. I should have listen to my Dear. I'm relieved now. I rather spend the money on buying something better for my Dear for her Valentine's Day. Can't wait...my very 1st Valentine!!

Stress..

Oh great..i'm sick..yes..again..Counting the number of days i'm sick ever since i got into my new vocation, it can be seriously said to be dangerous. I think my immune system is getting poorer. Time for supplements and regular exercise..plus of cos, proper diet. I can't afford to be sick all the time. It makes me feel as though i'm a handicapped, a useless person.

The trauma is back. I'm traumatized. I don't know what i should really do. Should i changed my metality of how i see it now? I used to thought just it alone will be strong enough to hold on to everything. It will overcome everything. But what was said yesterday night makes me feel that, it's not just about it. There's more things that's being involved, things that i've never considered it to be one before. My mood is ultimately low. Just because of certain things, it can endanger the whole thing between u and me. Is it so vulnerable that words can cause it to be broken? Is it so simple that it doesn't deserve any respect? I don't act on impulse is unavoidable..but know what to say, what not to say. Anger words may be harsh. The one saying might not feel the same way as the one hearing it. To me, it may just be anger words..but to me, it's these words that makes me ponder - pondering what a person am i, what have things come to such state, what can be done, why those words was said. So many things to think.

My physical headache out of the sudden is being overlapped by this mental headache. I couldn' sleep. Tears don't flow from my eyes easily..if it does, it will also mean that my heart is crying. I'm not comparing to anything before. It's just that, promises made must be kept. I don't nag at a person with bad intentions. If i know i will get scolding, coldness or whatever jus because i nag, do u think i will still go ahead with the nagging. I couldn't bear to just forget abt everything and just dump everything. This way, complications won't occur but it will show that i'm not concerned. I'm sad..but i know i'm not the only one..Right now, i'm still thinking..The thought of being left alone, not being able to contact is scary. Everything is still whirling up my mind now..i can't seem to sort them out right..cos i still haven't get pass myself. Somehow, i don't know who am i, what kind of a person i am. Failure?

Business hasn't been good. Had this very thought of giving up. Anyway, support from family and friends isn't that great. I shouldn't say there isn't any at all. But there's people doing the same thing as me. I'm stil learning. I've seen people succeed in it. Some may think i'm just nt cut out for it, why waste my time..but why can't i learn. All i need is time.

My maple is doing well. But i'm going to stop playing soon. I'm always playing at the wrong timing. It just cause so much misunderstanding. I don't want what i do to be an excuse being added to what's so unnecessary. Cos it will cause all the disappointment, hurt and sadness...

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Weekend's coming to an end. Tml's a working day again. Back to facing some idiots at work. Sian..

Today ain't a bad day. But nevertheless, Dear and i never failed to make things back on track and we ended the day really sweet. I like my day today. Thank you Dear..and sorry too...

My character in maple seems harder to level up now. At level 86, training at coolie zombie is started to get harder. I'll start finding new maps to get my character pumping up his percentage fast. My guild is getting stronger - more stronger and active maplers. It's never too boring to play maple again..

Have been having so much talks about Chinese New Year with Dear. I think this year's Chinese New Year will be a nice one for me. There will certainly be lots of nice food, hong baos and hehe..going to spend a special holidays with Dear..Can't wait..

Meanwhile, i shall countdown to my 1st valentine day.

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I don't know is it that she always forget what she say or she just pretend that i have forgotton about it myself by keeping mum about it. I hope that she will treat what was said seriously and not something that bypass her ears. Treat what people gave you like your own. It hurts to see how things given to you are being treated. I hate it when what was planned was not carried out. I don't know if it's because you are lazy but it seems that i'm always the one doing the trips. Argh...can u remember?

Bought lotsa stuff yesterday. Went out with a great shopping with mum and Dear. Started the day good..but ended the day lousily. Shall update about my shopping list tonight.

My maple is doing well and fine. It's climbing up slowly and steadily. 4th job doesn't seems to far for me now. I'll be there in no time..

Importance of Exercising

Yay!! I finally started on my exercise program. The importance of exercising. I can't stress it enough. I saw a new report on tv.

A skinny or average-build human being doesn't necessary means that he or she is less prone to disease like heart disease, diabetes etc than people who are obese or heavily overweight. Yes, obese people are prone to such dieases because of their dietary habits and no or little exercise. The main point here is that diseases such as heart problems etc look for people who don't excise and not people who are skinny. Usually, heart problems, stroke and diabetes all are cause mainly by a powerful subtance called fats. And it's these fats that are located near certain organs that proved to be disastrous. Fats around our muscles aren't the main cause..it's those fats that are around our heart, kidney etc that leads to diseases and illness. For example, if we don't exercise, our heart don't pump as much, it's became so inactive that the stomach can't absorb what it can, so eventually, these fats got to the heart and form a thin layer of fats around it, blocking arteries etc..that's when heart problems and stroke occur. High cholestrol is also the high consumption of fats, which the body can't absorb and is being retained in the body. That explains that high level of cholestrol. Main point here is, EXERCISE REGULARLY.

Come 21st March 2007, i'm going to be a Coporal. Finally. That's means higher rank and most importantly, more pay. Although a mere 70 bucks increment, but it's already like a big bonus to NSF like us..yay...

Feburary come fast! There's so many things for me to anticipate. Sometimes if u really think, time makes us realise what really matters to us. Think now..

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I'm now at Dear's hse...she studying..me plaing my own laptop...Hee..Facing her, she look so focused in her work. Another side of her..a more serious one..Hee..on and off, she'll stick out her tongue, rub her nose, move her face around..haa..cute dear!

It's been 3 days since Sis's bf enlist. She has been missing him as expected. It all brings me back to those days where i'm in Tekong while Dear's at home. We'll chat on the phone..missing each other so madly..hee..those days are over...

Guard duty on friday was relaxed but an irritating one. I hate doing duty in the rain. It makes the floor so wet and dirty..totally irks me off. I feel so awkward. Worse enough, i'm doing it with one private and a stupid coporal. A damn lazy one. He chooses his own slot in the benefit of him. Selfish ass...But time flies and finally sat is here. Dear's sweet yet again to come and look for me..Hee...

Next week i'm going to surprise her..hee..can't wait for that day..

BMW Covertible Ride

Today i got my butt on a seat of my dream car - BMW convertible. Super cool. Shaped like some robotic turbo car with silver finish. My favourite colour. Sitted inside, u feel as though u are floating. The engine silence, power surround sound. Totally cool...Finally...yes, finally..i have no regrets anymore..

http://usa.asus.com/news_show.aspx?id=4809

The above link. Go ahead..click on it..Showed to me by my friend. My dream laptop. Envy..whoever's getting it, let me know. Give me every chance to envy you or even rob you. It has the best of stats..good enough for almost everything..ARGH

Guard duty tml. sian...til now, i'm still putting myself in the well. Thinking how nice it is that some people actually do not need to serve guard duty. But like most said, it's part and parcel of NS. We take SAF's pay, we have to listen. I shall just wait for Saturday to come..

Movie - Life's a HighWay

Life is a highway. This sentence comes from a title of a soundtrack from the movie 'Cars". Life is really a highway, full of ups and downs.

My day began well. Finally, i get to have my PES status remained at C9L2. It's a great great news, which means i won't have to go to Tekong for that damn BMT. But sadly, i couldn't get excused for my range. I hate range...it gets ur ears deaf, get your body sticky and muddy. Ewwss...just the though of it turns me off..

It's real convenient to have a laptop with you. U bring it whenever and wherever u want. Hehe..i'm still happy at the thought of it..

Tml's another day of work...haiz...

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Soo full..til now, my stomach still feel bloated..Tonight's dinner is cooked specially for me. My beloved mum cooked it specially for me. My favourite wanton soup, steamed beancurd with prawn, spicy chilli sardine with onions and chilli omelette. Yummy...Dear got lucky to have a decent share of today's dinner too. Hope she's enjoying it.

Tml i'm going to get my PES status reviewed. Hopefully, my PES status remained..I wanna skipped my range again, skipped those stupid IPPT. ARGH!!! Shoo Shoo...


Made model for the water mitigation for my superior again today. It's always fun making model. Spent the rest of the day chatting with my colleague about games. Realised that there's so much about games that i still don't know. I used to be interested in games, be it console games, pc games etc etc...

Introducing Chery QQ

Today a few of us were talking about cars. There's this car that i've heard it sometime on news before. The model is Chery QQ. It's a car that's made in China. An economy car that is suitable for simple usage. Easy to drive, easy to manage. I was thinking maybe i'll start pestering papa about this..I'm quite interested in this car now..The review of it isn't that bad too..

Finally, applied for Capitacard debit mastercard from DBS. Hopefully, it will go through successfully. Can't wait to receive the card..

If you think you're unlucky, read on!

You think you are the most unluckiest person on earth. You think you are the pitiest person that has ever exist. You think you have no future. All the above shouldn't exist at all. Wait til u hear what i'm about to say.

A colleague of mine, turning 20 this year, has served NS for about a year. Recently, his condition has worsened. He belong to PES E status due to his skin condition and his eye problem. He visits skin centre for some therapy almost 3-4times a week, each time taking almost half a day. But i supposed what's bothering him most is his eye. He's almost blind, yes, ALMOAST BLIND. His eye is very blurish and has cause him great convenience. He used to be better but it just got worsened after he enter army. He told me alot of thing. He asked, have you ever wondered what you would do if u go blind? He even said to me, he haven't been in love once and he said he won't have any chance cos he's going to turn blind soon. His blood pressure and eye pressure has make his eyesight almost disappearing due to his breakage of nerve near the eye.

He told me he can't see things that near him. His scope of vision is so narrow that u keeps banging into things. Once he said he even bang onto full height mirror and said sorry to his reflection because he couldn't see. My heart reached out to him when i heard what he said. He said he's having depression now and i feel very sorry for him. But i must say he's strong that he's still living life as usual, just with abit negative thoughts. He told me this, i don't want my last moments which i can see to be in army, i want to see more beautiful things. At that moment, i shut my mouth. I didn't know what to say..

To me, i would rather go deaf, i would rather go dumb but i would never want to turn blind, for that is the most scariest thing that can ever happen to me.

I've been feeling super lousy today. I feel totally depressed. Still suffering from the lapse yesterday. My mood wasn't ok until just now when i reached home after meeting Dear. Dear, u did make my mood better.hee..out of the sudden, i miss her so much. She managed to score well for her assignment and i'm glad for her. She's picking up well and hopefully, she can make it through and well for her exams.

My PEs status is expiring soon. I'm going for the review soon and hopefully, it will stay at C9L2, which means no IPPT for me. Guard duty this friday, the though of it just makes me feel sucky..Haiz..

Don't Do Things Last Minute

I find myself quite weird earlier on. I just gone so quiet and silent by myself out of a sudden. Nothing happen or maybe it just that i'm bothered or troubled by things that doesn't really matter. Whether it's about Dear, work, family or what..i couldn't figure out what happen to me. It's a rather depressing feeling that makes me feel like doing nothing. Not in the mood to talk either.

It's not good to do thing at the very last minute. There's always risks involved. No matter how lucky u were to manage to scrap through, things won't go your way all the time. No harm preparing the things u need earlier. No harm planning ahead. In fact, it gets u ready. What happen just now hopefully is a good lesson. Advice to you: Pack your bag the night before u turn in. And lastly, on your mobile phone to the normal mode the moment u are out of that sch or office!

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A real bad day yesterday. It kind of woke me up. Reminded me how i have changed. I used to better..but not good as before. I'm supposed to be better than before. I'll change..i'll take note. But it takes two hands to clap. I may agree to what was said, i felt regretful too. But it doesn't mean i accept what was said. Both of us has to reflect. What i did was totally wrong, in fact, so wrong that i almost fall into that deep pitch that was supposed to be my stepping stone.

Sunshine after rain. Hope it won't happen again. Both are at fault so let's move on. Know what to do, what not to do. Things will get better. The agreement on 4 years later is still on.

I finally got started on it. Now i'm just going to start thinking how do i reach it to people..shall crack my brain, squeeze out my creative juices..

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I've got a bad feeling..i tried to help..but u must help yourself too...there's a limit to what i can to and a limit to how much i'm allowed to help you. If i overdo it, it will cause unnecesary trouble and misunderstanding..Wish u gdluck..

Misses Movie With My Friends

It's such an envy to be able to catch the latest movies at the theater. I miss those days where i always catch new released movies with my friends. We used to watch movie almost every week, sometimes up to 3 movies per week. We even bought the gv coupon to sastify our hnger for nice movies. Gone were those days..

So finally it's my turn to envy people who catches the movies they are interested in..some day, i'm going to be like last time..so crazy about movies!

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Finally i'm well. Free from bad flu..free from uncomfortable sorethroat. No fever too..phew..Alive and kicking!

Yesterday was chionging maple. Finally, i've found a new place where i can train well. It's always better to train in party. You gain exp fast, you get more items and more fun! Seeing Don's damage just make me feel so jealous. His damage reach as high as 5k plus as compared to mine which is around 2k on average. We made plans tomake our mapling more fun. We shall chiong together, raid maps together, bring out our guild, eliminate inactive members, earn mesos together. It's nice to have a mapling buddy. Well, don has been my gaming buddy since years ago. We started out on games like yahoo pool, pokemon, swat 4 and lotsa of other games. Cos it's never bored to play with him.

Presenting 'kendoboi'

Finally planned my business with Don. It's really time i get started. Shall elaborate more on my blog next time. I feel confident to bring this business up. Got support from my dear too.

Went to 'kuan yin'temple with Don today too. Prayed for a few people. Hope they stay healthy and happy, of cos that includes me..=)

Sick

As mentioned yesterday, and i woke up today feeling extra uncomfortable. Decided to report sick..It's so troublesome for me to report sick. There are so many people i have to inform - my superior, my in-charge, my friends etc..

Broke but no choice, i went on the the Edinburgh Clinic. Luckily, my family doctor was there. Got a few medicine for flu and some antibiotics. Got a letter from her for the medical officer and the best - 2 days MC!!

I keep telling myself no eating of food that would bring up my cholestrol level. Eat more veggie as mum and Dear would said. I promised them i would change my eating habits and diets.

Dear's eyes has been so pain. Even til today, yet stubborn her still dun wan to see doctor. Poor her..hope she get well real soon..

Right now, i'm just feeling hot on my body..temp: 37.2 degree celcius.i'm so scared i would have a fever..please don't come to me..

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A terrible day..1st working day of the year was quite alright. No more slacking around in the office allowed. All the high ranking officers and staff are back. Get caught sleeping, reading magazines or simply just doing personal stuff will just get u into hot soup, meaning sign 3 extra guard duties..Sob..that's is why i'm always on high alert. Moreover, the new commander is said to be a pyschotic man. He screams at his man, he throws his temper at his man and he will basically just make a big fuss out of a small matter, making no turning back for you.

Made a model for the whole day. I get envy from people because my job now is just making model. Futhermore, it's own time own target. I choose when to do, when to rest..But the pressure of making it look real to the actual one is there, i dare not let a strand of hair down.

As i'm typing now, my nose is running. It hasn't stop since just now, in fact a few days ago. On and off. I had this bad feeling that i might have a fever soon. I'm feeling hot after sending Dear home just now. I took my temperature just now - 36.9 degree celcius. But i'm now feeling as though i'm having a very high temperature. Wanted to report sick tml, see a private doctor instead of polyclinic (They see patients as though as they were shopping for clothes), but i'm hard on cash. I'm still considering. Let's hope tml, i'll feel i'm still as strong as a bull. I don't want to have fever, it's one of the worst thing that can happen to me. Asthma, fever, grastric..Argh..i want them no more..shoo shoo shoo..go away...

I'm feeling so sick...wish me well..Dear hasn't been feeling well too. So are some of my friends. A bad start of a new year for many. Dear has got eye irritation and rashes. Dear Dear, hope you recover soon. No scratching of your skin, no rubbing of eyes and drink more water..

Glad to hear no complaints or problems from sis. Let's hope her work will continue to be this smooth.

New Year Resolutions

Overall to say, Year 2006 has been a great year for me. Several things for me to be happy about.

- I've successfully completed my Diploma In Architecture Course.
- I've more memories with my friends and sis.
- I've went on 2 holidays this year. 1 with my family, 1 with my Dear
- I've found my love.
- I've found a job that i've never worked before.
- I've become a soldier.

*There are alot more..but those mentioned are mainly the ones that have made my year so wonderful.

Year 2007 is finally here..Hopefully this would be a great year for me. As always, resolutions will be made. I've always try my very best to follow these resolutions but more often than that, the determination fade away as situations don't allows.

This year, i rather have some wishes and hopes than to have resolutions.

- Be a better person - a better son, brother, boyfriend, friend, soldier.
- Be a better guitarist. I got to play more music.
- Go on a vacation again.
- Stay healthier by exercising and folow a healthier diet.
- Make more money with my upcoming plans and save more money. Spend wisely.
- Decorate my room, i'm gong to make it feel more like my room.

Basically, that's all i can hope for..i'll just try my best and hopefully, this year 2007 would be a great year...

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Love knows no boundaries..be it race, religion, nationality, distance, height etc etc..it's amazing seeing people whom overcome those factors just to find their true love. Distance has never seems to be a problem for me. I'm ok with it..it's used to be ok for the both of us too..but now, as several months has passed, it just seems that it's getting kind of difficult for u. I understand but come to think of it, why should it be..

Mistakes made once doesn't mean it will stay there forever. No one is unreasonable forever. I know he made a mistake before..he realised it to and come to terms with what we reason with him. I see no reason why should that matter still remain so strongly in ur heart when u even said that it can disappear in you. I understand how u feel, i also assure you, if such a thing ever happen again which i jolly well it won't, i'll fight for you. I'll reason and thrash out with him. There's people behind u and me too. The thing is, that matter is in the past, don't dwell on it anymore. Accept that just the way he accept our reason. Don't fear of anything again. I'm here..come to me should anything arises.

Seeing Don's hamster yesterday just made me want to have one too. Dear had the experience of bringing up those hamsters before. I'm seriously considering in getting one. I'll have to think twice before i really do that. Somehow when i see Don's hamster yesterday, i'm like a small child again, playing with it when it doesn't know what am i talking about. Hehe..it look so cute that i just want to put it on my hand but Don says it bite. Hm..i'll think and consider...

Weather hasn't been good. Almost everyone around me isn't feeling well. Me, my friends, my Dear..so many. oor Dear, even had a stomach upset which is still haunting her now. She's now in her dreams..let's hope everything will be ok for her tml..cos it's hard to ask a stubborn person to consult a doctor...*Pray*

Dear received her SIM letter not long ago. I fear for her..i know she's starting to worry..don't worry Dear. I'll help u wherever i can. Come up with a timetable or study plan, focus more on your studies now. i know u have start making plans and hopefully u can stick to it. I understanding the time u need, i will understand. Don't worry too much..jia you!!