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I find myself blogging less frequently as before. Simply because i has lost the mood in blogging. The enthusiasm in blogging in no longer around. It's hard to blog about your life, or what u have to say when u know there's actually people out there reading your blog not because they want to know how i've been up to but just reading so that they have something to gossip in, more to talk about. It's irritating yet so unpredictable to deal with such people.

I've thought of changing my blog add, til now yes i still have the intention, but circumstances don't allow me to do that. I'm having restrictions in blogging in my OWN blog. It's sounds funny, even absurd but that's how things are now..

CNY - As i grow older, CNY gets more and more boring. Nothing ever interests me..not those goodies or red packets(er, maybe yes), it's more like looking forward to gathering with people whom i'm seldom in contact with. But surprisingly, i've been gambling quite alot this year.

Friday is finally here. Though how much i said i'm finally free after my brother's gone, deep down, i actually missed him. Haa...i can't believe it. But whatever it is, he's still my bro. And lucky him and he should be honoured that i actually took a day leave to send me off. Woke up early and reached the airport. Now comes the funny part, in my whole life, i've never heard anyone who doesn't know which airline or flight he's taking until that very last hour. Yes, that's until my bro. Gosh..we actually went to the wrong terminal cos he though he's taking Tiger Airways til his friend called him up and give a big knock on his dummy head. So we had to rushed to Teminal 1 to take his AirAsia flight. Luckily, everything still goes on well.

And so, off he goes..it'll be another 3 and a half months before my family can see him again. So for this 3 and a half months, i'll be watching soccer matches alone, play my games alone, even talk to myself. Pathetic...bet he feel the same ways, hopefully he does, then he'll know how important we are. Hope by the time he's back, he'll treat my mum better. Even me too..haa

That night was shiok, went gambling with Dear's cousin and watched movie. It's the 1st time i went out with Dear til so late. Err, with her cousin as well of cos. I watched Norbit for the 2nd time. Not that it's a very very fantastic movie, but it's funny. Moreover, i promised to watch with her. I've yet to watch Protege!! I'm going to catch it next weekend.

Yesterday was boring. Seeing her doing last minute studying makes me abit worried. Haiz..if only...Feel so empty not meeting her yesterday. Donna and Gav paid a visit to my family yesterday. Finally, we betted again. Wahaha...Stupid Jon found a new close friend that gave him the choice to give us up. Better not let me see him or he's DEAD!!

After the house visit, it's mahjong time at Don's house. Woot..we had a feast before we started our session. Mutton curry, Chicken curry, Vegetable curry, Fishcurry, Briyani Rice, KFC was on spread on the table. Haa, of cos, we didn't managed to finish, I've this thing against curry. It's either very nice or it just sucks big time. I can't stand mutton..Ewww!!! It just makes me feel like vomitting..

I was on a winning streak playing mahjong yesterday. I supposed we played around 20++ rounds yesterday. Hee, 1st time in my life i did so well in mahjong.

And oh yea, i baked my very 1st cake today. Wasn't that fantastic but good enough for a 1st timer. As compared to baking, i still prefer cooking. Hmm.speaking of cooking, it's been a long time. Secret recipe guys?

Sick Thoroughly

So many things happen within this few days..There's Chinese New Year Preparation, Valentine Day, 9th month Anniversary with my Dear and also, both of us fell sick..

This whole week, i only went to work once. Monday was gladly an off day for me. I managed to skipped the event held by my camp (phew!). I'm so lucky to have my guard duty on sunday. But sadly, Tuesday was a working day for me, so i didn't really look forward to anything. Whole day was so meaningless. Just watching the time pass just like that..

Tuesday was much more better. Alot of stupid things happen. It's as if i haven't been to work for a long time. But still i went for the run. A run organised to ensure we soldiers have a healthy lifestyle. 3km - 16 mins plus...hmm..nt sure if that timing is good but sure i'm not bad cos most people are still behind me when i cross the finishing line. =) i'm just waiting for Wednesday to come. I've look forward to it since ages ago...just my off work time was delayed due to some preparation for the inspection tml!! ARGH!!

Finally, wednesday came. Many emotions involved..but i'm not going to talk this day.

Thursday - Sick. Went to the doctor, he said i've got food poisioning. I was running to toilet every now and then the night before - vommiting and bombing the toilet. Dear was sweet enough to come and take care of me despite her being sick herself. I was feeling so much better. Love's the medicine...but something still irks me until now.my eye....the red patch on my eyeball is still there, and dun seems to be fading. I don't know what to do with it. It makes my eye look so vulnerable. But the problem is, i can see perfectly. Just hope it will be back to normal in no time..

The red patch on my left eye

By the time friday comes, i'm already all well. Went around doing last minute shopping for New Year stuff with Dear. I realised while doing the shopping that all those goodies don't really seems of any interest to me anymore. In fact, Chinese New Year isn't a festive season to me. It's just a plain holiday where i don't need to report to work. Nothing much to look forward to. It's just more eating, more meeting of people that's all..Plain...

Just had my Reunion lunch. Yes, my family has this trend of eating reunion lunch and dinner. Of cos, it's steamboat. I've always loved steamboat until Wednesday that i presumed it's the steamboat that made me have food poisoning..But nevertheless, steamboat at home was not bad. It's been so long since i eat with my family...nice feeling..it shall be like that again tonight..chaoz...

Congrats Don

I miss my dear dear so much..even though tml hasn't even started. The thought of tml being stucked inside the camp makes me feel to rejected. I feel so negative towards guard duty. Miss u!!

Oh ya, grats don for passing his theory test..

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Heart pierced. Yes, what u said might be true..but it just came as thousands of bows and arrows aiming towards me. U leave me with no space of defending myself. U don't care how i'm going to feel when those bows and arrows were shooted at me. All you want is to get your point clear to me.

Well, clear enough. I'm just asking for a treat from you, cos i have no money left. But u relate it back to the lunch incident. Now i know..and rest assured, i won't ask a single treat from you. At least it won't complicate things and create misunderstandings. U calculated how much i've owe u. U remember clearly the times where u helped me finiancially, but u well forogtten the times i helped u when u were having finiance difficulty. Never mind, i'll return you what i owed to prevent being bombed again. Now i know who to go to when i really need help in terms of finiancially.

Sorry for what i've done wrong. Sorry..

Dear's sick today. Hope she really get well soon. I don't know if i passed her the virus but no matter what, trust me i'm really worried.

Miss u..

Sick..Sick...and still Sick

Finally i'm all well..Been sick for the past few days. I think i'm the record holder for taking the most number of MCs since the start of this year. Everyone must be thinking how i have been chao-keng my way since i'm posted there.

My whole life has been haunted by sickness. Asthma, Grastric or Fever u name it. This 3 are my worst enemies. Each time any one of this hits me, i'll be in great torture and suffering my way til i'm well. If i'm lucky, just a few days will do, if worst, it will be months. I still remember very clearly, the worst asthma attack i had and how long it took me to cure. A pathetic, torturing 10 months. That's also how i got my PES C9 status.

It's hard to have a good body. I'm not one who can take good care of myself well, although more often than not, i've been telling myself, it's time i really should. Though i didn't succeed each time round, i'm glad to those who took care of me. My mum especially. Ever since i was born, i'm always sick. She has been the only one who has been taking great care of me while i'm sick, even until now. So i'll say thank and love u mummy! Thanks to my dad during my later part of my life where he realise his care for me is important. But surely no thanks to that brother of mine. He'll just pretend as though nothing happen. Now there's always an extra care from my Dear. This care allows me to heal faster. Haa..true enough..

I've prepared the materials. So it's time to start work..soon..hopefully i'll be able to succeed.

Gosh..i've been exploring around so many times..i managed to fight powerful mobs. Just yesterday, i levelled up. I declared myself level 91. I visited Pianus right after that and before i even see his head for more than 3 secs, i'm dead. So didn't managed to take a screenshot while i'm still alive. I need mesos. There has been so many people who's crazy over gachapon. Gacha-ing and then sell of those items, earning them millions of mesos. That was my intented solution to solve my mesos woes but i decided that it's not that worth it after all. I shall earn it the hard way. I've yet to hunt my 1st steely in my whole maple life. And i vowed to get it! At aLL cost!!!

Miss my dear already...chaoz....

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Gosh!!!! I slept sooo late last night. I had less than 4 hours of sleep. I turned in at 2am..but after some tossing here and there, i think i manage to doze off at around 2:30am..And i woke up freaking early - 5:45am..Woke up feeling very restless, like a living dead..But no choice, have to report to work..well, that's life

I'm very disturbed at the fact that the toilet bowl in my kitchen is leaking water. Nothing is done too..maybe not yet. I can't stand the fact that the water is just leaking down freely..it's as if throwing coins down the pipe. I feel a little bit heartache (Although i'm not the one paying the utilities bill). What makes the matter worse is that, my mum actually forget the off the showerhead just now and the showerhead was turned on at FULL blast..at the very least, for an hour. Gosh, that's throwing piles of notes down the pipe. I suddenly feel so scared. This month utilities bill is going to be a huge sum. Hopefully, dad will be able to handle the amount. Haiz..the bad thing about this house is that everywhere seems to be leaking water - my kitchen tap, toilet bowl, showerhead..arghh....i always have to make it a point to ensure the water leakage are at their minimum before i turned in for the day (cos i'm the last one to sleep).

Dear was sad. Reason i won't say it down here, cos some people reading my blog just don't deserve to know. I just want to tell you, u are not the only one feeling sad, i am sad too, so are ur parents. But no matter what happen, umust always learn from it, heed advices. Don't always think that i'm stressing you. I'm just trying to help you. You know yourself better than no one else. U need to be pushed..You may say, your parents don't force you, that's simply becos they don't know how u are doing, but i know. Cos i'm the only one u've been telling things to.

Tml my camp start this healthy lifestyle event. It held every tuesday and friday. But luckily for me, i'm excused running..so i supposed i'll just walk 3km..that's abit dumb but a good way to past time.

My maple has been doing well so far. 30 more level to go and i'm all ready for 4th job. Oh ya, and Man Utd won 4-0 against Tottenham last night. It's so cool. O'Shea even became the Goalkeeper after Edwin Van Der Sar was injured in the last 5 mins..haa...1st time ever...

Jia you Dear...Love you..Muacks!

Unpleasant HairCut

Went for a hair cut on Saturday. It's a visit to Dear's favourite saloon. I've never waited so long for just a haircut in my life. This neighbourhood saloon although it small, the number of patrons visiting it is far much more than those exclusive saloon. My haircut was also much faster as compared to the '10 mins hair cut'. Like my current hairstyle. Paid a few bucks more due to the little increment cos of the Chinese New Year season.

1st time on an outing with Fishball. Motive: To shop for Valentine's Day present. Quite enjoyable to go out with him. Went to several place. Even played pool. Taught him how to play pool, i feel as though i'm some professional. But poor him, his back got worse after playing pool. Sorry dude..Suntec was our shopping spot. We thought we can have lots of options there. Who knows, we went shops after shops..eventually, we chose to go Marina Square instead. Over there, the shops are much, and that explains the variety too. But still, we couldn't find much options. *secret for now*

Recently has been eating too much fastfood. I suppose that explains why my face is facing so much problems now. I hope the dry period will go off soon. I shall constraint myself for a few days.

Not in a good blogging mood now...tml shall blog more..

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I thought i wun have to envy people again. I though i'll be able to spend that day the way that i've been dreaming ever since i was in a sec sch student. I envy people and always wondering when would be my turn. Months ago, i have so much on my mind about that day. I've always been looking forward to it. For finally, for once, my wish is going to come true. But now, everything has changed. I'm following the norm. I'm not going to fulfill my wish. It's the 1st time that's special to me.

What was said make me so useless. Yet again this year, i could only have the share of envying people again. I said before, if only one could be happy, i rather it be her. So everything shall go according to her wish. I dunno whether it will be a happy day for me, but i'll try. But at least for now, i'm sad, i'm disappointed. She meant well, i knew it. But that's really not what i want.

She has been telling what she expects from that day. I got that in my head and also planned. I been wanting to make a huge surprise. For all that express how far i would go just to make that day a special for both of us. Even to the extent of taking half day leave.

But it seems everything is pointless. The things that i have been thinking for the past few days especially, all are unnecessary. All gone down the drain. I won't pursue this matter any loner. For it's going to be endless. This time round, i have no choice. A day that's supposed to make both happy could only make one happy. It might even not let both be happy on that day.

How i really wish that day never come. I don't look forward to it anymore. I don't want that day to come. I shall cancelled my leave. I'll do what i promised...

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Guard Duty on Tuesday was alright. It seems like i'm starting to accept the fact that i have to do at least 2 guard duties per month. Seriously speaking, i'll have to consider myself lucky enough to do Guard Duty at School of Ammunition. Where on earth can u get KFC delivered to your guard house. Where on earth can u watch hours of tv while doing guard duty. Where on earth can u get duties that only require u to prowl even less than 5 mins. All only at SOA. Haa..But the after effect of guard duty is that super exhaustion on my body. It just makes me feel so restless, as though my body is splitting apart. The comfort at home has made my body unable to adapt to our harsh environment.

Received news about that happen to sis. Take care sis..don't get too upset.

V.Day. A day that's considered special to me. I've made plans. No point changing it. I won't. I know i'll be happy on that day..i know u will be happy on that day too.

I utterly disappointed. Ive never imagined that. If you are going to do something behind your partner back, i suggest u don't do it. By doing it, u'll lose that trust that u've gained over the months. Breaking up should not be hanging on your month without much thought. And worse, u don't be with the person just because the person wants to. It's super unfair. Haven't u even thought about the happy memories before? Haven't u know how much u have gone through til today? Is what u did right or ok? Think for yourself...

I was on a bus just now. I notice a new trend of tapping EZ-Link card by lazy people. I saw this uncle, with his card on his cheat pocket, he conveniently bend down and puts his chest in front of the tapping machine and 'beep', off goes the sound. The gesture and position that uncle is in, it just makes himself look like a fool. His actions is considered funny though..nice way of tapping your EZ-Link card.

Singapore won Thailand 2-1 on the 1st leg. It's seriously unbelievable. Even til now, i strongly believe Singapore wont have the ability to beat Thailand. All by luck. Look at the line-up. How many players were imported. Somehow, they were similar to Chelsea. Using money to attract talents, tobring this 'fake' fame for Singapore.

Man utd won Watford 4-0. A big thrashing. 6 points away from Chelsea. Good. I shall wait for the day where Man Utd clinched the title. I'm waiting...