Yay!! I'm so happy. I managed to fix that stupid, dumb and stubborn problem myself. The externall hdd i bought from my friend's uncle refused to cooperate with my computer and after days of worrying and hours of fixing, i'm finally able to use it. But not fully fixed actually, sometimes, the problem returns but at least i know how to solved it..well, sort of..

I'm regretted. I should have washed the jackets after finished chatting. But i chose to wash it 1st..now she's asleep i guess. I'm so bored. Lucky don's online to accompany me.

Back to today's work. I woke up early to make breakfast. Haha..1st time i woke up so early just to make breakfast. Brought it to work to let Yun foong try it 1st, but it turned out not to be very nice. Although it turns out to be abit tasteless, all those who tried still managed to finish it. I'm so happy and glad. I was super tired today. I kept dozing off in the morning. Yay, we will still be going to Genting. I'm so glad she didn't cancelled it just because we couldn't find anyone to go with us. I'm looking forward to it..hmm..

When it's mid afternoon, my headache starts to come. I popped panadol into my mouth. I couldn't concentrate on my work. The pain is bad. Someone called me kelvin today. Wahaha..i'm so happy. I shall hear it from that someone soon. I'll be even happier. Worked OT today. Finally..How many more OTs will i be working...hmm...i also don't know..right now, i'm just too happy to sleep..I MANAGED TO FIX THE HDD PROBLEM!!!!

Wanted to share this piece of good news to those who know abt the problem i had. Only Don's here to share woith me. She's asleep already. I can't get to sleep..i shall rot a while 1st..

As usual, i'll always be back home, welcomed by the same old person. Always never fail to ruin my day. No one can actually understand how exactly i feel. I seriously dread coming home. My friends would say, you all are one family, why go to the extent of feeling that way. I know, but i just don't feel treated that way - i don't feel as if i'm in a family.. That so called brother of mine, as usual, would gives me names. Dumbo he is! I couldn't care more. He's become more and more petty, never fail to admit his wrongdoings and failure. Instead, he would point his pathetic fingers at me.

I'm actually starving on my way home. My grastric's acting up. I'm really feeling empty inside my stomach. The acid is making my stomach pain, i just can' stand straight just now. When i started eating dinner, my dad came back. I was dining at the same table as him (he was drinking). He's always eyeing on my food, he needs to eat whenever he drinks. Poor me, i have to give part of my dinner to him. All i'm eating is plenty of white rice and little of dishes. But at least i've filled my stomach with something. My grastric's better. I shall go wash the jackets and bathe. I stinks!

Woke up by an early greeting from someone. Haha..was kind of touched by that MMS. Don't send too much le ok? MMS quite expensive. So, today supposed to do gym with Don. But just when i was ready to go for gym after coming out for the toilet, my mum say she wants her Mother's Day treat to be in the afternoon and insteadof evening. Gosh, i've already missed lotsa sessions of gym and yet again, today i have to missed it. But the reason is valid, simply because it Mother's Day. Wished my mum Happy Mother's Day right after i woke up. Since the treat is in the afternoon, i slept a while before leaving for Bukit Panjang Plaza. Mummy wants to dine at the restaurant. So we went ahead.

The food was disappointing. Only the scallop was nice. Others only so-so. I can see my mum was rather disappointed with the food there. I promised to bring her to Fish & Co to eat some day in near future. Bought the official world cup sticker book and the official information book. The sticker book has near 600 blanks for us to fill in. I wonder how many packets of stickers i and my brother need to buy to fill up the whole book.

We went back home after that. I feel so lazy to meet my friend and cousin. I went home and online a while before taking a 2nd nap again. We see who would wake up 1st and she did. She won, but luckily, no prizes claimed by her. Phew..wahaha..Woke up feeling very sian. Totally nothing to do. I wonder if tml would be boring. I seriously hope not.

Sometimes, we just have to admit that mouths can be 'poisoning'. I understand how she feels and i understand the fact that one will surely get affected no matter what. Seriously hope she won't get too affected by it. Like i said, when she's sad, i am..When she's happy, i am. I want to share her sadness and happiness with her and i hope she's willing.

I just ate two donut. Not full but at least it fills my stomach. I'm going to make some sandwiches tml. Let's hope it won't turn out too bad. I'm still improving on my culinary skills u see. Don, when's our next cooking session?

Finally, i changed my blogskin. I've decided to make something more colourful, so here it is. My latest 'Masterpiece'. Comment on it on the tagboard on the right navigation box.

I've finally watch MI3. It's a very nice movie i would say and it hasn't disappoint me. Thanks to her, i'm able to watch. The only sad thing is that, she has to bear with the cold. I wanted to help, but i'm abit dumb. The least i could do as i thought to myself, was to share the 'coldness' with her. I folded up my long sleeve. Indeed, it was cold inside. But i could see she's even colder than me.

Before the movie, she brought me to eat 'La Mian' at Crystal Jade Restaurant. It's the 1st time i eat the 'La Mian' at Crystal Jade. It's rather disappointing. Mine turns out to be abit bland whereas hers turns out to be quite salty. We couldn't finish that bowl of harmful noodles. But oh gosh, the dumpling there was superb. I would like to try again if i can.

After the movie, we headed home. Things started to turn abit weird at this point of time. Both of us became quieter. I know something's not right, but i don't know what is it. So, i went back home. Designed her blog. Supposed to go Eski Bar with Don which i was expecting and looking forward to it, but postponed instead. Instead, i went to meet her for dinner. Oh gosh, i'm super useless. I'm late again..WHY!!! I also keep her waiting..i hate myself..i shall be early and be the one waiting. I feel bad to be the one coming late, turning up late, making her wait. We ate Macdonald. I wasn't in the good appetite actually, but the burger was quite nice. Fries sux..tasteless..I gave her a surprise. I didn't mean anything else..Just want her to stay happy, forget everything else. Everything was settled. I'm glad, relieved and happy.

Things is still the same. Time will tell. I'm expecting it to be better. Tml's Mother's Day. I'm going to bring my mummy around. She deserve a good treat from me. She deserve more than just a treat actually, but a treat is the most i can give her, other than that, i can only say 'i love you mummy'.

It's friday today. Yet, it's like so different. I keep on thinking that it's a Saturday. Today she came my house. Before that, we went to rent the vcds we wanted to watch and also buy some food. I have actually wanted to cook something sumptuous for her, but couldn't think of any food and everything seems to be so rush. I promise i'll make one if there's ever a chance again.

And so, she reached my house. The only person at home is my bro. Once we settled down, we started to watch the 1st show - Wishing Stairs. I watched it before but she hasn't yet. Cos i was saying how pretty one of the actress are, and there's a new horror movie too, from the director of 'Wishing Stair', so i asked her to try watching this show. As much as she's afraid to watch it, she still went ahead. Luckily, she didn't find the show too fightening. She's sleeping now, how scary can this movie be to her right? Wahaha..

In between the show, we cooked and ate. She also slept a while, claiming that my bed is super comfortable. Haa..While i was busy playing my game. I can see she's cute and funny in her own way. We didn't managed to watch the other vcd which is called 'My Boyfriend is Type B'. I shall burn it and watched it with her some time in near future i suppose.

We went town. Both of us asked each other lotsa question. That's when i know more abt her. And thankfully, her stomach didn't had any problem today. I'm glad. We took a walk along raffles place and then to esplanade, then back to mrt. Chatted along the way. I hope i can really get to go overseas for some fun before i get enlisted. I shall look forward to it.

Was on my way home just now, when i smsed sis. She replied saying that there's this unknown psycho who called her and asked her some disgusting questions. I suppose this guy must be damn pathetic and desperate. Sis said that he seems to be masterbating while talking to my sis and mention some disgusting stuff. She must have had her shock of her life. Sis, whatever happens, i'm here..cheer up..Anything bad happens, just gimme a ring..inform your parents if things starts to get out of hands. How childish and desperate can people be. Going around doing pervertic stuff.

Her horoscope reading wasn't really good today. So i thought i can do something to make her happy instead. I can't think of any. I'll try to cheer her up as much as possible if she happens to be down or upset. Luckily, she's not, at least i can't feel any from her. I'm wondering how will tml be..too tired to ponder/wonder..

Oh ya, i got a new phone. Actually it's my bro previous phone. He gave it to me without dad's notice. Anyway, i'm going to keep it as my own. I like this new phone. She also helped me with the phone, i'm kinda dumb when it comes to such thing. My eyes keep on closing now..i'm tired..what's awaiting tml? I don't know..i'm so tired..yet so bored..can't get to sleep..yawn...

Woke up today, feeling so dead. I dragged myself out of the bed. Took my own sweet time. Still troubling over my pathetic hair. When i reached, i tried to hide my hair as much as possible..as much as i could. Candy was the 1st one to question my hair..i didn't replied. My expression did the answer. Today's ZiQin's last day. Sadly, the feeling of having one of us to leave the group wasn't really good. Though i wasn't close with her and i barely know her, i still feel not right.

We had a mini photo taking session back in the office. It was fun..very fun..each of us with our mobile phones out. Haha..Took several photos and it's back to work. I really feel like sleeping in the office. I doze off several times..Counting the applications makes it worse. My head is dropping lower and lower. Luckily, the radio saves the day. I was checking out the horoscope readings. My day turns out to be not bad tml, as broadcasted. I'll have to wear light blue tml..Goah, i forgot what's the other reading already.

After work, supposedly going to walk a while before leaving for home. But someone went home 1st yet again, leaving me and her alone. As always. So we went to check out the tour agency. I want to go vacation before i enter army. I'm sad at the thought of being trapped in Singapore for 2 years, doing the same thing everyday. I must really enjoy myself, let myself out, do whatever i want to do within this short period of time. But for now, time seems to flies, how i wished it would stopped or move slower, i want to realise the importance of time, so that i can actually treasure it and make full use of it.

For the 1st time, i enter PastaMania. ea, u guys didn't see it wrongly. It's PASTAMANIA. But i didn't eat the pasta/pizza there. She ate the pasta there. The smell of pastamania is so strong..i could barely take it. But she's hungry. After a while, the smell didn't really bothered me. We went to check out the pokemon vcds too. I want to rent. But didn't managed to find any..anyone know where can i find pokemon vcds? Please let me know..

As we were walking home, her stomach gets worse. She's already feeling the pain not long after her dinner. I wanted to talk to her, ask her where's the pain, ask her how she is, but her expression really worrys me. I can't understand her pain..i dare not talk to her, cos i scared it will only make her more pain. She'a just assuring me by putting a smile on her face, bearing with that pain. Anyway, she's better now. When i told that 'gong kia' (like how she would call her), she's abit worried too. I can see how close friends they are actually. It's actually hard to find friends that really care. Though both of them always argue jokingly, i can see they are on very good terms. That's something rare and touching.

I'm too glad i have friends like her. It's always good to have friends around with you, best friend even. At least you know they will always be there for you. I love all my friends...that includes my sis too..

Yay..finally i'm allowed to go to HongKong. I kinda excited..but worried too. The expenses might come up to a big sum. Big sum so much so that i have to actually cut down on my spending. I still have lotsa thing up on my mind. Wondering how and what should i do.

I was very frustrated just now. My hair looks damn pathetic now. I hate it. Tml, everyone's gonna laugh at me. I don't feel like working. Nowadays, lotsa words seems to be coming against me..even though it might not be true, even though it's charged at me with no bad intention, even though it's was plainly meant to be a joke, i just don't really fancy it. It don't make me unhappy..but repeatedly, i also don't know what to do or say. I'll just keep quiet, for i know saying anything won't help. I'm a person who can take jokes..but such thing can't be joked..We went J8. Ate Ajisen. It's as salty as ever. Then we went walking around. There's lotsa thing i want to buy, but then, i'm really tight on my pocket now. I've been spending so much. I should control now. After that, sent her to bus interchange. We managed to play that slide for thrice whereas i'm somehow bring forced to play too. It's seems so different now..not as fun as i used to play when i was young, but somehow, the feeling was different too.

Whenever i hear that song, i don't feel good. It just makes me be reminded. I keep on wondering. I don't like this feeling. But what can i do, i can't control it. Finally, i've completed ZiQin farewell card but i haven't wrap her present. She asked me not to wrap, but i feel that i should. Now my feeling is kinda lost. I don't know what to do with it. I wanted to tell someone..confine to someone. But everyone seems to be busy with their own stuff. Sis and Don's sleeping..there goes my listening ears. I'm wondering if she can be my listening just for now, but i'm afraid to tell her too. I scared i might give her the impression that i'm talkiing nonsense. I need to pour out..but for now, i shall just keep to myself. I hating bottling up all these things but no choice. I don't feel like going to work, for i somehow feel that work's going to be super boring tml. I can't wait to leave. I can't imagine that when ziqin starts to leave, one by one, off they go. By then, i wondered who will still be staying there. No one? I'm back to my own self.

The hdd is not working. I don't know what to do. 100 bucks of stuff just wasted like that. Sucks..i hate it..Dumb...i shall go sleep and not worry abt anything..

Will tml be boring? I'm feeling so tired now..i'm dozing off in front of the computer...zzz..i better go sleep..ZzZzZ

I'm so happy today. At least my day has ended happily. All because of a movie, not only that but because someone who's willing to watch with me. I wouldn't have watch that movie if she's not going. There's another one who supposed to some along with us but she chose games over us. Sob..

The day kicked of with me waking up feel restless and exhausted. I slept very late the night before, after chatting on the phone. It's always good to have a listener who's willing to listens to you, talks with you..at least i know someone out there is still awake, just like me. Back to today, i reached 1st this time round, for the 1st time. hehe..in the past, i'm always late, now i'm glad at least i made it before her. If not, i'll be feeling bad. I'm supposed to eat breakfast but had a weird tummy upset..nevertheless, i still ordered hotcakes while she ordered big breakfast. We rushed through out breakfast and then to work. Work was alright, we had cup noodles for lunch..

After lunch, my heart starts to set heavily. I started to get frustrated over things. I hate to stick stickers. I'll always stick it wrongly. I hate opening and closing the drawer to take the stickers in and out. The number of folders inside that drawer ain't helping me any better. Worse still, the applications wasn't sorted out accordingly. I'm just frustrated..soon, she said something has upset her. I should have guessed as much given her expression. I tried making her smile, but i failed i guess. Her mood turns better once we are out of work. That's how sucky our job are. Yet, the other girl chose to go home and not go town with us! Argh..Games was the only thing on her mind..bad her! Wahaha..

We had dinner at this place - Ayam Penyet at Lucky Plaza. As always, i'll mislead the way then ended up walking up and down or walking one big round. Each time i do that, she'll have some comments, those comments didn't make me mad, instead, it make me laugh because it came out from her mouth. She's getting more and more humourous. The dinner was funny, told her the chilli was super hot. She ate without thinking twice and learnt her lesson. Hope she does enjoy the dinner cos i did...how i wished i could eat more but my stomach don't allow me to. After dinner, we were supposed to go for pool (because she lost another game of scissors, paper, stone against me). But she said she's changing it to the next time and she promise she will play with me next time. I'll be waiting..finally i bought my cologne. We went to cineleisure to buy our movie tickets. We had a dilemna, we didn't know which movie to watch - Daisy or You are my Sunshine. Again, we played Scissor, paper, stone. And YES again, i won. But still we watched You are my Sunshine. I don't mind watch any, so i let her decide. It's a nice movie. It's funny and touching. It has a meaningful phrase - Smile can bring you happiness (i think it's like that). It's a movie that i would recommend. I feel so happy after watching it. Luckily, she enjoyed the movie too.

After that, we rushed home. She's going to get scolded by her parents. I'm afraid she will feel scared going up alone, i offered to send her up but she refused. I don't want to force her too..she so cute..the way she sms me. Haa..firstly, she said she's going to sleep with my jacket on, sudden;y she said she has to bath...then sudden'y again, she say my jacket's spoil. Then she say she wanted to buy my jacket. gosh..i was thinking to myself, her sleep would be more important than my jacket. Luckily, i managed to persuaded her to sleep..she must be in her lala land now. I'm feeling so tired too..but i don't want to sleep yet..I want to watch more movies..korean movie!!

Anyone know where can i rent Love at Harvard? Hopefully i'm able to rent it and watched it on friday. I want to watch Daisy too..

Argh!! Childish Childish Childish!! Unreasonable Unreasonable Unreasonable. At that ripe age, he should have been matured enough to know what's logical. Always has got nothing better to do. Thinking that the house will collapse without his darn voice. Always quarrel with my mum over pathetic, stupid and small little things. That's all unnecessary..totally unnecessary. He shoud have know all this, know what's right and wrong. Learn to live and let go, show more concern for his family members. We are human beings, his dearest by right, not live idiots that has gradually become his everyday target. As much as i should pay respect to that 'whoever', i refuse. I respect those who DESERVE to be respected, not respect those whom i SHOULD respect. No such things, if a teacher teaches u well, naturally, he/she deserve ur respect. If a teacher scolds u for no reason, hit you, molest you, do u still respect him/her? Answer is obvious. It's all about who deserve ur respect and not who u should respect. Good to you only when something is needed, bad to you when he's in foul mood. When he's not in good mood, everyone has to become a timid mouse, awaiting orders. I had enough. Cmon, turning 21 this year. Sometimes, i just wished i move to elsewhere with my mum. Just me and my mum. If i do something wrong, i don't mind being scolded, i will admit to my mistakes. I'm not one who shrink responsibilities. I'm not one who won't admit to mistakes. Who doesn' make mistakes anyway.

Since young, i'm not his favourite. I'm always a comparison to his other favourite. As time goes by, comparison gets more and more. I'm used to it. Whenever his favourite do wrong, i'm to be blame. I didn't ask for myself to come out to this world earlier. Who wants to be a bastard. No one, i didn't choose to. I'm just mad now, totally mad. Just because i'm not good at studies, u choose not to give me the opportunity to go Uni. U assume i will quit halfway. U mentioned it when i wanted to go poly, u asked me to go ITE. I passed this course, not with good results, but at least, i got the cert. U didn't praise me..u didn't say anything. If i were to fail, u will bomb me with all ur saliva. Stupid!

I hate my look. I always give people the impression that i'm fierce. The impression that makes people 'repel' from me. It's just me to be like that. I'm not being unfriendly. I dare to say in my whole life, i've never scold a single girl before, other than a few years back when there's this dumb bitch who bullied my bro. Serve her right. I don't scold people easily, unless he/she provokes me or go beyond the line. I don't show my unhappiness out too obviously, but when i'm too quiet, that means something is very wrong with me. Today someones asked me a question, i hate that question. I don't want to answer. If i answer, it's going to be stupid.

Let's start to talk about today. A kind hearted pretty agree to go to the bank with me. So kind of her right? Yes, i'm the bad one cos i actually made her wait 30 mins. I did an act today. Can't really mention it out here cos it's too open to mention it here. Got my pay totally..yay! i'm so happy. I've just spend quite alot, now i'm left that that amount only. Got to use it sparingly already.

Went to office late! cos of the stupid queue inside the bank. Everyone saw my 'injury', then started asking why. Just said it's the masterpiece of my 1st time rollerbalding. Wahaha..rollerblading is fun!! I like it..how i wished i could blade again, but heard that they are going to ice-skate. If can, i really want to join, cos it shall be my 1st time too. Work was good..boss wasn't around ma..of cos it's good. Today i'm supposed to make a card, but they forgot about the content, and so....i can't start. Finally chose something for that someone, but i still find that it wasn't enough, maybe will get summore tml. And yes!!! I managed to get the other her to get the Fila world cup t-shirt. So, there will be korean, argentinian and brazillian. Wahah..world cup fever!!

Today i OTed. Went home feeling exhausted. The external harddisk that i bought from Yilin's uncle can't be used. Somehow, my computer can't detect. i'm sad and disappointed. As if the day isn't ending badly enough until something worse happen. It's all mentioned in the beginning of this post. Sux!!

Today she said she thought of something funny about me. I wondered if it's the 'i would take my wife's place and give birth for her' or not. Or is it something else, she hasn't told me..maybe she will..or maybe she won't..Went home with her today. She's mad!! She wanted to watch superband. She don't want to go watch Daisy tml. I must try and persuade her!!!

Ever since i'm online, everyone is feeling lousy including me. Now i shall smile and influence everyone. Please stay happy!! Cheer up!! SMILE!!! =)

Pain pain!! Ahh...i keep on forgetting there's an injury on my left palm..i keep on pressing/resting my palm accidentaly until the pain warns me off..

I'm going to get a nice photo frame and put the photo that i took with sis the day before. Today i brought camera but didn't use it..hmm...i'm so tired..zzz

Today was fun fun! 1st time i put on the rollerblade shoes and try rollerblading. I was guided by a good teacher (good because i finally walk with that shoes on SLOWLY). It was quite a nice experience. She teach me all she can remember and not all that she knows cos the last time she rollerblade was almost a year ago. Had a few fall with one especially painful. I fell with my palm landing on the hot and hard ground with full impact because i don't want my white 3/4 pants to get dirtied. This time, it's really dumb of me to wear white pants. After rollerblading, it's cycling time! Haha...it's her main purpose of going Pasir Ris Park. We rented a double bicycle and started riding. The feeling was good as the wind that blew of us cool us after we sweated all out during the rollerblading.

We were exhausted after half an hour and decided to return the bike and leave for Tampines Mall for dinner. By then, i'm already feeling restless, super hungry until i feel like vomiting. My left palm is somehow having a burning feeling. Pain and swollen. Now, it has turned abit blue black.

Dinner was at Seoul Garden. I can't eat much today cos i was too hungry, too hungry until i don't feel like eating. She taught me how to eat more during buffet. Take breaks in between and then eat. We had fun eating and chatting away..She was smiling throughout the whole dinner. Gosh..

I was called 'you very girl leh' today plenty of times. Haa, maybe that's my new name. I'm alright with people calling me names as long as they don't really think so, anyway, it's just a joke..i can take jokes..haa..It's just me not to smile sometimes, if i smile, it's either i'm nuts or happy. If not, it's just me. So please don't think i'm unhappy or angry.

Walked the whole bus interchange only to take mrt home instead. On the mrt, she was sleeping, as sweet as a child. Until i woke her up, haa..can see she's very tired. I didn't sleep, but for no reason, my eyes suddenly turned very red. It's super teary and itchy. I insist of sending her to her stop, it's just me to send someone at least to somewhere which i feel is ok. I do that to all my friends. On the way there, something interesting happen. An indian man was standing in front of us, and she noticed a small roach on the man's shirt. She wanted to tell her but i stopped her. Am i bad? Wahaha..anyway, the roach ain't going to eat him up. She keep on looking at the indian man, until the man actually notice she's looking at him. And so, i ask her not to look there. I distracted by asking her to play scissors, paper, stone. I won and yet she's so tempted to that roach on that guy shirt, i think she's afraid the roach might go into that guy shirt. Both of us were laughing ang laughing and yet, that guy keep on looking at her. Gosh, luckily that guy didn't alight at the same stop, if not, i will send her home.

Went home and when i stepped into the kitchen, i was reminded that i still have chicken chop and pork chop to eat. Gosh..i really don't feel like eating, but if i don't Dad's going to scold me. I forced myself to eat, eating them in big mouthful. Gosh, it's a torture to eat sometimes. Now my palm hurt, it wasn't that pain just now..but it's super pain now, i can't press my plam on anything, the pain is unbearable. It's so swollen and hard. Hope she remember to bring that 'sticker' tml.

As promised, the photos taken earlier on (Enjoy!!):

Our Sumptuous Dinner...Yummy

Sis at the Sky Tower

Me inside the Sky Tower

Me and my sis inside the Carlsberg Sky Tower

Sis with her Iced Latte!!

Sis with her prezzies!!

3D Great White Shark!!

Drinking my 'Deep Sea' in Fish and co.

Queueing for the 4D Magix Show

Me and my sis Celebrating her 18th Birthday!

One day to describe today - marvelous..Just the past few days, i was still feeling kinda down and out..but today, i was kinda revived. Woke up feeling lazy and restless..Dragged myself to finish some incomplete errands. I went to Toa Payoh to get it done. I was later than expected. Pushed the time later abit and met up with sis abit later. The consideration of the weather didn't really affect our plans to change our original plans of going to Sentosa. We went to Sentosa in high spirits. As the bus has such a queue, i and sis took cab in. We were kinda lost and didn't actually know where to go and what to do. It's my indecisiveness i suppose. In the end, we went to Underwater World as i suggested. It's been a long time since i last came here. I had no impression of when was the last time i came to Underwater World. Went in, was browsing around, saw quite a number of weird sea creatures but other than that, nothing else interests or amaze me. We barely stayed inside for half an hour. I somehow sense some 'boredness' in sis..even i myself is feeling kinda bored. I was disappointed with the Underwater World. After that, we went out. Just so happen, there's a caretaker feeding turtles inside this pond and Man!!, the TURTLES WERE HUGE!! Gosh, they were eating the cabbages the caretaker gave. Gosh, there are so many of them. Amazing as i thought to myself. Sis was telling me how she spend her night over inside the underwater world. It was so cool, i wished i could but i don't think there's a chance.

Afterwhich, we proceed to the Sentosa 4D Magix. When we reached there, it seems quite empty. I was quite relieved cos i thought we would have to wait. Who knows when i asked the counter staff about the show, she say we have to wait for ard 40 mins to 1 hour. Gosh!! The queue is actually inside. I and my sis hesitated for a while. Since it's her day, i should let her choose. Sis said she don't mind waiting and here we go. There's a show every 20 mins and we waited. Time flies while we were inside. We were chatting and chatting away, time passed faster this way. We took a few shots while queueing too. And yay!! Finally it's our turn. We didn't wait for 40 mins, we waited less than that. By the time we reach the entrance, there's only 3 glasses left (u need the glasses to watch the show). Phew, and so i and my sis collected out glasses and phoo, in we go! Sis suggested taking the photo with our big big glasses on and i thought it was a good idea. But we could only do it after the show as the lights were on as soon as we found a seats for ourselves. The whole show was quite nice, a new experience for me. We had bats, bee flying around us. We even had water sprayed on us! Cool..after the show, i quickly took out the camera and took a shot. Yay!!

Next, we went to the Carlsberg Sky Tower. We sitted down while waiting for the tower to be elevated. Took a few shots and the tower starts to move shortly. Soon, we were high up in the air. Cool, had the most shots there. The scenery was the alright. We came out of the sky tower and we bought a photograph that we took before we enter the sky tower. It was taken by the photographer there and it cost 10 bucks per photo. After the sky tower, sis went to get herself a pure chocolate ice blended at Coffeebean. By then, my wallet is totally empty. ATM in Sentosa were rare. Only 3 atms in Sentosa, gosh..kinda pathetic. Luckily, i'm able to use my NETS.

We left for town after that, wanting to catch the movie. I browse through my GPRS and check out the timings of the movie. All timing sux. Don't have the timing we wanted. Boo.! Cos we wanted to have dinner 1st. But in the end, we decided to skip dinner and watched movie. When we reached cathay. There was already a long queue. Oh dumb, The theater was so big and yet only two counter was opened to serve the queue. Super pathetic. So, i and my sis went for dinner instead..

We went to eat Fish and Co. I suggested it and sis said she never been there before and so i brought her there. She ordered Black Pepper Stingray whereas i ordered Sambal Fish. As for drinks, i asked sis to ordered alcoholic drink but she said her face will turn red if she drink it. So she ordered ice latte whereas i order deep sea (an alcoholic drink that has gin, lime and some other juices mixed in it). When the drinks came, i made sis tried mine and after she took her sip of my drink, she immediately drink her ice latte. Haa..she said is tastes awful. Can understand..haa..i find the drink not bad though. We took several photos and even had one photo of sis posing with her presents i gave her (i made her posed..hee).

After that dinner, we took a train back and we were yawning all the way. Most probably because of the alcoholic drink earlier on. After she went back, she smsed me. She was saying how much i've spend and i must have spend a bomb. Actually i did spend quite alot but i don't mind. Birthday is once a year and i thought, next 2 years i might not be able to celebrate sis. I don't mind spending all that money as long as sis is happy. Seeing her enjoying herself beats anything else. It;s her day, that should be the purpose. Her smile is the best confirmation on all the money spend worthwhile. Luckily she liked the presents i gave her..Someone else played a part in choosing too. I made a card for sis too, hopefully she'll like it too.

She asked me to make a blogskin for her. I have no idea of how am i going to make it. Make it a surprise for her she said. Maybe i'll do what i can best. She'll see it..haa..Tml i'm going to cycle/rollerblade with her. I'm still consider which one to do cos she said she don't want to rollerblade. Hmm..but i want to learn, maybe i'll just try both? Wahaha..she also said she wanted to feast..i'm happy to be able to eat and feast again, i want to become fat! But i'm scared she will have stomachache again. It's terrible to see her like that and i don't know what to do. Tml we shall eat earlier. I must bring water bottle, plaster(in case) and er..what else ah..i have to jot it down here, my brain's not working well, it's kinda dumb now..wrong state recently.

Election results is out today. My area as expected, PAP won. i'm glad, my family's glad. The mayor here has done alot for the people living her. We are glad he won. But i still believed we need to have a few opposition too, hope it's not a one sided war again.

I will post up the photos that i took with sis today soon..check it out..

I hate my bro..i wished i don't have him as my bro. I'm fuming, i'm angry, i'm on fire..yet i can't go anything to him. Father's on his side. Biased as always. He's always right, just because he's cleverer. He can take my stuff, he can touched my things, yet i can never touch anything of his. He's acting as if he's the master of the house. Ever heard of a younger bro calling the older bro by names which are deemed as vulgarities or words that are just not right? It's been a long time since he called me 'kor'. My recent names are idiot, fucker, OI..nice names he gave me but shit him. I won't care abt him..he don't deserve my attention. Shit him..darn him..Let me find out he touched my guitar, i make sure he's going to pay for it. I can't stand the way he treat my parents, especially my mum..i can't stand the way he treat his gf. I don't care the way he treats me, if he's not going to treat me like his bro, then i don't mind not having him as my bro. Who cares...

I don't know how to put it, but today i got this weird feeling..i just don't feel like going to work. I got this feeling that i've never felt before. I supposed this feeling is because of what happen yesterday. But i told myself, i shouldn't get too affected by it or rather NOT to get affected by it. And so, the feeling eventually went off. I think of happier things, that automatically make my day kinda alright at the start. Luckily, nothing's happening.

Today was very sucky, my 'still alright' day was RUINED by that kuku again. He simply just spoils my whole day, my mood at work. Early morning he heard my sms ringtone and started to observe me, i hate it! Sadly, ZiQin's leaving. Though she's a quiet girl, and i seldom talked to her, but the impression she gave me was a good one. She's steady and quite a nice girl. I suppose after she leaves, Yilin will be leaving soon, and soon, Melissa and then Shirley. By then, i'll be alone..as in, it's never the same. So much so that being with the 4 of them just make the days different. When i heard they mentioning the dates they want to leave, my heart kinda sank. I felt heavy but i can't say and don't know what to say. Still, i'm glad to have known the 4 of them.

After lunch, the worst part same. I made another huge mistake. A damn stupid one. I really don't know what am i doing or thinking, how could i stick the wrong sticker on the whole stack on applications AGAIN!!! Gosh..i panicked, and then starts to make amends. The stickers pasted was remove and i covered it with another big piece of paper to ensure no one sees it and luckily, no one did. After that, i discussed with Shirley and Melissa as to where will we be going. Supposedly, we wanted to watch movie called 'Daisy'. But since Melissa's not interested, i also don't want to go even though Melissa say it's ok. I don't want Melissa to waste her money on movie she's not interested in, it'll be wasting her money. So i suggested going shopping. I wanted to buy a jacket, Don and i has always been wanting to get one, but we til now still hasn't get any yet. I asked Melissa and Shirley, Shirley asked me to ask Melissa...Melissa asked me to ask Shirley. At one point i don't feeling like going out again..I felt cold and hot time and time again. This feeling is not good. In the end, we decided on Suntec.

Went Suntec and started walking around. This is the 1st time i went out with the presence of Melissa. She's quite out-going and cool. Friendly a girl and quite nice to talk to. She certainly can click very well with Shirley. Both of them makes great friends. There's plenty of places we wanted to go, actually not plenty, only 2. We went Nike Shop, then Adidas shop and then World of sport. I'm searching for my jacket. In the end, i bought the NIKE jacket for 99 bucks. I like it very much, it was the nicest jacket i've seen so far for GUYS. Actually, i wanted to let Shirley buy it if she wants buy i think she finds the size not right. And so, i bought it. Some may say it's 99 bucks, so ex. It may be a little ex but i rather put in that lil bit more of money and buy something that i really like. I'm sorry that i bought the jacket without u Don. I think u'll only buy it after ur operation right? After that, we went to eat. While eating, we were discussing to watch the movie or not but Stubborn Melissa don't want. Gosh, she's as firm as an ox, hard to persuade or convince her. I asked my cousin to buy 2 tix for us only to find out we won't be able to make it on time. I tried calling him back but he didn't pick up. While walking to towards the bus stop, i started to feel nauseous. As i already got that headache, it smiply just make it worse. I can't talk for i know if i talked, i'll vomit for sure. I stand there like an idiot waiting for myself to feel better while waiting for the bus. Shirley's also not feeling well on her stomach. If i knew that was going to happen, i would not have suggested eating. Dumb me, i should have known better. While on the bus, Melissa told me Shirley's feeling nauseous too. I supposed it must be the chicken. I feel damn terrible with that chicken. I hope i didn't affected them when i was there, being quiet, trying to make myself better, for i know if i talked, i'll vomit..

Tml i'm going out with sis, hope my lousy mood won't affect her and i shall enjoy myself to the fullest. Meanwhile, take care u two girls (Mel and Shirley)

As much as i don't feel like blogging. I do see the need to blog now..Mainly because it's my sis birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIS!! MAY ALL YOUR BIRTHDAY WISHES COME TRUE..

I actually wanetd to curse one person today, but now, let's make it 2. 1st thing 1st, there's this kuku person in my office who's making me fed up. He seems to start picking on me. Asking me questions when this person don't even know what's going on. Gosh..Secondly was my 'beloved' bro. He has done some 'art' to my guitar i supposed and now, my wife is abit out of tune. If it's really going to spoil, i'll surely make him pay. This guitar of mine (wife) is certainly precious to me. I really don't know what to do if it's really spoil and i'll be totally devastated. Haiz..i know cursing them ain't going to help me, so let's just forget it. I'm not in the mood to do such things..live and let go? well..maybe..

I mention today's bad earlier on. as usual, only 2 person will know..one is my sis, one is Don. Both has great listening ears but sadly, i don't wish to divulge anything. This blog is too open to the public, which sets a certain level of restriction for me. I've decided not to let anyone know this blog anymore. Had the intention of having it changed (as in the address), but i have no reasons to do it, moreover, i've have friends who still reads my blog..People always said Actions speaks louder than words. Today i witnessed the opposite.

After reading someone's blog, i'm deeply touched. I regretted. I don't know what to do or say. We are still friends. No one decides our friendship, it's only between u and me. U actually blogged out my thoughts, u can see through me, i say i'm not affected, u saw through me. Now i understand what u truely mean and i shall move on. Pointless to get affected, let's imagine i don't know anything, this wouldn't be happening, isn't it? But I don't see the need to do any changes to anything at this point of time. Things are not worse, or rather not even bad at all. I'm fine..Thanks sis and Don. Thank you too. I don't want to lose a friend like you, not in this manner, it's unfair to both of us..we did nothing wrong..we don't deserve what we are going through now..

I don't like today...Today's bad...

Sorry sis..kor shall cya on Saturday..take care~~~

Ahh...Smokers! I hate smokers..i hate them...i curse them...i want to crush them!!! By saying that, i'm only refering to INCONSIDERATE smokers - smokers who smoke without considering the public and ignore the response the public might give..I was going home today and there's still old uncle who came out of the lift. On his old, wrinkled and yellowed left hand held a stick of pathetic, ugly looking and super smelly cigarette. Something which can caused DEATH. He just came out of a small compartment call lift where there's a sign displaying "NO SMOKING....FINE $500". Obviously such people look more at their cigarette to see whether how more puffs they can go with that stick they are holding rather that the pathetic, useless and tiny sign which won't even get their attention.I went in and choked on the smoke which is invading and polluting the whole of the compartment. I felt like dying inside. That few seconds from the 1st storey to the 11th storey felt like donkey years when i was inside. I can't wait to break open that stupid door and get some i called 'FRESH AIR'. Such inconsiderate people should get a taste of what is it like to get choked on something. As an asthmatic peron, i've always hated such people. For their few puffs can makle my life and LUNGS difficult. Last years attack made me suffered for near 1 year. I don't wish to die as a passive smoker. Darn..Cursing them seems to be the only thing i can do..so..i so bad right? U think so? Then u must be one of them..hymp!

Let's starts today from lunchtime. Lunch was supposed to be the cup noodles that the few of us bought yesterday. But it turns out that we bought outside food instead on savouring on the cup noodles. We bought Nasi Lemak and bring back to dine. Sitting on the floor and eating at the same time make us look like some labourers making their short lunch break over small chit chat. But seeing our other colleagues lunch make our own lunch taste super bland. I had a hard time finishing it and before i could really finish it, we went to buy what they were eating - Mee Goreng. Yummy..It turns out to be super delicious..too bad Shirley can't take food that's too spicy..and so, Yilin and i finished up the whole packet only to find our own stomach feeling abit weird. Nevertheless, it was a sastifying lunch.

Work today was super sian. I really really feel like sleeping. I almost doze off time and tme again. I just feel super sleepy when i'm facing those applications. Suddenly, something woke me up - Mel has decided not to go watch movie..ARGH!!! *Bish* *piak* *box* Actually i think Shirley also didn't wanted to go, but lucky she agreed to go, which make me feels abit bad because she did mention that Either Mel or both of them were tired. I rushed my work before leaving the office.

Reached Plaza Singapura..Walked to the theater only to find no nice movie..I'm being named indecisive..wahaha..which actually i'm not..or maybe i am..haha..Shirley's shld be the one..not me!! Wahaha..woman are weird creatures who can't make up their mind..not all's like that..Oops Shirley, i didn't say u were wor (If you are reading this). Wahaha..Then we rushed to Cineleisure, trying to catch 'Daisy". Just as we thought we were late for that show and was waiting for the lift, someone approached Shirley..Of cos is approached her lah, can't be me cos i'm NOT a gay like what the girls claim. They asked if we wanted the free movie tix from them and after much thought we decided to take it. The show is called 'when the stranger calls'. Never heard before of the movie, we hesitated a while before deciding to give it a shot.

As it's free seating, we found ourselves seats at the back. A nice view from where we are sited. As the show starts, Shirley has some questions in mind i bet, she keep on saying it's a horror show and i only found out after the movie that to her horror show means any shows that is not korean romance/love/comedy is a horrow show. Haa..now back to the movie, it was not bad. Not a horror movie but more of thriller/suspense. This movie is boring at the start but it gets u abit out of ur seat as it gets to the climax. After the movie, i was freezing and i needed a toilet to release. This movie theater is one that i've never visited before. Everything seems new at that place cos i always went to Plaza Singapura for my movies.

After movie, i was dinner cum supper. We ate at a open coffeeshop (well, so called). Ordered carrot cake and char kway tiao. Then i also ordered StingRay for Shirley. Wahh, in the end, she seem to eat only abit of everything, actually not everything, she ate alot of the carrot cake. Haa..gosh, i had to eat up the rest, anyway, her stomach's not feeling good. Takke good care, no more food for u after 8pm next time. I'll take note..Wahaha..u shall watch me eat after 8pm in future..

Eyes feeling pain..my lungs are still suffering from the smoke just now..hope i won't suffocate later..

The more i listen to the Canon Rock, i just love it more and more. I'm more than determined to learn it, i must master it..Hone up my guitar skills, train up my lazy last finger and play that song out...

I suddenly got so many things to say..things that i wanted to say out..but don't want anyone to know..maybe a few. I had this mixed feelings right now..i want to confine..i want to pour out..but who really understand? Maybe a few, yet again..I have friends who's willing to listen, who's good at consoling, who knows me well, who concern and cares for me..yet, some things just can't go beyond that line, cos it gets too personal and will show the weak side of me that i never wanted to show, for i can get weird response. Not many can know the inside of my heart, for i seldom spell it out. Sometimes, i find friends a better listening ears than my mum. I don't know what's wrong. Everything in my life seems to be in place and almost perfect now. But as time goes by, such life will be intruded with incidents, events that came unexpectedly. I like the way it came in, but i dislike the way it spoils the process of my life..it ruined what i deem as the perfect plan for me just before i get enlisted HAPPILY, and i mean HAPPILY.

Found out a recent blog, created by a loving couple (both male) and yes, Colin and Kero (Fake names i supposed). I had lotsa view on it, but i don't really want to spam it down here for it might not be nice. Their braveness is something i admire and hate at the same time. I can't imagine how one can become like that and i shall not dwell for it doesn't really concerns me. I've lotsa things to care and crack my brain on rather than that.

Had a new temp staff sitting just behind me. Poor Yilin have to sit at somewhere else, just as i thought she would be entertained by Candy and me with our nonsense, she has to sit at the other place. Get used to it, girl..This new temp staff seems to know everyone in the office, very friendly and sociable, or maybe a little too sociable..Had lunch with Yilin, Shirley and Ziqin. Melissa is clever enough to skip today for the sake of some activities i guess..Wahaha..Shirley is still limping, aww...so sad..Get well soon girl..

Another frustrating thing - My pay's not here yet!! AHH!!! My mum helped me checked, it's not accounted in yet..same goes for Yilin..i wondered when will it be in..I'm left stranded with basically jeans with empty pockets. I want to fill my pockets with money..lotsa and lotsa money, i love the scent of money, especially the blue one. Sniff sniff...

We planned to watch MI3 tml, sadly Ziqin and Yilin can't make it..That left with me, shirley and the Doubtful Melissa? Wahaha..i wonder if i still need to do OT tml or not. It better be a nice show cos i'm already digging for money in my cupboard.

Work was alright today. Applications forever piling up. I had spend a long time sorting them and checking the app and the checklist to make sure the indenfication number does tally. I hate having to move my head left and right, causing great ache to my neck, i'm going to be a giraffe soon. Ahh...ache ache ache..everyone was leaving work early today, sound so quiet at office..i left office with a heavy mood..don't know what is it, but i can still feel it's something negative.

I rushed to Yew Tee to meet my sister, and get the book 'Da vinci Code' from her. Her bf lend it to me. So happy, i can finally read the book. Who cares even if my bro wouldn't want to lend me, i don't die fromnot reading books from HIM! No big deal, i hate petty, stingy and sissy guy, my bro's almost one of them, or rather, just make him one of them. He sux big time. Always act as if he owns the house, my room and simply everything.

Exercise!!! The 1st thing i do when i reached home. That has to be an everday thing from now onwards every weekdays. I have to keep fit, maintain a fit body so that i won't die so early..wahaha..of cos not! Excercise really makes one feel refreshed, charged up. A person who's not exercising will generally feel tired easily and weaker. I must build up everything in my body, muscles, immunity, and er..brain? I'm kinda forgetful nowadays.

I feel so tired now..yawn..oops..did i just say exercise makes one feel charged up? maybe it don't..haa..but still, EXERCISE!

Friday

Work was rather different from other day. I don't mean the job given to me were different..it's just that, my mood and i just don't feel the same as usual. Weird huh..I lended my mp3 player (well, wasn't mine actually..it's thanks to a kind soul that this mp3 player became 'mine') to Candy. She listens to some of the songs that i handpicked for her..as she listens, she laughs..and to think that the 3 songs i ask her to listen were slow soft rock music that's actually relaxing. I had lotsa feelings and emotions evoked out while listening to all this 3 songs. If u guys want the song, get from me personally. And back to Candy, she was laughing and laughing..non stop..!! Gosh..her laughter just make u laugh with her..haa!

Worked OT and rushed home afterwards..That night i was too tired...fall alseep right after watching the tv..zzz..i always failed to stay up late on friday night..maybe because it's the day working day of the week and i just want to sleep...like a pig..

Saturday

Today i practically rotted at home..Stomach wasn't really feeling good. This has been happening for weeks..i don't know what caused it..it has its ups and downs..i'm kinda hard-up so i can only self medicate myself..Faced the computer for the whole day..trying to do up the album cover...i'm running out of ideas already..argh..help..if u guyd have any ideas, do let me know..i'm starting to find photoshop a wonderful programs because it can actually create wonders..to a certain extent and yes, i'm still consider noob when it comes to exploring and discovering some of the most important features..i really need a crash course on this one..

Later that day, went to had dinner with Don before heading to Jon's house for soccer match. Gosh, it was a disappointing soccer match. By the time we reached Jon's house, Man Utd were already 1-0 down..luckily, my colleague went online and i starting chatting instead of watching the disappointing match. My friends who continued watching the match were further disappointed by the way Man Utd played..In the end, our fav team lost 3-0, handing the title to the worst rivals. Oh gosh, insulting!! Humilation!! To think that they took the title in front of Man Utd players and fans..Gosh..Sad say for all Man Utd supporters..same goes to me too..

After the match, the few of us chatted. It's been a long time since we have been together like that. Times like that will always be remembered, cherished and we long for more of such moments. Jon's leaving for Taiwan soon, life's without him is certainly different, well, even though not that much. He's going there for training for 3 weeks, let's hope life will be quite ok for him over there and hope to see him soon..

Sunday

Woke up receiving news that the gathering with some of my ex classmates has been postpone. Most of them are busy. Well, each has their own work to do, some serving NS, it's really hard to get all or rather most of us together now. Nevertheless, i still managed to meet Mildred and we went to walk around Suntec cos i was looking for something. When it comes to buying apparels, i got this thinking that girls will always have a better taste and opinions, not because they tend to be more fussy (or maybe yes..haa), but because they look into more details it comes to such things as compared to a guy who will just say 'it's nice, buy lah buy lah'..Moreover, the stuff i'm buying is for someone who's quite like Mildred..So i feel that it's best if i bring her along. We went around Suntec, went to several shops and combed around, in the end i shortlisted two. Hmm...i'm still thinking hard..i need days to think..think think think..

Afterwhich we went to Plaza Singapura. Down there, we had Ajisen for dinner. As always i would ordered the Volcano Ramen..that will be the only reman i'll eat..i want to burn my stomach, spit out fire..blah blah blah..haa..k, i'm starting to go out of point. The ramen taste very salty as usual, i'm wondering why does it always taste so salty, or is it just me who's finding the ramen salty..Luckily, Mildred thinks that it's salty too, well, nothing's wrong with my taste buds and tongue. Jusr before we went left for home, we went to this Fila Shop to browse for some apparels, i was browsing at some jackets and just as i turn back, suddenly appeared in front of me..oh gosh, i had a shock of my life. I actually saw my colleague..i was stunned for no reason for quite some time before we started talking a while before we left..oh gosh, don't know why, i can feel that shock..as if i saw a ghost, but obviously she's not..haa..she's a nice colleague..

Mildred gave me a guitar model what she bought from Sabah..Nice of her i would say and i appreciated it..Thanks alot Mildred if you are reading this..Thanks!

I'm now playing maple like mad, trying to rush for the 3rd job..gogogogo....

Today is such a wonderful day. It's especially wonderful because days before today wasn't really good, which makes today the only good day of the week so far. Today, i've know more colleagues, which is good news..haha..the more friends u have in the office, the less bored u will feel. Work today has been quite alright..unlike Monday and Tuesday. During both days, my colleague, Yoon Foong wasn't around, that caused much stress on me and Candy. I did OT for these two days, went home shacked, mood wasn't really good then, it was further worsen by some other things too..

Yesterday, i managed to finish my work and went out wth Don. We went to eat dinner 1st at Wisma..We ate Teppan-Yaki..it's been so long since i last ate that..cos it seems like such Teppan-Yaki outlet are hard to find already. But it's a disappointing meal i would say..It's doesn't taste as nice as before, maybe that explains the rareness of the outlets. after the meal, we went around shopping before heading to Paradiz Centre for a few game of pool. Although this time round, i lost again, but i felt that i'm more accurate and improved already. I didn't regret buying the cue stick and i'm just loving the game more and more.

Today supposely meeting Don but end up going home. Was just plain too lazy. Hmm...anyway, today ilm in a good mood..hopefully, tml i'll be happier..

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much, you just want to pck them from your dreams and hug them for real.
When the door of happiness closes, another opens.
But often, we look so long at the closed door, we don't see the one which has been opened to us.
Don't go for the looks, they can deceive.
Don't go for the wealth, it can fade away.
Go for someone who makes you smile because a smile can make a dark day bright.
Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go.
Be who you want to be because you have only one life and one chance to do the things you want to do.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past.
You can't forward until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
Live your life so that at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.
Don't count the years -- count the memories.
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Recently, i don't know what's wrong with my tummy. It's not in its normal condition. Ever since monday all the way until wednesday, i feel something wierd inside my stomach. It's not pain, just easy, as if someone is rubbing my stomach from the inside. All the way until Friday, things got worse. I woke up early today because of my stomach. I was in great pain. Dragged myself to the toilet, bombed the toilet while sleeping..wahaha, that's how tired i am. Then went for work. Met up with Yoon Foong for Breakfast today, thinking that Candy might be late, instead, Candy appears to be the earliest there, and i'm the latest. As my stomach ain't feeling that well, i ordered the fillet burger meal whereas Yoon foong ordered hotcakes and Candy ordered BIG breakfast. This is the 1st time i've seen Candy eating sooo much during breakfast as she always claims that she's fat and can't eat much during this hour of time. Surprisingly, Yoong Foong also finished her breakfast. This is the 1st time i've seen her finished a single meal. I guess i'm the lousiest today.

Went to office, still feeling uneasy. My fillet burger is still left there untouched. By the time lunctime is reached, we went for lunch. Today's lunch will be abit special cos one of my colleague is leaving. It's her last day today. We went around the fastfood restaurant nearby and to our surprise, ALL fastfood restaurant were filled with students. I wondered what occasion it is, maybe it's just some flag day thingy. That forced us to change our dining venue to a restaurant of higher class - Delifrance. In case u don't know, i brought i fillet burger which i brought since morning along with me. In the end, i ended up ordering chicken wings and waffle ice cream for my lunch, and Candy's leftover fish and chips. My fillet burger was left untouched. Joyce, the colleague who's leaving after today, treated us to this meal. Thanks alot Joyce.

Back to office, this is the 1st time i reached office so late after lunchtime. By right, we should be back to office by 1pm, but today, we reached the office at 1:40pm. Well, Yoon Foong said there's some explaining to do with the boss, when we reached back, WAH!!, Boss was later than us..haha..phew..By the time i reached back to the office, i sudden'y feel very wierd. Just that this feeling that the world is against me, the feeling that i'm useless because i'm just now able to do certain things. But like most people said, time heals. In between the process, we went out to take a photoshoot. Today is another day of the month where the company will hold a special event. Colour as theme will be named and today's colour is green and yellow. That's also explain why i'm wearing green on this very day and why our office is go 'green' today. In the end, our department won because i guess we had the most number of people wearing green. Went back, did my work and until it was 5:30pm. It's birthday celebration for those colleague who has their birthdays falling on the month of March. 5 of them in total and they are all GIRLS! As usual, birthday song were sang, birthday cake were cut, candles were blown, wishes were made. It's game time. This is a game that i;ve never play before. Each person is suppose to write ur name on a sticker paper which is provided of cause, then we stick on behind us on our shirt. Then everyone will start writing positive stuff abt how he/she feel abt the person. And so, the room suddenly became messy, each and everyone of us were busy writing on each other's back. It was quite fun, and one more thing, we were not supposed to see what's written abt. After everything finished, we will read out one most suitable words listed from that pad aloud to everyone on our left. For mine, it was generous. I don't know why this word initially until i know who wrote it and eventually know why. Not gonna say it anyway. Quite fun too..

Today did OT and stayed in the office the longest so far ever since i worked in that company since late March.
As i'm still not feeling that well, i decided not to go Don's house.

Yesterday, i and Don went to Suntec to bought some chocolates for someone. Then we went around looking, window shopping. I'm still in dilemna of what to buy for someone. Argh! Afterwhich, we went to play pool. Brought my cue stick along and played with Don for almost an hour. I thnik i;ve improved abit with the help from the book which i brorrowed a few weeks ago. I'm determined to improve more and hopefully playing it well.

Tml's sat..i suppose i'll be dying my hait..mud colour..hmm..nice? Don't know..will post pictures for u to judge..

Friday

Went Don's house and overnight. Woke up in the morning feeling lazy. Very luckily, it's a Friday. A public holiday. Long weekend we have..and yea, we had fun. We jammed, played PS 2 and jammed again all the way until night. As time passed, we feel more and more lazy and sian. Just when Gav prepared to go home, we suggested playing Mahjong. And so, we dragged the relunctant Jonathan to join us at Don's house. We watched finish the drama show before started on the Mahjong. Now comes the funny part, after playing 4 games, suddenly, we realised that we are short one 4 tiles!! Oh gosh, to think that we still can play 4 games of mahjong without realising the missing tiles. Well, all thanks to that Sickly and sleepy Jon. He has been piling and arranging his tiles with shortage. Pro. So, we restart the whole mahjong session and play til anyone of us become bankrupt 1st. We used Chips instead of money cos we don't really Gamble (WOOPS). And yea, Gavian lost! Phew..but this time round, the mahjong session wasn't really fun, i got tired of it, simply because there were too many doubts on this game, all four of us were still too noob to know the rules of the game. After the game, i went home and watch another stupid match by Man Utd..They shall go through this season with only a Carling Cup Trophy. Haiz..

Saturday

We went town on this day! I wanted to search for something to get for someone. Cracking my brains as hard as i could. Darn, i'm bad as buying stuff. I sux at such things. Opinions from my friends didn't help release that 'burden' much simply because i'm just too indecisive. We went Taka shop, found amd asked the price of the PUMA belt i wanted to buy, went to a few sports shop in that vicinity too. After that, we went to HMV. Wow, i had always wanted to listen song by DA PUMP (in case u don't know, it's a korean band, don't really know what genre though). So, i went to look at the albums, gosh..the album actually cost between S$70-80 bucks. And that one ALBUM! Which means one song cost around S$7. Well, actually it's expected because it's directly imported from Korea and no other music shop sell em'.

And YEA, i bought my pool cue stick already. Shall post pictures of it soon. I quite like it even though i haven officially own it. I shall learn and try to master Pool. Alot of people have this impression that people who play pools are those Ah Bengs and Ah lians. Well, i can't blame that for that impression because it's just these kinda people who makes this hobby and that kinda place so complicated. To me, i'm just playing because i like it as a hobby. It's fun to play with your friends too.

After that, we went watching movie. I had wanted to watch Ice Age 2 but received objection. So, we watched Firewall instead. It's quite a nice show. I'll give it 4/5. After movie, everyone is like so dead and quiet. I guess we were tired. Went home, chiong my maple and slept til Sunday.

Today

Rotted at home. started coming down with the flu. Must be kena from Jonathan. Shared the glass of water with him on Friday. Oh gosh..Argh! Finally, i'm level 63 in Maple. I can't wait for lvl 70! I went to Lot 1 with Don not long ago to rent some books on Mahjong, Pool and Bowling. My interest in bowling is back. Ever since i stopped playing with my cousin, i've never touch bowling again til last thursday. Hmm, shall go play bowling again one day. Now, i'm like a clown with my nose super red. sneezing and sneezing.Argh..irritating..i'm feeling weak..

Today was a great great day. Why? Because it's the 1st time i went out spending and playing with my colleagues and their beloved ones. I went out with my 'Big jie jie and Small jie jie', Noy and Joyce. Small jie jie brought her boyfriend along whereas Noy brought her family along. I and Joyce brought our friend/s along too. I would say it's really great today and i enjoyed every single bit and moment of today.

Started the day quite well and happily. Today is the 1st time i ate my lunch 'takeaway'. 1st time i ate at the pantry area. The reason why is because as we were going out today, and the credit cards applications are piling huge, we have to sacrifice some of our lunchtime and do our work. The applications and getting hell lot and lot day by day. Nevertheless, we still tried our best completing them today. Times flies and it's finally 7pm. Knock-off time, work was incomplete but still, we managed to finish a big chunk of it. Great. My mistakea at work are getting lesser but still, careless, which means it could actually be prevented. Hm..i shall be more careful.


After work, a few of my colleagues and i went for dinner. Then we proceed to SPANS (it's a country club). A small country club i would say. Supposedly, we were supposed to go Marina Square but then the bowling alley was fully booked from 6pm tp 10pm/ I would considered that lucky as SPANS's bowling alley was much cheaper. Even though the place aren't that spacious and big as the ones found at Cathy or Marina Square, it's enough to give all of the fun and enjoyment we needed. I started off the game quite ok until my friend arrived. This Don is super pro, for the bith games he played, he's topped the chart whereas my best came only for the last game Same for Gavian too. Our fun was further 'enhanced' by Noy's two cute little daughters. Seeing kids like that always make me feel happy, eager and lotsa emotions going through my mind. Only my very friends will know what i'm talking about i suppose.

Now, i'm at Don's house and Me and Gav's staying overnight at his house. Now Gav is dead asleep and i shall go bathe now..cya..will update more

Sunday

Went gym. It's the 1st time since dunno how many months. Finally, once again, i'm stepping into the once so familiar gym at Choa Chu Kang Stadium. Changed and as usual, i'll so weigh myself, checking if i'm putting any weight as i've been expecting. I still maintained the same weight as before. Well, i can only say that's something still good, at least i didn't lose weight. *Choi* Started off with the 1st station - Chin-Up. Gosh, i lost my fitness. Used to be able to do 8 chin-up, now i could barely do 4. I'm getting weaker, i shall exercise more regularly now. Find Don's method of training biceps quite effective, i'll go on to tell u why later on.

Monday

Work today was simply terrible. I did something very stupid today, which caused some misunderstanding between me and my colleagues. I've said things that don't really sounds that nice. It in turned caused some misunderstanding. Felt really bad about it, but luckily, my colleague is understanding, i really hope she didn't hold it against me. Sometimes, it's just me to talk without using my precious brain. Dumb! simply just dumb..A heavy lesson learnt, and realise an idiotic part of me. Don't worry, i'm getting rid it off..

Tuesday

As usual, i keep on yawning and feel like dozing off at work. Nth much on this day.

Wednesday

Today was one of the worst day of work. I felt so tired than i keep yawning and yawning. I even feel like sleeping, i'm totally not focusing at work today. I even make a few mistakes. ARGH! I hate myself. Luckily, i talked to my 'sister' to keep myself awake. She's a remedy for lotsa problem i faced at work. Glad to have such a 'sister'. Why i called her 'sister' is because of how she told me abt her story whereas i told her mine. That's how it happens. Today we discussed as to where will we be heading to after work tomorrow, cos our original plan was ruined because the original place we were supposed to be going to will be fully booked. So we changed our venue. We changed it to SPANS. We'll be playing bowling. I managed to get Don and Gav to go with me. ope it's all fun tml as i'm going to overnigth at Don's house too..

Feeling tired now..gtg sleep..If not, tml i'll be yawning away again

Well...it's really a bad bad day..1st, i was bored at home, til my brain is going to burst..Staying at home simply bores me..Nothing to do..and so, i drag myself and my brother out. We went to town. I finally went to the PUMa shop at Taka that i've been always wanted to go. Cos i wanted to see if i can find this PUMa belt which i saw in Kuala Lumpur when i went there last year. And guess what, i found it. Hmm, still as nice as ever. I just can't wait to get my hands on it, but i'm totally broke now..so i shall wait for my payday.

After that,both of us went walking around. Argh...going out with my brother simply sux too..He's always pulling that black long face, making me feel so sian also. And so, we went PS thinking of catching a movie..When we reached there, all nice movies were already either sold out or have to wait til 11 plus..it's like an hour more before we can actually watch movie. So we skipped movie and went arcade instead. It's been so long since i get my ears invaded by the booming sounds of those game machines..As usual, i'll top up and play my favourite game - Virtual Striker. Haha..so long never play already, lose abit of skills, but still can manage to win a few challengers. The feeling of winning is just shiok..Just when i was about to go home, i received a news which i deemed to be bad - i'm going to get enlisted on 21st July!! Argh!! Shit man..I thought i won't get enlisted so early but there comes that dumb letter.

But i'm glad for alot of things:

1.At least it's not under PES A or B
2.At least i get to finish my contract without breaching it
3.At least i get to watch WORLD CUP

Hmm...when i reached home, i started to talk about army life with him. Then he went on to tell me alot of interesting stories about himself. I'll share with u people on msn as it's quite long. ask me if u are interested too. After talking to him, it somehow makes me feel that going Ns isn't that bad after all. It's just that i'll be missing alot of my friends and my family. Hmm..so for now til that very day, i shall spend as much time with them as i could..

It's finally weekend! But it doesn't seems to be as good as my usual working weekday. Haiz..weekend, how everyone is wishing for that right? Everyone just can't wait for Friday to come, where they'll be earger welcoming the morning sun of Saturday. Just like everyone else, Saturday is my favourite day. It'a day where i get to meet my friends, play, enjoy my outing etc..lotsa things to do actually. So much so that, my pocket will have a big hole everytime it reaches Sunday night.

Now it's a saturday, yet, it's not much different from any other weekday just before i started working..Ever since i started working, seriously, i dun actually look forward to weekend. Friends would be tired after booking out from camp, some would have their own activities, family would be busy too. Hm...i'm left with the company of my computer. How nice can that be. Ever since i started working, my usage of the computer has dropped drastically. Hmm, that's why i should spend more time with my computer rather than going out. Wahaha..how boring can that be!!!!

I need some entertainment..i dread weekends..i assume the following few weekdends will be worse. With Don going on operation and need to rest at home. Hmm...Weekend please don't come. Maybe i can ask some of my colleagues out..wahaha..it'll be nice as most of them are girls..

Yesterday went home with my colleagues, had a talk with them..found out more abt them..nice people they are indeed. Glad to be able to work. Ahh.!! Farhan received his Letter..He's going to get enlisted at June 10. I seriously hope i won't received that kinda letter anywhere soon. I don't want to go army. I want to work and enjoy..

Yesterday Don came and have lunch with me. Hahah..so good of him right? Yes..he certainly is. although lunch time is short, it's enough. I must say this is the time where i actually cherished every minutes i have. Haha..Had lunch before walking around and he's on his way home after that..Can't wait for Monday now..

Work this week has been kind of weird. Has it ups and its downs. As always, i'm still making mistakes at work. Nevertheless, the always forgiving colleagues is always there for me. Finally, my Maple main character has levelled up. It has motivated me further. I want to reach 3rd job as soon as possible. I'll get always to train with my friends - Don, Jo, Pei shan etc etc..well, that's the only fun part of Maple now. It;s soooooooo bored to play alone. I'm still in the progress of making my new blogskin. It's a totaly new blogskin that i made myself. But it'll take some time.

Dunno why, nowadays, everytime i reach home from work, the 1st thing i would touch is my guitar, Maybe under the influence of Don's Mp3 player (thanks him for lending me his mp3 players..muacks) wahah..Now i've a few songs in mind, i'm going to master them and some even sing while playing. Sounds abit impossible huh..don't worry..practice makes perfect..when there's a will, there's a way..how true can that be..

Today i went to the bank and submitted my damaged ATM card. What a Day.! Queue was super long..but no choice, i've have to wait. Cos that's the only time i could go and get a new Atm. Before i go work and after i finished work, the bank would be closed, so the only time left is lunchtime..sadly..It east into my lunch time..nevertheless, i still managed to find time and had lunch. It's the 1st time i'm having lunch with my 'lunching' colleagues. Finally, it's my turn. Gosh, had to pay 5 bucks for the replacement for the damaged ATM card. Haiz..all because of that stupid wallet, causing much bending to my ATM card, making cracks all over it. Now, i shall be wiser and put it in a more appropiate place.

Talking about such matters..Yesterday i was talking to Don about what i've wondered. Cos nowadays, internet banking and tranferring of funds has been so common. All i need to do tot transfer money to my friends is just by getting his account number and just transfer money from my account to his. But (CHOI CHOICHOI), let's say i entered the wrong number (maybe becos i was blind at that point of time or maybe he accidentally read 7 as 1), the money would be pocketed into someone else's account. GOSH! That'll make me panic enuff and make my heartbeat so fast like train. In such cases, i wonder what should i actualy do. So far, i've not seen or heard cases like that but i'm sure such things does happen. And when it happens, will the bank help u even though u have your friend as witness. Hm..i dare not even think of it. Imagine it's a big transaction - one that's enuff to buy u an MP3 player..wow..cool..the one who 'accidentally' got the money just becos some blind people accidentally put it into his acc must be over the clouds upon seeing the cash. He must have had believed that money does drops from the sky right?

I think that if the cash's not used, maybe there's still chance of retrieving the money back..maybe police report will be necessary. But..i mean BUT what if the person has used the cash, he could claim that he didn't realise the sudden increase in his amount of money in his account. In such situation, no one;s to be blame but the person who doing the transferring of the money. Especially, if it's between friends. I would surely not know what to do if i'm in that kind of situation. Money VS Friends..Tough huh..Well, people always say, money hurts reltionship - i agree it to a certain extent. I've seen how money has strained relationship, and realised that it's so so true. That's why til now, i'm still not that confident of transferring money in that manner..Convenient? YEs, that's for sure..Sale? Perhaps..but risk is there..accidents do happen. I'll prefer handling money in cold hard cash. I could even smell the scent of it, y isn't it better?

*Sniff Sniff*

Work has been alright for the past 3 days..except for the last day maybe. I made hell lotsa mistakes..which yet again makes me feel bad. Those mistakes are quite silly actually. Gonna be abit more careful next week.

Cut a shitty hairstyle on Wednesday. It sucks big time. Some said it just simply not nice, few say i look like small kid, well, i find it 'just ok'..wahaha..Finally met up with Farhan and he was saying how he's juggling 2 jobs right now. At least it's just for a while. Hmm..this is how we are expericing too. Who doesn't needs money. Money don't drops from the sky or gush out from somehwhere like how water is 'spit' out from fountain. Yet, the standards or living has made it almost impossible for teens like us to enjoy life and at the same time, not spending 'much' money. One trendy t-shirt would cost u one day or even one week pay. Gosh..as much i know precious money is, how it is to earn money, i always fail to appreciate it and would use it without thinking giving much thought. I shall get rid of that bad habit and think think think think think before i buy anything.

For now i had a rough idea of how am i going to deal with my 1st pay. Buy some of the things that's from the wishlist and save some, give my parents some, give my friends a treat..hm..wonder how much would i have left by then.

On thursday, work was fine until i spill that darn cup of milo on the table! Gosh! Damn! At the moment of time, fear came. I dunno what kind of fear, i just had this uneasy feeling. Luckily, my colleague, the always happy-go lucky one helped me, as always. She's always willing to help me, with abit of 'nonsense' to calm things down. Her smile and talking to her always makes ur day. I learnt alot from her and would like to learn more. I hope i won't make silly mistakes again. Cos each time i make one, she will have more to do.

Friday was the worse, mistakes after mistakes i made. Giving my colleague more problems. Haiz..feel damn bad! Shall be careful rather then slow this time. Pray!

Finally, Xero4 is back for another short outing yesterday. We went to Queenstown and eat some really nice food. If u guys wanna know where, ask me..i'll give u more details. We ate alot of food. Hor Fun, Guo tie (Fried and steam dumpings) and there's also sweet and sour soup which i skipped. After all that, we ordered another 30 Guo tie. By then, the auntie whom we ordered from are starting to think if we are really mad to be able to finish sooooo much food. We thought we could until the last few piece, we started to have our stomach bloated up. So, we played games and loser shall eat up the dumpings left.. One by one, the dumpings gone and after everything is finished, we were like pregnant man! After that, stupid Jon went back home as he claims that he can't stay up late with us. So, instead, Me, Gavian and Don went to play pool. Yes, Don's the winner again..hmm..i shall train up myself more. After i reached home, it's soccer match. and YES YES YES!! Man Utd won Bolton by 2-1, closing down the gap from stupid Chelsea to only 7 points. Yes, i said ONLY!

After the game, we saw Jon onlien. Haiz..Disappointment..He still online..he still say he needs to sleep because he has to wake up early this morning. Stupid Jon. U better play ur drums. Judgment day is soon..drawing nearer and nearer

Finally i've started work ysterday. It's been two days since i started work as a bank assistant in UOB Pte Ltd. wow..some may think that bank assistant is a position whereby one work in a bank, behind the counter, doing some admin stuff. Er, instead of working in the bank, i'm working at UOB bank office - credit/debit card department. The position 'bank assistant' - some may think that it's tough whereas some may think that's it a slack job. Well, to me, it's a mixture of both i would say. I won't say it's tough, cos it's not tough at all. Doing paperwork, photocopying documents, sorting them out and etc..how tough can that be. The only tough part is sitting on the chair for hours, that make my back and neck ache. Other than that, it's not even tough at all. Just boring i would say. Everyday doing the same thing. Well, still, i'm fine with it. It's not really a slacking job as i'm basically working all along and resting only during lunch time. What makes my working mood better is the collegues that i just knew. They were friendly and very easy-going. I've yet to know alot of people and hope i'll have the chance - cos there are alot of females around and nice to make friends right? (got motive one!! Wahaha). In case you haven't know, in my department, there's only two guys. One is my supervisor, another one is me..The rest are all girls. Cool! Wahaha..

Well,, can expect that as bank is usually/ most of the time a female working environment. Nevertheless, i really enjoyed working there day by day. I'm being put under two female. Both are older than me i think. One mature and pretty looking, whereas the other cute and innocent looking. It's funny being able to work with them. Although they didn't give me any stress, i do pressurize myself. As i'm new to suck job, i tried to do things right, sometimes, i still do make mistakes. But they do not mind at all, that make me feel more bad.

In weeks to come, i think i'll get the hang of it. It's the 1st time i work in an office and have my own working desk. I'm going to decorate my working desk, make it feel more like my own. Like that, i'll have a better mood when working. This office that i'm working in isn't that strict. Employees are allowed to wear casual smart attire. Food can be consumed in the office but of cos u can't be eating all the time. I get unlimited flow of drinks too but i don't drink much cos consuming sweet drinks too much isn't good to your body too.

I'm afraid when the contract is up, i might not be ablt to continue. By then, i think i'll develop some kind of relationship with my collegues. They are really great people, even some i haven't know them yet, i can tell from the way they work and talk. Hm..i just can't wait to know more of them..

Later there's going to be champion league match. Hope i have enough of sleep later and wake up. Hmm..hopefully i won't be yawning my way through tml's work.